Life is sucky now~~~

Life sucks to the core now...

If someone ever ask mi which are the most sucky period of my life...
Hmm.. i honestly tink tt besides being ditch by he-whom-i-dun-wish-to-name.. perhaps... this willl add on to the other part big part of it?

Haix... they always say hard work pays off...
but tt is provided... the amt of hard work put in is sufficiant...
Now the question is ... how much is this amt of hard work?
Haix...

Today gt back a few time pieces...
scored quite badly.. super unsatisfied with my own results...
Hmm... i tried correcting my answerign style.. bt it doesnt seem to work on mi.. i statr to wonder.. shld i write back to my old style? cuz at least with my old style i score better... or shld i hybridise?

Haix.. i dunno.. i attempt n yet and again disappointed...
How i wish i gt a genius who is good at.. chem .. maths... cll n econs... who can lik stay with mi thru out this period till A's... i know i hav many loving frenz who are willing to b there to help mi with my subjects... but... Sorry to some.. i tis period damn stress le.. so i cant really control my temper.. n my best way of controlling them is to b "cold" to all... tt is after 19 yrs of experience best solution... still trying to work things out for this particular area la... for another group of frenz.. im nt tryign to say ur studying method is lousy.. perhaps.. is juz dun suit mi... everyone hav their own learning style.. n sway sway our styles nt the same lor.. so... ya... Bt i noe u gusy are v loving ppl la.. =)

Hmm.. wow ... a lot of times think the creator of Blogs.. or on line diary damn zai la.. haha.. cuz after babbling here... i feel nt so stress le! =)

Hmm... A levels is officially one month away for mi! (all CLL ppl~ )
Hmm... Sometimes would you ( CLL) wonder... why Jing Yong.. Lun Xun..Lao She.. Wang Wei.. Dan Ying wrote so much so profound n mysterious stuff!!! -.0!!

Tyron is getting Married!

marriage (noun)

1. the state of being a married couple voluntarily joined for life (or until divorce); "a long and happy marriage"; "God bless this union"
2. two people who are married to each other; "his second marriage was happier than the first"; "a married couple without love"
3. the act of marrying; the nuptial ceremony; "their marriage was conducted in the chapel"
4. a close and intimate union; "the marriage of music and dance"; "a marriage of ideas"

Screwed up life.

Hmm.. wow .. today damn sian! keep wan to slp in sch a hoem.. evrything.. until i start doing the fiv years series! -.-!!! Weird body.. n the funny thing is once i touched Chem FYS lol.. the ZzZZz Monster Came back agaiN! *argh!* Muz do chem as consistent!!! -.-!!!

Hmm.. every wednesday in YJ is the "FRIED" day.. n i tink i had the bread is VVVVVVvvvvvvvv OILY!!! ah~ chi bao hou keep feeling tummy v weird!
Hmm.. think i cant really take oily stuff... i either will hav weird feeling.. vomit.. or ... feel sleepy! haha~ weird effects i noe... i tink super weird oso! =x

Hmm... nowadays i lik TYS machine lik tt.. keep come home do.. in sch do... haha .. tink POh Geok v soon gg to b scare of mi le! i hav officially start pestering her for solutions hee... cant blame mi la! my studies nt gd ma.. so need her help ma.. she so HAO xing wun reject mi de la! =D THANKS *unlike someone haix.. dun wanna tink abt her..*

Hmm... currently my motivation are gd grades for A's! =x haha~ so... i lik v psycho keep tellign n stressing myself abt my grade! -.-!!! which is VVv 惨无人睹！Haix... *sian*

Now i in sch oso din voice out my tots as much le.. * losing Sharon -.-!*
realise my tolerance level oso drop a lot! -.-! Haix. a lot of things i really cant stand! -.-! bt i dun bother la.. sometimes.. really i dun see the point of mi voicing out any things at all.. who bothers?! haha.. suddenly realise this section of the entry seems super familiar! lol.. i tink cuz i now finally understand completely how Lao Ren felt le... n another person how he felt too... JC2 life really v amazing.. made mi realise wat i nv realise b4!

Everyone continue add OIL! =)

Life now....

Hmm.. wow.. really v busy le nowadays.. with work esp...

