song complicated.

Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is

Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Chill out whatcha yelling for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

我要真正地放手。

应该渐渐地习惯了一个人的生活了吧？

唔。。。

当你知道无论如何弥补都无用时，你还会继续吗？

my christmas eve n eve eve.

I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas...
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas...
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas from the bottom of my heart! =D

Haha~ i love this song!!! have been having this tune ever since sang it with Celine the other day .. lala. nice... but .... "Last Christmas" is still my favorite for Christmas!

Last Christmas I gave you my heart...
The very next day you gave it away...
This year to save me from tears...
I am going to give it to someone
special..~~~

Haha nice rite? haha.

Yupz.. dun be shocked or doubtful.. it is Christmas' eve night.. and here i am in my house living room blogging .. using my baby Ferrari! Haha. It has been quite a while since i spent Christmas eve at home.. Since Sec 3 I like never spend my Christmas' eve home. It is always either my fren's house or some event place to indulge in the festive mood. I love the atmosphere where everyone gathers together to celebrate! I know many guys,( cuz most of my close guy frenz dun really like) dun like to go town. To ren ji ren. haha . But somehw i just like the feeling that everyone is happy and celebrating the festive season! =D

Hmm... I am home partly cuz i din sms anyone to tag along with them. usually i will juz sms a fren n ask to tag along them for this holiday... haha. some how this year i just wanna stay home. and enjoy it in a comfortable way! =x unlike last year( haha din really mean to complain). last year was ... kind of sucky. =x

Ohoh.. yesterday was kind of crazy for mi ! =x haha.

Met chris to get cookie container. ( oh ya .. btw my cookie was a failure! damn sad. first time make w/o any supervision n it failed! =(((( ) haha . had one of my favorite Chicken rice at AMK S-11! yeah! haha... then he acc mi to get some other stuff too...
after that i meet up with Bill n Lian Kai to get their fren some presents.

Went rebel with 2 adels, cas, carol, kenny n thomas... haha. after which meet up with my sister at REBEL, halfway! haha. drank and drank and drank.. took many photos.. bet they are all ugly... haha ... adel frens are cool and nice!!! my sister.. heehee.. was hot too! =x once she stepped into the dance floor gt ppl jio her! haha. The crazy part for me was tt i went clubbing with sis n my frenz.. and we all dance together at the dance floor.. my sis was kind of sweet.. she came alone to find mi aft meeting up with her poly frenz.. hee.. i asked her to come so i gt free ride home! haha.. (eh... i m like super poor now! I took my passport photo tt cost mi $20. -.-! gg to head down to ICA next monday to make my passport...)
Oh oh .. we reached home @ 4am! haha.. secretly had a beef bowl noodle with my sister in our room. ( our hse cant have beef) haha..

Today woke up with a headache, muscle ache.. and some blueblacks on my wrist n arm ! wonder how i got them...-.-! super dehydrated.. went over to my fren house.. pass presents.. n happily doze off in the house! haha. =x unintentionally one... n .... when i woke up, i realise was 6 pm already! OMG! hmm... my fren happily let mi sleep while watching drama series! -.-!!!

After i woke up, i left. then head home! haha.. n my sis n eugene(my sis bf) are happily preparing dinner for our family! aww... sweet rite.. haha... nice food sia! gt baked chicken.. ma po toufu.. kou ruo.. si ji dou... and baked mushroom! wah! yummy yummy nice nice!! haha... so xinfu rite? hangover gt place sleep soundly.. reached home gt a feast! haha...

Haha~ hao xinfu wor! n i had received presents from sis n mum! gonna open them tml! =)

Hmm... just side track a little.. although i go clubbing, tt doesnt make mi loose -.-!

你们觉得幸福是什么？

我觉得它的生命好短暂。

它好像拥有泡浮一样的生命。

就当你得到时，你需要很细心地维持它的生命。

如果你不当心，轻轻一碰就会破，而它也就会消失了。

当它不在时，只能怪自己不珍惜。

Christmas is near!!!

haha...

holidays din leave much days for me!!

ah!

Hmm... Still having my sore throat....

hai... sad rite having holidays yet sick at home...

why my life so sad =(

haha.. nvm... im in a gd mood cuz Christmas is near! =DDDDD

ok a very random post... i noticed...

SJM

NICE!!!!

专集:盖世英雄 王力宏大城小爱

歌曲：大城小爱
歌手：王力宏 专辑：盖世英雄

乌黑的发围盘成一个圈
缠绕所有对你的眷恋
搁着半透明的脸
嘴里说的语言完全没有欺骗
屋顶灰色瓦片安静的画面
灯火是你美丽那张脸
终于找到所有流浪的终点
你的微笑就输了疲倦

千万不要说天长地久
免的你觉的我不切实际
想多么简单就多么简单
是妈妈告诉我的哲理
脑袋都是你心里都是你
小小的爱在那城里好甜蜜
念的都是你全部都是你
小小的爱在那城里只为你倾心
让我大声的对你说
i'm thinking of you
那回城的票根你留做纪念
不必害怕面对离别
剪掉一丝头发让我放在胸前
走到那里都有你陪
相随
oh~~念的都是你全部都是你
lalalalala~~~~~
lalalalala~~~~~

那一种寸步不离的感觉
我知道就叫做缘
LRC歌词来自：http://lrc.aspxp.net/lrc.asp?id=272974&id1=215&t=lrc&ac=dl

Nice song rite? haha~ ok old song too..

So bore.. has been home the whole day... Christmas is super near.. yet i haven gotten any gifts for anyone... Super broke..

歌曲：雨爱

歌曲：雨爱
歌手：杨丞琳 专辑：海派甜心
杨丞琳-雨爱(海派甜心片尾曲)


窗外的天气
就像是你多变的表情
下雨了雨陪我哭泣
看不清我也不想看清

离开你 我安静的抽离
不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放弃

听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸象雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的 rainie love

窗外的雨滴一滴滴累积
久违的雨滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气象储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到
彩虹的美丽
冷冷的空气很窒息
我无法呼吸
一万颗雨滴的距离
很彻底让爱消失无息

LRC歌词来自：http://www.51lrcgc.com/asp/lrc.asp?id=200911258BKD65

From passerby ... hmm wondering who he is...

Hmm... quite an emo song... suitable for the rainy season now?

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友

came across this at a friend's blog... pretty true n meaningful...

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友
你們可能相愛過 ，你們也可能喜歡著彼此，但是，為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？

也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。
也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。
也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。
也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。
也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。
也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。
也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。

不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。
但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。

他有喜歡的人，你口頭上會幫他追，心裏卻不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困難時，你會盡你所能的幫他，不會計較誰又欠了誰。

男女朋友吃醋了，你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友，但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定。

每個人這輩子，心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友，很矛盾的行為。

一開始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然發現這樣最好。你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。

你寧願做他的朋友，彼此不會吃醋，才可以真的無所不談。

特別是這樣，你還是知道，他永遠會關心你的。

做不成男女朋友，當他那個特別的朋友，有什麼不好呢？你心中的這個特別的朋友...?

是誰呢？

很多的感情，都因為一廂情願，最後連朋友都當不成了。常常覺得惋惜，可惜一些本來很好的友情。

最後卻因為對方的一句喜歡你，如果你沒有反應，這一段友情似乎也難以維持下去，這也難怪有些人會因此不肯踏出這一步。
因為這就像是一場賭注，表白了之後不是成了男女朋友，要不就連朋友都當不成了。

有些事不是你能預料的，或許對方不在意，你們還可以是朋友，但卻已經不如從前的好.


