❥lovelovelove;

Monday, July 30, 2007

so its down to 16 more days to the freaking EXAMS and yes i just mentioned exams. some peeps have this false conception that poly life's super slacky and its as if we dont need ta mug, but mind you, we still have to undergo that oh-so-freaky period of time twice every sem so it aint much of a difference.

I was just counting down to the mids a few days back and back then, it was 20 but now, 4 days have alr passed and my revision's still not going smoothly. and to think that there's five pathetic modules to cover makes me go gaga. whats more is that all these modules require understanding AND memory work . and now i regret not rei-king myself to improve my memory cus till now, mood is the factor which decides whether i'm productive or not.

sounds nonsensical? i agree.

its time to mug real hard and i'm relly worried for the exams cus as mentioned before, i'm devoting too much time in dance that i dont seem to be focusing on studies. as much as i choose not attend the self practice days till the exams are over, i feel that im being irresponsible. oh well, studies is STILL the first priority. speaking abt dance, we had our first semi-private lesson with melvin on sunday and it went pretty well- i'm loving our new chacha routine and i can't wait for him to finish teaching the entire set. :)

go mel go mel! :D and go darlings!

my life only revolves around friends,family,studies & dance. (:

♥yours truly. 10:38 PM

Friday, July 27, 2007

Priorities

How many times have you stumbled upon situations where everything seems of utmost importance and you just dont know which to priotise? I've came across countless ones i guess and seem to be undergoing one currently too.

I just can't soothen my passion for dance and I don't mean to neglect my studies. But it seems that I've been over-dancing this week that I'm neglecting my school work a lil. Tues was lesson with melvin, wed was auditions, thurs and tmr will be self prac and if semi-private lessons resume this sunday, i'd have allocated 5 days for dance. Imagine having only 2 days left for revision and catching up with school work- how tight can that be?

I seriously need to set my priorities right. C'mon mel, your main purpose of coming to poly is to major in trm & get a good diploma, not dance all day. So no matter how much you love dance, studies should still receive the most attention. And mind you, with just 3 pathetic weeks to the freaking exams.. Bestie agrees that we're devoting too much time in dance too and it should, in one way or another, be minimized. Perhaps we'll go for the tues and sun lessons but will only go for thurs and sat's self practice sessions after exams/ when competitions are near.

Oh well, I'm just hoping that I'll wake up from this beauty sleep soon and start the mugging season. Afterall, there are countless topics to cover for all 5 modules and its really gonna be a torture. I hope that I'll be able to survive till 23rd August without breaking down too cus something tells me that I'll suffer from serious exam stress. Its really like re-taking the horrifying Os once again but this time, its bound to be worse cus some modules aren't even tested before so we won't know how to answer.

Nevertheless, I'll fight through this tough period. I must, I will and I'm determined to. With God's help, nothings impossible. :D

P.S: that doesn't mean that I dont love dancing anymore- my passion for dance will never die! :) Go NPDS!

♥yours truly. 11:50 PM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

i've finally found a nice skin after hours of searching and i'm loving it! :D but my mood hasn't been perfect since the start of the week and i dont know why.. fiery tempers and blasting insides make me cant tolerate even one bit of nonsense.

sometimes i just feel so lost and i've no idea as to how i'm gonna achieve my dreams.

and i'm very sorry.. i just didnt have the mood to confide. :(

my girlfriends havent been in good moods these days too.. sighh. but mel still loves you all. cheer up lovelove! :D

btw, we finished learning rumba's routine ystd and it simply rawks. audition later with richard and the rest at depot road. all the best to all NPDS! :)

♥yours truly. 12:08 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007

Harry Potter was a disaster. There wasn't a clear climax, nor was there as many exciting, captivating and interesting scenes like before. Sad to say, this is considered to be the poorest of the entire series so far so to those who are having thoughts on catching it, i suggest that you spend that 7bucks or more on more useful stuffs.

so projects are finally out of our sight. what's next is to complete tutorials and revision for the dearest exams. shucks*

there's dance tmr. :D i like. <3

& here's a randomly-written poem:

I knew you'd be mine
From the day we met.
Oh things were so fine,
Till the moment I left.

