Random Thoughts...

Was doing sth rather stupid ... then suddenly a thought came into my mind...

"You don't need to research to know more about someone. You just go meet the person with an open heart! :)"

*ouch*

*ouch*

deletion completed?!

Hmm... oh wells... ya... let's stay it this way bah... at least i noe tt u r happy with her now...

as i grow up ...

As i grow up, i start to realize many things are not always as simple as i thought... methods i tried failed, thus i always seek out new ways of solving issues i have or others are having.. Dr. Mala said is ok.. cuz ppl my age are like tt... but personally i feel tt maybe i think too highly of myself.. maybe things arent as simple as i thought them to be...

and... along the way of trying things... i realize... i start hurting myself.. and others around me.. without even realizing them.. until things gotten ugly... and perhaps.. things hav already been irreversible...

I have to admit something here.. given my character.. i sometimes do things out of impulsiveness... and.. more than often i regretted doing them.. so i wan to say sorry to this particular friend...

because.. i often tot i was "saint" enuff to do the right things.. help out in the right way... and always react to situation in the best possible way... but... somehow im wrong again..

I thought i could help u out .. honestly... but when i take a step back n look at the biggger picture.. realize.. i cant.. if force u to step out of the dreadful situation u are in now... i might land u in a worser state... perhaps... a state of emptiness.. because... i cant promise u or even perhaps give u the things that u tot i can or she is giving... that is when i realise i shld retreat from the situation.. n most importantly ... YOU.. maybe u will b a lot better this way... better than i forcing u out of the situation... i really dun wan u to b any sadder than now.. i sincerely wan you to b happy ...

n.. im sure u noe who i m toking about...

P.S: dun ask mi who the person is ok??? bt if u tink u are the person... I am Sorry...

A Day in my 4th SEM! aka. 2nd Yr Sem 1

Boo! wow. damn long din blog le! haha! =x OOps! n... i din noe Miss TAY would really drop by! =x

Hmm.. yup as my title suggests.. im now officially a 2nd yr in UB! =x haha. ya im now 2nd Yr 1st Sem STUDENT! =x

and.. i JOINED SALSA! ( ok i tink i mentioned this before in one of my previous entry) and and and since Tee Yien very nice.. i joined a modern dance piece.. is mixture of SIM student who are interested in it one.. =x haha. n .. for the first time in my life i tried couple dance.. as in really a guy n mi paired up and dance... ok pretty cool exp! n... also the guy lifting mi up in dance! OMG! damn scary!!! =x ( m i still controlling not to scream! )

and and and... this sem th mods i am taking.. i tink pretty cool ~~ cuz there is personality (PSY), Developmental Psy, World History adn an online mod! cool rite?! haha. ok la. to be honest.. i am supposed to b mugging for my first "quiz" for tmr!!! but.. i no mood study at all.. so tire recently.. very bad time management.. i tink i m having serious sleeping disorder!!! *hai* need to plan my time better!!!! *argh*

But ... some times even if u plan it nicely.. also will hav events juz pop up and disrupt it de ma!!! sian... i tink i really need stay in sch study.. and try to find more alone time for myself!!!!

oh oh !! recently.. im lik super addicted to this sitcom "How I met Your Mother" I tink damn nice!!

i love Barney!!!

ok.. enuff of my random-ness!!! =x

Try - Asher Book

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS:
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

hmm...

Hmm... YUP! is officially SIM-UB hols now! :) But i still gg back to sch for dance! actually I am quite Thankful that i joined Salsa in SIM.. Meet a lot of interesting people.. haha.. and yes!.. SALSA PPL are NICE!!! the instructor Gary is a fun guy too! haha. so is lik back to last time .. whereby i dun dread gg for CCA! :) simply cuz i like my Club! haha...

Hmm.. MY hols unfortunately.. only 3 weeks! >.<

Hmm... Got a lot of "house cleaning" to do! Got "things" to "clear"... and need find some damn gd pay job to prepare for next sem de BOOKS! *faints* Uni dun realize tt we are already forking a lot for fees le ma?? why the referrence Books req are so EXP! -.-! hear HR book costs $100 + and is less than 100 pages! *faints* i having second thoughts abt taking HR Mod le! -.-!

P.S : *sigh* Hope things are simpler...

Messed up Life.

Feeling more n more messed up recently..

I really hope things were simpler..

if only u made mi feel more treasured.. if only u din disappoint mi.. if only u din leave mi all alone at Vivo on tt day...

All tt will make things much easier for me.. n for my heart..

and Perhaps.. things will be simpler now? n i wun b tearing now?

Way Back into Love - Hugh Grant (featuring: Haley Bennett)

Way Back into Love - Hugh Grant (featuring: Haley Bennett)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Was listening to this song in Tanner's car the other Day...

Go google .. n find it .. is a nice song is from the movie " Music & Lyrics"

Nice n Romantic.. good for someone who is hopeful of love..

for me? Hmm... mayb not so relative bah..

After listening to this song... i was wondering... what if the lady really opened up her heart for tt guy ... n the guy nv make it there, on time or not? I bet she will be v disappointed... especially .. if she really tried very hard to... for mi .. im someone who comes to BGR very easily giving up hope type of person ... i tink if i were her.. i will be devastated.. so...

无论一个人多么可靠，也不可把你的心交给他。

Ok la. tts for my BGR ... bt for my frenz... im v supportive one.. it is juz me i noe.. so i wun try persuade frenz to hav this idea too.. so for frenz.. who are finding their way back into love.. 加油！For those trying to open up the heart of the lady/guy of his/her dream... 也要加油！！！！

Taio Cruz - Break Your Heart ft. Ludacris

Hmm.. nice song! =x

hmm...

not in a mood...

For some reasons.... i am really vex these few days... and... i really need some one who is genuinely sincere... Objective and... some one i am really comfortable to discuss about it...

If only... and.. i thought...

Summer II

Just Dropped PSY 429 last night!

first mod tt i flunk.. hopefully can have more time for psy 351 n score a B+ ???

Hmm....

歌曲：枫

歌手：周杰伦 专辑：十一月的萧邦
曲:周杰伦 词:方文山

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

hmm...

A person's indecisiveness .. will lead to hearts broken..

平时就算做事多果断，还是败在这次。

歌曲：退后

歌曲：退后 歌手：周杰伦

天空灰得像哭过
离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
嗅出我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法呼吸

抽屉泛黄的日记
榨干了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去被顺时针地忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过

最美的爱情回忆里待续

雨天

绵绵细雨让人不禁地想起许多事。

可能是心事，可能是往事，也可能在想些打破脑都无法解决的难题。

现在在望着那嘀嗒嘀嗒的雨滴的你在想些什么呢？现在的我，心与脑都一样地乱。

望着雨，在那儿发呆。忽然想起我常对某人说过的一句话。

心是个复杂的东西。应该锁好，不应再打开了。

过客。

Hmm.. in your life.. you will meet many diff ppl of diff type.. they might b some one u like... some u cant b bothered with .. or even someone who surprisingly stayed on till the last day of ur life...

