Because u are worth it. :)

Sharon. JIA YOU!!!

Have u met such a person?

A person that is the first to come into your mind the moment u wake up.
A person that you think about before you sleep every night.
A person you nv fail to thank God for.
A person that you want to share ur everyday details in life with.
A person that you want to be hugged by when you are feeling low.
A person who doesn't know why you are sad, but always bring a smile to your sulking face.
A person who is just happy to see you safe.
A person that you want to be the first to share a piece of great news with.
A person whose sadness never fail to make u sad.
A person whose simple smile can brighten up your day.
A person whose flaws just make him/her real.
A person that just come into your mind now aft reading these. --- I bet the person is special and impt to you in one way or another. Cherish the person and try to be "the person" for him/her.

Some times...

My hse recently got major changes.

Firstly... i first time hav Cable tv! haha! quite excited about it.. and i am now officially addicted to a few of the drama!

Secondly... MY sofa's Gone! :(
Mummy bought those old old wooden type~ rawr! i dun like. But is good in a way too. it is cleaner and easier to maintain this way too..

Next..
my parents changed their mattress! Hmm.. havent tried it.. hope is comfy!!! =D




Last month, I have a fren who still blogs was quite awkward about telling me that he still blogs.. he said is "old school".
Ya i admit it is kind of given that the trend was started back then about 9 years ago?
But still i enjoy living in this small world of mine. I get to be personal and record down what I really feel about things that are happening to me. In fact, im a tumblr noob! As for twitter, im just starting to learn how to use only...


Recently .. having many mixed feelings about things... knowing things i guess im not supposed to know.. cuz i will judge once i know.. *sigh* how do you stop yourself from judging?
Yet at the same time i find some ppl in my life v judgmental, I am not trying to label them, but sometimes i really feel like telling them that " do you really think you are that perfect? You arent Jesus. If you really arent, stop being like this and bitch about people. Do you know at the same time you are bitching about person A, there might be a Person B bitching about you. You wont want that to happen rite?" *breathe in, breathe out.*

-- END :)

its already 18 DEC 2011!

Bye Bye 2011 Soon~~~

and Hello 2012 ! :)

Puffy fish

When I can't sleep I used to listen to that song. Now tt will only make think of u and tear more.

Crying.

你只会看到弱者哭，因为强者通常过于自负而不会在他人面前落泪。

想珍惜的。

当你害怕失去或损坏时，你知道你不能没有他／它／她。

My only insecurity is I'm afraid one day u dun wan me. Not other things.

Busy.

Hai. Feeling busy everyday! :(

Stressed out in a way!

Anyone cn help me do citations? =x will b super grateful!!!!! Haha.

Btw I juz recently (being ENCOURAGED) to join AIESEC OC for jan recruitment. Hmm. I'm HGS/FIN! Kind of scare tt I will screw the budget up! Nvm! Muz Jia you!!!! And I m oso in the agenda manager position for the induction camp. Hmm. A bit stressed. Cuz our LC is famous for having good agenda. :((( 救命啊~

Anyway. (yup I blogging thru iPhone again~ I'm otw back frm first jan recruitment OC mtg. ) I went to ERCI d&d last night! Was awesome! ( mayb not for parts where the CEO talked. Sorry Bt his talking style is my appealing to me. Tts why. No offense. )
The CEO really knows how to give his ppl welfare. Treats the ppl well w yummy food and nice performance Even the emcee and lucky draw prizes are nt bad! They even hired a magian to entertain the guests w close contact magic tricks at the reception. Not bad eh~~~~

And really thank Suhuf inviting me to his plus one for the night. I first time tried Muslim 8 course-meal. Nt bad I muz say. Bt at Conrad!( so is expected?) i saw 变脸 first time in real life close contact! I was like *mouth drops open* brilliant! Haha. And was fun sitting at the special diet table. The ppl there are all senior than me. Also, w some being exam board/dep ppl makes me feel comfortable. Was pretty worried tt I wun fit in. =)

And muz thank Angel and Dolly! :D
They acc the nervous me! Haha.
And mr. Wan. For comforting and acc me before I go into the hotel. Had the usual I-wan-run-away feeling. Haha. Lucky they are there!!! :)

Thank God for them! :)

Random.

