Whats the date/month?
Oh my..
It's the end of March..
What's so special this damn day?
It's just another day, any ordinary day..
Just that I was soo looking forward to it..
To the month you're supposed to come back for good..



Promise me, you'll wait for me..
-I promise
















... I guess I was wishing for the impossible . .
Even if it was for a visit.. xD

Urm, Hi thar!

Well.. Yet again, I have this weird timing.. Where I would have my finals, and here I am wasting time typing this out.. IDK why either. ._. Super the bad timing. But I cants helps it! DX

Oh well.. 16 more day's till I'm done with my second last semester! New semester starts on the 14th of February.. Uni has even more wrong timing than ever -__-" Then by June I'm DONE! July get cert? O: Woah.. Then I'll be job hunting by then.. GG.

Time flies too fast. Can I just pause it for a moment? D:

Oh wells.. Backs to studying.. Ta~

I just want to quit.



Everything if possible.

Wah, it surprises me that people actually still come visit my blog.

It's so dusty here! Full of cobwebs! *tries to clean up* xD

So many things happened, since the last time I post. Hahaha. Thinking about everything that happened within the time frame, it's just so messed up. 4 months of nothing-ness? IDK how to even say it, all I can say is, I'm feeling as though I'm an anti social. Gahah!

You'll find me at home right after college. Compared to last time, I'll sure be home around 5 or 6.. Sigh.. Class over, gets in car go back home. Oh well. Language barrier, kinda hard to mix around. Boo.

So one month has passed since 3rd year of degree started, and I'm seriously feeling the tension. Like, I wanna give up studying now it self. I don't have the confidence to go forward. Yet I can't wait to finish up and get that cert and do my parents proud. Meh..

People ask me to forgive and forget. But sorry I'm not that type of person at ALL. I may forgive but I NEVER forget. Depending how bad is it that is, cause with my bad memory I might forget.. But who on earth forgets hurtful things? XD It's my nature okay. Let me die with it, die with anger/ hatred whatsoever. I learned the hard way that, you can NEVER change a person. NEVER EVER. Hahaha... So same goes to people out there, you cannot CHANGE the way I think specially when it comes to forgive and forget part. Don't just simply come up to me and say forgive and forget la, my reaction might just be the total opposite of forgetting. 8D

Want me to change? I might. Just give me my space/ time to think stuffs out. I'm a revengeful person. So deal with it shhhs. Jkjk.

Since it's really hard to change someone. I decided not to change a person. xD Even if it's for their own good. What's the point of stressing out over someone when they don't even think for them self? People don't like to be changed, to be controlled.. So.. I just let them be, bye bye. 8D

What shit I'm crapping.. Sigh.


I went to you crying, just to be pushed away.
I needed you to say something to keep me secure.
I need not need to be called all those things you called me.
I thought everything would be fine, but I guess that was just my imagination.


...

Ahhh okla enough of complains.. BYE!

You ask me what I want, I also can't tell you what I want.
8D
So, don't bother asking what I actually want.

Yeah, I never talk things out. Cause probably I don't like confrontation, I just biar then let it be then.. Boom.

=/


I always keep things inside, makan sendiri, then sendiri suffer.. =.="

Oh well..

Flu's getting worst =/

I'm gonna die early tonight. heh

Abandon yet again.

8D I'm lifeless during holidays, so I've nothing to update. 8D
Other than doing housework, playing RO, killing MPV and PVPing, practicing drawing, practicing playing the guitar .. I really have no life. 8D

Kidnap me plox.

At least after I finish painting that is.

-End- 8D

@me is dead drunk, on the bed right up till tomorrow.

signing out, over and out!

It's always the case, where I'm suppose to do something more important, I'm tending to my blog. Ohoho. -_-"

Oh well.

*back to Applied Finance*

Currently Listening to

Runaway by Linkin Park
By Myself by Linkin Park

I really wonder why, I never really took notice of Bon Jovi, until recently. Livia and I non stop listening to their songs, over and over.. Cause they're just plain awesome!! 8D Well, I do listen to them before, but not as crazy as now.

One paper over! I hope I did better than previous semester. The moment we handed up our paper, I turned back to my friend, his face was bloody red like a beet root. Said he had only 2hours of sleep the night before. Crazy.. Most of us I think forgot that one particular formula which carries 14marks. Damn skrewed up wei. Hahaha.

One more to go. And, with those late nights for a month. I think my body can't take it anymore. DX Gums bleeding at random times, is one bad sign. v__v I need to regain back my proper sleeping habits, need to exercise back again, it's been 4years since I actually did a proper exercise! D: This is bad. Well, I think I did play tennis still back 2years ago or something.. I think. 8D But first of, I want to do something about my knee, before I start deteriorating the already, sad case for a knee. Yannie, take me do acupuncture? @@"

I think I should go sleep early. Yet my definition of early would still be 2am 8D Rather than the usual 4am. ;D Yannie and I, our record for driving now is like, maintaining 60 - 80km/h drive. We should get an award. 8D No more 100+ on highway. 8D We shall keep at it! :D Lack of sleep always cause me near accidents.. But lucky reflex still fast enough to avoid them! :D


ONCE I'M DONE WITH EXAM, I DON'T CARE! YUMCHA SESSION WEI!
I HAVE 4 FUCKING MONTHS OF BREAK, KILL MEEEEE!!