I miss your stares,
I miss your peeps.
I miss your glares,
That surround me when I sleep.

You gave me hope, you gave me courage.
And albeit, you gave me support.

I know I didnt,
I know I couldn't,
Display how much you're wanted.
Cus I know the undesirable consequences,
If our wish was ever granted.

For now,
I just wanna say,
thank you for everything,
cus your love's greatly appreciated.

♥yours truly. 11:40 PM

i just love my girlfriends esp charmaine, audrey & shirley! they make me highh! And to SHIRLEY GOH SHU PING, PLEASE DON'T HUG ME TMR. I WILL SUFFER FROM A SHOCK.!

of course, i love esther, yina & shuxian too. & rach. hehh. lalala :)

labels: mel loves her girlfriends truckloads! :D

♥yours truly. 12:02 AM

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Practice night was great. (: Faiz was there too and we had an advance mini birthday celebration. Even though our dance partners didnt turn up, bestie and I managed to find temporary partners. Bestie paired up with Melvin and I danced with Greg while he waited for yvonne, after which Gino was my part time partner since Ali darl didn't go too. Thanks Gino! :D I relly pitied him cus he had to rotate between Pin and I since both of us were partnerless. LOL. But the 3 hours was good practice :D Danced like there's no tmr and that's what i call intensive dancing! Ha. If only we could stay longer.. My feet are sore and blistered though, thanks to those heels. Nevertheless, I'll always persevere!

To Richard: pleaseeeeee come next week okay. I'm not mad but it really helps with more practises. Tuesdays alone aren't enough and it'll be best if we use Thursdays & Saturdays to do so as well. It's a fact that the oh-so-frightening exams are arriving in 3 weeks time but let's at least practise hard before we go for our break alright? Cheers! :D

Next up: Jive (after exams) I can't wait!

♥yours truly. 2:04 AM

Saturday, July 21, 2007

When Monday's 5pm arrives, I'll be jumping for joy cus its an official end for our five projects for the first sem and we can all free our minds from those freaking reports/presentations/proposals
. I can still recall how grumpy I was upon realising that there were five projects to rush during the June break and now, four are down and we're only left with bmgt. It's also cheery to know that our dearest bmgt is no longer dying and is in the process of being revived. Thumbs up to everyone in TR22 for making it without the help of our tutor aka advisor! But anyway, he has never even bothered to have a serious discussion nor guided us in our project so at the end of the day, it'll be really great if we're able to produce good work. Let's put our heart and soul in completing this last 100 lap of the projects race alright? :)

On a sadder note, we were told that we'll be given the liberty to choose our own timetables for sem 2, which also means that TR 21 and 22 may not remain as what we are now.. I won't say that both classes are very bonded but at least we click well and have alr settled down properly. Many wish that both will stay as what we are, even if one class has got to sacrifice and select the afternoon timetable. It's either this or everyone will be jumbled up and that obviously isn't a very good idea. Most importantly, I wanna be with my dearests! :)

Anyway, we got back our macroecons test 2 and i'll always rmb that its BALANCED budget and not EQUAL budget. It really pains to see that half mark being deducted because of one pathetic word. boo. And we presented our CIP project on wed and IAC today. CIP went pretty well i guess, but our IAC kinda boring as compared to other groups. Oh well, Im just hoping that we can get at least a B for that boring module. sigh- We also expected more for our LMS role play assignment but to our disbelief, the marks didnt reflect our effort. ): What can I say but life's just the way it is- never fair and doesn't always go the way its expected to. Believe it or not, that's life for us.

18/7 was PJ's 8th S.c investiture and till today, I still feel regretful and sad for not attending it or at least, visiting my beloved friends after school ended. I was just so tied down by projects and sometimes, I really wish that I can forget about them all and lead a carefree life. But it so happens that in Poly, every project has this peer evaluation form thingy so we all have to play a part. (: Alright back to inves: even though I wasn't there to support you guys, its nice to hear that everything went well and teachers were really impressed with the 8th. I'm sure that with your capabilities and talent, you'll mould PJ to be an even better college to be in. Thumbs up to 7th- you have been great leaders & I'll always respect you!