I tink i found some of them already...

someone tt i like.. sop dear.. Hwee Sian.. Sabina.. Jun Xian.. Ai Ming... Wen Qi... Shi Hui.. Justina... Bing Ru...etc.. ( the list goes)

someone tt i cant be bothered with...

but ... i think ... at current stage of my life.. i cant guarantee who i wan to stay with mi till the end.. bt.. i noe for sure .. n really hope.. Sop and Hwee Sian... n Sabina.. will =x ( ok this getting a bit mushy liao) Juz somehow feel vvv appreciative of them.. Thank God for them.. each came in at a diff timing of my journey.. each helping and picking me up at different points of downs.. they are really Godsends to me...

当我很自在地在我相信是属于我的地方与世界时，我遇见了你。你动摇了我，你让我开始疑惑了。

Rebel.

REBEL.. a place where crazy things happened! -.-!

歌曲：沿海公路的出口

歌手：s.h.e 专辑：我的电台f.m. s.h.e

用一个火柴稍一场蜃楼

借这场大雨让自己逃走
慌茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走

用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收

倘若说放一次手就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷解脱

我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
留不住回忆却学不会放手
怎么走

s.h.e -安静了

作词:selina(任家萱)
作曲:周杰伦编曲:吕绍淳
专辑:我的电台 fm s.h.e

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的

如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆
你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一场雨
努力就有结局

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你爱着你的

脸颊的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

一首歌能够让你记得只有两个原因： 一 是因为它朗朗上口；二 是因为它让你有所共鸣。

plain entry.

*wah* haha. very long nv blog abt my boring daily life le..

Ytd was the course bidding for Fall 2010.. as usuaL! i nv get in wat i wan .. hmm.. nvm la.. cuz i was tinking .. maybe i shld b brave enuff and take a course alone ! =x after all.. all frenz are made! haha. so go there either Act Loner.. or go make fren bah~~

after Class ytd... went Clubbing with the Adel n gang! haha. Cuz.. is Queen de Bday! haha! Ya. she oso finally 21 le! haha. met this guy Called Joon Kiat.. wah he really male version of Casslyn lor! =x haha. damn funny guy lai de.. then as usual drink .. n drink .. n drink.. lucky no puke ! lik the v last time i drank..

then then .. today after lesson ( @ 12nn ) .. mi , Cindy, TAnner n Eugene.. went for Salsa.! haah. wat! first time in life .. find my body is so so so so not coordinated!!! The instructor (Gary) seems nice! haha. bt.. i vvv noob. he kept correcting my movements! *faints* n.. gt this senior call Gerald.. vv nice oso .. offer to help mi a bit with the steps.. haha.. the world is full of nice ppl sia!!! =x Thank God for them! :)

Yes! as u might have predicted.. lesson.. clubbing... lesson.. dance pract.. IM SO EXHAUSTED NOW!!! *faints* (going sleep soon le!!!)

Nights! =D

P.S: i am so proud of myself ! =D

Jason Mraz - I am YOURS

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

and now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing

we´re just one big family

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

Hmm...

"I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance"

Risk it or leave it?

Start it or end it?

What really matters?

I just want things to be simple.

These are just my thoughts. :)

第二顺位

歌曲：第二顺位
歌手：罗志祥 专辑：潮男正传
作词:严云农 作曲:曹轩宾

一直是我陪你去躲回忆里的雨
你无心的叹息有心碎的声音
他的好他的坏他的不安定
他的故事是我和你爱情里的乌云

从我爱上爱他的你那个瞬间起
一直是雨天你只爱雨天我用伞保护你
亲吻着你苦涩味道的微笑
闭着眼睛我明白你想念他的秘密

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去

我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

聆听你说抱歉多过你说我爱你
你困在雨里我困在雨里我的伞湿淋淋
『没关系』是我最常说的一句
就让我等就算我冷至少我陪着你

世上最离奇与微妙的事，便是爱。

我。

我没有你想像的那么坚强，同时，我也没比你预料中脆弱。

人。

最近，我频频跟朋友开某个玩笑。

结论：人是善变的。

就这样。

迷茫

最初的感动。

每当自己有些许的迷惑时，我会告诉自己不要忘了最初的感动。:)

第一百天！ :)

贪心

Hmm...

突然发现自己最近好像变得有些贪心。

As to why i am becoming greedy.. i dunno ..

I just hope I wun become anymore greedier...

Cause I believe Greed destroys.. Greed makes a person insecure.. Greed changes a person .. I think I have changed enough already.. since young.. I dun wan to get trap in the identity crisis again... I love my current life.. n current self.. i dun wan to get lost again...

:)))

I love my frenz.. they are damn nice!

Thank God for you!!!!

经典爱情哲理故事

一天，一个男孩对一个女孩说：“如果我只有一碗粥，我会把一半给我的母亲，另一半给你。”小女孩喜欢上了小男孩。那一年他12岁，她10岁。
　　过了10年，他们村子被洪水淹没了，他不停地救人，有老人，有孩子，有认识的，有不认识的，惟独没有亲自去救她。当她被别人救出后，有人问他：“你既然喜欢她，为什么不救她？”他轻轻地说：“正是因为我爱她，我才先去救别人。她死了，我也不会独活。”于是他们在那一年结了婚。那一年他22岁，她20岁。
　　后来，全国闹饥荒，他们同样穷得揭不开锅，最后只剩下一点点面了，做了一碗汤面。他舍不得吃，让她吃；她舍不得吃，让她吃！三天后，那碗汤面发霉了。当时，他42岁，她40岁！
　　因为祖父曾是地主，他受到了批斗。在那段年月里“组织上”让她“划清界线、分清是非”，她说：“我不知道谁是人民内部的敌人，但是我知道，他是好人，他爱我，我也爱他，这就足够了！”于是，她陪着他挨批、挂牌游行，夫妻二人在苦难的岁月里接受了相同的命运！那一年，他52岁，她50岁！
　　许多年过去了，他和她为了锻炼身体一起学习气功。这时他们调到了城里，每天早上乘公共汽车去市中心的公园，当一个青年人给他们让座时，他们都不愿坐下而让对方站着。于是两人靠在一起手里抓着扶手，脸上都带着满足的微笑。车上的人竟不由自主地全都站了起来。那一年，他72岁，她70岁。
　　她说：“10年后如果我们都已死了，我一定变成他， 他一定变成我，然后他再来喝我送他的半碗粥！”
　　70年的风尘岁月，这就是爱情。

这就是所谓简单的爱吧~

《窗 》

《窗 》
有个太太多年来不断抱怨对面的太太很懒惰，“那个女人的衣服永远洗不干净，看，她晾在外院子里的衣服，总是有斑点，我真的不知道，她怎么连洗衣服都洗成那个样子......”
直到有一天，有个明察秋毫的朋友到她家，才发现不是对面的太太衣服洗不干净。细心的朋友拿了一块抹布，把这个太太的窗户上的灰渍抹掉，说：“看，这不就干净了吗？”
原来，是自己家的窗户脏了。

http://zhidao.baidu.com/question/130834233.html?fr=qrl&cid=1098&index=1&fr2=query

I am a Bless CHILD :)

Hmm... I cant help but thanking God for all the blessings this sem...