@die

Sorry for not been updating lately.
Been pretty busy.
Lots of problem, in rl and of cause in RO =.="

Just wanna say this,



These four people Livia, Farina, Chung, and Randy are the best people ever to work with as a team. I'd give anything to have them in any group presentation again. :D

Now, I'm preparing for finals.. 2papers.. All the best to HR students :D You guys can do it! :D


-More short post coming right up.

I can't help but to listen to this song everyday, every night.. Oh gawd..



*back to essay*




p.s: Daughter, Mummy loves you very much. I rather you hate me. I rather you get mad at me.
I just bring trouble to everyone. 8'D

So! We finally came to this day where we presented all our things, that we all have worked hours and weeks over it. Our presentation came up to 41minutes total. The longest presentation we ever did xD

So our theme was black.. So all of us wear dark shades of colour.. I don't know why I got scared when she nod her head while I was presenting.. -_-"

Pictures would be uploaded soon.. When I get it from Facebook. heh

Our conclusion video was the best.. =.=" Makes me feel as though we wasted time on other videos. But at least we had fun during this process of making this presentation. Conclusion video, do you guys want me to post on facebook or how? I'll try posting la. heh.

What if I uploaded the bloopers as well? Or I edit a video and put only all our bloopers in it. Deal? xD

My leg wanna break, cause I haven't been using heels for months, suddenly I use.. omg.. Both knees and the sole of my feet are aching.. D;

I try making the bloopers video now.. :D

Currently listening to

Bottle Pop by The Pussycat Dolls ft. Snoop Dogg
Hush Hush by The Pussycat Dolls


Swear to gawd, the lyrics of Bottle Pop song is so damn.. The Panas.. xD And whenever I watch their video clips, I feel like wanna dance, and! Heck they're so beautiful.. ._. so unfair! DX jk.. No thanks to Lion I'm addicted to the song.. Well it has a catchy beat D:

I finally let go of all the hatred. Well at least like 70% of it, LOL. I feel lighter now.

Finished up my slides for Discourse and passed everything to Livia, I think my explanation is gonna be like grandmother grandfather story.

Added in subtitles for the video. But haven't highlight the funny parts of the video.. @@"

Shall start studying for my finance paper first! *semangat* Then tonight edit video's again. =D

That's all the random thoughts in my mind at the moment.. Well, kinda. I feel like drawing.. Rawr!

STUDEH FIRST!!

Eh, manusia manusia sekalian. Bila mau keluar yum cha? 8D


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Currently listening to
Forever Yours by Manny X



L4D2 got new map! Livia! Lets go play with Hella!! =D Lets release stress by shooting zombies! Then get tension when charger kills us. 8D

Really la, why are there so many gawd damn many cars on the road! I want to speed also, damn P drivers hog the road. People with nice cars, Mercedes, BMW all don't know how to drive, drive so slow. Give me the car la! D: My sad sad car 1.5L.. Go up hill like turtle. -__-" But I still can beat a Subaru car when doing sharp turns.. Nyahaha. *syok sendiri* But I think if I was driving nice cars, I'll be 6feet under long time ago. jkjk. 8D But yesterday I got sound from the mother about speeding.. Aku kena tangkap.. DX You speed, You don't drive! *dies*

Results out on the day of our presentation.. *digs grave* Ngahaha.
Still haven't found nice pair of heels for presentation.. ._."

File's all with Ah Chung, and they nicely go clubbing.. Nyuu.. *sobs* I can't do much editing with the whole presentation.. Now I shall go edit the intro and conclusion video.. Should I upload the video I acted in.. Nah, shall keep till after presentation. 8D And I'm suppose to put in subtitles so that the international students can understand what we were talking since we mixed everything in; English, BM and Chinese. xD


I want mai long hair backkkkk!!! But hopefully after this it'll grow nicely and no more split ends/ rough hair any more..


-End-

Today was fun!
We did our video shooting for presentation and stuff.. Not bad.. Now I'm doing video editing cutting out scene's from movies and animes to make it link together.. Power and discourse.. My part is about discourse and I dont know what the fuck is discourse.. DX lawl =.=;;

oh gawd.. so tired yet i wanna do this, eat take a nap and study later or do ethics assignment.. we have freagin 2weeks left.. sure die.. Rush like crazy from Livia's hse to yannie's house, then back home.. DX

Need to flim more parts 2mrw.. Aihs.. Really hope this presentation we'll nail it. 40%.. DX

Yesterday's group presentation was funny as hell~!
We wanna promote this video so that the whole KDU college will know them and, they'll be famous. Lmao. xD The guys dressed up as girl, and the girls as guys. xD

Here's only one of the video where my friend act as Marilyn Monroe and Michael Jackson (phail version), enjoy!

Class over at 5.. Long day today. DX

Woke up at 9.10 when class was at 10. Pro huh? xD I think it was easier to manage my long hair then short hair.. -_-" styling gel hairspray just to make it spikey a bit at the back.. But no thanks to rain, after first class it went flat down. Lol =.="

I feel weird when people stares at me.. =s today i went and fill petrol.. The guy came up to me and was like, 'Nak polish tayar tak, bang?' Translation; "Do you want to polish your tire, brother?" My mind just went, wtf?.. I actually pulled the look! Hahaha! I think till I open my mouth to answer then he was like, oh.. *walks away* xD

I kinda miss those stares I get from people when I wear sunglasses and my long hair.. ._." Oklah, my vain moment there.. hahaha! =x

Oh well, i can conclude that, finance is totally shit lah.. damn hard.. why did i choose finance.. argh D; Shall force myself to do ethics no matter what to night..

More updates later..