Nv lik the fact tt I'm feeling ultra sad in public places.

Because I'm too proud to cry in public.

:(

What's the matter w Kansas has nth to do w me. :(((

差距

有时不是很想想，但有些差距就算不提还是存在的。

:)

First Dinner @ Thai Express!!!

Yummy yummy!!!! Nom Nom!!!!

Went illuma.
Thai Express Thai Express!
Some one gt a thing for Thai food... I guess~~~

Haha. Blogging thru iPhone nw. So kind of can't arrange the put the pic!

Haha. Juz chi Bao!
Yummy. Full tummy!
:D

I gt blogger app.

Hello!!! Good news!!!! I juz d/l blogger app after updating my phone to ios 5!!!!

Awesomeness max rite?! Lol.

Yup I nw can use blogger as if using Wei Bo. 随时随地想blog就blog! :D

“@TheRealTaIk: Admit it. Often, you fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time."

Packed week AGAIN!

Hmm.. sometimes im thinking im i taking too much stuff...

But... i am only left with 6 months.. nt now then when? wait till im a 8 to 5 working OL? NO WAY!

Rather chui my results as usual than waste any moment of my uni life...

JIA YOU!
(I cfm is menstruation making me moody!)

Our second mini meet up during lesson break!

:D
Title says all. :)

Thank you for ur support!!!
I feel so lucky! :)

Why only 24hrs a day?

Hmm. For this who have been like seeing me in school or chatted w me a little would have realized that I went to join several events this year within 3months. Honestly, the feeling is shiok!

Haha. Because it is juz like how my life was lik during pri,sec n jc days! And because of tt I get back to my relationship with mr. Coffee/Teh/Yuan Yang. Though I admit it is tiring (nt as tiring as sec or jc times because of sch load demand), I'm enjoying what I'm doing! :D

But as the saying goes, you will meet ppl u least expected.

I met mine.

Honestly, kind of feel bad abt it. Everyday I only have 24hrs and more than half usually nt devoted to him. Sorry. Was really cuz din expect u to come into my life. :)

Every one has their own lives.

Hmm... if you noe me real well you will know that i will only contact frenz if im free.. even if you are not free i oso wun make a fuss out of it.. this is because i believe every one has their own lives and commitment ... no one owes me anything.. I do not expect every one to be free the moment that im free... even if u are the first person i call to ask out... i txt to ask out... etc.. im ok... therefore i will not react well when some one acts as if i owe him/her one...You no CCA... no other commitments.. no boyf/girlf.. not really my fault or my responsibility... why you giving me attitude just because im nt free.. or rather i dun wan / cant go otu with u ?

*Haix*

ok enuff of ranting.

Baby.

IMU.

Sometimes things happened when u least expected it to.

Just like how I met you, danced with you, talked to you, went out with you, know you better, study with you, and become close to you.

None of these was what I expected or knew will happen when we met for the first time.

Of coz. There are other unexpected things happened after knowing you.

Let's Jia You, Tgt ok? :))

Rmb what I told u last night( during midnight ).

Random entry.

Somehow.

Feeling insecure.

Juz need a space to rant.

*Tada* tts why I'm here.

Fish muz Jia you ok?

Life is nv called life if it isn't filled w challenges!

Face them. You can de!!!!

Unbelievable- David Craig

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now, I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-. I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means




But honestly... some times reality hits harder... 
and wished i had met u earlier in my life... but im still glad that i meet u now! :)

You are different.

Hmm.. i swore i really like never meet a person like you...

It is not those puppy love or every other feeling i get from other relationships..

Hmm... having serious thoughts abt it..

maybe i know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lastsand we've got to find other ways to make it alonekeep a straight faceand i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distanceand up until now i had sworn to myself that I'm content with lonelinessbecause none of it was ever worth the risk

I like the silence.