I tink He seriously has an agenda for sending me to SIM-UB.

Hmm.. today was a great day (11June2010)! :)))

Had Psy 250 exam2 in the morning.. then grp Presentation during PSY 431.. then... the best part of the day came.... Met Boyfriend! heehee

we watched KILLERS!

haha.. quite a funny show... gd for married couples to watch too.. pretty funny.. kept laughing...

the second best part of the day came...

HAD BAH KUT TEH FOR DINNER! wahaha!!!

I drank a lot of the soup!! i like!! =x

shit.. is so addictive.. i like.. wanting to drink again liao!! heehee

the third best part of the day came..

MY SIS WASHED MY BEDSHEET FOR ME!!

and.. SHE oso CHANGED IT for mi!!! OMG! =DD

I love today! MUACK!

Nice song! Right here waiting for you.

Right Here Waiting for You BY Richard Marx

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

The Past week..

hmm..

我是一个拥有很多秘密的人。

隐藏在我的秘密不仅只有我的秘密。

haha.. recently.. i had been constantly reminded of the show " the Secret Keeper". MAybe i shld set up a booth lik hers rite? haha..

Wah.. recently.. damn sad.. cuz.. haven really tried nice n good food... partly due to the timetable.. n partially due to the fact that my house downstairs market had been closed for renovating!!! :((((

I WAN EAT NICE FOOD! :(((

Xing Fu

Hmm..

人常说:“ 幸福不是必然的。”

So i wanna Thank God for you! :)

Hmm.. i had a wonderful week..

Thursday was a horrible day.. cuz wed night i feel fatigue and sleep early without mugging for thurs paper..n i dun hav enuff time to complete mugging.. Hai... n when i was starting to feel depressed， i had a surprise Breakfast "delivery".. Heehee.. Sweet rite? =x

wanted to write sth chim one.. haha.. somehow dun really make sense n deleted them! haha!

shall end with

"Love is shown in your deeds, not in your words." -- Fr. Jerome Cummings

I love you! >.<

The world?

每当我在脸书看到你和她的合照，我越是感觉得到人世间的讽刺。

人往往都不在做自己想要的事，尤其随着时间慢慢地成长。

小时候，知道小孩子不能没大没小，学会了乖。

小学时，知道了小六会考的重要性，学会了读书。

中学时，知道了自己算半个大人，学会了责任。

初院时，知道了人生是在自己手中，学会了规划。

大学时，知道了人性的丑陋，学会了自我保护。

踏入了社会时，知道了江湖的生存之道， 学会了“人在江湖身不由己”。

我们一直被周围的一切控制着。

它推你，它逼你，它要你走着大家都在走的路。

你何时才不会因为外界捆着？何时才为自己想想？想想最 初还小的你想要的是什么？

朋友，你真的要这样下去？我好像开始看不清你到底快乐吗。

worried.

Hmm.. is ok tt ppl pissed mi off.. cause.. it is a test or rather trains my patience...

BUT IS NOT ok.. that someone made my Best Fren sad.. !!!

Finally! a new skin after so long!

HAHA! yesh! i so happy!!! Haha!

You know why? cuz i finally managed to change my blog skin! haha! after lik since January i had always wanted to change my blogskin! finally! changed!

WooHoo!!! =D

heehee...

Oh today.. coincidentally met JJ in SIM food court! with Jian Hui and Amanda! haha! aft class i went NP Lib wait n find him! haha.. being a nice ADHD KID! he acc mi to City Hall n acc mi played pool! haha! n i seriously tink he pulled back a lot... cuz i won quite a few rounds! haha! NVM! wo hui zia jie zai li!!!

After that i meet up with mum n went to pay respect to Prof Goh Keng Swee. Yup.. the "Pioneer" of Sg.. hmm.. although i m always now following politics stuff... bt i watched the documentary on him.. hmm feel sad.. feel the loss.. hmm.. i almost teared when i saw his body lying there in the Parliament house. Hmm.. he is a Great GUY! RIP !

TMR IS SHOW LUO's Concert! woohoo! ok technically is 18 hrs later!!! yup!!! i am gg to watch it with Ying Sheng! a pretty random combi! but.. im still gg anyway! haha!

ohya! Wan Ling is working tmr!! haha! Serve mi well hor... is not i go sistics complain you! =p

heehee...

quote from Shu QIng: " ah Lao .. wo men ming tian jian! =D"

Sorry Dude.

Hmm.. yup. Summer sem started officially for mi ytd! damn stress-ed up .. the irony is that i m having one modules on STRESS! haha. teaching mi the negative effects of stress! argh!

Hmm... Books books books. bought all the books i needed for Summer1! cost mi $100 plus! argh! no money liao. damn broke! although mum sponsoring.. but still feel bad abt using her money.. hai..

Life sucks. cuz i had been making the similar mistakes to make mi fren upset with mi . hai. dunno what is wrong with mi .

will be participating in YOG flashmob! supposed to b tmr one. bt somehow was cancelled. *sad-ed* bt there will b another on 29th May... Hmm... hopefully can join.. juz for the fun of it...

Hai! tmr will b on Chap 3 le. n i haven started Chap 1 !!!

argh!

argh!

Hmm... though life seems sucky... Thank God for you! :)

当心情低落时。

坦白说，我这几天心情并不能说上是好，思绪也很乱。*叹*

昨天又发生了莫名其妙的事情。*叹*

好想快点开学。

开学后，这一切就会被忙碌的课业掩盖了！ :))

有秘密的世界。

这街上太拥挤 太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪 在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

-- 《我不配》

最近脑海里常常都有有首歌，心中的情绪也很复杂。

我好像懂得太多了。

怎么办？

MY uni Life.

Hmm... recently i realized sth .. sth abt mi ...