Haha.. i guess everyone is so too...

Hmm.. stress is a v unpredictable thing... as in u will nv noe wat effect it has on you...

Many of my frenz are damn stressed up ( tts including myself ) ~ but im those who happened to perform when stressed! Lolx.. bt at the same time become quite hot-tempered! =x

Hmm... for some of my frenz... chose to stone to escape from stress... some..choose to express themselves more freely... some will juz find ppl to emo a while jiu hao le! =)

For mi .. i will dance.. tkd .. eat.. stone ... n go walk abt in places i rarely go .. or quiet places...
Hmm... i tink tt explains my current body size BAHx ! =p
Hee... n to mi ..

Stressed = Desserts! =x

Hmm... recently.. went to share life with my fren... as in juz sit there chat .. crap .. lik jzu escape from the reality for a night... Hmm... talk a lot... *confidential* lolx... Hmm... understood a lot.. learnt a lot... knew a lot... shared a lot n Thank God for HIM =) May God bless him make him realise how real God is...

Actually...
my life now quite screwed... for study wise Still.... OOOooooooOooooKkkkkKKkkkKkkKkkk la... bt mostly is abt relationships with ppl.... Hmm... i think roughly tts it le.. enough to used up ur 1 min le? =)

JC1s Jia you aH! =)
JC2s Muz nt let ur 2-3 years go to waste!
Freedom is only approximately 3 months away! after this hurdle... Can go enjoy! SOON! =D

Puppet

American Heritage Dictionary

Puppet n.

A small figure of a person or animal, having a cloth body and hollow head, designed to be fitted over and manipulated by the hand.
A figure having jointed parts animated from above by strings or wires; a marionette.
A toy representing a human figure; a doll.
One whose behavior is determined by the will of others: a political puppet.

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中秋节- Mid-autum Festival.

Heys! its consider 14 Sep now.. haha Happy Mid -autum! =)
Hee.. anyway ~~ i will b quite busy frm now.. ... so i may nt blog as often! =x
Hmm.. juz out f curorisity.. i went to Google abt Mid-Autum Festival.. realise... wow! there are so many diff legends abt it! near to ten i guess.. but the most commonly known ones are abt teh Archer.. Hou Yi.. n his Beloved.. Chang E... n i feel that basically the 1st 6 stories are similar.. however.. the last one is quite different! =x

Haha~~ tts abt it ... everyone enjoy ur mid-autum! =)
Hmm...

Version 1:
Houyi was an immortal, while Chang'e was a beautiful young girl, working in the Jade Emperor's (Emperor of Heaven) (玉帝 pinyin:yùdì) Palace as the attendant to the Queen Mother of the West (wife of the Jade Emperor), just before her marriage. One day, Houyi aroused the jealousy of the other immortals, who then slandered him before the Jade Emperor. Houyi and his wife, Chang'e, were subsequently banished from heaven, and forced to live by hunting on earth. He became a famous archer.

Now at this time, there were 10 suns, in the form of Three-legged birds, residing in a mulberry tree in the eastern sea; each day one of the sun birds would be rostered to travel around the world on a carriage, driven by Xihe (deity) the 'mother' of the suns. One day, all 10 of the suns circled together, causing the earth to burn. Emperor Yao, the Emperor of China, commanded Houyi to shoot down all but one of the suns. Upon the completion of his task, the Emperor rewarded Houyi with a pill that granted eternal life, and advised him: "Make no haste to swallow this pill; first prepare yourself with prayer and fasting for a year".[5] Houyi took the pill home and hid it under a rafter, while he began healing his spirit. While Houyi was healing his spirit, Houyi was summoned again by the emperor. Chang'e, noticing a white beam of light beckoning from the rafters, discovered the pill, which she swallowed. Immediately, she found that she could fly. At that moment, Houyi returned home, and, realizing what had happened, began to reprimand her. Chang'e flew out the window into the sky.[5]

With bow in hand, Houyi sped after her, and the pursuit continued halfway across the heavens. Finally, Houyi had to return to the Earth because of the force of the wind. Chang'e reached the moon, and breathless, she coughed. Part of the pill fell out from her mouth.[5] Now, the hare was already on the moon, and Chang'e commanded the animal to make another pill from it, so that she could return to earth to her husband.

