❥lovelovelove;

Monday, February 26, 2007

sorry is all i can say.. ): i know i've let you down. i know i've disappointed everyone.. may need a retreat. ):

♥yours truly. 8:59 PM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

li lao shi and i (:

qi ying.. loves*

dearest xiaomei! (:

besties for life :)

warning: long post!

six days just wasn't sufficient. those whose minds were made up way before hand would have made their choices easily, but for those whose minds and hearts weren't settled, the decision must have been a tough one. on paper, the choices have and are already made, but i believe that there's still time to turn back. it has absolutely got nothing to do with pj's environment, friends, seniors or whatsoever. rather it is the A level curriculum and syllabus which frightens me. yes, i've gotta admit that for the past one month, i haven't been putting in much effort in my work, but i do listen during lectures and try understanding things. and yet, i find great difficulty in understanding concepts and picking things up. this made me think twice and i'm once again in this huge dilemma of poly or jc?

while my heart has somehow been 'moved', my mom has been telling me how much everyone around me wants me in poly. even siyi jiejie called just now and spoke to me about poly and jc. and when mum was trying to talk some sense in me this morning, she started crying. she didn't want to see me suffer and have no life the next two years. she knows clearly that i'm the type who will go to school even if i'm feverish. unless i'm down with a major sickness, i'll still drag myself to school. things may happen as a result of this stubborn character of mine.. for once, i kept quiet and didn't say anything to counter argue, because for the past week, i thought that i'd made the wrong choice too.. to tell you the truth, the series of posts which was about being determined to strive in As was mere foolishness. foolish in the sense that i actually forced myself to believe that i can do well. i made myself think that i'm able to do it since so many have succeeded, but i totally forgot about my own capabilities and weaknesses. like mr koh has said, i'll suffer in science. my math ain't strong and my sciences aren't much better either. and i don't want to be in arts. i don't like to write! given these circumstances, do you still think that i'm suitable for jc? perhaps poly really is the place for me. perhaps i'm born to not take in that much content and study like a lot. perhaps i've really chosen the wrong path. perhaps i seriously need to appeal after posting results are out.

to those who're reading this, do not be taken aback.. i've realised many things which didn't come across my mind during the selection of institutions and although it's a little late now, i should be appealing as long as trm still has vacancies. so don't be shocked or sad.. like i've said before, it's fortunate and fateful that our paths crossed, and we can still keep in contact after pae- it's not like we're gonna forget each other isn't it? though the time for us to bond may not be long, true friendship lasts a lifetime and will never end.. :)

moving on to yesterday, a few of us went to mr chan's house to visit in the morning. there were supposed to be 11 of us but in the end, only sj lc hui2 xt fang and i went.. saw ex students who were quite a few years older than us there too. and we sure had difficulties in finding his residence. jinying's msg wad block 147 but i saw it as 149 and we went to the wrong block! haha. all thanks to my blur state. sorry guys.. =\ we parted at about 1pm and sj and i rushed down to bishan cos i wanted to have my haircut. after three months, i finally got one and this time, its super layered. i asked for it! [: trained to tiong baru and we walked around that boring t.b.p before heading to li lao shi's house. the both of us reached 1hr+ in advance and we chatted with li lao shi. it sure was nice seeing her after such a long time, and i've gotta declare that I MISS DANCE! ))))): how i miss those days when we stayed back practically everyday to practise for syf. and now it's the juniors' turn. thou tiring, i enjoyed every single dance class cus i just love it to bits! told her that i wanted to continue dance lessons after Os but there doesn't seem to be time.. and she, too said that she had planned to start dance classes but the no. of students were lacking. sadded :( min jy and xiaomei arrived at 6+.. delighted to see them too! (: we then played black jack with lilaoshi and her hubby. he was sooo humorous can. made me and sj laugh like mad. and i won $1++. LOL. qi ying was such a cutie pie; but perhaps i wasn't made to be attached to babies, she cried when i carried her.. boo.

as for today, lc sj hui2 xin derek wl jer hc and i went to mdm peng's house. kailyn and gang were alr there by the time we arrived, and there was a dog as well as a rabbit at her place. yikes! i'm just a coward who is freaken by animals, be it cute or whatsoever.. =x ate at swensens and homed. didn't follow the rest to town cus i wasn't in the mood, and i was dog tired by then. chatted with lotsa peeps about my second thoughts and a conclusion was discussed.. :] no regrets!