你们会不会像作者写的一样什么也不说吗？

Falling Sick.

AH! Bad news!!! I am officially down with sore throat!!! *sob*

today stayed at home the whole day... cuz dun wan to talk.. go out need to talk...

my throat feels pain...

Besides tt ... im filled with mosquitoes bites!

why insects all like to sting mi? -.-!!! sianx...

and to sum up ... im officially broke! ah...

Throat + insects stings + broke = Moody + dun wan go out.

I realise... how much i myself had changed...

used to be labelled "restless"...

Now i actually lik to just sit down n enjoy the breeze...

watching ppl getting ard with their schedule....

3 weeks off holidays!

Aiya... I am having holz now!!!

currently free.. almost daily... bt except sat nights (cuz of dance)...

Hmm... this is an obvious hint to hint whoever free can sms mi out.... haha...

Went to watch "The Perfect Getaway"...

Hmm...

HOnestly not worth the money watch.. unless u weightur companion more.. haha...

Hmm... today went to put skin for the laptop... at Sim Lim Square

haha.. i noe a big kuang zhang.. but... the surface so smooth... if gt scratch.. i heart pain !

Hmm...

after that went home rest..

then head to NorthPoint eat YOSHINOYA! ah.. so long din eat la.. i miss beef bowl!

Hmm... then went to watch Ninja Assasin...

Haha.. for Rain fans is definitely a must watch.. a lot of his scene whereby he is half naked.

For ppl who dun really lik blood flying around.. Hmm... Just forget it... haha...

For mi .. is pretty ok... bt a bit too dark.. haha... overall is not bad.. :)

我们都长大了。

人都会长大的。

我已经二十了。

好像是时候要真正长大了。

但是，我可以不要长大吗?

大人的世界好混乱。一点也不真。充满着虚伪。


是不是人就有秘密？

我不要有秘密。

我想把一切简单化 。

一半

my day.

Shit! I m only lik less than 24 hrs away frm my paper.. totally no mood study...

Yup.. tml my paper is COM 101...

after that is MUS116 then PSY 101 on friday...

very sian.. din touch MUS116 for the whole week! haha.

PSY is only halway done...

Haix...

then COM 101 is so boring...

Bad time management = STRESS.

sad.

卓文萱-在你身边

歌曲：在你身边
歌手：卓文萱 专辑：play n fun【1+1】

你总喜欢捏我的脸
笑我有双呆呆的眼
感觉一副就很好骗
被骗还会说谢谢

我并不是都无所谓
只是想认真过着每一天
幸福就是跟你肩靠肩
坐在海边轻轻哼着音乐

我就是喜欢简简单单的感觉
小小的爱能温暖大大的世界
我就只有个简简单单的心愿
希望能在你身边幸福每一天

还记得那年的夏天
牵着手走过的海边
我们俩写下了心愿
把它藏瓶子里面

站在换日线另一边
想起了那些甜蜜的画面
那怕只是平凡的幸福
就能点亮最寂寞的深夜

我爱上那种简简单单的感觉
小小的爱能温暖大大的世界
我就只有个简简单单的心愿
希望能在你身边幸福每一天


瓶子里面装满想念
搭乘着海浪飘到你面前
我能看见你的笑脸
陪着我保护我从不停歇

我就是喜欢简简单单的感觉
小小的爱能温暖大大的世界
我就只有个简简单单的心愿
希望能在你身边

我爱上那种简简单单的感觉
小小的爱能温暖大大的世界
我就只有个简简单单的心愿
希望能在你身边幸福每一天

Ferarri one!

Hmm... I knew that you are coming.. only not sure when and how...



Few months ago i met you for the first time...



Wow.. it was sth like love at first sight...



I mean i nv expect you to b so adorable...



Thru the net n frenz, try to figure out the best way to treat you when you reached...



then ytd..



the very first time we touched!



Awwww.... so smooth... so nice.. so cute.... so irresistible...



Hmm.. i realise all the anticipation is worth it...

My baby!



come come... pour in ur envious comments bah! haha~

李祖富

糟糕。

越来越发现人很奇怪。

我第一次诚心的后悔了。

你还会原谅我吗？

mad.

我知道我不可以那么想，可是，我控制不了自己一直认为你很虚伪。

Hmm...

来来来，今天来讨论关于“好人”。

最近常常有人向我提起这词。

我从小就认为世界上是只有好人没有坏人的。

现在虽然看法有些差异了，但是我还是觉得人本性是善良的，只是因为环境的影响才会变质的。

所以，我好像还在相信。=）

The current me.

Recently.. Had been thinking about what uncles Jackson said:" ren yue lao jiang de hua yue shao."

True. I noticed how quiet I am nowadays.

Reasons? unknown to myself too.

Realise there is no need for me to say anything anymore. ( Social Loafing ? )
I used to like people hear my opinion.
Now, it does not matter anymore.( not even to anyone).
I enjoy just sit down there n listen to other people sharing their lives.

Why? Cause i dun find my life as interesting?
Cause there is too much sadness? and i Dun lik to mention about sadness.
Talking about sadness will just make u more sad.. ( My point of view)

I dun lik to be sad.
I juz wanna hide my sadness hopefully they will go away one day.
But.. memories stay. ( ok this part sux!)
Really hoping for a high fever.
Hope they will "burn" away all my memories ( not knowledge).
Hope everything will start all over again.. in 2006... where things were much simpler...
How wishful can a person get?

Hmm.. today.. watched P.S I love you ( yes, an old movie).
it is all about moving on.. but.. im as lost as the female lead.. where should i move towards?

I wanna GET HIGH FEVER! =x

祖富

糟糕！

好像会死掉。

快疯了。

怎么办？

怎么才能不去想？！

歌曲：一个人就好
歌手：刘力扬 专辑：转寄刘力扬
[al:台湾偶像剧爱就宅一起原声带]
[by:红糖豆浆]

街挤满了欢笑
太不适合眼泪凑热闹
快跑快寻找无人的转角
不优雅时候一个人最好

爱说退就退潮

我松开手回忆却没放掉

未来不来了地球继续绕
躲回温暖的梦我一个人就好

为什么越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以后我一个人过就很好


心很平静地跳
只是寂寞潜伏像海啸

突然某一秒偷袭我眼角
眼泪自己擦掉我一个人很好

为什么越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以后我一个人过就很好

珍惜

常言道：“珍惜眼前人。”

是不是每一个眼前人都得珍惜？

要是你发现你想的那个眼前人和心目中的眼前人不一样，怎么办？

假设，你真的认为是的话。

那么，多珍惜才是适当的吗？

I wan get dengue.

I want to get dengue.

I want to stay in hospital, so i dun need to care so much.

Stay there let them drip my blood in n out.

At the same time can noe my blood type.

Hopefully, I can get a fever so high, and forget all about the sad things.

And only remember the good ones.

Forget the people who hurt mi.

Only remember the times when they treat me well.

Hopefully I will forget you.

Hopefully I will still remember you.

You Belong With Me .

nice .
new love .