Rarely met a person who appreciates me being quiet and not the so-called noisy self...

the silence isnt awkward...

I like the feeling...

cuz it is like i can be myself no need to entertain anyone and sit there quietly...

Busy... and starting to feel exhausted!

results in :

I am really disappointed.

Hmm.. as the title suggested.

received some news today.. i am really disappointed.. was my first time doing Jazz piece yet important people in my life seem not able to make it... im really affected... suddenly feel that why bother to work so hard?

Maybe im really a little princess like bah...

Used to being pampered and appreciated by these impt ppl in my life...

Or maybe i PMS! haha! Perhaps really is my hormones making me emo... making me to be so bothered than usual.. but... I am really disappointed when u told me you cant make it... Hai.. maybe is God's will? everyone having their own stuff gg on...



But i really hope you guys are there... to see it in the better stage...

Life now.

Life is going the way i expected it to be and the way i wanted it to be.

But with a little something unexpected.

 Thanking God for every Moment w you! :)

Sharon be BRAVE!

SHARON 要加油！

A HUG~

A hug is like a bandage to a hurting wound.  ~Author Unknown

Never wait until tomorrow to hug someone you could hug today, because when you give one, you get one right back your way. ~Author Unknown

A hug is like a boomerang - you get it back right away.  ~Bil Keane, "Family Circus"

If you want a hug, why not trying hugging someone instead? - ME! 


人该活在当下，想抱就抱！;)

First Day of school- Fall`11 (29 AUG 2011)

HELLO!

Yup~ i just had the first day of my sch in Fall`2011! haha!

It started as per normal. i woke up at 930 then try my best to dress up and then still almost late for sch! haha!
first time in UB i crashed class.. ok second time.. the first time was v unintentional. Yup i went crash UGC211B! haha! Glad and nt glad i went. reasons being: i saw u! ( different u.) and i camwhore a bt with SQ! haha! was a really random juz take pic session!!!!

Then go to my own PSY324 class. haha~ UMA! is back! BUT HER STANDARD IS super high now! >.< argh! mus JIA YOU!!! :) i can i can i can i can do it!!!!!

Ooo! Highlight is in the night!
Met Brenda!!!! (& DEAR!) we went Groove for K Pop dance! so fun! nv really did listen to even K Pop music what more to say K Pop dance? haha! but is v fun! i like the instructor! and the dance! haha~ fun!!!

and Wan came to Suntec fetch us! aww.. ok ok~ then we had a simple supper at Yishun! :) Then he sent us back! n i gt a box of cookies! =D

heehee~

In short i blog abt this day cuz i wan to rmb this day! :)

but.. note to self.. always rmb past mistakes. ;)
Thank God for Wan, Dear and Brenda! :)

Last Day of my holiday!

Today is last day of my holiday!!! AWESOME! =D the pic below are in random order~ haha~ i try to arrange them in order~~~

went to RP watched Leader performed! haha! im proud to say i danced with him before! haha! NTU MJ Dancetitude 2011 Rawks!

 My first time making waffles! haha~ in THK with kids!  haha~ i swear i was equally as excited as the kids. even the teachers oso surprised! haha~ btw the teacher is teacher Steph! She is a very loving n nice teacher!!!! haha! like her loads! hope aft i finalized my timetable can go down find the kids in Orange 3. They are uber adorable!

 haha~ my fav n random pic of the short 2 weeks break. really random. but i like this pic. is my current twitter pic!

Did i mention a little yellow tailed bird flew in my hse ? Haha~ really random. i was preparing to head to THK then suddenly it flew in! haha! it flew ard my kitchen. but was not "at home" when i returned. ( REAL RANDOM!)

 MY SIS GRAD! haha! mentioned in last entry liao! and upload in fb liao. haha. but still wan post here! heehee~ some one commented tt my mum looks bubbly. does she?! :)

My latest family pic! :) u might know me super long ( more than 5-6 yrs) bt you might nv see my family before. im quite protective towards my family, like my hse no. hse address and who are my family members. Thus, explains why much of my frens doesnt know much abt my family. ok, maybe for my TKD  or clubbing frenz.