P.S: I miss all Pioneers badly, especially SCAPers, councilors and 07s27, 07s13 mates. ): Its been months since we've met and I'm uncertain about when I'll be free to visit pj again. Nevertheless, I still love all!

I almost forgot to mention that we're not competing in August's Lion City Championships anymore cus there isn't grade D or E latin. Instead, there should be another competition coming up either in late sept or early oct in NP itself. Whoots` I'm so gonna practice hard for it and to Rich: pleaseeeee dont ps anymore, or else I'll really torture you all. HAHA. And oh. some of us juniors went to support NPDS in the Sing4Kids charity concert on Tuesday. Well, the concert was kinda boring till Janani & NPDS performed. I've only one phrase to say: they rawked the convention centre! MUCH LOVES*

If the question of whether I had regretted coming to poly or not was asked, I'll tell you a straight no. If I hadn't came to poly, I wouldnt have joined the big NPDS family and known so many babes and hunks who're all so dear! (: Of course, not forgetting my EB8 mates, IS classmates and TRM's 1.2's TR 21 & 22 sweethearts. You guys made my first 3months in NP enjoyable ( not taking into account all projects ) and I LOVE YOU guys! May our remaining 5.5 semesters be fun and enjoyable too.

LOVES!

It's less than a month to the freaking exams, which means that the mugging session's about to start. Dead?

♥yours truly. 12:13 AM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

No matter how deprived of sleep am I, I must still blog. Why, you may ask. Cus its 17th July.

A year ago, a person who was very dear to me left. And we all know that its the final goodbye. Even though its been a year, memories still stay and I'll never forget that very day when mom broke the news to me. Well, it was a usual Monday evening and when I reached home, the house was empty so I presumed that mom and dad were still at work. Then, mom called and asked about the usual stuffs, after which she asked, "Has Dad told you?". Blurred, I said no and that was when blurted, "Grandma passed away in HK this morning at 7.53am. Your uncle could barely make it to the hospital to see her for the last time......"

I guess I was too shocked to tear then and I didn't. I didn't even feel the tears well up. Perhaps I was really taken aback by the sudden news.. You see, she was admitted into the hospital in March after being hit by a stroke and a week later, the doctor said she might not make it and urged all family members to return. I did too, and things began to improve when her condition stabilised after some time, so we thought that she'd be alright. Uncle Henry even sent her to the Old Folk's home upon the doctor's approval. And BANG, tragic struck.

I couldn't accept the fact that she's gone. I couldn't accept the fact that this very kind and dear woman will never again appear in my life. Never. Images of how healthy she looked before her stroke, her pearl white hair and petite figure just flashed past my mind like before.. At 87, she was really a healthy elderly and it really pains to see the countless no. of tubes being inserted into her body and how thin she became..

At night, I walked to the living room where Dad was reading.. With an awkward expression, I looked into his eyes and instantaneously, I broke down. He asked if I missed her and I nodded. I ranted. I ranted about how much I hated myself for not treasuring the times spent with her when she was with us. I regretted talking back each time she showed a little more concern. I regretted making a big fuss over her poor memory and treating her as if shes an outcast. The list goes on.. and I'm not ashamed of hiding my wrongdoings cus I was a bad granddaughter. How could I, a sixteen year old teenager back then, give her those stares and attitude?! Till today, I'm guilty. I really am, and if you let, I'd like God to punish me. I deserve any form of punishment for I know how much the devil inside me costed. I'm sinful.

For countless nights, I teared. It was considered the first time that I'd lost someone, and what's more, someone who was my pillar of support. Someone who took care of me ALONE when my parents flew to SG.. Someone who taught me hakka, someone who taught me how to pray. Someone who treated me as her dearest and best grandchild.

I was just so childish, so princess-like. And I hate myself for all these wrongdoings.. Most of all, I shouldn't have cared only about studies and gone back to HK with my parents for her funeral.. I'm guilty. But regret's not the word now cus things have already passed. But if I had another chance to live, I'll be a better person and most importantly, a great grandchild of yours, grandma.