Hmm.. life after my 20 had been quite unimaginable for mi ...

many things i nv dream that will happen ten yrs ago.. happened to me!

haha seriously... a lot! haha.. n i just cannot forget how blessed I am .. How God has Blessed mi in every single little thing.. from small hiccups.. to big CMI.. like.. wah.. He damn zai ! Helped mi .. assisted mi .. guided mi ... although i no im a sinful person .. HE is there all along .. now i need is the passion to be back .. n the discipline which i hav alway been lack of... some believer out there .. pray for me can ? hai...

anyway... i find my uni life pretty fun n loving! given that i have so many nice frenz around mi( thank GOD) helping me whenever im in need.. n we always try to stretch out hands out just for one another.. the feeling is damn zai! like.. 125`06 feeling like that.. I am glad they are there while i am still searching for my own identity.. i realize im still pretty lost as to who i am .. perhaps cause i am too random?

hmm.. besides great frenz.. i also wanna Thank God for some of the nice lecturers I have! seriously .. (SOME of them) are nice.. or shld i say HE kept me out of trouble! He helped this always clumsy and absent-minded girl (me) out of trouble in uni... n He helped mi back on the track to the journey of getting the grades i wan... i dun bother what other says about Him.. cause i noe he is real and true.. even though some might bad-mouthed Him...

hmm.. besides.. frenz.. and lecturers... i wanna Thank God for u.. haha... story arent pretty long.. bt kind of complicated? ( maybe..) .. used to intersect one another's life.. parted.. took a very different path... yet somehow.. we met at another junction of our lives again.. i am not gg to b mushy abt it .. just wanted to tell God a simple Thank You for u ... although the decision made was kind of reckless...and now is just the start of everything... hopefully ... there will be no ending.. =x

Hmm... life's good... God's been kind to me... I just pray that He will spread his kindness to all my frenz in my uni clique.. esp those He knows that currently are in trouble.. God.. help them ok? let them feel that You are real.. n You are zai...

A line i will never forget ... although the person said this to me might have forgotten it .... :

"Miracles are God's way of being anonymous."

so hope you will start experiencing miracles too! :))))

CSE 111

Very emo and not confident for tmr's paper.. haix...

Hmm.. anyway went Sheng ye's chalet ytd.. haha.. it is his 21st bday chatlet..

is fun and nice! haha.. :))

But now too emo abt tmr.. dun really hav mood to blog much happy stuff...

Die.. how?

although CSE111's notes completed.. but.. so not confident... hai... sian...

juz realise i dun hav this sem's mid-terms result.. -.-!!!

argh..

need someone to let mi destress... :(((

Bore.

Hai.. Very bore!!! :(( no motivation to study! when i shld b mugging! >.<

Please.. someone er.... chase mi away frm FB if u see mi there!!

Haix.. muz mug,... need motivations... nothing to look forward to !!!

:((((

Realize i missed out a lot in my life! I wan to do so many things.. yet so little time!!! argh!!!!

*sigh* nvm... time to get back to work . or indulge myself in Luo Zhi Xiang le! =x

歌曲：同一个遗憾

歌曲：同一个遗憾
歌手：纪佳松&潘玮柏

专辑：首张个人创作专辑

剩下我们 坐在岸边
看着她越走越远
白色星星 迎着海面
沙滩好远

而她的心去了哪里
我们都无能为力
是谁的手能牵她回来

tell me she knows
I don't think so
爱上了同一个遗憾
恍然明白
那时候为何要
对彼此为难

tell me she knows
cause I could't think so
我们都不属于她的爱
不能重来的伤害
我们都学会了释怀

嗯。每个人一生中应该多多少少遇到类似的事情吧？

跟自己的好友同时为了某件事或某个人而竞争？

但是，当一切都过了后，回头想想：“值得吗？”

Sleep Early.

Hmm.. promised someone that i will b sleeping early tonight! So... im off to bed now.. :)))

ohoh~ ya.. i now having study breaks no more stressful rp or proj or report!!! so ya.. i will try get my bio clock back to normal ! =D

nights all!!!

n for those having competition tmr....

JIA YOU! =DDD

Fri Sat Sun w/o u! :(

Hmm... I am kind of stressed up.. and yet...happy... shit! im i getting bipolar?! =x

Hmm... life's Been kind to me... haha.. or rather.. is God has been Kind to me! =D Giving mi so much wonderful things and ppl in life.. whenever i feel despairs.. hope is always at the corner of the road... :)))

Thank God for them !! =)))

my lifestyle as a student seem to be back on track or rather is cfm on track le!!!

BUT! WED marks the last day of this sem!! =x

ok.. my tis sem results honestly quiet chui.. i move on liao.. hopefully dun drag down too much of my GPA jiu hao.. haix... next sem i muz jia you!!! muz get dean list!!! =x my aim in UB! :)))

Hmm... ESL RP looks very chui oso... asked AiMing helped mi with checking... hmm... later gg service.. uni one.. for the first time.. hope ok... hmm... tts all for now.. off to my CSE report n my Essay liao.. bye bye! =DDD

Hmm... reason to smile!

mmm... dunno what to say...

haha.. think Hwee Sian has a way to cheer mi up in a unique way!

LOL.. hmm... i miss Hwee Sian ICon! haha.. only she knows is wat!!!

ok la.. after 2 hrs of emo-ness.. im fine now! :) ( although Air wasnt much of help. =x Thanks! )

RP!!! here i come! :)))

不能让幸福冲昏了头。

因为世界上是没有永恒的。

是时候恢复原本的信念？

习惯了一个人的生活。

莫名地有了他人的键入。

理智好像又在作祟。

有你真好。

歌曲：有你真好 歌手：范玮琪

这时候最能让我想起你
多希望你在这里
你总是愿意把你的手心借给我握紧
该往哪里

我总是依赖着你
你是我的方向感
我可以确定
你会带着我朝对的方向前进

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
你能让烦恼变得渺小
我遇见一个最懂我的人
我会提醒自己
把这份爱收好

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手就知道
我不是一个人在这世界停靠
因为我拥有你在我心里

i'm thinking of you 有你真好
thinking of you
该往哪里
我总是依赖着你
你是我的方向感
我可以确定
你会带着我朝对的方向前进

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手就知道(我就知道)
我不是一个人在这世界停靠
因为我拥有你在我心里

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手就知道
我早已经没有任何缺少
因为我拥有你在我心里

i'm thinking of you 有你真好

i'm thinking of you 有你真好


____________________________


放手一博，希望真的会幸福。

I cant forgive you.

Hmm.. im in a super good mood today... reason? unknown!

haha..

Maybe cause i was early for school even though i was late for bus?

Maybe cause i brought my sec 1 bag to sch ?

Maybe i sat beside Sab n chit chat with her during ESL..

Maybe cause i had nice Nasi Goreng Kampur for lunch ?

Maybe cause someone bought mi Eclipse Mints (Blackcurrant)?

Maybe cause i tried nice durian pancake?

Maybe cause i watched Being Human with Someone?

hee hee.

In short.. Today is a great day! =D

off to reading data now! =)

An entry.

I juz realized i haven really been blogging since my bday! haha...

My bday actualy still has a lot to write down.. bt then .. given my character i wun be blogging things tt had happened too long( a week ).. so i m nt gonna blog about it.. it is all in my heart can le! =D

Recently, managed to get my life back as "Nerdy Fish" Track.. haha. ok i admit i still go out as often for supper n midnight shows.. bt now at least i will have more sense of urgency towards my academic stuff. hai. but i am still quite sad about how badly i fare in my SOC101 n CSE111 quizes n mids. Additionally,since my research paper is still nowhere to b found in my laptop... meaning.. i haven even started writing!!!! ( i gg write aft this) there is no way im nt feeling stress n not having the sense of urgency...