人其实很胆小。

遇到挫折只会逃。

我也不例外。

渐渐地，不知从何时开始的。

我好像迷失了自我了。

真的再也不知道该怎么办了。

迷失了自我好像比不见了东西还容易。

致女孩(男孩看了会欣慰的流泪)

致女孩(男孩看了会欣慰的流泪) (http://story.aiqing.org.cn/sanwen/weepy/nvhai-nanhai.html)


不是每个男人都是骑着白马的王子，

所以，请不要苛求他不够高大和英俊，

不要责怪他送给你的只是一双手套而不是九十九朵玫瑰。

宝贝们，要知道，不是王子，你才是他永远的公主，

他的爱便是让你变成公主的水晶鞋。


不是每个男人都能把爱挂在嘴边，

所以，请不要在他回答“爱不爱你”不够干脆时心生怀疑，

不要让他把这种回答变成一种无奈的习惯。

宝贝们，你要学着体会无言的承诺，请相信，

当他静静的看着你微笑时，当他轻轻的抚摩你的头发时，

当他自然的牵着你的手时，他就是爱你的。

不是每个男人都善于反驳，

所以，当出现误会而他却沉默不语时，请不要推开他兀自哭红了眼睛。也许在他看来那只是一个无关的女人或者一件他绝不会做的事，他总相信那是事实，就不需要太多解释。

宝贝们，不要轻易把这份坚持当做一种默认的表示。

难道，你没看到他手足无措的样子？

面子对男子来说比什么都重要。

所以，在他的朋友面前，请给他十足的地位。

如果他在朋友面前忽略了你，不要任性的以为那是不重视，

也许他只是想显出你的温顺。不要介意在人前当个小女人，

宝贝们，要知道，那可是被宠爱的女子才有的特权哦。

也许男人总搞不懂女人在想什么。

所以，当你故意说不而他却真的走开时，

请不要发誓一定要好好的惩罚他，

要知道，一头雾水的他此刻心里比你还要郁闷。

如果你的他总不能领会你的意思，那么，宝贝们，就明白的告诉他吧， 他会爱的轻松许多，而你也可以得到你真正想要的，为什么不呢？

男人也要有自己的生活。他们也会迷恋游戏，

也会想和朋友出去喝酒、打牌。

这时，请不要短信电话步步紧逼，

也不要问他为什么不带你一块前往。

我们自己不也会有女人们私有的空间吗？

宝贝们，给彼此足够的空间才会有新鲜的空气。

男人也会脆弱，也会突然的莫名情绪低落。

所以，当他的脸上写满疲惫，眼中充满厌倦，

请不要再去追问是不是不爱你了。

要知道，时刻的讨好，谁也做不到。

宝贝们，此刻，不要再去问他怎么了，只要安静的陪在他身边就好。

总说，男人不懂女人心，

可有时候，我们不也常常忽略他们的感受？

有义务陪女朋友，又没有权利放弃工作。

在坚强的标志下，他们只能把所有的事情一肩扛。

生活本来就很让人疲惫，当他为了我们的未来打拼的时候，

宝贝们，我们不该再让他们太累。

IT is really time to stop thinking abt Thet Lwin. =)

我的不开心， 不需要任何人懂。

不开心本来就应该让别人懂，应该藏在心底。

不想音响别人，毕竟他们与此事无关。

每个人都告诉我我要开心。

可是，我已经迷失了自我。

我不知道如何才会自己开心了。

再也不知道自己要什么了。


上帝，为什么人的心会那么复杂？

为什么不能像数学一样容易的了解？

Reality has nv been kind to me.

Thet Lwin

: 最近有不开心的事吗？

（有。是因为他。)
没有。 =）

：真的没有吗？

（真的有，和你有关。）
真的没有。 =）

：可是，每个人应该都有一些不开心的事啊。

（嗨～不知要不要跟你说。）
没有。

momo di.. zhuo zai jie shang.
Xiang zhe yu ni de dian dian di di.
ru guo shi jian neng ting liu.
xi wang ting zai san nian qian.
hao xiang chi ni zu de niu rou wan zi.
hao xiang chi ni zu de lao mian.
hao xiang. hao xiang. hao xiang hao duo.
ren zhuo cuo shi, jiu dei hui guo.
ke shi hui guo hou you neng hui dao chong qian ma?

A redenzous day with Ah Gong?

Today went out with frenz... Qp n Ah Gong.
Watched my girlfirend is an agent for the second time! haha~
nice movies! =)

A very nice movie...
We watched it at Amk Hub.. haha.. nice lehx..
For those who havent watched it, you should go~!

In short...
Today i enjoyed myself a lot...

人生有很多东西是莫强求的。
失去了，就是失去了。
想挽回时，应该要知道自己的地位。
很多事情是无法挽回的。
强求，也无能为力。

曾经有一人问过我：“你是害怕伤心吗？”
这人也对我说过会让我开心。

希望这人能找到能对他说这些话的人。

有时有些事。

So fast... is almost novemember already!

SO fast.. i Had left nightmare more than half a year already...

Somthings juz happen so fast .. so scary..

you might be indifferent to the incident... but as a matter fo fact..

it has actually impacted you and scarred you more than you expected...

at least i was... i tot i m gg to pull thru all things.. somehow .. nightmare dun juz go away..

BUT.. your childhood nightmare dun haunt you anymroe ( i hope) right?

Hope i will nv have to see him again.. and nightmare will eventually fade away...

if u r a true fren.. dun ask mi what happen..

sometimes some people juz sux...

人

人很奇怪。

明明表面上很想十分要好，但实际上比陌生人还陌生。

有些表面上看似天渊之别，但其实比普通朋友还要好。

cold.

hungry.

alone emotionally?

Hmm.. So long din blog le wor!

Hmm nowadays quite busy.. finally got some personal time for myself.
Juz had my grp ppt presented..
well.. honestly not v well done.. but... i have moved on... is actually kind of relieve for mi!

Some things are getting better.. some.. is not.. =(

loneliness.

Sometimes.

I just hope for some companion.

But sometimes loneliness is inevitable.

Since when?

Dunno since when my life has been planned.

Perhaps since I'm born? ( determinism ? )

Every one think of mi the way they want to . expect me to be the way i wan to. act as if they understand mi . Do things as if they think is the best to me?

NO one really understands me.
NO one really spares a tot to how i feel, expecting me to do things they way they wan.
If i dun do things in a manner they wan, criticism will flood mi like tsunami. ( confrontation or at my back )

OR Perhaps my life haven been like this? It is just an illusion to me? It is just myself being sensitive?

我的发现：

我的发现：我好像跟很多人的距离越来越远。越来越远。

是自己选择的？还是渐渐地变得少话，所以想避免尴尬？

习惯了孤独，我行我素。

习惯了静静地看着这世界旋转。

Life in UB so far!

Wow. So fast my Mid term is here!!!

For those who are not sure about what I am exactly doing, I shall be nice and tell u .
I am now in SIM, under UNi @ Buffalo , Psychology programme. =) My first year.
I m now taking music for non-majors, intro to psy , intro to comm and higher English.

Hmm.
Honestly, life in Ub is so much differet than in JC . Now there is no uniform , no national anthem, more reading to do on ur own, more explorations on ur own, more expectations on behaviro and results. less competitive among frenz.

But i feel as if i am back to time, where i can b myself, where there is much competition among frenz. is like those pure-ness among frenz..

I like the new frenz i make, they are nice, loving, caring and VERY NOT self centred. ( like Wan Ling, Zi Wei , Ai Ming, Si Ling, Sabina, Shu Qing, Kai Xiang, Celine, etc.)
Here i rarely see AA or self centred ppl. ( okay at least they wun b bothering about my life like last time.)

