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Friday, April 28, 2006

sometimes i really wonder if i had made the right choices when i was in sec2. back then, i was so enthu about taking pure that i'd cry when my results didnt meet the minimum requirement. sad to say, i have second thoughts now. i find pure sci a pain. i love chem, but each time theres a test, id DEFINITELY make loads of silly errors and score substandard marks in the end. it hurts. each time, id tell myself that its just sheer carelessness, and try to pick myself up. there were times when i wanted to give up on everything and live the life that i want, but i would always console myself saying that its just months to go before i break free; and this is what i am today. since the beginning of this year, my results have been only getting worse. even chinese, which used to be my strongest, can only give me a lower sixty now. and physics! that damn subject which most of us fear, is terribly hard to score. MYE's starting next thursday and ive not even began revising. can u believe it?! and wads more? theres phy mock paper nxt tues. twodaes to MYE and yet mock exam? HAHA. =| but whatever happens, i'll try my best to be resilient and persevere. gotta start pia-ing for MYE liao. i cant afford to fail ne subjects.

anyway.. just an advice to all my juniors out there.. whenever you have to make a choice, be sure to choose WISELY and never regret. stardie hard and dont give up no matter what; its too late to regret.. ((=

♥yours truly. 7:44 PM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

can you believe it? im blogging at the airport =X. waitin for my flight to board. this is my first and ever trip alone! ah yes. i certainly did feel anxious and afraid, but things are actually quite fun and interesting. travelling alone isnt that bad afteral. ((: dad went back on tuesday and mom went back ystd. today's my turnn. = was supposed to go along with mom ystd but i couldnt afford to do so cus i had too many tests + MT oral. my purpose of going to hk is not for leisure; but to see grandma for the last time. the feeling i got when we received the news was indescribable.. its so sudden. one min she was healthy and the next moment shes admitted to the hospital. it was only during this incident that i realised how fragile and short life can be. the doctor said that she'd still live for probably 3days and no longer.. its hard to accept the fact that she'll eventually leave us. to think about it makes me wanna tear.

grandma has taken care of me since i was young, and lived with us most of the time but went back to stay with my uncle last sept.. i hate myself. know why? cus i havent treated her nicely when she was with us. due to her age, she had a poor memory and would forget things almost immediately. i, being impatient, always hated her for this, and because of my poor attitude and tolerance, i regret. regret. regret. if only i had been nicer. if only i had learnt to understand how one feels upon aging. its my first time witnessing the last moments of someone's life, and this is not an ordinary someone but my grandma. my family member. i wonder how i'll feel when i see her later on. tear; definitely. oh well. we gotta accept the fact that this is life, and parting is one of the things in life that one'll bound to go thru. im comin back myself tonite cus i gotta complete my hmwk- they're unfinished! =X and theres loads of tests next week too. was only supposed to have emath retest and chem mock exams. but mr ooi added on to ur stress by assigning a test on monday and wednesday. uhhh god. im gonna die. bless me. and lastly, a word to all; treasure the time u have with ur loved ones to the maximum before its too late. =(

♥yours truly. 6:03 AM

Thursday, April 13, 2006

a hectic week ahead with six tests. good luck to myself; and to all my fellow classmates (:

♥yours truly. 8:58 PM

Saturday, April 08, 2006

speech day cum prize giving ceremony + 2oth anniversary celebrations ystd. it was a memorable and unforgettable day for all; i guess.

i cant believe it- everything is over. over in a flick of time. our last dance. our last preparation for performance. our last time being tgt as a dance family. these have now become purely memories. memories that cant possibly happen again in this life of ours. i wonder. i wonder why time has to pass soo quickly. three years of time spent in dance with my sisters haf ended. im feelin so down; sadded. say me stupid, emo or whatsoever, but this is how i feel. i feel like tearing. was so emo last nyte that i teared before going home. cant help it la. to think of our last dance makes me feel like shytt. no matter wadd, i'll always rmb the memories and times that we spent tgt as a whole dance family and with li lao shi. i'll never forget each and every single experience; especially those spent tgt with min; vonnie; ya and jiao. I LOVE THEM TO BITS. <33>

i wish to recall how we first met and became so close, but can i? i remembered the time when mie, ya n jiao were in sec2. and min and vonnie came in as newbies. they were so innocent and cute then. somehow or rather, we became close to them and as time passed, the five of us were really close and inseperable. we would hang out tgt in all dance classes and chat our hearts out. even in times where there werent dance, we wld go towning tgt and take loads of snapshots. the strong bond in us, cant be expressed in any form; be it in words or wad. its in the heart of all. a bond that'll stay with us forever. eternity. ((: as long as we have each other in our hearts, we'll rmb all the memories. peace.

♥yours truly. 12:58 PM