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Thursday, April 28, 2005

hiiii. i seriously, desperately need help. i cant cope anymoree. :(( i cant take the stress. its too muchh. i've never felt like this in my entire 15yrs living on this earthh. homework and homework piling up everyday in spite of the fact that the exams are nxt week. puhh-lease, my dear teachers. u guys should know better than us that the exams are not nxt yr lehh. and u're still loading us with hmwk? whats this man? is there still nething called LYFE? and can u believe it? its only SIX bloody more days to MYE and here i am not really starting my revision yett. i havent got timee. :(( all i do each day is to do my homeworkk. if i'm lucky, i cld revise a teeny weeny bit. thats all. fullstop. i really dont understand whats going on in our tchers' minds.. esp ms shamsiah. we haf 3 more sets of A, E math papers to do and they're soo damn difficult luhh. sets 3 are completed but sets 4 and 5 arent. whats more. ms vani gave us a set of geog past yr paper [MYE 2oo2] to practice. the paper's extremely longg. and of cus.. tough for most of us since we havent revised. the qns also require higher order thking skills- no clear cut. mcqs are okay but structured are relli killing us mann. siigh. still havent done mahh eng summary yet. due tmrw.. phys has been completed and i guess i'll haveta work on eng and either geog or math tonite..

mr tan gave us back our moles calculation test and i got only 9/13. sobsobb. :(( results relli suckk now a days. to tell u the truth, i havent much confidence as i used to haf now. i've changed.. if u've noticed. i'm not the old melody who will try and finish all the hmwk in a day, which was practically wat i did in lower sec. i jus cant do things this way now, and perhaps in future.. there is just so much things to do that i cant afford to finish every single piece of hmwk in a day. and do my revision.. i've slacked. slacked greatly.. dunno why i became like this also. sometimes i just wish lyfe was back in my lower sec days where we had so much fun and laughter. seriously speaking, these things are lacking now. every day is only study, study and study. there isnt lyfe in 3e5! lyfe here is lyk hell! every teacher is stressing us out like we're slaves and the subjects are sooo difficultt. if time could turn back, i would haf chosen other classes, other than 3e5. lyfe realleh sucks.. we're alr half dead by now.. i guess most of us are struggling to cope with homework and at the same time revise.. [althou revision is a prob now a days] thats why i have bigg doubts whether i will do well in MYE.. sighh. i just hope i dont let myself down and will try my best to achieve my goals luhh. thats all i haveta say. till then.

♥yours truly. 7:33 PM

Saturday, April 23, 2005

howdee dearrrh. i'm kinda happy todae. cus i finally managed to force muaaself and study studyy. :)) went to xiaomei's hse in the morning to teach her scii cus she had probs on the chapt on atoms and chpt6.. wasnt easy teaching as i dont haf the skills of a tcher/tutor. but managed to teach a little lahh. hopefully sis understands what i was talking lols.. hope she'll be able to score in MYE.. heheas. copied a lil bit of geog notes on wind instruments and proceeded to mac at hke tgt wif xiaomeii to haf lunch. saw kelly and frens and yatie and angel at da bus-stop.. hahas. was kinda embarrassed thoughh. saw fauzi and suriyati at macc. guess they were self-studyin togetherr. ate a double fillet meal and it was deliciouss!! =)) sis went to her frens's hse while i went home luhh. continued my notes on geog and till 4, lyn came fer tuition and blahblahh. we were like chatting and tuition-iing lols. today's tuition was funn. bon voyage worr lynn! happie tripp. kekes. nxt tuition is on the mondae after labour daee. combined tuition wif jiahuii.. ^-^ continued geog revision after tuition and here i am noww. restingg. hehes. guess i'm done for the daee. still left with chem moles calculation revision cus there'll be a test on monday plus my journal entry no.16.. havent got ne inspiration on wadd to write still. so yeahhs. till thenn. sayonaraa~