Just now Sheng Ye commented mi as a changed girl.. cuz i asked him pray.. mm.. i gt a funny feelng frm reading it off the screen aft he typed.. mm.. ya.. im gonna do sth abt it.. (i have been tinking abt it since CNY.) i haven really found a suitable person to talk to. mm... i will try to do sth abt it... i hope guidance will appear to mi on its own .. =x

oh ya ! i m lik starting to plan things for myself now.. for now i will try save a $200 by next sem.because i m gg to sign up for the dance classes in SIM n also for the books i need for next sem (heard is damn exp). n.. i m having headache with next sem timetable.. why so chim one!! tmr gg to consult Sabina abt it..

oh oh .. i lik rarely mention Sabina! haha .she is my new found SIM fren since last sem. Haha. i think she very zai one ...very reliable and very nice..very kind-hearted n friendly.. n understanding.. at least our frequency is similar!! haha!! hope can get into same class with her next sem.. actually i feel kind of useless n bad .. cuz lik i am older than most of the gers in my SIM clique.. yet they are lik all taking care of mi lik im the youngest one.. bt i very gan dong la.. they really very nice ppl.. Thank God for them man!!!!

Hmm.. recently.. i wanna Thank God for another person.. You noe who u r ... haha. cuz i gt personally sms n inform the person .. Really Thank God for you. hopefully things turn out well. Although is feel as if im having these as hallucination of my own.. i noe they are real. haha. very unbelievable esp if i were to think abt it maybe 5 yrs back, and what happened last night. :) But like i always tell u ... dun think so much .. just go ahead n do it.. If things are gg to turn out not well one day, we shall think of a solution together, right? :)

OFF TO RESEARCH!

i will try write at least a page by tonight!

Hopeless.

hmmm..... today my lunar bday! my ah Bu cooked mee sua n eggs for me! =D

Hmmm... I juz realised i havent even make any Bday wish for this year! so sad... =((

Hmmm... suddenly ... very emo.... many things on my mind... haix.. in life why need make so many decisions?

Hai.. Grades Grades Grades....

心

人的心好像比想象脆弱。

我一向来都知道自己的心比他人想的还脆弱，所以要Guard 好。

好担心越是容易得到的幸福，越是轻易消失。

I feel stupid...

Okay.. i feel stupid.. i edited the posts 4 times before settling with this.

hai... since when i cant voice my tots in my blog...

Burdened...

Sucky Thursday!

Today is very sucky!

hmm... morning had a Sociology essay paper.. wrote totally out of point. shit! hopefully my nice n friendly instructor wun penalise do much ...

afternoon .. CSE Mids.. another chui paper.. really dunno how to do.... suddenly i lik mental block lik tt.. come out all my frenz lik comment n saying answer as if it is pretty managable! feel v depressed...

my GPA!!! already below 3 liao...now.. lik this more chui ... deen list lik v far frm mi liao.. hai...

25 Minutes

(Music & Words: Jascha Richter)
After some time I've finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done
I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's crying while she's saying this

Chorus:
Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late
Against the wind I'm going home again
Wishing me back to the time when we were more than
friends

But still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she cried while she was saying this
Chorus
Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said
I can still hear what she said

nice! haha.. Love Micheal Learns to Rock! =D

歌曲：勇气 - 梁静茹

歌曲：勇气 - 梁静茹
词:光良 曲:瑞业

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

Went to K box last fri with Elson, SW,CL, RC n MY

haha.. Treating it as a mini bday celebration with them.. haha although is i yi xiang qing yuan one.. haha...

then Elson commented tt this is the only song i sing seriously one...
when being questioned why ... i cant really give answer....
Perhaps juz cuz the lyrics say it all???

anyway is a nice n meaningful song! =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

Wahaha~

Yes.. Dun doubt.. I am twenty one now! like SUPER DUPER OFFICIALLY!!! haha!!!

I somehwo manage to give myself a present with kind soul donating to "Sharon's 21st fund".. haha...

celebrated with 133`07 Gers at Hard rock cafe .. damn cool exp..

n dear ,adel, brenda , serchin, rc at Hall 2 haha!

so cool!!!

I nv feel so pampered on during bday b4...

I shall pamper myself more! haha.. i gg to treat myself super nice today!! =D

hee hee. tts all tmr gt time i shall blog more!

Show Luo! =) 习惯就好

Nice n emo song! haha...

歌曲：习惯就好
歌手：罗志祥 专辑：罗生门

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃

我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡
习惯就好习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒

习惯就好习惯就好
一个人在雨里继续的奔跑
却发现再也听不到自己的心跳
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒~

一秒~

歌曲：一个像夏天 一个像秋天 歌手：范玮琪 专辑：我们的纪念日

歌曲：一个像夏天 一个像秋天
歌手：范玮琪 专辑：我们的纪念日

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形

你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密
_________________________________________________


Hmm... nice song rite..haha.. delicated to my dear! =)

Anyway.. past few days had been eventful for mi .. so happy .. so sad... so tire.. Fusion of all emotions...

Hmm.. I miss you dear!! I miss YJ Time so big time! I miss always hearing ur voice in sch... I miss ur emo-ness!! I miss your enthu... I miss you pestering mi ... I miss I disturbing your studies... I miss writing 坏人 on ur paper... I miss juz sit there watch u play Bball.. I miss scolding you... I miss all the daily hugs from you...

Shit... I tink i PMS liao... so emo suddenly...
haha...
bt the msn converse with dear maks mi miss her a lot!!! haha... =x
Thank GOd For you! =)

Hai.. Love..

Love is not a game for the prideful ones. And I am a prideful person. Oh well..

SOPHIE IS ATTACHED!!!

BOO!



today started with a lousy mood.. heavy head... puffy eyes... sad n emo long bus journey... bt juz now .. at 1009 on 01032010 something wonderful happen.. or rather im informed!!! wahah!! i so happy now .. if i now in YJ i tink i will lik crazy go round telling the whole sch!!!



Sincerity did pay off well dude! IM SO HAPPY! haha...



The Two of u make my day u noe? haha... if nt i will b having a ultimate dark blue monday!



I so happy la.. I feel lik jumping around!! haha... You shld Thank God i not in YJC now!!! haha...



I so happy!

I so happy!!

I so happy!!!

I so Happy!!!

HAPPY!! yeah!!!



Shit.. im like spamming ppl with Happy mood n in my blog too!!! awww...!!!!!



so happy!!!

so Happy!!!



=D

=D

=D

=D

=D



haha... bt as promise i diin mention ur name!!!



haha

haha

ha

haha

haha



im happy ...



but.. sadness of ytd still linger.. only tt the happy news overwhelm it for the day!

haha

haha

haha



today feels lik 3yrs back when u sms mi u first shoot in a 3-point ball lik tt.. only.. tt.. today is much much more happier! =D



You two muz give Thanks to God hor! haha!! =D=D=D=D

眼泪流一流就没事了。

ku yi ku.

jiu hao le.

:)

I love technology...

How will my 21st be like?