smile. cos life's beautiful! :D

♥yours truly. 5:55 PM

Friday, February 23, 2007

boo! have been extremely busy for the past few days- its almost 9 by the time i reach home due to the nearing of orientationTWO.. and i've also been lacking sleep since the start of the year and i can forsee that i'll get panda eyes soon. sobs* i'm also here to announce that i'm officially lagging behind in studies, lagging in the sense that i know absolutely NOTHING? haha thats too exaggerating; i can only say that i understand 20% of chem and i-dunno-how-many-% of math. its worrying that till today, i still catch no ball regarding APGP and i know nuts about summation of series as well. all thanks to summation, i'm lost in MI. they're all interlinked ): rah i need HELP! i must say that i salute those who're good in math cos i seriously find math alien, and here peeps are saying how easy it is. maybe i'm really dumb. but i know that i'll never ever do number related jobs such as accountancy/banking etc in future. i'll DIE of math. bleah*

PAE's ending next week and its gonna be a time for goodbyes again.. i.hate.goodbyes. given my character, i'll definitely tear. )): to all my friends and classmates who're leaving, i'll miss you. it's fateful that our paths crossed and thou we'll not be in the same institution for the next 2 years, ties will stay close and we'll keep in touch. friends for life! OGL camp falls on the last day of PAE and i'm looking forward to it, but at the same time worried. may everything run smoothly! ((:

♥yours truly. 9:28 PM

Monday, February 19, 2007

i can't believe it that after 3months, i actually studied. was waiting for lunch to be ready and i decided to start on my geog notes since a test is due this wed. and golly! it sure reminded me of the exam nites we had during Os. i can vividly rmb how each and every one of us felt on the eve of Os- all panicky and worried-sick. we couldn't believe that the friggin horrifying BIG exams which all the teachers were talking about was about to take place. and due to our slackish attitude throughout sec4, we had to pay the price by doing some last minute mugging. tough as it was, we persevered. there were times when we wanted so much to just let go of everything and fall into a deep, deep sleep, but we knew that if we were to do that, our future would be bleak. the most torturing papers were geog and chem cus we had to memorise till almost all our brain cells died and we persevered even when we couldn't absorb anything. finally, we made it. i really miss the times in secsch and for the past few days, i have been writing testimonials for my close friends to thank them for playing important roles in my life. i miss you guys and our hearts will always stay close.. :))))))

♥yours truly. 9:05 PM

Sunday, February 18, 2007

bel's cousin. cutecute! (: guess faith and her were twins? lol

hello! my name's faith and i'm 4 this year! =)

sweet innocence*

aww.. so cute can. ^^

faith and i! loveher loads! (:

childhood friends. =) i look so dumb. =x

myLOVE. (:

happy chinese new year! (: may luck and prosperity be by your side, and may everything go smoothly in the year of the pig! and happy birthday to hayati darl! you're finally SEVENteen! one more year to being sweetEIGHTEEN!

made lotsa international calls this morning and my cousins fr USA called too. was delighted
to talk to them after kghisdgnkd months! terri jiejie ( my tang sao) is finally expecting; which means that i'll be an aunt this september! promotion of status? lol. congrats hanson kor! mom hurried karen jiejie to get married and... hehe. went visiting shortly after and i was especially happy to see faith! she hasn't changed much since last year and she's as cute and lovely. took some pics of her and i shall upload it later. bel and i agree that she looks like bel's cousin, and she really does i tell you! (:

i was watching the news over dinner a min ago and they spoke about how koreans celebrate cny. upon the mention of the word 'korea', my mind lit up and i got high. you see, i haven't watched ANY kdramas since the start of the year when my mom has alr completed 4. when we brought the 20+ kdramas back to sg, i was sooo excited abt completing each and every one of them. but look at me! i ain't making any progress now. i seem to have drifted away fr the korean world.. ))): sigh. and to think that i wanted to master korean so much since last year, [ i even bought a language package ], everything seems so distant now.. my schedule seems to be packed and Alvls is the goal for these 2 years. nevertheless, my love for koreanstuff hasn't lessened and kimjunghoon is still in my heart! i wish that after these 2years, my passion for korea will still stay. bless me!