I am starting to grow to like here! SIm really v conducive for mugging! and they people here are all nice!! =x Ok i admit sometimes some things v funny occur like, having ppl cut hair in library, watching "weird" vids in lib...

Hee.. a very RANDOM post abt my life in sim now! =p

宅女

妳的分數是32分

３１分～５６分-宅女
妳是一個相當安靜又多慮的女生，思考仔細、喜歡照計劃進行，很敏感、平常有點緊張，這樣的妳可說是「想太多的宅女」，雖然宅但還有救..平常生活可以再更放鬆一點，不要常待在家裡..偶而跟一些朋友們約個會..期待妳從宅女變正妹喲~~~

http://www.startv.com.tw/chs/web/Test_girlanswer.asp

AH! im 宅女 !!!

Stress.

din realise uni can be so stress...

I was never result orientated ( ok at least not very) ...

Now im different...

WHy~ =(((

悲伤

我的悲，
我的伤。

我的寂寞，
我的孤独。

我的顾虑，
我的心烦。

何人知？
何人晓？

曾听过这么一句话：“女人戴太多面具，男人则从不摘下面具。”
忽然，觉得自己好像男人？

Okok ! now im worried! why no one gg to my Com blog! and is kind of influencial to my grade!

=x

www.stan025.blogspot.com

Please go comment hao ma?
although inside are mostly my rubbish n craps abt comm. bt hope gt ppl appreciate and comment! =x

if really tt terrible please sms to tell mi . ok? =)

What others see from your style

You tend to be a gentle and pleasant person. You love nature and at least some of the arts, and derive great satisfaction from being helpful. You are stubborn and are not interested in wealth and power.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You enjoy being alone. You like to life the simple but good life, and you cherish your freedom. You are thoughtful, confident and uninterested in glamour.

What others see from your belts

You are a lonely and demanding person. You are hardworking as well as intelligent, and can be passionate when in love.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are a sweet and talkative person. You are sociable, energetic and interesting, and get easily bored by the same old things. You are always looking for adventure.

The last analysis

You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test102.aspx

School School School.

Read Read Read

Quiz Quiz Quiz

......


life-decision
Life-decision
Life-Decision

Lousy com 101 entry

Haix.

HUmilated myself online.

with such a lousy blog entry.

ah why im nt gifted of critical thinking! =((((

Support! =) http://stan025.blogspot.com/

心烦

不知道脑筋又在想些什么。
坦白说认识了现在的男朋友后，心里一直被提醒另一个人。
我没有出轨。
只是现在的男友经常让我想起已前的他。
谁也不能怪。
只怪自己以前的感情生活太复杂。*叹气*

在感情中你认为什么最重要？
在感情中你又会被什么动摇？
我真的很烦。
我就是鸵鸟。
我喜欢躲避。

UB. 1st Week.

Hmm. yeah. here i m! hee.

Finally survived my first week in UB! =)

Hmm. dunno what to comment on except tt is stress! =x

bt being v adaptable i managed to get back to lect-n-tut life le. hmm. for now only! haha hopefully dun need lik every lesson oso feel stress jiu ok le. =p
Hmm n on my 2nd week . i m gg to hav lik 4 quizes!

HaI REN SHENG AH!

Hmm. actually oso dunno wat to write juz wan to drop by nia! wahaha! =x
oh. some random pics?! =)

Haha i did mention abt mi getting a cold during my orientation!Being a responsible Singaporean! ON my way to see doc Tan.

Did i mention i taking music!(MUS116) haha. is lik super basic course from grade one to grade 5.
But is 3 yrs stuff squeeze into 14 wks!!!

Haha and this the result of trying to understand psychology after reading Mus116 notes!

Andthis is a tire teacher frm marking papers! Haha~

Oh went Vivo juz now. my bf bought his F21 beanie for mi . haha. ok v random!

First day in UB

yeah! Yup. Today is the first day in UB for mi =)
wore DOMO to sch. super Pai Seh! =x half the time trying to Hide him behind my bag.
very sian !! cuz in btn too much breaks plus no projects coming up so like super slack so far! =x

Haha. had 3 lessons.
2 of which already have project to b done.
As for the ESL class. wah instructor nt here n was given a diagnostic test for ENGLISH!
Haha~ die. everything return to lao shi men le..
totally no vocabulary to use to impress. Just hope my simple n juz can make it ang mo at least make my instructor please? =x
haha. Need buck up for english again! =x wanna IMprove!

Oh Oh! went NP makan place to eat. had jap food. nic. bt a bit too sweet for mi! there is SUBWAY THERE! SUBWAY eat FresH! =D
wahaha~ can c my weight increasing in the coming weeks le!!!

Dearest Fat FAT! Here i COME! =x

orientatioN!

haha~ yeah~ finally. went to the orientation today! =D

Haha~ UB ppl are nice..
ren sheng de ling yi duan de lv cheng zhong yu yao kai shi le!
Made a quite a few frenz..
but also met someone i totally hav no interest in continuing the friendship.. haha. Hypocrisy? Dunno. =x

Hmm today had the usual talks. Introductory stuff.. etc.etc...
aft tt went to Sentosa! although Li Ni n Jas complain tt the lunch is not nice. but i think vv nice!! haha. think it is because is one of my fav food Nasi Lemak! wahaha! wo shi xin fu de.. got such nice food! =)*sneeze*

After which we played a few crazy games!
Unfortunately although i manage to avoid the first wet game. i cant siam the other! -.-!
Got myself half wet n with such nice sea breeze in Sentosa result to my current spoiled-tap nose!!! *sniff*sniff* n sort of hav some abrasion on my elbow~~ why sentosa sand so ROUGh! =p

The Good news is tt my sore throat is considered ok now! despite i din see doc! =p hee**

I tink im missing the interaction with people. i mean when i was in sch i would volunteer to mix with ppl from diff classes..or volunteer for events... now w/o sch .. i stay at home often n only interact with the small handful of ppl.. *sneeze again!!!*
*sniff*sniff*
where was i? Oh ya. i find myself really enjoy being with ppl. haha.. the ppl i met during orientation are really nice! my OGL is cute n nice too. haha.Hope they will b my classmates! =)
*sniff*
Haha. going check my timetable aft this blog.
help mi pray tt my lessons are not killer timing ok! =)

=D

Orphan

Yo. Ok im bore. so im gonna type stuff i dun usually here? =x

haha. ytd went to watch Orphan...

Hmm...i would rate it 4/5?
Haha. keeps mi guessing. i tink partly cuz i knew it is a story with a twist..
and.. for the first time i din get the twist rite!!! argh!
OK. is nice. the story is about a family adopting a nice, polite, mature n talented ( in drawing) girl. ( Esther.) She seems nice n all. but she isnt really what her parents(esp dad) think she is.

Da Vinci

Yeah i went to the sci centre before the Da Vinci exhibits ends...
faster go only left a few days..
then u will know serioulsy why they call him the genius.
he is damn smart!!!!

OK la. honestly is cuz im v bore that is why im here!!

Oh went to peirce resvoir on 100809...

We went monkey watching =x ( i too bore la)

can see? this is actually a monkey with her baby ... is a newborn i guess...

We also found a snake crossing the road!!!
NOt very clear cuz is abt 7pm n the sky is getting dark...

Random!