This is a real random pic! haha! i suddenly got urge to buy the red one! partly cuz my converse is officially chui gg to throw like real soon aft i get a new pair of sneakers. ( thinking canvas or this type.)but... i already hav a pair of red toms!!! haha.BUT BUT was a bit yi jian zhong qin~ shall look ard somemore before i really threw my converse away. maybe get another pair of converse? bt the ankle support nt tt good.. almost injured myself the other time while dancing in them... 

Lastly, this is my wallpaper for these few weeks!!! haha! nice rite! haha~ this oso very random! =p

That's all folks! shall try blog more often nowadays ( ok, hope im free oso! =x).

Conclude my these 2 wks: Thank God for everyone i met and everything i do during these 2 wks! :)

P.S: psst. if im free later in the night shall blog more of my tots during these 2 weeks ~ :)

MY Short 2 weeks Hols!

Boo!
Yup. as a SIM-UB kid. im only granted 2 weeks of holidays!
Hmm. if u do follow my foursq and fb check-ins i had been checking in, u will roughly get hows my hols like! :)

is a short 2-weeks break yet it made me think and learnt loads.

Here it goes:

My hols start off with 14th Aug MJ Dancetitude! OMG! is such an enjoyable concert! I went with Syazwan to watch and met Cat there!!! haha! is seriously nice! and im so proud tt both leader and Wenki is in the concert! I am so so so proud of them. haha. i enjoy looking at dancers dancing enjoyably on stage! From the looks in leader and Wenki eyes i can tell tt they too enjoyed it! :) Frankly speaking, at the same time i envy and look up to them. We sort of started dancing at about the same time, but im ashamed that i gave up halfway. Seeing their skills having achieved so much and gained recognition in their crew inspired me and at the same time made me feel kind of inferior. I oso wan to be like them. I wan and will push myself to my max! Sharon Go Go Go~~~

During the hols, I had volunteered in THK Epic Moral Center at CCK ( in fact is super near Yew Tee).
It is like a childcare/Nursery/ PAP like place where special needs children come to attend a 2/4-hr class learning basic ability to transit to special schools like Pathlight School etc. The kids there are like super adorable (damn seriously!). No matter how annoying they are and how naughty and messy they are, you seriously cannot bear to be angry with them! They are always so innocent looking and child-like!
However, there is always a part of me feeling sad for them and wonder why God brought them to the whole yet doesnt allow them to be in mainstream school . But, i strongly believe He always has his plans. 

Besides gg to THK, i oso met up with some random friends! Like juz ytd night, i met LIAN KAI EAT Tian Ji Zhou! It is at a very small and simple place! I like the environment and the FOOD of cuz! haha!

My Elder Sis also proudly graduated from SIM-RMIT! aww.. im so proud of her like seriously! I know she studied and did within her means in the degree. haha~ the pics r in my FB although i din show out or take many pic, im really proud of her.

I went to this very nice eating place near Bugis. it is a Middle East Restaurant Place. the food is super nice!!! haha. i went with AIESEC ppl. I am not officially in the CCA but i love the people. they are fun and nice, hope working with them is equally fun n nice! I made two Korean Frenz! they are so Korean! hah! lik really come to sg less than a few months / few weeks. haha. We went to play pool after tt and then Rocher Dao Huay!

Besides gg out and meeting frenz, i oso did some thinking.

I think many things in life can wait and i honestly wasted a lot of my time on useless stuff for the past few yrs. it is time to really set my priorities rite. Although it is very not my style and very hard for me, i will JIA YOU! Hopefully dun hav nonsensical things happening to me again. -.-! Seriously~ sometimes dun wan to waste time on ppl who think that they are adult and think they act like one~


I also wan to Thank God for all the great things tt happen and ppl i meet in this short 2 weeks HOLS! =D

Now then i realize.

二十二岁的我才刚发现我真的在浪费我的时间在不重要的事物上。

secrets.