♥yours truly. 6:03 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

our reflections.

presenting my close friend.. miss yap liu chin! >.<

boo! i'm so broke now cus i spent $96 on my lenses. couldn't help buying cus they're about to expire, and i won't want to wear my dumb glasses during visiting. so yeah. and i realised something really stupid after removing then- there's a small hole in my right lens! -.- this explains why i've been experiencing blurred vision these days. lol? how on earth did the hole appear when my finger nails are so short? it's really a wonder.. i discarded the pair of lenses, which is a waste of my precious money. hah.

met up with liuchin at 11 and we train-e d to bugis. as i was starving, we ate. lc treated me kfc; thanks girl! who ask you to bet with me that you'll fail your amath huh. see la, gotta spend $6 for it.. haha. walked ard junction and bought my lenses there, after which we headed to bugis street. i'm proud to announce that i've finally bought 2tops! its fortunate that they were of reasonable cost, otherwise i'd really be penniless. =x wanted to get a new bag but none caught my attention. ciauer, i'm still waiting to be brought to the shop which sells cheap and nice bags! heh. =p train-ed back to jp cos i wanted to take a look at the laptops at courts and harvey.. took down a few models and hopefully, dad will get me one asap. wanted to get a new pair of sports shoes too but again, none was attractive and the prices were disgusting! homesweethome at 4pm cus i was asked to return early to help out with new year stuff. but till date, i still haven't done anything much. got scolded AGAIN last nite and i just cant be bothered la. scold all you want, mama and papa, cus i don't give a damn anymore. :D:D:D:D

♥yours truly. 5:14 PM

Friday, February 16, 2007

chiobu xuanhui MEIMEI ! (((:

mel n evelyn. =)))

priscilla and i! (((: sweetsweet.

the mess we've made.. =x

felicia sweetie and i! love her ! =)

our 'lao yu sheng' dish! haha. (:

labels: pmsing mood.

wasn't in a cheerful mood today and i duno why. no one irritated me and i just felt moodless. althou my photo craze relapsed, the cny celebrations wasn't as great as expected. in fact, it was kinda boring.. oh well. when was cny celebrations ever interesting? hah. had meeting with the teachers after that and for once, i was bombarded with tons of questions. questions that never once came across my mind. questions that our inexperienced co wouldn't have thought of. seriously, i felt rather overwhelmed but i know clearly that it's part of what we'll expect. so i've just gotta get used to things. jiayou! (: was starving after meeting and had lunch with yihan and some of my fellow scappers at lot1. ordered mcnuggets meal and i was so lucky to be given 7nuggets! and the rest said that they'll have to order meals through me in future since people tend to look at my size and give me a bigger portion. haha!

edited the proposal with a few of my committee members and i was barely awake then. apologies to everyone cos i just got really tired out of a sudden.. due to this, i was a blur sotong today and i must thank joyce for passing on her disease to me. lol. hopefully i'll regain my previous state of mind tmr after a good night's sleep! gah! i miss shijiao sweetie.. havent went towning with her for ages la. may be going for last minute cny shopping with liuchin darl tmr. may everything turn out well! ((:

♥yours truly. 9:21 PM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

happy belated valentines! (: didn't have time to blog ystd cus it was past 10pm when i reached home. dined with 7th and scap pals at lot1's idunnowad restaurant. funfun! (: we occupied two tables and it was really nice chatting with everyone. oh and ciauer and seowhuan; plspls dun think otherwise- think straight kaes? lol. overall, although the day wasn't spent with any 'special' someone, it was undoubtly an unforgettable feb 14th. thank you once again to all the gifts, messages and cards given by all my dearest friends! love you guys to the max.! =)

before i forget, congrats to friendship day comm for doing such a fabulous job ystd! you guys RAWK! next up on the list will be orientation; and i really hope that it'll be a success! things are not progressing as smoothly as they should and let's hope for the best! JIAYOU o2 comm!

now i feel the pressure of jc life.. things aren't easy. really. i'm lagging behind in math and i failed my first chinese test.. so damn disappointing. all thanks to my stupid eyes for misreading some instructions. i think i need contacts + specs. haha. oh well. tmr's cny celebrations and i'm looking forward to some fun! smart casual day ehh? LOL. till then! gotta get going to engage in some serious matters. so annyeong~!

♥yours truly. 8:12 PM

Monday, February 12, 2007

I HATE MY LIFE! I HATE YOU PEOPLE. I HATE TO BE IN THIS FAMILY.! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE MY LIFE SO DIFFICULT? WHY ISIT THAT YOU WANT ME TO CHANGE MY DECISION AFTER I'VE SETTLED DOWN? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO PSYCHO ME AND KEEP ASKING WHAT HAPPENS IF ANYTHING BAD HAPPENS TO YOU GUYS THESE FEW YEARS; CLAIMING THAT ONE CAN COMPLETE POLY AND THEN WORK FOR SOME TIME BEFORE STUDYING IN UNI, AND THAT ALVLS IS NOTHING IF ONE FAILS TO PROMOTE TO UNI. WTH? SO WHAT DO U EXPECT ME TO DO? CHANGE MY FIRST CHOICE TO POLY? AND YOU'LL REJOICE AFTER I DO SO RITE? BUT WILL I? ALWAYS COMMENTING THAT IM A SELFISH FREAK WHO ONLY CARES ABT MYSELF AND NOT YOU GUYS.