Haha~ im bore la!
So is here to load some photos of mine recent n past few months!
Haha~
i wan sleep now.. good nights! =)


My New Fav! =x

Oh has a relief job on monday 030809.

Haha~ erm. for ppl who really wan noe wat this pic is abt can msn mi =p

This is Hs BDay!

KIDS!

A happy Beckham. =x

最近很少来这了。

最近很少来这了。
Perhaps due to the fact that my life hasnt hav much things interesting enough for me to blog here?
I dunno .
or perhaps.. nothing is worth mi blogging?
ya the usual. at home slack . farming at FB n dance.

Hmm.. dunno why i haven been in a gd mood recently...
dun negative abt certain things...
to add on to that... someone juz sms mi mroe negative things..
i lost my morale...
how can i raise others?

*sigh* in life. what you want is not always what u get.
That is what i feel after being on earth fro 20 yearS? *laugh*
But some times God is great. He will surprise u in the most unexpected way .=)

Everyone is different

Hmm..

Woah! so fast uni starting..!! ( Hmm.. not for mi though ) ...
Heard that i had two frenz who are already overseas..
suddenly feel v sad.. cuz one of them is lik i like her a lot... tt type.. she is nice n child-like..

Hmm.. so sad...
Life is now at another cross junction..
People who hav walked thru with mi for the 3 years in JC life..
I appreciate them.. i really do ..
regardless they are jzu a passer-by or had left an impact in my life...

Each of us will hav too carry on walking at a different path for now...
Some (like me) will be alone in the road...
Some having companions in this new stretch of road...
Mayb some will refuse to carry on walking.. n stoP at the junction hoping for things to happened...
Perhaps some day we will meet again at another junction of life...
but.. would everyone b the same?
would the friendship still be there?
or will become just like strangers?

Hmm.. life is so unpredictable...
But.. i thank every single one of you...
for being with mi (even for juz one sec) in this 3 yrs journey...
haha.. they include .. 125`06 133`07 228`08.. Sophie toh?! Lol.. Miss Pang... Wenki... n a lot more! =)

不喜欢。
不喜欢人家假装了解我。
我讨厌这样的人。

不喜欢虚情假意的人。
我讨厌这样的人。

嗯。我很难伺候的。

Tommy n Shell Chi.

心情：不明。

在某人的Blog看到了一些意想不到的事。
有些事情很奇怪。
不能接受。
不知为何心里十分不适滋味。
很不服。
心有些痛？
明明心中充满着对你的不满。
可是，见到你们的entries却似乎不见了。

坦诚说，跟你在一起的前几个月，是幸福的。
我们对彼此许下的承诺应该比天上繁星还多，
但是现在我们都活在彼此全然不同频率的生活里。
你在事发后对我做与说的一切真的让我很心碎。
尤其是你说的话，那晚我想了一夜。
我是咎由自取吧。
谢谢你，让我了解了自己的犯溅。
让我知道自己不是自我想象中的清高。

全部都不重要了。
如今，
你有你的她。
我有我的他。

希望你们会幸福。因为她是个很好的女孩子。

fat fat.

hah~ i now sneakily post an entry for fun.
Just had my lunch!
can see my tummy!!!
fat fat~ =((((

bye bye...
Take care..
lala~
=D

Hopeless.

Haix. yes. im officially no local uni wan mi. sad life huh?

Hmm.. im genuinely glad tt my frenz gt into SMU,NTU,NIE n NUS.
I hav seen their hardwork n potential.
They deserve to b where they are. * envy *

Hmm.. i suddenly v pessimistic...
i dun wan to study anymore.
i dun wan. life sucks as a lousy student. i suck.
mayb i shld go b police? air stewardess? or some other job tt only req A lvls?
haix. im juz v hopeless.

Life is not always a bed of roses.

By now.. i shall juz announce in my blog tt i hav been rejected by both NUS n NTU..
Applied to SIM ..( pending)
Appealed to NUS FASS. ( hopeless )
Had an interviewed with NIE ( is this wat i want? )

Haix.. i dunno i dun lik A levels..
it is really sucky...

Haix. life sucks after Jc life ended.. at the same time rocks! ( life is always full of ironies! )

haix.. when JC life came to an end.. i get to see more n more ppl real side..
i mean frenz who used to juz sit beside u being super frenz with u .. yet turn out to b some one else... Hypocrisy... i tink no one can really b guilt free frm it..
Im frank with myself most of time..
i admit tt im definitely guilty of it when i was in JC.. bt i tried my best to minimise it...
Hai... emo again..!! argh! FORGET IT!

Hmm.. bt at the same time.. im v touched.. touched by ppl who showered mi with genuine care n concern. i tnk partly cause i am someOne who believe in juz by listenign to a person's voice u can detect the genuiness of the person.. Sorry if u r someone with a voice tt i cant sense the sincerity.. I can not really open up to u truly.. the defense wall are definitely there...

I find myself getting funny aft leaving YJC.. my character changed a lot.. i m easily touched by simple little things frenz do to mi .. im able to show my frenz my love to them.. more open to telling them i treasure them.. Perhas also having graduate frm Elias class i guess. i learn to appreciate ppl more... learn to think mroe of their POV...

But im sorry i still cant overcome the part abt the voice tone thingy..
but

Thank YOu!!! many people for being there for mi...
esp aft the result day.. allowing mi to behave juz as wat i wan to ..
din push mi so hard as they noe im already stressed up..
and at the same time teach mi how to relax better.. or letting mi to relax
more...

Sometimes.. being there doesnt mean doing a lot of superficial n great things...
to mi juz b there n give mi a pat or a hug. is enough. BUt muz b genuine!
i dun tink im greedy. im easily contented. esp when it comes to frenship...

My daily life~

Hmm.. wah.. super long nv update sia.. after the kind of emo post!
Lol. Sorry if any of u are worrying abt mi for that.
Hmm.. i honestly cant guarantee that im perfectly fine or emotionally recovered from it..
but im recovering.. that is the positive part rite?

and u noe wat is helping mi from recovering???

More food !
More Sleep!
MOre
stress from waiting for uni replies!
More pimples to divert my attention!

Haix.. sad.. ya.. i now pimples outbreak again...
dunno why sia.. is it cuz the data room v dry? or i din drink enough water... or juz cuz of stress?( that is usually the case).. Sianx...

Oh ya.. i wan cut my hair!!!
argh.. v pek cek with my fringe now!!!
argh.. gt any recommendations? =x
NO chapter 2 please.. they super not gd... ( personal opinion. )

haha... Random update by mi! =p

Oh ya..

HAPPy BirthDay Say WeE! =D (26May09)

Wow~ so long din update~

Hmm.. juz realise i havent really been going online for quite sumtime..
sorry for those who are regulars here... Oops.. really not on purpose...

Anyhow...i had an eventful kick start for May..
Hmm traumatise? not really .. Hurt ? definitely...
only 3 persons would noe about this unless the person who inflicted that impact n almost incurable "wound" on mi go abt telling ppl ? I hope he din..
perhaps this is his way of revenge? or his way of showing how much i really matter to him..
bt im speechless n at the same time totally destroyed by him ...

I seriously dunno why.. im deserving this..
im sad.. im devastated? i dunno .. juz simply cant find a word to describe aptly how i feel...
the first few days.. was really emo for mi.. i would juz sit in Fadhly's car n start crying ... or alone in th data room ( my work place) having a fierce fight with my tears...
Im seriously disappointed n sad.. i dunno why he is doing all this to mi .. in wat way do i deserve it? or perhaps u ( u noe who im referring) juz confront me ? anyway i doubt u can hurt mi any deeper...