Hmm.. Cog Psy is finally out of my life ! yeah! :)

Hmm.. dunno why juz suddenly feel lik posting my thoughts here.

My mind is getting messy again. as in there a few incidents happening in my life that makes me re-evaluating myself. To be honest, i am a person who is filled with secrets.

Sometimes.. i wish life had a reset button.. I often tell my frenz i wan to TMS, but to be honest, i really wan to hav my memory wipeout... at least tt seems like a reset button.. i can correct the many wrongs in a way..

another tot... (somehow i like the fact tt many ppl dun read my blog)
recently.. things happened.. i dunno hwo to handle really.. am i lik naturally attract this kind of ppl in my life to find fault w me? almost every stages of my life i bump into such type of ppl. im not really angry ( but yes. im offended) rather.. im just puzzled. can some one please tell me what i have done wrong this time? i really din intentionally do things. i can be scheming if i wan to, but obviously im not.. and that is why im offended.. if u r really tt bothered by these.. u shldnt hav left him... i noe im nt in the rite position to comment or criticize u ( mostly cuz i dun even noe whats gg on )...
i shldnt hav stalked his fb... because i saw the pics.. it hurts a little and makes me realize u n him shld b together... honestly u two look happy and compatible.. im just small n insignificant... im ok w that.. frankly, i like it tt way too.. because i know im just a plain Jane. :)

recently..

Hmm. Did i mention tt i was back to single life again? Anyway, I am waiting for my sis to b back frm work then we 2 can join parents at those hungry ghosts' festival dinners now. Hmm. i was thinking why not update my blog? (especially since there is many things happening to me! )

Hmm.. Anyway.. ya i recently joined this mini "Flashmob" event tt Tee Yien was in-charged. It was performed at OC. Made many new friends. hmm. ya.

okok. this gg to b weird but actually i typed this entry to make me rmb this particular guy tt met thru the performance. He is this v nice Muslim guy in the performance. Hmm. I like to call him mr. Awesomely Nice.

Hmm.. He is one of the nicest guy i met in UB so far. He is like as nice as my current clique ppl, or maybe even nicer. Hmm. is kind of a biased point of view from me bah. This is because there was this friday that i went out with him to mug and some uncommon things happened. The way he reacted and handled was really impressive to me. Ok. I have to admit some times im easily impressed, but i think was because he was a policeman during NS period resulted in the way he handling it makes me very impressed. Haha. And after that incident I started going out with him more often. Although I only know him for merely a month plus or so, i honestly find him a v nice guy and fren. 

Hmm.. ok this entry is really very very weird! HAHA! i mean if u are a regular reader ( i dun think hav much ) , you will realize above tt paragraph is very not me. BUT this entry is really kind of for him. haha~ so tt in case one day at a different stage of life, i might no longer contact him, i will still be able to rmb him thru this  blog entry! :)

Anyway, ytd he brought me to this very nice coffee place. it is LITERALLY a coffee place. is comfy and aromatic~ and the ppl working there are very nice! ( www.yahava.com.sg ) the Bosses are nice and the workers are friendly! they are v sincere ppl. you should really go down there and try!!! and the coffee is nice! 

This is Hazelnut Mocha. Pretty nice! but personally not a fan of mocha or hazelnut flavored drinks.

This is NICE!!! Caramel Latte!!! and so cute rite the cat! :)

 ( and i love this drink! )

Anyway~ im graduating soon... hai. i dun wan to graduate soon.. :( 

im not ready for outside work yet! :(

and i feel lik im just starting to make frens in SIM now. :(

hai~~~

又去喝酒了。

突然，了解了＂酒醉三分醒＂！

How do you know a person cares?

hmm...

as the title suggests how do u show that someone really cares for you?

I know my mum cares for me, not because she says so.
Thru the actions, despite the fact i keep spending her money on "useless" stuff!

I know my dad cares for me, not because he says so. ( in fact he nv says so when he is sober)
Thru the response he always give when I am down, despite me always being disrespectful.