AND HOW WILL YOU KNOW THAT I'LL BE HAPPY IN POLY? YES, I'M NOT IN THE POSITION TO SAY THAT POLY LIFE ISN'T FUN OR WHAT. BUT I'M CONTENTED IN JC. I 'M HAPPY HERE! I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO BE VERY INDEPENDENT, AND ACCORDING TO YOU, I'LL ONLY ACHIEVE THAT IN POLY. IS THAT SO? I SEE THAT MY J2 SENIORS ARE ALL VERY INDEPENDENT. YOU DON'T ACCEPT MY WORD THAT I'LL BY HOOK OR BY CROOK, MAKE IT TO UNI. YOU THINK THE PASSING RATE IN PJ AINT HIGH. WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?

i was extremely delighted and carefree when xuanhui enlightened me, and even happier when I made my choices this morning. and now, you're making my mind in a whirlpool once again. you're forcing me to a dead end. you're causing me to perish. thanks.

♥yours truly. 8:13 PM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

when i pressed the 'submit' button, i felt as if a burden had been lifted. i finally know where my heart lies. thankyou pjc! (: lovelove*
and here are my choices:
1. PJC science
2. NP TRM
3. SP TRM
4. NP MCM
5. NP banking and finance
6. NP business studies

till then! (: tata!

♥yours truly. 10:34 PM

FRIENDS
four years in yuhua and friends whom i hope to have for a lifetime. but i know time will pass and i'll eventually lose contact with some of them. but i promise to try my best to keep the friendship. really, i wish the best for the friends i love most all the time. sometimes, i think i wish for them more for myself cos i don't know what i want. but i hope they're going to enjoy themselves wherever their results take them too, and that we'll still keep in contact. cos i wanna thank them all for being there. and it means so much, that memories, forever etched in that time of history. and you know i'll tell everyone about it. i wouldnt want to have been anywhere else.

to the friends i really care for:
just make the right choices and see where it takes you. i'll always be hoping the best for all of us. i give you my utmost sincere thanks. really, for making life seem so much brighter and splashed with a billion colours. i hope you'll be happy wherever you are.
i really hope from the bottom of my heart that we'll all be happy, and its always been my dream for everyone to be happy too. so smile and really we're the lucky people in this world and i'm so fortunate and blessed to have met you.

LOVE
mel who will still be mel forever. but deep down inside, i'm still me and i really love my life. its ups and downs, even if i say i don't like it at times, i really am glad cos i have the most wonderful friends and family. so who i am to complain? even if i died today i would have been happy.

♥yours truly. 2:35 PM

bestfriends for life! muacks*

i teared. was reminiscing the past while chatting with shunfu and i can't believe it that FOUR years
in yuhua just flew past like this. we've been classmates for four years and now, we're saying our
goodbyes. my heart wrecks )): shijiao, liuchin, huihui, sheryl, yulin, shunfu, jeremy + a few others; we've been in the same class since sec1 and have really gone through a lot. like what shunfu said;
thick and thin. we mugged and struggled through exam nites together and therefore, suffered together. when results came, we rejoiced as efivers. (: it's really unbelieveable!

of course, to my dearest 4e5, you rawk. again, we suffered as one during Os. for those who didn't perform, don't be disheartened. it's not the end yet- we still have a whole life ahead of us! so make the right choice for your next institution and go all the way to achieve your goals! nothing's impossible! Ben taught me a new quote today: If you Work Hard, Success Should be yours and also will be yours. i see meaning and sense in it and therefore, think that it's very true. Besides, success will never
come without hardwork and so long as you're determined to achieve, you'll do it!

THANKYOU xuanhui for enlightening me! (: thanks for your wonderful words of encouragement and advice. i don't know why but i've been a pessimist since yesterday as i
kept saying that i can't cope with As. i guess i've contracted lc's disease? =\ bleah. and thankyou yihan, jorene, weilin, shunfu, bel and many others too. i guess i've consulted
15 over people since yesterday. scary uhh? you've gotta understand that my situation's rather
difficult.

