Sunday, October 02, 2011 ' ♥
the ended story; Sunday, October 02, 2011
I feel much better now despite the up and down emotions i had for the past few days..
I'm trying so hard to refrain myself from mentioning his name, bump into him, answer his call or whatsoever.. Had a heart to heart talk with my brother, Adil.. Thank you so much for your advice brother and I'm so proud of you.. You're one strong guy and definitely you changed ALOT! Adil made me think a lil bit deeper and he listed all the reasons on why I should SERIOUSLY move on and start meeting new guys.. I appreciate that alot, but I'm kinda lazy to meet or date new guys.. I don't wanna repeat the "kenal-kenal" cycle all over again.. Bloody lazy okay! Hahahaha..
I thank god for everything.. I'm blessed to have friends whom i regard as brothers & sisters.. We've been together since the early years of secondary school and i'm glad that we are still together, close as ever..
As usual, my girlfriend JULAIHA came up with too many theories.. But it was quite entertaining though.. NO, not gonna take it too hard.. Haha.. Thank you, JULAIHA, MARLY, BAHIRAH, ZAHIRAH, MAMAT, ADIL, ZAI & AZIZ for the company while my parents are away.. *hugsss* <3
Thursday, September 29, 2011 ' ♥
the ended story; Thursday, September 29, 2011
BFF is one great drama.. It affected me quite abit..
I'm unsure of my feelings.. I'm clueless.. But one thing for sure, i can't have you.. I'm just too tired to face up and go through the same old cycle.. I wanna give up.. No point saying I've moved on, I'm gonna be okay.. Its all shit! Someone new just step into my life right now.. I'm beginning to like him.. But still the feelings are just not clear.. Something holds me back, and it is YOU! Why can't i move on and start dating someone new? Just like what you're doing now? Why do you have to come and break my heart again and again? The damaged you've done to me is beyond words.. FATAL!
I can't seemed to bring myself to get over you.. Chances after chances.. Count yourself lucky! You wanna know why i gave you too many chances? Its because I LOVE YOU! Don't you get the hint? Oh wait, i forgot.. Eventhough you're aware, you still can't do anything about it. FCUK!
To that someone new who just step into my life, i just wanna say, i like you.. I know its just one sided, but at least now i realise you're someone who holds a special place in my heart.. I'm gonna let fate take its course for now..
Just when i wanted to get up on my feet again, your presence crushed it all.. Thank you!