Adding on .. Thanks fadhly for being there for mi ... n Beckham ..


Hmm.. after tt incident.. i kept having many tots.. i dunno why.. maybe it juz triggered my emotions to think abt a lot of things that i dun wish to think abt .. but somehow i juz start thinking abt... sadness filled mi ... as if dementors are near... i kept having sad feelings.. tear easily.. ( for ppl who are close to mi knows tt i almost nv cry in front of frenz... )

Another issue is about frenz bah...
Hmm Miss Pang PG would noe what im saying?
haha... was confiding to her a lot tt day... during our course break time...

dun u guys find life is sumtimes a joke? esp with frenz?
SomeOne u treat so whole-heartedly n sincerely actually give u a feeling as if she is building a solid barrier between u n her?
Perhaps all tt closeness with u b4 was all an act ...
Perhaps when u r willing to pour ur heart n soul to her ... she is juz there patronising u ?
I dunno .. im juz too sad to think or even sms her anymore..
let her juz b a normal fren to mi .. despite how much i like her as a fren... how much i treasure her..
However.. on the other hand.. someone may treat u in similar manner.. yet.. u repay her back the same manner?

I always find it ridiculous..
Example..

A wanna b close fren with B but all B wans as a fren is C ..
But C is totally not interested abt making close fren with B...
hence B wun bother A. at the same time C wun bother B.
Maybe cuz C juz dun lik B n ... B juz find A hypocrite?
In the end 2 person are hurt..

why a simple friendship can get tt complex.. n hurtful...? i tot friendship makes ppl happy n makes ppl feels tt life is juz mroe colourful when frenz are around u ?
Haix.. i dunno .. confuse...

Btw... I was extended till june for my CPF work.. haha.. =)
Hmm.. went to Xan xan bday on sun.. haha xan xan so cute now...growing strong..
he'll bcome a strong n smart guy juz like his dad !
I believe he will oso b as strong as auntie... auntie muz jia you.. ok i doubt u will see this though..

Sometimes almost everything u see are so superficial n so pretendious tt if it is not from the mouth of someone whom u trust so much in .. u will nv think such impossible happenings would really happen.. haix.. v not convenient for mi to comments.

Ok.. quite a long post!
Juz i hav been surpressing myself too often result in this outbreak?
Haix..i dunno..
Nowadays i seem to think more than often abt this qn... :

"God, why are these happening?"

abt last post./NIke shoes

Firstly:

I dun like ppl who emo in blog in order to get attention ON PURPOSE!

( this is for Rong Choon Actually )

Secondly n most importantly:

I dun find last post emo at all -.-! seriously...

Mr Ng Rong Choon n Mr Fadhly... i wasn't emo-ing at all when i type
last post...

Hmm ok some updates of my life.. haha...

For some.. you would hav known tt im currently working in CPF building.. the one at Robinson Road... ok anyhow.. ya... im currently having lunch alone from the time 1-2.. if any1 interested plz feel free to drop by n acc mi for Lunch... Hee..

However.. i ending my work most probably at 9th May.. cuz is a month contract only~ =)

n ytd.. with my pay.. i got my first pair of NIKE shoes!

okok .. i noe i noob or watever...

But i 1sttime but nike shoes lehx..

of course muz blog n say say a bit ma.. hee... the pics...

Nice rite?! =x

btw i bought it course for those who hav seen b4 my current converse the one i use for dance is chui until lik dunno what.. almost slip n fell last week in studio.. so ytd i head down to Queensway n buy this! =D hee~

ok.. tts abt it ...

P.S: TAKE NOTE i enDing work at 9th MAy.. so aft tt gt job lobang muz inform mi ok!!! =x THANKS!!!!

Hypocrite

Hmm. I tink im genrally matured although fadhly keeps sayign tt i behave lik a kid.. bt i realise a certain aspect of me i juz cant change ... since young... which is...

I cant force myself to treat someone i think is a hypocrite nice.
I cant stand being a hypocrite...
I hate to act as if i like them ... ( ok nt tt extreme till i dun lik them ... bt juz neutral dun hav any gd feelings neither any bad...)

However.. in some situation..
im force to act as if i like them.. i hate it.. i honestly hate it..
it suckz to b hypocrite...

However... Thankfully.. im "saved" now! =)
I try my best to escape frm tt situation now..

Sometimes i would rather b a loner...
perhaps tts my reason ba..
dun wish to act as if i lik someOne~
n at the same time not wantng to offend anyone. =)

Secondhand Serenade--Fall For You

Secondhand Serenade--Fall For You

Songwriters: Vesely, John Joseph

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

玻璃鞋 郑秀文

歌曲：玻璃鞋 歌手：郑秀文
词:李敏 曲:黄丹仪

又再想 情形原来多公平 谁人如能使我
经常欢乐,也能使我哭
恋爱是 无形如童话精灵
无形而能使我心情起伏反而感觉满足

我愿为爱作牺牲 耗尽了我的真
完成童话内戏份 现实纵使伤感,破碎公主的心

玻璃折射那幻觉 幻觉极迷人
王子,从来未遇到灰姑娘
天神从来未造出玻璃鞋
还是相信恋爱幻觉
童话拼合爱的方块

假如存在幸福玻璃鞋
假如神或上天肯安排
期望给我只管看一眼
只管穿一穿也愉快

成就一对 可拥有一刹 花一生积蓄
我愿买 期望跟你只管吻一吻
只管想一想 也愉快!


looking for this song.. i tink this is the canton vers.. any one has the chinese vers n the actual song in chinese?? can plz send mi!! i noe this song v old.. bt i lik!! =x plz plz~

Life seriously.. seems sucky for now..

Suddenly realise how navie im again...

Who m i ..

expect any1 to understand?

expect any1 to show sympathy?

Conculsion: Vex.

UNi Admission..

Haix.. was reading Jelly de Blog.. wah.. he gt a seat in NUS.. so fast so soon...

HE also mentioned abt writing essay sell himself.. suddenly.. feel v not confident for myself.. firstly.. my results sux... i din write any essay.. i feel so regretful now.. hopefully God will bless me with a seat in NTU.. Haix.. v sad.. aiya.. dunno wat i writing oso.. haix... dun care much.. juz try enjoy my life now bah.. =)

The Five People You Meet in Heaven. Mitch Albom

Oh ya.. finished reading [The Five People You Meet in Heaven. By Mitch Albom]

a nice book.. almost teared again.. haha.. wah find him a v zai writer.. can always use words to make mi almost cry.. Hmm... suddenly aft reading the book.. i realise.. there is an amazing connection between people n people in this world..

I mean u may walk past a person .. n say out sth tts super random.. which may affect the fren or tt stranger for life...

Or Perhaps.. in ur life there already has such an impactful person, be it acquittance, fren, beloved or even strangers... I had actually met a few of mine.. wondering will i b able to meet them when they die n tell them the impact they hav on mi ?

Haha... Cool rite? =)

So when u r too angry or sth.. hold back wat u intend to say.control ur temper.hold ur tongue.dun let ur emotions get the better of u n blurt out things tt u may regret for life! trust mi .. words said due to overwhelmed emotions sux n hurts more than using a sharp knife piercing the heart.

btw.. give a try for the book .. if cant find it i can lend u =)

My days!