♥yours truly. 10:00 PM

Thursday, April 21, 2005

hi dude. lotsa things seem to be happening now a days. lotsa unpleasant things. i really dunno wads wrong.. looks like this year really aint a good one afterall. sighhs. its only near half a year and here so many probs are popping out since jann. anyway, today's geog and chi test sucked. chi test was extremely difficult luhh. didnt study fer it also as i'm too lazy to study for chi test now a days since the tian xie han zhi component is cancelled. oh well. thanks to my laziness. geog test was after that. test was abt the case study on bangladeshh. the causes of floods and all. had a hard time memorising em' and guess wadd? bcos of the super touggh chi test, i forgot the content of one factorr: monsoon! my mind went blank when we had to explain how that led to flooding. ohh god. that qn is worth 3 marks. say byebye. i'd be happy if i get above 10 out of 15 marks.. sighh. really dunno wads wrong with me lahh. its bloody 13 days to MYE and here i am online. great isnt it? althou i haf started revising my geog these few days, i'm still fearful that i wont finish everything in time and if that happens, i'm gonna be dead man. x_x shall be continuing revising phyics later. chpt on velocity and acceleration cus ms ang shld b questioning us tmrw again. and she mentioned during remedial jus now that if we cant ans her qns tmrw, she'll make us write lines jus like mr ooi does to last yr's 2E8. sho sians lahh shee. haishh.

had physics remedial after sch jus now luhh. till 230.. she went thru the kinematics wkst 2 and taught dist, displacement, velocity and acceleration once more since most of us had difficulty understanding her lesson ystd. thank god i finally understand.. :)) met up with yatie and mas after that as yatie wanted to ask ms ang qns on velocity and acc as well. accompanied em' and blahblah. went home at 4+ and started practicing my flute luhh. i can play from C to high-D now!! =D finally found high C and D! shall ask suhailahh wheres high E after MYE. hees. iloveflute! its rawks! planning to buy twinkle after MYE to polish muaa flute cus its kinda dirrty and full of fingetprintx noww. =\ hmms thats bout all. wanna study now! gambette everyonee~ jiayouu for MYE!

♥yours truly. 7:38 PM

Friday, April 15, 2005

hhiiee. currently home alone at the moment, and practically no one's online. jus 8 out of 15o. haiish. guess everyone is attending speech dae now.. as for mie, i aint involved this year, so jus haveta stay at home luhh. school was as usual today, ms ang wasnt around but we were assigned some kinda worksheet on speed, distance and velocity thingy. blahblah.. went home super early todae. straight after school. heheas. walked along with yatiee.. felt kinda weird going home sho early as i havent been doing that for ages. and i mean it. was close to dropping dead by da time i reached home and went to take a nap. that nap was awoken at 4 lols. from 115-4. =p it certainly felt good!! :)) went ahead to write my journal entry no.15 and here i am online noww. homewerk for the weekend: Emath trigoII bearings qns from SP7A and 7B, journal entry, SS SBQ and literature essay on that prose. only finiished journal and litt. dont really feel like doin SS cus its really toughh. :(( sighh. and i dont know how to do the bearings thingyy. ooh yess. bephore i forgett, there's the chemistry moles calculation worksheet to complete too. oh godd. -stressedd- its like 19 more days to MYE. and here i am slackingg. greattttt. i'd only haf myself to blame if i dont do well in it. *touch woodd* really dont knw why i'm so lazy this year.. mebbe lost the passion in studying alrr. but this cant happenn..!! :((-

oh yeshh. i had a haircut on wednesdaee. :)) no longer having longg hair now- short!! most pple were shocked when i went to sch ystd cus practically no one expected mie to do this lol. the reason why i did it was rather stupid. i was in a foul mood on wed. really baddd and sulky mood. went home rather early as well and had this sudden excitement to haf a new hairstyle. hehes. weird isnt it? but i must admit that i look kinda weird in this hairstyle. havent seen myself in short hair since i was p4. my fringe has also been cut, jus that i dont put in in front but at the side cus it looks terriblee. = the hairdresser mentioned that everyone's having short and styled hair now a days so she asked mie to haf a change luhh. feel kinda hot at times cus the ends are touching my neck, and i cant tie em' up cus they're layered. nevaminddd.. :))

hmms. going to nanhua sec with huihui, alycia, mr tan heng kwee and a few of the sec 2s for some recycling quiz. dunno whats it abt but just go luhh. its from 9-1 but we haveta meet him at 83o at clementi control station. shld be going to mas's hse in the afternoon with lala to study, do hmwk and take back my flute! i miss my flute very much lols. havent played it for 1++ month alr. hehes. thats about all for todae. bb~