you see, i've been wanting to enrol into np's trm since sec3. and have never had the thought of going to jc bcus of negative words and comments. but only after i experienced pae did i realise jc life isn't that bad afterall. yes, i understand that jae will be 1000000x worse than pae but i just can't bring myself out of pj. peers? maybe. [ i know it's bad to stay/leave bcus of peers but it's difficult not to! ] the bulk of the reasons are bcus of pj's environment,
the people there and everything! of couse, i still want to pursue trm. others have said that since i have an ideal course in mind, why not go for it? it makes sense but like yihan said, what do i know of trm? what is required of me in trm and what is it all about? why do i like it? i have absolutely no answers to these series of questions. therefore, i've come to a conclusion that my passion for trm isn't that great since i don't know why i want to get in. i guess i just find it interesting, which is kinda dumb. bcus of this, i guess i belong to the 'duno what to do' group of people, and from this, you should know what my final decision is. it's yet to be confirmed. i'll probably apply tmr.. [ in actual fact, it's today lol ] in addition, with my teachers' and friends'
faith and support, i know i can do it! i've overcome Os. Here's just another phase of education and i've just gotta work hard.. jiayou everyone! (: best of luck! love ya all!

♥yours truly. 12:29 AM

Saturday, February 10, 2007

rah! ): i don't know why but i feel like crying.

♥yours truly. 10:18 AM

Friday, February 09, 2007

the image says it all.

satisfied? i guess i did ok except for double maths. damn emath for not giving me an A2..
don't really have much to say about Amath cus i screwed up paper 1 when it was supposed to be
the easier paper. )): was scolded by mrs sunil for not getting an A1 for english.. and there isn't even a single A1 for eng lar. pathetic ehh? my apologies to mrs sunil and miss vani.. she was pretty upset about the no of distinctions.. ): oh well. but i must really thank mr ooi for physics! only aimed to pass and yet i managed to get
B3. was really super shocked!

i'm really in a huge dilemma now. go for tourism at np or stay in dearest pjc? i.really.duno. have consulted numerous people ( including teachers) and everyone have given me different opinions.. most of the teachers
said that i should continue in jc given my character and ability. but some said if i really know
what i want then just go for it. am i really sure of tourism? the answer is ' i duno' again. sometimes, i
really hope that i'll score results that won't bring me into tourism so that i won't have to have such a hard time deciding now.. on the other hand, i wish i had gotten better grades. IRONICAL
ya? oh well. thanks yihan jorene evelyn darren bifen yuheng ben solomon desmond kailyn milton aishah
miss ang mrs sunil miss vani mr ngien for advice.. [ the list goes on ] anyway, i hope that i'll be enlightened when i wake up tmr and at least have a clearer insight of where my next stop should be.. (: regardless of where i go, i hope that my choice will be the right one and that i'll never regret.

♥yours truly. 10:49 PM

nicenice!!

cute??

zerosevenstwentyseven. =)

poned. =)

i broke another record of mine today. which was to reach home only at 11pm. although it doesn't
seem that late, it's the latest time i've ever returned after a day's out. of course, i called home before
that and surprisingly, dad didn't say anything much. haha (: hope to have such freedom in future..
as mentioned, i pon-ed school today and we went for class outing! in spite of the fact that only eleven of us went, we had FUNNN. (: met up with my clique at cck at 12 and we had lunch at lot1's
kopitiam before meeting the rest. and before i forget, today was a total camwhoring session! took
tons of pichas.! :D train-ed to dhoby gauht and walked to singapore shopping centre in search of
the pool place. hah. (: rented two tables and gah! we began pooling. lols. i'm happy to announce that
my skills have improved slightly and i'm at least able to aim correctly now. played photo hunt with
clique too and luck wasn't on our side cus we played lousy. sadsad. but it's okay!

walked all the way to cine and on the way, we went into many shops to kapo, one of which was OG
cos fel wanted to find her mummy. her mum was damn friendly and cute can.! heh ((: reached cine at 6+ and everyone settled down in pastamania cus our stomachs were growling.. had
spaghetti bolognase ( or however it's spelled ) and it was DELICIOUS! shared this combo with fel sweetie and it sure tasted good. walked ard cine and bought sth for yh. hope you'll like it girl!
took NEOS and the 10 of us squeezed like pancakes lar. ( liyana left ]: ) but the neos were niceee
kaes.. walked to fareast and shafina left halfway bcus she wasn't feeling well.. =\ takecare girl!
spent quite some time there as jiajun was looking for new year clothes and i was shopping for ama's prezzie. jorene ama, hope you'll like it! blahblah. reached home at 11 and the end! good luck to all my friends who're receiving their results tmr and all the best! (: love y'all!