Went to ECP to learn blading frm RC n aaron..
haha ke lian de say wee being dragged along oso..

Haha.. roller blading is FUN! wooohooo!!! But i v lousy ..
tink i v timid la.. dun dare go for speed.. scare this scare tt...
argh.. nvm.. gt chance go skate again.. is fun! =x

Hmm... aft the ECP thingy meet up with sheng ye, say wee n rc to marina barrage.. to slack n share stuff .. Miss this kind of life... but i no longer young le.. sian...

Today went to sentosa walk abt.. haha aft being PS by dak.. asked RC to acc mi there.. met Hanafi n aaron there.. they are working over there.. then strol abt in Pelawan Beach! I feel like swimming sia!!! BUt But But... haix... then watched an animal shoW!! nICE!! ah... gt chance wan go there sit thE whole day watch finish everything!!! cuz the birds are cute sia!!!

Hmm... Miss JYSS kids.. dunno why .. suddenly miss them... dunno they still rmb abt mi anots... wondering hows the new teacher? hmm.. Wish them all the best! =)

Find this random post?
Lol.. go see my facebook more random! =x

RANDOMZ!

T

Came across a person's blog ( definitely nt my students! )

Hmm.. a break into a laugh..
Perseverance.. what a joke !
im not saying or pin-pointing anyone in particular...

How much time were being used to prove sth? how much effort did u really put in ?
A month? A lot ? ( according to you. )
I m sincerely glad tt u finally walk out of it... Im not tt mean to wan you dwell in it foR long...
But it just sound to mi like a joke.
But it just proves me rite.
Sorry that i put it across so crudely...

P.S : For any that is sincerely a concerning fren... Dun ask mi much ok ? i wish to juz post it in this manner n nv bring it up again ... =)

went to ORchard with LHS -.-!!! lol.. i lik ur new nick! lol
do a lot of rubbish things la... wasted abt $30! OMG* including food la...

I bought a Pair of new shoes! yeah! =x

Lalalala~~~~

Randomz****

My MIA-ness

Oops.. has been away fOr SssssssssssOOOOooooooooooooo Long... haha din really hav either the mood or time to blog... OOps..

Went to soem new places in singapore tt i haven been to or tried some new stuff! =)
ok nt v new.. bt mayb some things i haven done so some time?

Went to Ubin On Sun.. HAha ... stupid rite? ok.. nvm.. saw a woodpecker... is v small from my pic.. is a brown birdy tt goes.. "de de de de de de de de de de de de "

I realise tt my cycling skill sux lik dunno wat... even the villagers oso unhappy with mi.. os i end up walking.. haha... Met Guan Sir there! lol with his family! n he Recognised MI ! OMG*! din tale their pics.. shy.. haha... and ha;f the time in Ubin was enjoying the nature.. so din really take a lot pics // haha/// Guess wats this! haha... is the window of a car being washed! random! =x
Saw a rainBow on SATURDAY!!! Awww.. so Happy!!! =D

Went To NTU de Sakae SuShi on wed 18 /03 / 09.. Haha some random pics!

Hmm.. i swear the ambenice is good! haha.. food wise... er.. normal lik all the other outlet?
but i like the quietness.. and juz sit there look outside the window juz eat.. take ur time ( ok nt really buffet gt limit).. n the staff are friendly n nice ! =)

Went running in the night at Mt Faber with Fadhly! lol... on 15 /03/ 09

Random la.. we were lik..

F : eh .. i feel lik running...

Mi: er.. ok where?

F: we go Mt Faber?

Mi : ok.

BUt i gotta admit the distance.. is short.. n i din really perspire haha...

You might b wondering wat i doing with him intially?

helpign him get some Car perfume!

Got so much sia!!! i smell till my nose lik no feeling to any scent... lik tt.. bt gt a scent tt he lik...

Together with Pei Ying n PG, Went to attend my first practical counselling course! lol... Cost 428... Ok i tink was quite worth it.. requires lots of thinking...haha.. the ppl in the class are oso v interestinG! =)

Ohya!! i went bacK for CVD.. haha with yk, sop , john.. this is Ah PUAH! lol.. commonly known as papa Puah.. my chem tutor.. for my JC2.. haha.. interesting n fun guy... bt is a teacher tt expects u study on ur own type! sian.. bt he is nice n loves his family lots!

Oh ya... Rmb mi saying abt the bday gifts?

The baking oven my sis n mum gave mI! =)

The wallet jin Kiat n giNA gave.

Hmm.. Kylie n one more ger.. i forget who le..=x they also gave mi a v cute key chain! haha.. JYSS students are so sweet!! =)

Hmm.. ok .. i gt the sudden notice for nt required to go to JYSS anymore.tts why i suddenly so free here to blog.. hmm.. dunno. the kids are ok or nt.. last night LI hui sms mi .. she todl mi abt the new teachr... stern strict.. which was gd ba? think i too nice.. end up they bully mi .. n they cant learn much during lessons oso.. hope the new teacher can seriously help the kids! =D

tts all abt my MIA duration de doings le.. haha...

I wan go CLUBBING! =x went once only! n tt aaron was tempting mi go the other day.. bt MY cant make it say wee oso .. so end up din go .. pluz i was sort of having a headache tt day! haix...

Now gg to pester Zy to bring mi go! argh! why i so nOOB! -.-!!!!

mybday~

OOps.. Kena complained fo rnot updating my blog.. Lol... okok... wat shld i b sharing with u guys nehx???

Hmm....

Hmm...

Ok how abt my bday ? actually nth much really happened on my bday ... juz had a simple dinner.. n received presents frm my students ( jin Kiat n giNA) n my mum n sis...

JK n GiNa gave mi a wallet.. haha .. sweet of her tofind time buy foR mi .. the one tt u guys are seeing mi using is frm them . =)

my sis n mum bought mi a baking oVEN! OMG*** haha... i finally gt my own baking oven... yeah.. no longeR need to trouble sophie n my other frenz to let mi use the oven.. haha.. bt then come to think of it ... hmm.. if i were to bake rite... they are actually benefitting... cuz they get to eat the food!!! Haha~

1E2 n 1N1 is oso quite sweet... 1E2 sang a bday song.. while 1N1 drew on the board happY bday for mi ... haha... sweet of them rite.. hah abt weird for mi .. cuz i gt lessons to carry on .. then dun wan to damned their mood oso...

But this year is the saddest year for mi ..i nv get to eat any bday cake!! SOB!. i wan bday cake! Haha~~

Well.. to end this entry rite....

Welcome to the age of TWENTY , SHARON =)))

its my Birthday!

Happy Birthday Sharon ~ =)

dunno.

Stone.

=)

will try hard.

Jia You!.

Hmm The Day~

Hmm .. ok .. A's results are coming out real soon! -.-!!! haix~

I think im those type which superficially appear super okay yet deep down im nervous and stress with the upcoming of results?! kind of person!?
Hmm.. ok mayb im nt being myself recently also part of this.. i dunno how im gg to face my results... Haix... im really v stress about tt .. was toking to fadhly abt this the other day...he consoled mi .. Thanks... bt... haix... Oh ya.. Thanks Chiat Lin for ur concern abt my results.. Hmm.. sincerely thank u for tt.. =)

Actually lik wat i hav always said.... the results are already in Singapore.. perhaps juz in the sing post or MOE ready to b mailed to all the JCs in Singapore.. there is nt much i can do .. n over the few months im sure MOE n the CAMbridge has of course decided on the grades tt i shloud b getting! bt i juz cant help worrying .. u noe? in A's is no longer lik in O's caring abt the no of passes or Bs.. in A's is the no of As tt is the main concern ! haix...

im someone who noe myself better than anyone.. i think tt i would not b getting gd grades at all.. im all mentally prepared.. However.. i dunno abt the next stage of life for mi if i were to flunk lik shit! ...

shld lik go Poly n get a simple diplo? go SIM ? go NIE? or re-take? if i were to re-take in yj or pte? or get a rich guy who loves mi n jzu get marrieD?

i dunno... Stress... God help... need someOne to talk to abt this..where shld my next stage of life b? i dunno... i seriously dunno... Haix...