♥yours truly. 6:08 PM

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

HI. I SHALL TYPE THIS ENTRY IN CAPS. CUS I'M REALLY PISSED MAN. TODAY SUCKED. EVERYTHING WAS WELL BUT ONE DRASTIC THINGY SPOILED THE DAY. SYF WAS ON TODAY LUHH. DIDNT GO FOR LESSONS AS WE HAD TWO ROUNDS OF REHEARSALS AFTER FLAG RAISING. PROCEEDED TO STW TO HAF OUR COSTUMES CHANGED AND MAKE-UP PUT ON. MDM CHAN AND MS KELLY LEE, TOGETHER WITH OUR T/IC MS ANG L.K AND MDM YAP, WERE THERE TO HELP. EVERYTHING WAS DONE BY 11 AND BOARDED THE BUS TO KALLANG THEATRE. LI LAO SHI WAS ALR THERE WAITING AND BRIEFED US MORE ABT THE COMPETITION. BLAHBLAH. WAITED FOR ABT 1/2HR BEFORE OUR TURN CAME. WE WERE FREAKING OUT JUS BEFORE THE PERFORMANCE. EVERYTHING WAS ALRITE BUT THERE WERE SOME MINOR MISTAKES. THOUGHT THAT WE'D GET REASONALBE RESULTS. THE REST OF THE SCHOOLS' COSTUMES WERE SOOO NICE. *ENVY* HEADED BACK TO SCH AFTER A DEBRIEF AND LI LAO SHI STAYED TO AWAIT THE RESULTS AT 4 LUHH. REACHED SCH AT ABT 3 AND RUSHED TO STW TO CHANGE BAC TO SCH UNIFORM AND ERASE OUR MAKE-UP. WALKED PAST THE FOYER AND WE WERE LIKE SOO... EMBARRASSED GIVEN OUR ATTIRE AND HAIRSTYLE.. =\ GOT OUR HAIR WASHED DUE TO THE VAST AMOUNT OF GEL. HAHAS. WE WERE LIKE. WHOLE HEAD DAMN WETT LORR. ATE LUNCH WIF XIAOMEI AFTER THAT AND DID HMWK AT THE FOYER FOR A WHILE BEFORE GOING TO KITCHEN TO JOIN SOME OF THEM TO WAIT FOR THE RESULTS TO BE RELEASED. WAIT AND WAIT AND WAIT. STILL NO NEWS AT 5+. CALLED LI LAO SHI AND WAS TOLD THAT 4 OUT OF 5 OF THE JUDGES WERE ABOVE 60 YRS OLD AND PREFERRED TRADITIONAL DANCEE, NOT MODERNN!! OURS WAS MODERNN. AND... SHE SAID WE GOT ... DUN WANNA SAE. SOOO DISAPPOINTED MAN. WAS IN TEARS WHEN WE HEARD IT.. DIDNT EXPECT SUCH RESULTS. BUT ITS REALLY NOT OUR FAULT! ITS THE DAMN BLOODY JUDGES'!! THEY'RE JUS TOO UNFAIRRR. HOW CAN THEY BE SO BIASEDD. I HATE THEMM! OLD JUDGES RITE? THEN GO RETIRE LAHH! GET A LIFE MAN!! WHAT KIND OF JUDGES ARE U? NOT HAPPIE WIF MODERN DANCE? THEN DONT JUDGEE LARH. IDIOTIC ARSSSHOLES. HATEHATEHATE U GUYS! NO MOOD TO BLOG LIAOS. DAY SPOILT.

♥yours truly. 8:29 PM

Sunday, April 10, 2005

arlowws. currently chatting and woching the NKF charity show part1 luhh. haiis. those patients are really very pitiful.. :(( heartpain siaa. we must really thank god that we're healthy pple.. must be contented with our current situation.. neway, today was quite okie. went to marina square with my familee at 11+ to walk around the new 'giant' which was opened a few days ago. not veh bigg larhs but was similar to carrefore. heheas. there were many areas of food testing and i kept eatingg! really delicious.. :p ate at the marina food loft and had fish head bee hoon luhh. not as nice as it was previously liaoss. disappointed.. walked over to citilink to visit siyi jiejie. leonidas @ that venue closing down soon liaos. serve the stupid boss right lorr. hmms. went home afta that and took a short nap. started woching NKF show at seven luhh. thats bout all. still stuck with my moles calculation. the whole class is.. thanks to that blurblurr mr tann. haiish. till here bahh. sayonara.