Hmm.. yup.. i shall advertise here.. that in abt tens days time i will be 21st...

Hmm.. looking forward yet not very excited at the same time... no fancy stuff for mi.. Honestly .. im envy of ppl who has special bday celebrations and awesome 21st or 18th bday celebration.. im usually alone on my bday ... not including those days where my maternal grandpa was still ard where i will usually go over to his hse.. and have a feast n big nice Garfield cake.. i miss those times.. come to tink of it i nv realise until now that all my bday celebrations with family come to a stop since his departure... i miss him... * sigh*

anyway .. back to my bday... so ya.. ppl might tot i hav planned loads of stuff or etc for my bday... or with bf.. ( i admit i used to b often attached..) but.. frankly speaking it was otherwise... hmm.. i guess this yr 21st will b pretty much the same.. i wanted to hav a chalet when someone gave mi the hope of booking it for mi .. bt things din turn out well.. i wanted to hav a bbq.. bt.. i noe is damn exp... i dun wan my mum pay for it... cuz im lik BIG TIME leeching her already with school and stuff.. hai.. for once ..i wished my parents are better off than now... cuz i really wan a special bday for my 21st... ( im nt blaming them honestly..) ... i mean im content with having such a loving and self-less mum.. i really Thank God for her.. bt... nvm .. :)

other than financial ... actually i hav another stronghold.. is _____.. hai... i dunno how to say... is juz very de-moralising to noe tt if i were to have a party ______ will be there..n i juz cant be myself with _____ around.. and i noe i wun b enjoying at all...

so .. i think tt sums up to those who were asking mi why m i having a peaceful 21st?

Since im nt having any celebrations... im nt having high hopes on Bday gift...
So.. i tink a "Happy Birthday" via sms will b enuff for mi .. :)
Please dun fb mi .. i dun lik fb wishing actually! haha!..

Playing with Fire.

Fish should stop playing with Fire. Later Fish will really gt fried.

The thrill and enjoyment when first started approaching the fire .. is nice..enjoyable... interesting.. etc...

BUt at the end of the day .. Fish will realise how hurt she will be ....

So... Fish... you better stop playing with fire.... before anyone gets hurt....

my greatest stronghold.. afraid of sadness in anyone.

in a relationship..

I chance upon this blog.

She is an acquaintance to me.

I dun really know what tragedy that she has been thru.

But i noe her man has let her down...

he has the cheek to come back and ask for her return aft wat he has done to her..

when i say let her down isit lik child's play.. lik kid lik tt type( betray her.. or left her during his NS or sth on par) i mean major let down.. he left her when she was helpless.. he abandoned her when he was at fault too..

i feel sad.. why.. often when a ger entrusts herself to a guy.. things like this happen?

i am not very hopeful..
Things like hers often happen.. it is very saddening...

I mean is very normal that one enjoy the feeling of being in love.. but... can ur heart really be able to go thru all the sharp pains.. esp when u noe that things are changing??? or when ur ONE abandoned you when you desperately need Him/her?

That is why for some.. they back out once they noe things are different.. becuase no matter how tough they may appear.. they are more afriad than anyone to get hurt in a realtionship...

but some still struggle and end up hurting themselves and the other parties...

what would u do ? the former or the latter?

From Carmen's Blog.

一棵开花的树
(席慕容)

如何让你遇见我
在我最美丽的时刻　为这
我已在佛前　求了五百年
求他让我们结一段尘缘

佛于是把我化作一棵树
长在你必经的路旁
阳光下慎重地开满了花
朵朵都是我前世的盼望

当你走近　请你细听
那颤抖的叶是我等待的热情
而当你终于无视地走过
在你身后落了一地的
朋友啊　那不是花瓣
是我凋零的心

My 21st.

Hmm... next entry shall be abt my 21st..wanted to write now.. bt too tire!

WAHAhA!

Anyway...went help out DEAR at NTU BIKE RALLY! woah! haha... so cool... Frm ECP to esplanade area to LAB park to (SGH) NTU to Kranji To Yishun to Bowen to Serangoon TO Changi to ECP again! =D
I am so proud of Dear, Ren Feng , Qi Ping and Rong Choon!

Dear so capable is the ic of such major events.. though gt hipcups here n there...it is still a great event! =D =D =D dear.. i so proud of you! =) sorry i wasnt of much help.. bt still v happy can hav a day with you ( ok in a way)! I wan volunteer for as much event as possible for u! =)

QP & RF! i so proud of you la.. cycle cycle.. cycle... nv kena swept! well done!! haha.. i tink i muz go train somehow.. so that i can b as fit as them!!!

Rong Choon.. really pai seh ... for dragging u out for the day... well.. gt my companion .. so i tink in a way u benefitted! wahaha!! PS that the ARROGANT UNCLE BANG UR CAR.. actually i was quite angry with him.. bt... i nv do anything.. feel v bad about it.. cuz i drag u so early..( depriving u of ur sleep).. then u treat mi food... n have to drive for so long... so tire... tt UNCLE still so arrogant... angry with him.. Sorry abt it... Hmm.. and again... THANKS!!!

tts abt it..haix... juz to add on a bit.. v sian 2 mids coming.. totally no confidence.. pray for mi on wed ok! =)
DA JIA WAN AN! =)

My 600th Post!

Wah it is my 600th post already?! i started this particular url in 2007.. so fast.. is 600 already? ( ok i noe.. nt very fast .. given tt i dun blog tt often! haha !)

Hmm.. this evening.. went to Rong Choon class gathering! haha... Oops.. i noe i extra la.. bt i really lik gg to his class gathering.. so heart-warming... everyone so loving towards one another.. ( ok the way expressed maybe very different from the convention method btu is there one.. ) haha... although im the "extra" .. i still feel touched by them...

Somehow i understand.. why i enjoy gg to other class gathering and other ppl's family meals.. cuz the love that i yearned for is there... something.. which i lost since young.. haha .. nt emo la.. juz starting to understand myself even more...

Oh ya.. muz thank Yuwen Family for helping in preparing the food! haha.. Her mum so nice! Thank YOu auntie!! n her niece n nephew! so cute!!! awww... hao xiang sheng yi ge ah! haha!

Hmm after which we went to a Pub in Serangoon.. haha.. quite an old pub! haha as in the crowd..haha... gt "culture shock" there... hmm.. different generation.. different groups of people... anyway .. out of sudden there was a fight.. really fight.. punches were threw... glass broken.. that time... Hmm.. then i saw something.. very sad... hai... some times.. things u imagined and hope are so different from how things turn out to be... Maybe that is how God planned... Maybe i should start praying for them... I just feel sad for them...

Oh ya.. Thank God for Rong choon oso.. he is really a nice guy! haha... he sort of shielded the gers n geraldine too!!! Protected Joy.. hmm...

My tots for the day ....

"Somtimes.. things are not so nicely planned as u hope..."

" Love is a game that involves playign with fire.. cause you can never be
prepared enuff or foreseen how much hurt u can get from it..."

