Hopeless.

Haix. yes. im officially no local uni wan mi. sad life huh?

Hmm.. im genuinely glad tt my frenz gt into SMU,NTU,NIE n NUS.
I hav seen their hardwork n potential.
They deserve to b where they are. * envy *

Hmm.. i suddenly v pessimistic...
i dun wan to study anymore.
i dun wan. life sucks as a lousy student. i suck.
mayb i shld go b police? air stewardess? or some other job tt only req A lvls?
haix. im juz v hopeless.

Life is not always a bed of roses.

By now.. i shall juz announce in my blog tt i hav been rejected by both NUS n NTU..
Applied to SIM ..( pending)
Appealed to NUS FASS. ( hopeless )
Had an interviewed with NIE ( is this wat i want? )

Haix.. i dunno i dun lik A levels..
it is really sucky...

Haix. life sucks after Jc life ended.. at the same time rocks! ( life is always full of ironies! )

haix.. when JC life came to an end.. i get to see more n more ppl real side..
i mean frenz who used to juz sit beside u being super frenz with u .. yet turn out to b some one else... Hypocrisy... i tink no one can really b guilt free frm it..
Im frank with myself most of time..
i admit tt im definitely guilty of it when i was in JC.. bt i tried my best to minimise it...
Hai... emo again..!! argh! FORGET IT!

Hmm.. bt at the same time.. im v touched.. touched by ppl who showered mi with genuine care n concern. i tnk partly cause i am someOne who believe in juz by listenign to a person's voice u can detect the genuiness of the person.. Sorry if u r someone with a voice tt i cant sense the sincerity.. I can not really open up to u truly.. the defense wall are definitely there...

I find myself getting funny aft leaving YJC.. my character changed a lot.. i m easily touched by simple little things frenz do to mi .. im able to show my frenz my love to them.. more open to telling them i treasure them.. Perhas also having graduate frm Elias class i guess. i learn to appreciate ppl more... learn to think mroe of their POV...

But im sorry i still cant overcome the part abt the voice tone thingy..
but

Thank YOu!!! many people for being there for mi...
esp aft the result day.. allowing mi to behave juz as wat i wan to ..
din push mi so hard as they noe im already stressed up..
and at the same time teach mi how to relax better.. or letting mi to relax
more...

Sometimes.. being there doesnt mean doing a lot of superficial n great things...
to mi juz b there n give mi a pat or a hug. is enough. BUt muz b genuine!
i dun tink im greedy. im easily contented. esp when it comes to frenship...