♥yours truly. 9:31 PM

Saturday, April 09, 2005

hieee bloggay. i'm decomposingg. uga ugaa. sighh. woke up at ten this morning.. still vehh tired lerhhs. haiis. took a long time doing the journal entry. its abt euthanasia. we haf to state the points to and against it. luckily mrs sunil gave us some guidelines and points, if not i'd be stuckk. hmms. thats all i did this morning ehh. pathetic isnt it?! =\ *bleahs* mebbe going chilling wif yatiee later. notsure yet. kaee. shall blog again tonite yah. tata~

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arlowws. i'm backk. jus had dinnerr. yumyum. sure did go chillin wif yatie jus now. went to KFC lols. ate and chatted and walked around the area. blahblahh. :)) at least i managed to pass my time lol. hmms. wad shall i do later onn..? -wonders- revision? newae, haf been trying my best to look for a nice skin cus i'm tired with this one. dont thk its nice nemore. = sighh. hope i can find a nice one asap so that i can change it since i'm not so busy today. wish miee good luckk kayy. hmms. today haf been supperr bored lahhs. i wanna do werkk! did a bit more of chemistry jus now before i went chilling with yati. asked wenwen for help and she managed to solve a few qns. thanks so much worr wenwen!! =)) hahas. envy her so much.. such a brilliant and clever gurl.. haiish. wish i can be like herr. too bad i dont have the brains.. neway, i gtg now. tataa sweety

♥yours truly. 1:48 PM

Friday, April 08, 2005

howdee. havent blogged since sundae- sorry abt it. was real busy and stressed up. had tons and tons of hmwk and syf is around the corner. nxt tues is the day.. haiish. school was okay overall for this week luhh. nuttin special.. got back phys common test on wed and results sucked man. jus passedd. on the dot lerhh. i was shocked when ms ang handed mie my paper. the whole class didnt do well though.. highest was 42/60- shehui, billy and huihuii. i had to admit that it was a tough paper.. thanks to sharon angg. she said that it was Olvl standard.. haiish. i could haf gotten more marks cus i forgotten to transfer the last q onto foolscap for her to markk. hate myself mann. arghh. shyt mie. =x i realleh dunno wads wrong wif miee. results are dropping and dropping.. drop drop drop. the exams are in abt 4 weeks time and here i am having sulky results. whatt is this?! i'm only satisfied with chem and geog thats all. fullstopp. mebbe i'm jus slacking too much. i haveta admit that i slack quite a lot compared to last yr.. =( lazyy miee. hope i'll be more sensible and work hard. if i dont get top10 in MYE, i'm gonna punish myself hardly.

had tuition with lyn jus now.. didnt seem to be in a good mood. plus the qns from the fuhua papers (A and E math) were extremely tough that she had a hard time thking thru em'. 2qns are still unsolved.. shall ask ard on mondaee. sighh. SYF is on tues. scaredscaredd. malay and indian dance got silverr. :)) we HAVETA get gold. we really haveta. if we dont, we're realley gonna be a letdown to li lao shi and ms ang. and to ourselves as well. practiced soo hard.. but i'm kinda afraid mann. cus. . . dun wish to say out the reason. xiaomeii shld know. hehees. btw the mr loh is shooo damn foolish man. only indian and malay dance haf had their SYFs, not us. and yet, he said that both CHINESE and indian dance got silver. whats that suppose to mean?! cursing us huhh.. so meanieee. =x

neway, i cant go for OBS. *sobsob* i had the form but my damn parents jus wont allow mie too. no matter how hard i persuade and plead, they're still soo hard-headedd! :(( they keep on saying that i aint suitable for these kinda things due to my timidity, tiny size and all. also added smthg like two RGS gurls drowned there 2 yrs ago. and blahblah. said i couldnt swim well and stuff. eventually gave up and had to accept the fact that i cant go luhh. was damn sad abt it. almost cried but i thought again and it wasnt worth it to cry over some camp.. neway, althou i wanted to go badly, i'm rather relieved that i didnt sign up cus one'll haveta go for sum kinda injection! i HATE injections. i'll cry forsure. hahas. hmms. thats about all for todae bahh. gtgg. byee

♥yours truly. 9:39 PM

Sunday, April 03, 2005

hiee. i'm waitin to go out later on so jus came online to help dad check mails and chat fer a while luhh. going out with xiaomeii laterr. something drastic and sad has happened.. pope john paul 2nd was called home to be with the lord jus a few hours ago.. :(( after much suffering from his sickness these few months, his sufferings haf finally come to and end.. hes really been a great pope. done many great things.. jus last nite, CNN and BBC news were talking abt his critical condition, and that he was close to death. never did i expect that he really passed away. haiis. he was 84. as his cardinals haf mentioned, he has done all his duties as a pope, and its now time for him to go to another very special world, together with godd. and that is heaven. may youu rest in peace.. so. guess there wont be ne sundae prayers at saint peters' square today. hope his cardinals can elect a new pope asap luhh. : kae i gotta go prepare now. shall blog again tonite. tata.