"Trust is really what sees thru a relationship... because ... without
trust.. faith fails...."

负担

负担。
每个人都有属于自己的那个大包袱。
有些人是天生就背着的。
有些则是选择性地扛起。

我好像是后者。

可能是肉体承受着。
可能是心灵背负着。

我好像是后者。

tire.

So tire.. So tire of finding ... hai...

spent 3 hrs looking for one nice blog skin tt i like... apparently yes.. nth came close to what i really wanted.. -.-! argh! wan die le la!!!

Hai... giving up soon... haha...

that's life?

Sometimes when you are so determine to do something... it always turns out to be extremely tough to accomplish!


anyway ... another quote.. which i dun wish to post on FB! Haha...
" Sometimes when you choose your valentine you need to be very very careful. Because you might overlook someone who actually loves you. "


" How did you and your wife lasts so long in marriage?"
"Well... I married my best friend.."

me.

I tink is the festive mood n Valentine's day that is making people to fall in love n etc...

for me.. is just good mood! :)

cuz actually im very simple ( in a way) ... i dun wan to feel sad.. neither do i wan to cry again... :)

相恋少了勇气只是单恋。

I love Valetine's day the movie!

Aww.... HAppy Chinese New Year!!!

haha!! How is everyone's Da Nian Chu Yi and Valentine's day?!

Haha.. i had a great day... 2 movies in a day...

haha... conculsion...

I SO LOVE " VALENTINE'S DAY!!!"

I swear i gg t o get the OST in store with my ang bao money!!! haha...

ok this may sound crazy.. i actually dun mind.. watching it for the 3rd time! =x

TMR iS VALENTINE"S DAY N TODAY IS CNY EVE!

WAH! so fast is the CNY for 2010 soon!!!
haha~ today is officially the cny eve! haha. those havent gotten their CNY clothes ones.. faster get ah!!! haha... go early.. cuz bugis sure packed lik siao one.. so is... JP... n ... Far east!!!

Haha.. so happy in good mood! woo hoo~~~
TODAY(120210)CELINE FINALLY GAVE MI THE ROSE LE!!!
I feel bad n good actually! cuz i had been ranting to her the two whole weeks! haha.. SHE IS DAMN nice la.. she gotten one rose for everyone!! so sweet !!! so nice!!! Thank God for her!!! another "angel" planted in my life! =)))

haha.. n nt to forget Seth too. Thanks for the rose n candy.. it is sweet of you! =)
Happy Valentine's Day!

Haha~ had been listening to Luo Zhi Xiang latest album.. intend to post his nice EMO songs again.. bt since im in a good mood.. n is supposed love in the air now.. i shall intro another nice song to u!

Two Is Better Than One

I remember what you wore on the first
day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be
something
Cause everything you do
And words you say
You know that it
all takes my breath away
And I am left with nothing

So maybe its
true
That I cant live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've
already got me coming undone
I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

Cause when i close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and
everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

Then maybe its true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me
coming undone
I'm thinking two is better than one
(oh yeah)
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And i thought hey

Maybe it's true
That I cant live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
That I cant live without you
Cause maybe two is better than one
But there's so uch time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I've figured out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one.

my another new fav! wahahaa! I find it sweet n nice.. :)))))
i gt many new faves!! Haha~ cuz all are nice! :)))
Hmm... mayb i shld set it as my ring tone!!! haha...

When the whole world is telling mi to move on... its u i hope would stop mi ...
In conclusion.. i tink i will juz stay firm n dun get involved in bgr.. till time is ripe.. though i dun deny.. i do hav someone in mind for now..
But sometimes is the past tt haunts u more.. n ur past tt u are worried ppl will mind.. tt stop u frm getting involved in BGR...

Valentine's Day!

NICE SHOW ! MUS WATCH!

Haha~ just watched this with Ron n Bill! nice nice nice!!! wahaha!

Suitable for almost everyone~~~ Couples.. Friends... married... homosexuals.... all!!!

( But i tink very suitable for couples on Rocky terms! )

if funny... is cute.. is relevant... is nice... is heart-warming

i love this show a lot..

well written script with many learning points...

I LOVE THIS SHOW!

HAha... and u cant find anyone to watch with you.. i dun mind watching it again! :)

I juz re-formatted my phone!

I was trying out new stuff with the Sony Ericsson thingy in my laptop... and suddenly! i click re-format phone! n things are gone!!!! :((((

Everything are gone! including my sms stored...( i have thousands of them! ) .. contacts are gone! ( 500++)... haix.. damn EMO!

Thankfully RC reminded mi to try backup frm m card... i tried.. haha!! though not all only abt 400 contacts back.. so i still left 100 unknown no. need to store back !

But the saddest part is .. my sms gone... cuz... i stored abt thousand plus sms... frm the time i start using the phone.. very sad.. each sms stored in my phone rep a different phrase in my life.. like my bday ... my frenz bday... greetings.. performances... haix.. sad all gone...

Somehow i feel tt it signifies something...

like my phone hinting mi to forget about the past n move on ?..
n start storing new sweet sms.. or nice sms.. frm new personnels ?..
is it really the case?
but... i dun wish to move on for now.... or should i ?

你的眼神。

眼神真的会透漏一切吗？

如果能，我的眼神对你来说透漏了什么？

情人节

不知道为何，突然好想在情人节那天收到玫瑰花！

有好心人想帮我吗？=p

失去的信任。

你曾经很相信某件事吗？
我曾。

你曾经因为任性不听从他人的忠告而受伤吗？
我曾。

你曾经因为对某人太过信任而感到失望吗？
我曾。

对于某人，某事曾那么的有信心，但却只得到的是灰心。我得如何恢复信心？

情人节

哇！好快喔~~~ 又要到情人节了！haha~

Recently had been reading STOMP ---- the Love story section... so sweet!! aww... couples send in their real life stories about themselves how eah of them get together... some stories are quite sweet.. haha...

Some how reading 别人的幸福。 好羡慕。 好想也再次拥有会恋爱的感觉。但，我还是一直提醒自己当时是怎么被伤害的。爱情这游戏，我好像玩不起。心曾经那么真诚，得到的却是迥然不同的残酷真实。

Hmm.. in anyway ...
Hope everyone is gg to find your special someone to spend that day with!
I know is CNY... but dun use this lousy excuse, i bet u can squeeze out at least 30 min juz for him/her.
Although there is a saying:" Valentine's day shld b everyday for couples.", bt still being able to spend the offical day with him/her will make him/her feels special afterall! :))))

歌曲:这一秒我哭了歌手:罗志祥

歌曲：这一秒我哭了
歌手：罗志祥 专辑：show time


听清清唱了一首歌
是什么旋律呀
让我想起你
你多么冰冷的嘴唇
你决定真的要放手
每一个夜好长我走不完
和你去过的地方
多么冷的夜
我习惯这样的生活

你这一年还好吗
总是担心你的那个我
到底为什么
这一秒我哭了
无法多看你的背影

看这一幕片刻黄昏
什么记忆让你回头
夜深人静时候
我都难过
没有你在身边陪我
多么冷的夜
没有人逗留在街头

你这一年还好吗
总是担心你的那个我
到底为什么
这一秒我哭了
无法多看你的背影

都已经失去所有
那现在的我
还在等什么
一个人纪念
听着你最爱的歌
我只能在你的电话里留话

我到底在等什么
总是担心你的那个我
到底为什么
这一秒我哭了
爱你的苦衷
没有让你快乐
为了一种感觉停留

心情不好

不知道为什么心情好差。

不知道为什么好像找不到能向他诉说的人了。

对我自己好一点。

哇！ 好久好久都没来这了!!!