Although I'm uncertain of how you are now, I'm very sure about one thing, which is that you're safe from all dangers and threats because God is with you. I do believe in life after death, and that Heaven is a place where there's eternity and joy. I hope you're happy in wherever you are now and no matter what, I'd like to tell you that I love you. I love you Grandma, and thanks for everything.. I miss you too..

It's really weird that we human beings do not treasure things and it is only when our beloved ones leave us that we regret.. Perhaps its part of human nature but I really feel that we should change. Treasure what you're having now, for you'll never know what tomorrow will be. Afterall, life's unpredictable.

-The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you-

♥yours truly. 12:40 AM

Sunday, July 15, 2007

i love today cus i feel that i've been productive. well, in the area of dance at least. it was my first time practising in S&G and i'm really glad we went cus the 2.5 hours of dance really gave me a sense of satisfaction. i dont know how others feel but to rich: dont you feel that we've improved? especially in terms of hip action. i won't say that the other parts are better cus they still require practise but I'm glad that at least my hips are a little more flexible than before. HAHA. :D And I haveta thank Darren, Cheryl C & Desmond for correcting us in some areas of cha cus I wouldn't have noticed them if not for your point-outs. I'm also glad that we practised cha today after about a month cus we've been concentrating on rumba lately. I know that I've said this before but I'd like to repeat myself: Rumba Rawks! :D

Anyway, lets fill our stomachs before we go for dance each sat cus in that way, we'll all have energy and I don't think our digestive system will be affected given the fact that we haven't learnt jive yet. Speaking of jive, I've heard that we'll be learning it after the Lion City comps on Aug26! I cant wait but I'm praying that nothing happens to my feet cus jive's really fast and I cant imagine dancing on my 3-inch.

And oh, bestie got her competition outfit today but not me. Gonna pass the cloth to lc's mom's boss to get it tailored and hopefully the final product will look nice. :) Did I mention that we went to Bugis again before heading to s&g? Its our ___ time going there in 2 months! :P Of course, we did a little retail therapy and I'm so broke now. :(

Tmr shall be a home day for me and i need to focus on my studies. If not, the below situation will occur:

In poly...

DANCE>STUDIES,
which is obviously a NONO no matter how much I love dance.

It should be STUDIES>DANCE. :)

But the most ideal situation is still..

At equilibrium,

STUDIES = DANCE
BMGT + CIP + FMM + ITR + MAEC + LMS + IAC = CHA + RUMBA + JIVE + SAMBA

LMAO. I'm so econs and I must be suffering from over-studying of before yesterday's test. And oh, we're lucky that the paper was pretty manageable, except that i wrote Equal budget instead or balanced budget. How nice.

For now, I need beauty sleep BADLY so goodbye.

♥yours truly. 1:07 AM

Saturday, July 14, 2007

lalala we're the FLINSTONES! (:

My LOVES!

I LOVE YOU, TR22 :D :D :D

Esther, you shld be :D that yina & I loves you!! (:

thats our hobby: CAMWHORING! :D

So I'm finally back to revive this almost dying blog after a week. I know I'm blogging less frequently now but I just can't help it cus time just seems so pathetically short. Be prepared for even lesser entries as days past cus I'm expecting the stress level to increase gradually, though its already at i-dont-know-what-percentage now. haha.

Anyway, two of our beloved projects (FMM ITR & LMS) are finally down after we completed our presentations the past few days, the scarier of which was FMM ITR which took place yesterday. Well, I'll call it a good experience cus it's somewhat our first time presenting in a proper way in front of two module leaders, not to forget in formal attire. I have to say that all looked smart in that attire cus we looked like what Tim said, we looked like professional businessmen and businesswomen. hehh. :) Took a couple of class shots and a few with our cliques and I'll upload them in a short while. And oh, I embarrassed myself a little too.. but I guess I managed to make up to it, did I? Nevertheless, I'd still like to thank my group members for being such great team players. To Shirley, Charmaine, Allen & Zhesong: you guys are the best and thanks for putting in so much of effort!

LMS presentation went pretty well too, thanks to all our enthusiastic group members and of course, our all time super-fantastic leader: BRIDGET. To Big Cute: I love your style of working and your efficiency and effectiveness! You rawk! Till today, I still find that my LMS group members are the best, so THUMBS UP to Bridget, Wanqing, Zhiqing & Allen. :) And not forgetting us doing a great job for our LMS activity too. We did have hell loads of fun, right guys?

