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Monday, October 19, 2009

back to blogging..
i dont know what to say...
i dont know what to do..
just feeling very depress over this new vocation i got...
it sucks..
it really sucks...
my life now is like so meaningless when i come to think of it...
someone in camp asked me a question during an activity..
"so what do you like to do most when you get out of camp?"
and that kept me thinking for days...
even till now..
i have no answer to that anymore...
i aint like myself anymore..
i dont smile that much..
i dont do anything anymore..
there's like nothing around that interest me anymore...
i'm just a living zombie,
living in my own world..

if not for my darling...
if not for my family..
i would have already chosen to leave this world..
this world of terror..
thinking of booking in back to camp..
it's a terror nightmare to me..
i dont know why..
i never had this kinda feeling before...

all thanks to my darling and family that supported me till now..
i've lived on..
thanks for all this while...
iloveyoumydarlinggirl..
thanks for this wonderful weekend...
i simply enjoyed it...
gonna go back in camp in like 3 1/2hours..
cya all in 2weeks time i guess..
i simply dont like my life now..
happy 2yrs 7months in advance my dear..

darling..
sorry i cant pei you like i used to anymore..
take care and jia for for your last sem okie..
i know you can do it de..
sorry i cant be there for you at times physically...
just wanna let you know..
that i love you always..
happy 2yrs 7months in advance..

mummy..
take care mummy..
sorry for making so much trouble for you..
cya in 2weeks time okay..
sorry i cant be home..
till then..


i dont know how much longer..
can i hold..
right at the edge of a cliff..
falling any time..
never felt this bad ever..
i'm just getting tired..



myfairytales
3:49 PM



Monday, September 21, 2009

back to blogging..
after 3days of non stop emo'ing
i concluded that nS really ruins lives when it comes to posting...

time's gonna be different when you get a fucking lame vocation..
just can't bear to leave everything again..
i'd thought i would get a 8-5 or at least slack after BMT
but it got worst
EVEN MORE WORST..
just got no mood when my posting came..
NS ruined my life..
made me no time for anything now..
just wanna spend my time accompanying my darling..
my parents..
it's the time that i should take care of my parents instead of them
keep worrying for me..
and working so hard now..
it's time that i work hard for my future..
my girl..
my family..
but NS stopped all my plans for freaking 2yrs..
by that time i have 2yrs short for my girl and my family..
NS's just a cruel thing to have in life..
it reallyt sucks when you it's time to serve in a sucky vocation.
if only i could have a better vocation that i can be in,
i wouldn't have been feeling so fked up even till now...
sigh..
my girl is so blur always!
so many accidents today le uh!
dont let me worry for you so much =(
I'll be in camp tomorrow..
Take care everyone..
no mood to even blog well..
FMY.



myfairytales
10:47 PM



Monday, July 13, 2009

Hello all back here to blog now..
feeling very emo now..
tomorrow's gonna be my enlistment time..
what do i do..
except resigning to fate..
very happy last few days i had a great time with my dearest baby girl~
she brought my so much happiness always..
never fail to make me laugh =)
and too
thanks to my family..
for all this while..
it's time i faced the lifeless world.
not forgetting my honey babe's parents thanks for the treat on saturday!
Heh!
but all that brings me down till last few hours before i actually book in.
sigh,.
definitely will be missing my darling the most =(
cant see her till 2 weeks later!
not forgetting my family too!
sigh..
Getting more emo aight..
i'll stop blogging now..
be back in 2weeks ..
take care my honey baby ..
iloveyoualways..
andialwaysdo..
loveyoubaby.



myfairytales
1:35 AM



Thursday, July 09, 2009

time to clear the webs
and just came back from my medical check up at tan tock seng hospital
wow for real,
the check up for completely fucked up..
i got this very guai lan doctor
GG very much thanks to him,
he totally made my day,
Thank you very much (AkA Dr Chee Bye)
First went down to take ECG and blood pressure test,
then went down to wait to meet that doctor,
so when it was my turn I knocked on the door and went in,
so he didnt say anything and busy writing stuff and took a glance of me and continue writing,
didnt asked me to take a seat or something nvm,
so when i sat down he asked "so what's your problem with your heart?"
then i said "i've got pains at times and it will last for awhile and will be hard to breath"
then he replied "it's normal to have heart pains maybe due to infection/inflamation small case only, so why come here and see doctor? i am a specialist"