I tink i kind of neglected this little so called private space of mine. I had been going out more frequently this sem compared to next, think is because i noe more n more ppl in UB. bt still pretty limited frenz ...

Hmm... i realise when im wearing specs in sch ... i feel kind of invisible.. think the impression is nerdy to most people.. im lik the background of the scenes happening in sch .. juz blend in ... haha..
even have people commenting mi as if im an introvert.. as in super shy... haha.. think she get tt impression due to my specs... people i met while wearing contacts juz lik kind of ignore mi ... pluz whenever i wear specs... i dress like country bumpkin... seriously.. some even commented mi as auntie... BUT im comfortable with my nerd look... haha..

i get super turn off with the idea of having to dress nice daily... as in .. im ok with everyday need dress nice.. but ... early in the morning at 7 am need to rush to sch ... still need to think of which top go with which bottom.. -.-! n... (someone even tell to wear light make up to sch daily to cover my pimples.. ) need to put make up.. is a girl thing u guys wun understand... but... yes.. to me is very cumbersome!

as a matter of fact, i like to dress nerdy n invisible.. so tt i can luff n play with my frenz... not attracting any attention ... since im already invisible , ugly , nerdy to most! u get what i mean? haha

n i think im doing my NYR2010! cuz im getting stuff i WANT for myself.. treating myself better... and slowly seem to ignore how others think of mi ( ok this part mayb not so successful yet, for NOW!)..

I wan carry on to be like this.. so tt the Fish n Sharon wun get corroded into the social norm world!

歌曲：爱不单行 歌手：罗志祥 专辑：海派甜心插曲

歌名:爱不单行
歌手:罗志祥
海派甜心插曲

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到
爱情那个枷锁

爱
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕


爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信她


LRC歌词来自：http://www.51lrcgc.com/asp/lrc.asp?id=20091123Sh6DW7

歌曲：匿名的好友 歌手：杨丞琳

杨丞琳-匿名的好友
词:李焯雄 曲:陈颖见


独送昏暗不离的风
回忆里被爱那股悸动
天色好红温柔好浓
在胸口浮现你的脸容
一起活在这城市迷宫
提起你名字心还跳动
却没重逢
只有想碰却又不敢碰的那种悸动
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎黱说让彼此选择
但思念还转动

不能握的手
从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手
却比亲人更亲厚
但所有如果
都没有如果
只有失去的温柔
最温柔

当又一次美梦落空
回忆里被爱那股激动
天色好红温柔好浓
在胸口浮现你的脸容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什黱 让彼此选择
又不仅是尊重

不能握的手
从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手
却比亲人更亲厚
但所有如果
都没有如果
只有失去的温柔
最温柔

不能握的手
从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手
却比爱人更长久
当所有如果
都没有如果
只有失去的拥有
最永久


LRC歌词来自：http://www.51lrcgc.com/asp/lrc.asp?id=20100101P4g1LX

爱情常常能让人感到希望的存在。

但，它也常常让人感到无比的绝望。

那是因为它最初时就像漆黑隧道里的一盏光明之灯，照射出无穷的光芒。

可是，当真正往它走去时，你会发现自己已经走入了无底深渊，再也无法踏出！

但是，友谊却是截然不同的情形！

起初看似没什么方面能再进展的友人，却莫名地成了你一辈子的知己！

Because Liang Kiat says i cant type chinese!

良杰，良杰，我是会打华文字的！！！

My 21st!

Hmm... i know it is kind of early for mi now...

Hmm... i wan ... to ...

SAVE A Dollar everyday so as to treat myself something nice on my 21st Bday! yesh! haha..

Anyone wants to join the " Sharon 21st fund" ? Hee...

最近有很多想法。

当我一个人时，我会想得特别多。

有乐观的，有悲观的。

我也对自己有一个新发现。

我好像会因为小事而开怀大笑，同时，我也会因为一些芝麻绿豆的事而落泪。

some happy things that happened in 2009! =)

sad..

suddenly...

feeling ...

very...

despair...

why? =(((

Mayb is really time...

2010 first post!

Quoted from Vivek.... "It's 2010 now!!!"

Happy NEW YEAR!!!!!!

haha... Hmm... this few days had been not bad for mi! =D



30th

Went clubbing with RF, JHan, Qp, Vivek n RAT. Met Adel n Caroline there.

Hmm. not bad.Went to Dbl O their supposed Last ladies' night.( they are gonna closed on the 3rd Jan bt heard they extended another few more months.



31st

Hmm.Went sleeping! haha. slept till nearing1700 woke up. meet up with Ah Gong, Qp,SL and Rf.

Head down to Rat's hse. BBQ. ( ok i din BBQ exactly. I was sitting in the dining room n munching away... till 2300. started some really random games. and countdown with sparkling drinks! all thanks to MR Vivek , who was very late and very thoughtful enough to get us drinks. Actually the guys in my class are nice la. only... tt... some... like.. to ... SUAN mi... n... cant have a conversation without F word... besdies tt .. they ae quite nice.. n thanks to JHan.. We had a mini "fireworks" session in front of Rat's house. I Stayed awake all the way till lik 630 n head home.. somehow i am quite amaze by the fact tt i din sleep! haha. think the afternoon nap helps loads.



Dunno why i enjoy 125's company a lot. even though i am not involving in the activities half the time ( i guess?) i like to be with them . haha. This is my beloved 125`06. We took it at our last outing the 121209 one.
Haha. we like very different bt yet able to unite in a way. Think this is the most random class i have. Although yesterday the total class strength wasnt there... i just love it. haha.

okok.. It is 2010.. my resolutions are not written yet!!! argh! sian.
Hmm.. Since due to ICA requirements for foreign students.. our (UB) gonna start class at 0830! wah. damn sian! Set le. the sem after next rite, im gonna mix my timetable with afternn n morning class. not like not. mostly morning classes.. anyway i dun go out much during sch time. n can SLEEP late...
So upon receiving this news.. my very first resolution is set. haha.

so this is my current list ..

SHARON's 2010 Resolution...
Sharon resolve to ...

1- Not be late for any morning classes!
2- Mug for every quiz!
3- To save money! ( ah! this is tough!)
4- Treat herself better!
5- Become pretty! haha~
6- To be punctual for all occasions!
7- Not be so conscious about other's opinion on self.