♥yours truly. 12:14 AM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

evelyn and i. ^^

melmel. jorene. ;D

crazy aunty and ama!

hey guess what? we J1s are MASS PONning tmr.. feeling envious? =P i don't know how everything started but i guess everyone just decided to skip school as a class. so far, i already know of some classes who're mass ponning tmr. So1, S16, S24, S25 and not to forget, my dearest S27! LOL. and we're having a class outing! grins- :D should be playing pool and then just hang out. haha i can't wait to ENJOY before the release of the horrifying results. ))): it's so freaky.. and i'm getting ready to converse with sj and lc for the whole of tmr nite.. (: i wasn't really for the idea of skipping school in the beginning cus i wanted to treasure the remaining days in pj.. but because 99% of my class is ponning, i had no choice but to follow suit. you don't expect me to be the only one in S27, do you?

it's just ONE more day to the bigbigbig day, which means that decisions have to be made pretty soon. so guys; have you made up your minds? i have. but i shan't speak about it should there be any changes. like what my seniors have advised, i shall follow my heart and bring myself to where it lands me to and NEVER regret. a word of advice to all my friends out there: decisons have to be made no matter what. it's just a matter of time. so find some time and think things through. find out what your passion and interest are and most importantly, where your HEART will bring you to. once you've discovered all these key points inside you, the answer will naturally be revealed and you'll have your mind at peace. trust me! (:

i was in the midst of a meeting with miss lee when shawn came over to our table and asked everyone a survey regarding the pioneer slogan. some of us suggested borrowing sa's idea of ' once a saint, always a saint ' but it won't look original if that is done. nevertheless, i've just changed my msn nick to ' once a scapper, always a scapper ' cus i just love SCAP and council to bits! (: i can't deny that it isn't easy to handle events and things, but we learn and grow along the way and i'm loving things.. most of all, i love my friends and seniors! you go people! muacks- =)) lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORENE! YOU'RE THE BEST AMA FOREVER! LOL. (:

♥yours truly. 8:41 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007

it's confirmed. results will be out this friday at 23opm.. refer to: http://www.moe.gov.sg/press/2007/pr20070205a.htm oh gosh. i can finally feel the tension building inside me; and it's for REAL this time round. there's THREE more days to go and that's it. praying for the very best! :)

i know i'm saying this for the umpteenth time but i'll like to repeat myself again. I LOVE PJC and i really don't want life in pj to end. i'm already v attached to the college, and with all my wonderful friends and seniors ( plus some teachers ), how can i bring myself out of PJ after PAE? leaving my friends and seniors just like this isn't a wise choice y'know. i'm not saying that i may stay because of friends- it still depends on my results and where my heart's final destination lies. a month of jc life just flew past like nobody's business, and i can still recall how i felt on the very first day of school. lost and aimless i was, i wandered around the school with the derekS. i even had the thought of withdrawing from college since day 1 was so boring! i'm glad i didn't cus from day 2 till today, i have been enjoying myself tremendously. this feeling hasn't been experienced before, not even in sec school.

i've spent quite some time dwelling on this issue, and i believe that the decision shall be made a few days after results ( 6dats is too much! ). anyway, it's just a decision between pj and poly, and i know it's gonna be a BIG one which'll affect my entire life. bless me!
although it's not the end, i'll like to mention the names of these people who've made my stay in pj very enriching and enjoyable!

OG17: esp tricia, audrey, aifah, peixuan, sabrina, shi tien, mag, hui hoong, rachel, richie, solomon, zaki, zhafri.. BIFEN + BEN!

O7S27: ying xian, jessie, peiyi, min yi, shafina, hazimah, farah, liyana esp felicia, jia jun, hui yu, steffi, jialing, ciauer, natalie!

SCAP: MY DEAREST ESPRICO, lewis, cheryl, wilfred, pei en, nina.... [ i dont really know a lot of pple cus i didn't go for trials. sorry! but everyone in esprico rawks yeah! ]

7th: YIHANNN :)))))))) ( the one who's character is very like me! ), JORENE ( my ama ), YUHENG ( advisor! ), weilin ( u've been great! ), hancheng, xuanhui ( thanks for advices and u dance well can. (: ), shee kwang, ikhsan ( ur break dance is COOL! =p ) patrick, evelyn ( the one i always meet in sch ), fauziah ( thanks for consollation), desiree, weiming, darren.