THEN WTF SIA is not what i wanted to right lame,
i understand doctors there are busy.
but why give this kinda reply?
FUCK THIS DR CHEE BYE
knn think he specialist can talk like that?
at least explain to me nicely or something?
and it's not like i wanna go down TTSH for checkup
I GOT FUCKING REFERRED YOU THINK PEOPLE WANNA GO HOSPITAL CHECK UP FOR NOTHING?!
FUCK YOU
_|_ _|_ _|_
after that my mum tried to explain to him
but he just ignored what we said
and continued to write his own stuff
saying he will gimme a thread mill run stress test
and my mum said i've got to report to NS this coming monday,
he didnt listen and continue to say i will give you a thread mill stress test
FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND?
didnt say anything but this
what kinda doctor are you?
didnt bother to listen to my problem and just go with whatever you think is right?
fuck you,
when you didnt even expain anything to us
giving such fucked up attitude
so i shall dedicate this lovely song to you FUCKED UP CHEE BYE DOCToR
IT'S CALLED
TALK TO ME - STEPHEN LYNCH
I came down to the breakfast table
felt like I could die
Tried so hard
but wasn't able to look you in the eye
For i'm feeling so much shame
yes i have brought disgrace
i can tell i've soiled my good name
by the look upon your face
Well it seems last night you caught me spankin it
No use denyin it I was really crankin it
Well Dry your eyes don't be so sad
If you could just forgive me and talk to me, dad
talk to me dad
I didn't hear ya enter,
no I didn't hear the door
with my hand upon my member and my pants upon the floor
Now burnt into your brain is an image you dispise
like blood and guts and starvin kids and Stevie Wonder's eyes
Well it seems last night you caught me spankin it
No use denyin it I was really crankin it
Well Dry your eyes don't be so sad
but I wouldn't use those tissues
They've already been hadTalk to me dad
The look upon your face made my swollen gland diminish
So I said, "Could ya close the door? I really wanna finish"
Now daddy I'm ashamed and I'd completely understand
If you never wanna hug again or even shake my hand
Well it seems last night you caught me spankin it
No use denyin it I was really crankin it
Well Dry your eyes don't be so sad
Just because it was your bed
It's not that bad
When I was only seventeen,
you told me it was dirty,
soit must be really creepy when your kid is pushin thirty
But you cannot tell me dad that you have never had a whack
At the thing that hangs below your belt and bumps into your sack
Well it seems last night you caught me spankin it
No use denyin it I was really crankin it
Well Dry your eyes don't be so sad
But I wouldn't use those tissues they've already been-
just because it was your bedit's not that-
now daddy daddy please forgive me and talk to me dad
talk to me dad



myfairytales
4:15 PM



Wednesday, May 13, 2009



Hello all back blogging!
as i promised my dear a few days le but haven blog! 
so back blogging now!
been busy this few days doing research for my darling 
and watching an anime called Eyeshield 21
very nice anime i must say 
although at start my first impression on it wasnt very good
but then once i've started watching it,
it's all different haha!
things they do inside made me think alot..
teaches me alot though it's just an anime!
it's a must watch anime for anime lovers!
haha.. 

i am so missing my darling now..
even though it's only 4days not meeting her
sians.. 
liddat nxt time NS die le..
13th july BMT ..
sigh..
there's nothing i can do about it now
except to believe and accept the fact that i am going in
YA-HA!

okay shall blog until here 
cya all~

darling gal!
i miss you!
muacks!



myfairytales
11:01 PM



Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Hello all back to blogging again as i promised my dear~ :D
hehehe..
first of all
I finally am graduating! haha...
3years of "hardwork" finally paid off~
ordered my attire already
buying it cos it only cost 12dollars in difference from renting one so why not? lol~
secondly!
my darling's house finished painting!
haha..
she's busy packing now ):
when i am here slacking and enjoying T.T
so bad of me not going over today to help her ):
so in order to "bu chang" her ima blog for her!
haha :P
nothing happening nowadays
except i recently went to arcade once to try out initial d's newest version !
IDASv5! it's out can't believe taking over v4 so fast
not suprising though..
V4 totally backfired..
haha..
just today some initial D players added me back on msn
wonder how did they found my msn though haha..
askin me if i am playing back or something i think my friends told them they saw me playing!
gosh..
news spreads fast i guess!
hmm kinda asking them about techniques..
so itching to play man!
but must control
it's not a must to play the game :D
haha..
play also for leisure and fun!

missing my dear so much now...
wondering how's housechores for her now..
must be tough shifting everything back..
washing the floor.,.
sighh..
aint there to help her today...
i'm so sorry!!!

Heart sank..
Guilty...
Sorry dear..
I didn't..
):



myfairytales
10:22 PM



Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Back blogging again!
haha as i promised my darling i would =p
i am so good right!?
oMG
Shy*
haha jk ..
basically now that i've finished poly
haven't officially graduated though..
kinda missed poly life..
slacking life is all gone now!
back to the real world soon..
NS..
Work..
Work..
AND WORK!?
gosh..
studies is so much more fun than working man..
but also looking forward to it at times yea..
my life ahead with my darling girl!
starting our own family =D
HEHEHE
okay i talked too far i guess..
as for my darling..
she's under stress now at work =(
poor her..
trying hard to help her with whatever she is gonna do though!
jia you okie dear!
relax ler...
dont care about what happened just now too okay?
remember there'll always be me here for you! :D
okay that's all for today..
haha...
nowadays kinda playing some private server games to kill time ..
Going out with my dearie dearrrr too!
hehe...

Miss you darling! *Smooches*



myfairytales
10:08 PM