I know my sis cares for me, not because she says so. ( all the more we nt mushy sister type)
Thru the fact she is anxious about my safety, despite me always annoying her.

I know my frens care for me, not because they write BIG BIG in FB I MISS YOU or I <3 U!
Thru the fact that they will always txt or call me personally when they noe im not ok, despite the fact im not 24/7 by their sides.


How you really really know someone cares?

酒。

突然了解为何有些人会借酒消愁。

好想大声说我爱你！

Title explains all!

Picture speaks a thousand words~

Emo-ing before bed.

Feel like ranting here like nobody's business.

Maybe some things are really wrong frm the start.

Maybe I should have predicted these and prevented them.

Maybe I am just thinking too highly of myself.

Maybe I need to seek self worth again.

Maybe I should really just ignore these.

Maybe you just dun care.

Because the whole world is there to comfort me,except you.

Even if I'm all alone.

Sometimes no matter how tattered and torn I'm.

Sometimes no matter how exhausted I'm.

Sometimes no matter how physically I'm.


I know God's always there for me. All I hav to do is juz seek Him. Although being mere a human being, I refused to, I miss Him.

了解

我不得不承认以前的我很贪玩。

无意间摔破了他人的心。

对那些人我只能说：＂对不起，我知错了。请原谅我的年少无知。”

可是，现在的我不想玩了。

我开始变得渐渐地认真起来，才发现失恋有多痛。

Rain.

I need the rain to clear my mind.

Realized that my principles had dramastic changes since I left JC.

Kind of feeling fearful.

Did I change? Or this is actually the real me that I have yet to discover?

I dunno.

But there is something I can be certianed about I have changed so much since JC, and yet my soft spot is still the same.

P.S: I dun lik to be ard my block void deck during rainy days because it reminded me of u.
And I'm starting to like the feelig of blogging here because I'm sure u almost nv come here.

加油！

哭一哭，擦干眼泪继续往前冲！

:))


是我吗？

你说我要求太多，于是我试着改。

你说我爱发脾气，于是我收敛。

你说工作忙，于是我就少发简讯。

你说很累，于是我就少找你。

可是，我毕竟是个女生，难道有些事你真的都要我提议吗？

虽然我看起来很坚强，但我也像其它女孩一样需要一棵“大树”。

疲惫时可以依靠、伤心时可以倾述、孤独时可以拥抱、高兴时可以分享。

最重要的是可以体恤我。

Am I asking too much?

我

不想再次独自伤心的回家。

不喜欢在车上让陌生人看到我无法止泪的模样。

HIMYM- Season VI

R.S:"The future is scary, but u cant run back to the past because it is familiar. Yes, it's tempting."
B.S: "But, it's a mistake."


Heed the advice?

可以是最后一次吗？

应该锁起的，但是没有。

应该放下的，但是没有。

应该忘记的，但是没有。

应该是最后一次了吧？(希望办得到。)

想念

突然发现原来想一个人是会想到瘋的。

胡夏-爱夏

会不会有一天四季全变成夏天
是不是这样你才会相信有永远看你靠着我的肩刚刚睡着的侧脸爱仍不断在我心里蔓延

爱上你第一个夏天你就问我爱会不会变
如果你想要去冒险我会不会给你一片天
你说爱情也许没有想像的永远才会有人忙着说再见

爱上你第一个夏天我就想给你整个世界
想带你一起去冒险想跟你一起接受考验
我的爱情并没有你想像的善变只是全都放在心里面

你不需要再跟别人去争奇斗艳
在我心里你永远是最美的夏天
不管季节怎麽变我都会在你身边爱你听你把你给宠上天

爱上你第一个夏天你就问我爱会不会变
如果你想要去冒险我会不会给你一片天
你说爱情也许没有想像的永远
才会有人忙着说再见

爱上你第一个夏天我就想给你整个世界
想带你一起去冒险想跟你一起接受考验也许爱情比你想像中的还要远
只要你愿意在我身边

爱上你第一个夏天我就想给你整个世界
想带你一起去冒险想跟你一起接受考验
也许爱情比你想像中的还要远
只要你愿意在我身边
我会陪你一直到永远

Un-break My Heart- ( Toni Braxton )