Dance has been pretty hectic this week cus Melvin taught at a much faster speed in an attempt to impart as many steps to us in the shortest possible time, which is within a lesson. And so, we learnt a more advanced routine where more difficult steps like 'dropping' the female are incorporated. Yea it was scary in the beginning cus our safety were in the guys' hands but after a few tries, it turned out to be kinda fun and I'm loving it! RUMBA JUST RAWK!

On a sadder note, I'm dreading next week cus I guess it'll be darn stressful since CIP & IAC are due next wed and fri, and BMGT's due the following monday. BMGT really kills, especially when our tutor is as slackish as ever. Oh well, like what others always say, poly equals independent learning. I guess you've just proven yourself right.

There's CIP project meeting tmr and I'm also going to hunt for cloths for our competition costumes with bestie. Down to S&G at night to accompany our partners get their shoes and dance prac after that. I can't wait!

Mel loves Rumba~

♥yours truly. 1:19 AM

Friday, July 06, 2007

i've been tagged by derek. :)

Please read the rules first: each player of the game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, u'll need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1) i'm scared of and don't like animals :/

2) i rant to myself when things go wrong.

3) i dont fancy sexy outfits like tubes, tanktops and bikinis.

4) there are two extremes when i dress: 1. big shirt & FBT shorts. 2. nice & presentable outfits

5) i'm only hardworking for a SHORT period of time ):

6) i don't watch the telly.

& i shall hereby put a stop to this quiz. :D

anyway, we finally showed our LMS recorded skit to the class today and it was hilarious, especially bridget and I! so now we're only left with the presentation next week and I hope everything goes well.. to wanqing: get well soon alright, we miss you!

i was writing down the deadlines of the remaining 3 projects and guess what? they're all in JULY and very near each other! CIP's due in a week+'s time, IAC in 2 weeks time and BMGT in 2+ weeks time. and so the nightmare continues..

i seriously hate july. & august too. these are projects & mugging months. now i know why peeps say that 'O'levels is actually nothing.

♥yours truly. 1:00 PM

thats us, NPDS! (: [incomplete]

so i'm finally back to update after a week! the past few days have really been a nightmare for all of us, especially all TRM peeps. why? cus we're rushing to complete our integrated project by 12pm tmr. the deadline was supposed to be on monday but it's pushed back due to the insufficient time. i've been sleeping only at 2+ or 3 these few days and i alr see the dark circles forming & outbreak of pimples. gosh; i really need beauty sleep. but i guess that its sometimes worth it to have late nights cus when you submit your project, the sense of satisfaction is indescribable. (: i felt as if part of a load had been lifted when we dropped our project inside the pigeon hole this afternoon.

and to think that completing one project doesn't equals freedom sucks. here's what's left:

-FMM ITR project presentation next Thurs 12/7

-LMS presentation next Fri 13/7

-CIP PBL by week 14 ( its alr wk 12 now )

-BMGT project by Mon 23/7

-IAC project by _________

& mug for macroecons test 2 which is next friday.

shucks* i can't imagine how things will be like when we are alr so stressed out with one project. i guess i'll really collapse one of these days. help?!

did i mention that our new maec tutor made us come at 9am today when she was actually on MC? how nice eh.

well anyway, dance has been great. :D i'm totally in love with rumba and i can't wait for the extra weekend classes to resume! speaking of rumba, many said that its the dance of love. so cheryl was telling us to love our partners when we do rumba regardless of whether it's real or fake. LOL. anyway, bestie & i should be accompanying our partners to S&G this sat to get their dance shoes and hopefully, we'll be able to allocate some time for self practice in the studio after that. (: i really want to dance rumba well. :D

if only life evolved around friends, family and dance. how nice can that be? as for now, my life = dance.friends.eat.sleep.tutorials.projects.mug.

and it's really boring.

but oh well, life has to go on isn't it?

i'm off!

DANCE is my life, my soul. :)

♥yours truly. 12:27 AM