* sorry if i left some names out.. you guys are still remembered in my HEART kaes.. (((:

♥yours truly. 8:46 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

reflections. (:

budd.

o.O. like OMG can? LOL.

sweeeeet . ^^

crazy us.. XD

besties for life! =)

inthebus. (: my cheeks are soo chubby ):

it's really nice to meet up with people whom you haven't met for ages; the feeling is just.. indescribable! outing with meiyi darl today and it was soo nice to see each other again. (: she looked as gorgeous as ever and we kept camwhoring! haha. our first stop was FUNAN cus dad wanted me to go laptop hunting. you see, my cousin who's in US promised to get me one last year, so dad's urging me to hurry before he forgets about the matter. went into a few shops and most of the eyecatching models were from acer. took down a couple of models and had them mailed to hanson kor. there aren't many under consideration cus i was told to keep the budget to $2ooo.. by 1pm, my stomach was growling away and so we lunched at mac. stuffed ourselves till we were bloated. haha! took pics outside funan and smoked our way back to city hall. and guess what? we dumbdumbs went one big round before we were back at cityhall. so stupid can. lol. nvm, we're cute! lols. =p

next stop- bugis! went bugis village and it was packed with sardines lar. soo stuffy and hot! there were peeps practically everywhere and it was so hard to walk! got squeeezed lol. wanted to buy hotpants but the prices there were really amazing. as i didn't wanna be broke, the thought was dismissed.. train-ed to orchard after that and walked around cine and heeren. saw nothing much, cept' that i bought a ring and hairbands at heeren. walked to plaza sing and on the way there, we say genieve jie promoting starbucks stuff! saw hermi kor too! heh. it's a small world~ shared a cup of mocha cappucino ( or whatever it's called ). it was simply delicious! heh. (: shall drink more of such smoothies in future. hah. reached plaza sing and zoomed straight to carrefore to find the fbt shorts which i've been yearning to own since idunnowhen. was relieved when i saw them on display and yup i bought one! heh. won't haveta wear the tooty yhss pe shorts anymore. haha.. =x

bid farewell cus meiyi had to look for meijing and i went back to home area. looked for liuchin and she brought me to the shop which sells hotpants. i'm sooo
happy to have finally bought what i want.! :D:D:D:D:D but i'll have to wear it secretly thou cus dad doesn't like the idea of me wearing hotpants. he says it's too SHORT when it isn't. gah! shhhh. lol. anyway, i gotta get going cus i've yet completed my hw.. shall give another attempt to do apgp and if i fail again, i'llgiveup. =\

♥yours truly. 8:11 PM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

The concourse's night view from parade square. (:

sorry that my previous post was so wordy. i did leave spacings between paragraphs but blogger just screwed everything up! grr.. anyway, i woke up at only 1PM today. soo shiok can. it's my first time sleeping past noon. if dad hadn't woken me, i would still be in lalaland. lol. makaned and did some hw.. now left with APGP of math and geog research. gonna do geog later cus it's my fav subject and whats more, we're on the topic of plate tectonics! it's my all time favourite since sec3! (: APGP isn't that bad actually but i suck in it. dont speak of summation of sets. i catch no ball about the topic.. i'm so so dead! my classmate junxiang is extremely hardworking can. he finishes assignments and tutorials WAY ahead of everyone.. i'm so envious! how i wish i was the old mel and not who i am today- the person with a slackish attitude. i'm thankful that i didn't inherit such an attitude during Os..

i can't wait to meet up with meiyi bestie tmr! haven't seen her since yhcb pop.. =) miss her truckloads.. and to liuchin, shijiao, yvonne, wanling, mastura, hayati, dance juniors, prefect juniors, yanqing, suhailah, alycia, + other 4e5 peeps, I MISS YOU GUYS LOTSA! )))))))):

Here are lyrics for the two songs: pj college anthem and chapter next. althou most of you won't know what they sound like, analyse the words. they're meaningful! btw, the bg music is pj's college anthem. nice ehh? loves*!

COLLEGE ANTHEM (verse 1)

Here I stand

The dawning of a brand new day

As i look to the way ahead

In my heart burns the fire of learning

And it shines everywhere i go

Never fading and ever yearning

While i live i learn and grow

I will seek and explore

Open each and every door

Always caringa and faithful and true

To be a guiding light

Set the future shining bright

For my college and for nation too

I am a true pioneer

Crossing every new frontier

With conviction i take every turn

This passion i will hold

So that everyone may know

I believe While I Live I Learn.

CHAPTER NEXT

As I stepped into this school

A million things ran

Through my mind

This is like a brand new life

I really need a guiding light

Shy and alone i was within

This is a place i've never once been

To a college life i was totally blind

A whole new place

In this school I find

*Chorus

Well my first week in school

Was totally great

Much fun and friends i had made

Orientation wasn't a bore

To tell you the truth,

I wanted more

College is like a whole new page

Like flipping a book,

To chapter next.