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Come back and bring back my smile

Come and take these tears away

I need your arms to hold me now

The night are so unkind

Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked out of my life

Un-cry these tears

I cried so many nights

Un-break my heart

My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye

Bring back the joy to my life

Don't leave me here with these tears

Come and kiss that pain away

I can't forget the day you left

Time is so unkind

And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heart

Come back and say you love me

Un-break my heart

Sweet darlin'

Without you I just can't go on

Can't go on....

Grey Shades.

起初，我只相信生命中的一切不是黑，就是白 。

然而，最近的我竟然渐渐地相信了灰色地带。

为什么? 我自己也有些困惑。

我开始观察周围的人，看看他们的 “灰色地带” 是啥。

结论：

每个人都有自己的“灰色地带”。
它是自己在某个方面，或事实上的一种“妥协”。
因为知道自己（或友人）无法像自己以前相信的那样办到“不是黑，就是白”的标准，而出现的。
它是 （能容纳它的人）的弱点，大半应是七情六欲其一吧。

简单来说，世界本只有黑与白，但因人而变得有灰。
只要你有人性，我相信你必定有自己的“灰色地带”。

我也不例外。

I am Greedy!!!

I want:

- Crumpler Bag ( big enuff for essentials)
- Aldo Sandals. ( heard is gd! )
- Canvas shoes (havent decided which type)
- OPI nail polishes!

大树

每个人的心中必有一棵（你认为）属于自己的大树。

在任何一块土地上，可能都能找到一棵着这么属于某个他/她的大树。

你跟这棵树初次相遇时，你未必认为彼此有什么不同的， 甚至认为这棵树有点碍眼。

但是，很讽刺地，你会莫名地，渐渐地，注视这棵大树。

当你看到大树被虫儿无损时，你会心痛。

当你看到大树茂盛时， 你会由心一笑。

当你看到大树有些枯萎时，你会感到悲伤。

当你看到大树就那么默默地站在那等着你时，你会感到欣慰。

当你看到大树为别人遮荫时，你会不是滋味。

大树就好像只属于你一个人似的。

因为当你伤心时，它则是第一个出现在你脑海的。

因为当你想一个人静一静时，你会不知觉地走到大树的枝叶下。

因为当你遇到不如意的事时，你会找大树哭述，发泄。

因为当你开心时，你会心致勃勃地冲去找大树。 

因为当你没事做时，你会捧着大水壶边浇水边跟他说你一天的经过。

虽然你知道他不一定能了解你种种心情，但是，你却喜欢跟他分享。

有个女孩好像曾遇到这么一棵大树过，然而，随着成长她忘了他的存在。

如今回头想去找一找他时，他好像不再是她的了。

因为当她遗忘他时，他少了这个照顾她的人，而开始枯萎。 

幸运的是，他找到了另一个比她还会照顾他的人。

而现在，那个小女孩也只能悄悄地在旁望着那棵不再是她的他。

Thinking hard...

Hmm... I am really impulsive by nature... but... i guess this time i will not be reckless bah... at least for another 7 days! =x

Busy Busy Busy in School... :(

Wow~ realized that I haven't been blogging for quite a while. After the Safari Zoo run... School has been so packed! 

Yup..I had my very first flashmob in SIM~ haha.. my partner is Jun Hao and joined with Aretha. Haha.. it is pretty fun.. and sort of bonded me with the UOL ppl .. :) and I am having another falshmob in School again this coming friday! 

Hmm... took one pretty fun mod called MGG300.. it is like sort of a wake-up call for me.. cause i nv realize the working world was more complicated than i thought.. hmm.. but i do find the mod relaxing and informative.. 

n Let me emphasize again how busy sch was!!! I almost forgotten about my own birthday! haha! seriously!