Hmm... other than this.. another thing is abt my job as a RT.. Haix... i sux as a teacher seriously! forget abt it..dun wanna elaborate much bt at least some students are getting better! Thank God for tt ! =)

Hmm.. another tot for the day? ok?
Men to mi are all the same... i gotta admit im pessimistic abt BGR... Hmm.. dun wanna say much here.. bt tts wat i tink..

OK .. pray for my A's resulst too! =D

Hmm.. ok~ if u hav noticed my students are seriously reading my blog? lol.. or juz link for fun? dunno la.. bt this tells mi tt i hav to b more "mautre" in wat i blog? =p

Hmm .. today De Shun asked mi why i post my BGR stuff here.. -.-!!!
lol.. since u malu mi in clz i gg to mention ur name here.. mr Chen De shun! lala~
Er.. ok la.. to mi im those who dun really like to hide up my true feelings for things.. unless ppl would b hurt if i am v truthful..

in addition... THIS IS MY BLOG -.-!!! haha.. so i will blog watever i feel lik ... bt nt to the extend of hurting or criticising anyOne... at least i try my best to nt let such things happen~ =)

Ok tt's all!! tml hav to go work again! =)

frm Jin Kiat~

Love isnt just about possession , it's wanting the best for her ; jealousy isnt
wrong , it's just part of life..

Wah~ chim rite the above quote..
haha~~ quote of the day ! fom mr Chia Jin KiaT! nt gg to elaborate much on why i quoted frm him ... haha~

okok i noe i sound very different frm last few posts.. but isnt it a gd thing?
would u rather tt i emo all the way ?? Hmm.. if u really noe mi .. u would noe tt i dun really like to emo ... so lala~ im sort of back to normal mood.. hopefully can last for another 2 weeks b4 the kids having their march Holz...

Hmm... lets share some of my personal tot to recent happenings here..
Hmm.. firstly.. im nt a "giving up " sort of person.. as in i dun usually give up easily... this is due to one of tkd sir.. i remembered tt he once said to mi dun ever give up so easily.. u nv try u nv noe.. haha i was only 13 then ... bt since then i dun give up tt easily...
bt sometimes in life i realise tt we hav to learn to give up.. give up tots.. give up ambitions.. give up goals... BUT!!! these tots ambitions n goals muz only b short term! meaning.. lik giving up a spelling test .. or a grading.. n ultimately hold onto wat u believe in n dreams of .. lik having a real n actual dance crew... excelling in O's .. all these... its ok to give up small goals.. bt nv forget what ur big dreams are... and with perseverance n frenz...n definitely God's help... nth is impossible... for the word impossible is made up of " I M Possible!' =)

n i recently found out more n more jyss ppl noe my blog! OMG* *GOM ... Haha~ i m gg to censor some content haha.. to keep a small part of my private life.. im nt saying i hav things to hide ..bt there are juz things i dun wanna share with jyss ppl la... so PS... haha... n kenny, ZHAO Ming, Victor! u all better leave tag hor! dun lik tt unfair ...at least i can link u or sth~~~...

Tts all !!! Bye!!!!

Silence

Silence is the most erm.. formidable thing in the whole world... Dun you thinK so ?
i dunno how to say it out .. bt i juz feel so ...

tire... really drained.. mayb im ntcut out.. mayb is my wishful thinking to juz tink tt im fit to teach...

seriously .. is it mi ???

Broken up

Why ppl break up?
I dunno...
but for mi .. i usually chose this step because i noe both parties are no longer happy together... u need nt wait till love isnt there to make this move..
when u really love sum1 u would rather him to b happy than b unhappy with u...
stubbornly holding on to sth does make any matter any better...

Perhaps many would say u nv try u nv noe.. bt sometimes is gd to discount such situations.. because consequences mayb unbearable.. u may say im selfish.. u may say im pessimistic... u may thing tt i do nt bother abt the other party's feelings... bt... to me tts the wise choice...

When a Fish has been hurt many times... with scales battered n tore... she will avoid things at all cost juz to make sure she will b okay...
She is Sorry for her selfishness.. n she juz cant bear herself hurting sum1 else bcuz of tt..sum1 tt she considers dear to her .. so in order nt to prolong the hurt for both parties..esp when she knows tt the other party is the one who is suffering more... she made this choice...

being a RT

Heys~!!! yes.. as a RT who has to wake up at 5am later.. i m still here!! wahaha!

no la stayed up doing some presentations for my students.. hope they appreciates.. is nt really easy to type in chinese you noe!! -.-!!! haix.. bt i dun tink the class will appreciate at all.. bt well lets nt discount the students ok?

Hmm.. seriously.. i dunno why i take up the job as RT .. i was doing the presentations juz now.. n lots of things juz start coming into my mind... like.. why dun i juz b a book store assistant? why dun i juz go some shop n b a sales assistant.. everyday dress nice nice in the boutique's clothes.. make my self pretty n wun really get pissed off by students who doesnt appreciate mi ... im nt saying tt the sales job is lik vvv wat .. bt is more of why did i bcome a RT! -.-!!! Haix...

I seriously cant imagine myself doing this all my life as a teacher. =x
haha need re-consider my ambitions again...
or shld i stay firm???

Hmmm...
ok la.. gtg slp le.. if nt i tml sure cmi for any lessons de...
=D

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say...

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

________________________________________________________________

Hmm... Actually i may seem alright.. deep down in my heart i know something is gone... perhaps forever? perhaps jzu for a few yrs... i dunno .. i dun even dare to dream abt it...

you noe the day aft u send mi the food... the very next morning... u r the first person tt came into my mind.. i had a very interesting dream... abt things n those funny stuff i often dream abt.. i was having the usual feeling lik i used to hav juz v excited to share sth with you.. bt i cruelly reminded myself about sth ... why m i always so cold blooded to myself?

my work place pic~?

Pics since jan??

This are the Vday goodies i gt frm both teachers and students!!! haha~~ ppl in JYSS are so SWEET!

My student make this for mi !!! haha~ though the rubber band n the Vday note are frm different ppl! bt Xue Li made the flower! Know is frm Gina!

Choco cookies frm unknown student~

The cookie is yummy! n nice once i get stressed up marking the kids TA1.

Haha~ aw... another sweet student!!! Mr Jin Kiat~

the Bowlers! Fadhly, Eliz ( being blocked by Siva!!!) aza!

Seriously i dunno wat is so interesting abt the board.

My masterpiece?! Nuril agreed tt looks lik Fadhly !

Miss Ee Chan dunno trying to do wat~

see agaiN!

One of my student~ cute rite?

a present frm Tommy. =)

mi er.. a bit drunk? Haha~ told u i wasnt v clear minded~

n these are the reasons!