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hiee. jus finished mui dinnerr. todae was funn. thanks so much meii. heheas. took neos againn. not very nice.. the first try was a waste mann. cus the shots were very quick and we forgotten that we had to choose 4 pics before going to the other side and decorate.. by the time we rbered, time oni allowed us to choose 2. which left the entire sheet of fotos wif 2 designs. bloody hell. wasnt satisfied with the first try and so, we took another round of fotos again luhh. they were much betterr i'd sae. :)) heheas. proceeded to woch mobee. mobee was quite okiee lahh. home sweet home after that after taking fotos using my cam luhh. hahas. end.

♥yours truly. 7:55 PM

Saturday, April 02, 2005

aniyosayo` currently rotting at home now. hahas. went to school at 7.15 todae to meet ms shamsiah, aly, billy, derek and jeremy. we were supposed to go to hwa chong institution fer sum kinda thingo. saw many band members outside sch as they were waitin to go inn. poor them. it started pouring after some time and alycia and i sat in ms shamsiah's car while the boys in a taxi to sum kinda shopping centre for breakfast. aate breakfast @ mac. hotcakes luhh. tehee. hadnt eaten mac for a longg time liiaos. felt gr8. :)) headed to hwa chong after datt and it wus HUGE man. kwite nice lah i'd sae. saw sum pple playin baseball. kinda cool. seldom see pepos playin baseball in sg as its an american game. so yeahhs. went into the auditorium and it wad freezing cold mann. brrr. blahblah. the emcees had purrfect english mann. admire them. how i'd wish i could speak so well.. that'd be good. uhhh kaees. i must be dreaming lol. cut da crap out. =x the principal made a short speech, followed by the GOH. i almost fell asleep during his speech[!] it was soo boringg.. the students did their presentation of projects and wow! they're soo cool man. interesting too. but difficult lol. so i guess i wont consider JC afterall (even thou i hadnt haf the thking beffore this).. poly is my choice. but if i realleh hafeta choose JC, mebbe i'll put SA, JJ or CJ luhh. dunno lahhs. neways, these r meant to be decided nxt yr lol. =\ had a short break fr 10-1030 and alycia and i went roaming abt the projects outside to have a look. we were really amazedd.. impressingg.. went back in and it felt chilly once again. more grps presented their werk and there was this grp which did on tic-tac-toe. lame uhh? teheee. fortunately, everything ended by 1130. otherwise, i couldnt help it but fall asleep.. heheas. ms shamsiah drove aly and i back to sch while the boys made their way back. poor themm. :p can say finished my hmwk alr lahh. but i haf doubts in lit. dun realleh knw how to do. sighh. lit is so difficultt! thats abt all fer todae ya. ciaoz around.

♥yours truly. 3:31 PM

Friday, April 01, 2005

howdeee. i'm in school now. currently in MLC with xiaomeii. hehees. had actually wanted to stay back to study with alycia.. but we turned out doing our own homewerk instead. =p fortunately, i dont haf much hmwk this weekend, jus physics and lit. lit is toughhh. shall do it tonite. :)) having tuition with lyn later at 5.. haf decided to clear my doubts abt coordinate geometry with herr. and guess waddd? i hafta follow ms shamsiah to hwa chong JC tmrw againn. thought i could escape but i was wrong. haiis. neway, will be meeting her and the rest at 715 tmrw outside school. we'll then go for breakfast and then head for hwa chong. hmms. heard from miss vani that we'll be having SS common test on tuesdaee. siians. dont realleh like SS but its still okae lahh. jus study and memorise can liaos. shall study during the weekendd. tehee. i wanna go out with xiao mei on sundaeee! havent gone out for v long liaos. wishing to take neos again. =p ohh yes! i wanna woch eye10 also. budden dunno if parents will allow mie to go out annot. lets hope for the best. siighh. 5 more weeks to exams. *scaryy*. dOts.

asked miss shamsiah for advises to improve my mathh jus now. and she said she was surprised that i got B3 for both as my class tests were okae. and i told her that my mats havent been good since young and that she could ask mr koh abt it. my brain jus isnt flexible. wut can i do mann? she asked me to practice more and time myself when doing papers. -mus work hardd- hmms. thats abt all. shall blog again soon. byeee. :))

♥yours truly. 2:53 PM