Today actually is my Lunar Bday... and the other is 9th this month.. haha. honestly ... I forgotten about it.. i was happily playing my iPhone the day before ytd then after an hr of playing or so .. i wanted to rest my eyes so i pressed the "home button" THEN I REALIZED was 4th March 2011! haha.. "my birthday is 5days away?" i asked my mum innocently.. then she was lik -.-! me and replied," What you think?".

Haha~ first time in my life i was so busy till i really forget my bday is coming.. 

okok.. enuff liao.. Tanner is here with my KOI le! =x haha~ i nxt time tell u my "YI JIAN ZHONG QIN" w Gong Cha~~ =x

Safari Zoo Run 2011 :)

Went to the Run TODAY! is AWESOME! :)

I enjoyed it loads! Special Thanks to : Thet Lwin, QP, Jin Hui, Jun Han, Ren Feng, Rathi! haha!

The post-run event was Steamboat at Crystal Jade in TPY! Pretty Awesome! =D HAHA!
125`06 Honestly rocks forever! :)

想法。

新年快乐! 不知不觉地又过了一年了，快要到兔年了!!!

最近，因为农历新年所以丢了一些收了有一阵子的东西。

忽然，我有所领悟：

世上是真的没有人会永远不离开你的。
因此更应该珍惜你身的友人，特别是把你心夺走的人。
因为他末必永远在你身边，你也不一定能一直待在他边。

Taylor Swift - Back to Dec~~

Hmm.. Today somehow was reminded of this song....

Taylor Swift
Back to December lyrics

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weatherYour guard is up and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mineI'd go back to December, turn around and make it alrightI go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't callAnd I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
Realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came,
The dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye 
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind andI go back to December all the time

My Thoughts: 

I think ppl once at a certain age would have someone tt would make them go back to dec. You might have found him/her ( tts v sad). You might have not (Thank God!).

But some times... without loss.. u wun realize how much u cherish tt particular person.. and yes.. sadly... we often can only dream of gg back to dec.. and not really undo our actions.. 

Honestly.. i think.. i have found such a person... i have always regretted doing tt particular decision.. since i totally lose the person for good... and frankly speaking... i noe my dec can nv b found again ... nth can change and make mi go back to tt dec... ( i wish i could ) 

Therefore ppl.. cherish those ard u NOW.. be it frenz or family or things!.. because lik wat i mentioned in last post.. they / you wun be there forever...

Oops!

Haha~ ya i noe!!! i noe!!! i havent been updating my blog! haha!! hmm.. wah my last post was from... LAST YEAR! (2010 NOV somemore. )

Hmm.. actually there is 2 major reason why i din blog...
1- lazy! =x
2- i gt iPhone!

Haha~ since i gotten iPhone ( btw my sis bought for me w her bonus ) i started neglecting my dearest Ferrari .. ( oh my i feel so guilty ) SORRY!..  if u notice i haven been active in FB and MSN either.. haha.. absorbed by the games and dating.. =x

haha.. okok.. now back to tradition.. let me summarise my 2010 a bit bah ..

Hmm... i had a few "incidents" and ... realize many things... and unfortunately so sort lost some frenz too.. all are the results of my bad management and handling ... SORRY...( hope u noe who i m talking about.)

Last sem (Fall 2010) had Dev Psy... kind of like walking thru my short life w/i 14 weeks.. understand a lot abt myself.. =x

AND i met someone i wanna Thank God for.. :))) shall not mention his name later he too happy... (But at the same time hurt some ppl in the process.. im really apologetic about it ..)

Hmm... anyway .. the yr 2010 ends w sth quite bad.. lucky was quickly settled before sch starts.. =x and and and i am starting try step out of my comfort zone trying to push a bit further.. hmm.. i dun wan to stuck lik now forever... i wan to grow... hopefully i can do it! :)

New Year Resolutions for 2011:
- Grow More.
- Have better grades.
- Carry on to improve on my punctuality.
- 变美.
- Trying to maintain all relationships with ppl.
- and You of cuz! :)))

That's all for now.. later got time i will update more .. promise.. =x i go hav my dinner now!! =D