No longer shy and alone was i

Spreading my newfound wings i fly

Over the sea and high above

Setting in a plae that i love

**Chorus

***Chorus

College is like a whole new page

Like flipping a book

(flipping a book) to Chapter Next

♥yours truly. 6:20 PM

twoprettygirls. (: xuanhui & jorene!

weilin. sorry to let you bend down. hah x))

campfire.

mel.yihan.natalie. ((((((:

indaloo. zilian. =x

with audrey.! (:

aifah sabrina and i. crazy me! =x

hazimah! nice dimples ehh.. =)

clique! clockwise fr left: jiajun, me, steffi, felicia, jialin & huiyu

i'll always be in front.. =x

minicake for MINYI. [bpghs] happy birthday! (:

candid! camwhoring?? =)))

girls with he lao shi! (:

i'm dog tired and can barely open my eyes now, but i can't help NOT blogging about today.. everything was just so so fun! (: besides, i have mia-ed for quite some time so it's an opportunity to make things up. warning: this post is gonna be lengthy and flooded with photos cus i was practically camwhoring the entire day. thats me! =) a handful of us brought along our cameras to school cus there was bbq + campfire at nite, but my classmates and i had a longggggg photo-taking session after lessons ended. we were snap shooting as though today was the last day in pjc- cute?? haha. and S27 even thought of skipping math tutorial cus it would probably be as mundane and unproductive. plus, we didn't wanna take the test cus no one had the mood to do so.. SADly, the idea was dismissed and we decided to be guai-kias. =x hung out at the sanctuary till 43o with my clique and i went to join my dearest OG17 after that! not everyone turned up thou. sadd. ):

the event started at abt 53o and we DANCED! dance, being my favourite, made me real HIGH. =DD makaned, chitchatted and also took pichas. when the sky was finally dark, everyone gathered and witnessed the start of the campfire. it was really my first time seeing a fireball fly from above; so cool can! haas.. danced + sang along.. it was FUNFUNFUN.! there was this video which 7th prepared for us about orientation, and i didn't get emo after watching. it was quite unusual cus i'm very emo in these kinda situations. however, i teared soon after.. )))))))))))))))))))': sang chapter next and of course, COLLEGE ANTHEM. these are wonderful college songs i tell you.. college creed followed and then, we danced againn. everyone evacuated as 9pm approached, and a few of scap esprico members stayed back to aid 7th in cleaning up. =) great experience indeed! and i'm so happy that i can go home with jorene ama sometimes. we live REALLY near each other lar. hahas. (:

it's confirmed that results will be released next week. thats like so fast can? i can't believe it that 2+ months just FLEW past like this. i don't want the results to be out so soon cus i want my stay in PJ to be neverending..i'm not leaving for sure but i'm still in a BIG dilemma. an option of staying in pj if i can't enrol into TRM once crossed my mind, but what if i qualify for TRM? will my FINAL destination be in np or pj? i seriously don't know. i've spent days thinking about it and lc said that i should continue in jc given my ability. but there're really many concerns, the most important of which is STRESS level. other than that, i would say that jc life is perfect! i can't deny the fact that i'm loving pjc to bits and everyone there just rawk! it would be really sad if i leave cus i simply can't bear to. the friends made are really great, and i'm already so acquainted to the environment! not to forget, SCAP members and 7th student council rawk, especially ESPRICO.! i love my committee! [ special thanks to yihan : you go girl! i'll try my best to fulfill your wish kaes.. don't worry! (: ]love ya! ]

o7s27 is awesome too! though there are cliques, we're very united as a class and thats great! =) so how on earth do you expect me to LEAVE the college given all these commitments? it may be only 1 month, but i must say that i'm already attached to pj. i enjoy school and i love my friends + sc. if i hadn't come to PAE, my mind would have remained in poly but right now, it's very difficult to make a choice. nevertheless, i do NOT regret coming for PAE at PJC cus it's fantastic! i'll cry buckets if i were to leave.. =\\ anyway, to all friends: YOU are special. in this world, there is only one YOU, so everyone is unique! [ by mr yeo ] peers will not affect any decisions and do think twice before you select! never regret... that's about all for today; it's 13oAM now and i'm still blogging. :S SIGH. have been lacking sleep these days and my eyes bags are bound to appear soon. touchwood* shall sleep till noon tmr since the outing with sj is postponed.. was supposed to shop for newyearclothes as well as to window-shop for laptops. i hope dad will still get me one if i were to stay in jc.. =\ happy belated birthday to lewis & andy; ; happy birthday to minyi & wilfred! :) sleep tiggggght! :D

♥yours truly. 12:06 AM