As of today, the hare is still pounding herbs, trying to make the pill. As for Houyi, he built himself a palace in the sun as "Yang" (the male principle), with Chang'e as "Yin" (the female principle). Once a year, on the 15th day of the full moon, Houyi visits his wife. That is why, that night, the moon is full and beautiful.[5]

This description appears in written form in two Western Han dynasty (206 BCE-24 CE) collections; Shan Hai Jing, the Classic of the Mountains and Seas and Huainanzi, a philosophical classic.[6]



Version 2:

The story took place around 2170 BC. The earth had ten suns at that time. They burned the crops and people suffered of the infertile. Houyi sympathized the humans, so he decided to shoot down the sun but leave one to benefit the humans. After he shot down the suns, he became a hero. He had a beautiful wife name Chang’e and they lived happily together. Houyi had a lot of apprentices; they followed him to learn hunting. One day, on Houyi’s way back home the immortals emperor gave Houyi a pill which granted eternal life as a reward for shooting down the suns. He warned Houyi, “Make no haste to swallow the pill.” But Houyi loved Chang’e very much and did not want to leave her, so he gave the pill to Chang’e and let her store the pill in a safe place. Chang’e put the pill in her jewelry box. But one of Houyi’s prentices Peng discovered this secret. He decided to steal the pill. One day Houyi and other apprentices went to the mountain. Peng pretended he was sick so that he can stay at home. Everyone went to the mountain except Chang’e, who stayed at home. He intruded in Chang’e’s room and forced her to give him the pill. Chang’e knew she cannot fight Peng so she took flight and flew far far away. She did not want to leave her husband, so she stopped at the moon which is closest to Earth. After Houyi knew what happened, he was very angry and heartbroken. He looked up into the night and called Chang’e’s name. He discovered that inside the moon there was a lady’s shadow that look like Chang’e, so he ran and ran and tried to reach the moon. He failed due to the wind.

Version 3:
The earth once had ten suns circling over it, each taking turn to illuminate the earth. One day, however, all ten suns appeared together, scorching the earth with their heat. Houyi, a strong and tyrannical archer, saved the earth by shooting down nine of the suns. He eventually became King, but grew to become a despot.

One day, Houyi stole the elixir of life from a goddess. However, his beautiful wife, Chang'e, drank it in order to save the people from the her husband’s tyrannical rule. After drinking it, she found herself floating, and flew to the moon. Houyi loved his divinely beautiful wife so much, he did not shoot down the moon.

Version 4:
Another version, however, had it that Chang'e and Houyi were immortals living in heaven. One day, the ten sons of the Jade Emperor transformed into ten suns, causing the earth to scorch. Having failed to order his sons to stop ruining the earth, the Jade Emperor summoned Houyi for help. Houyi, using his legendary archery skills, shot down nine of the sons, but spared one son to be the sun. The Jade Emperor was obviously displeased with Houyi’s solution to save the earth. As punishment, he banished Houyi and Chang'e to live as mere mortals on earth.

Seeing that Chang'e felt extremely miserable over her loss of immortality, Houyi decided to journey on a long, perilous quest to find the pill of immortality so that the couple could be immortals again. At the end of his quest, he met the Queen Mother of the West, who agreed to give him the pill, but warned him that each person would only need half a pill to regain immortality.

Houyi brought the pill home and stored it in a case. He warned Chang'e not to open the case, and then left home for a while. Like Pandora in Greek mythology, Chang'e became curious. She opened up the case and found the pill, just as Houyi was returning home. Nervous that Houyi would catch her, discovering the contents of the case, she accidentally swallowed the entire pill, and started to float into the sky because of the overdose. Although Houyi wanted to shoot her in order to prevent her from floating further, he could not bear to aim the arrow at her. Chang'e kept on floating until she landed on the moon.

While she became lonely on the moon without her husband, she did have company. A jade rabbit, who manufactured elixirs, also lived on the moon.

Version 5: In a popular school version, Houyi was a lazy boy who did nothing but to practice his archery. He practiced day and night until he became the greatest archer in the world. One day, the ten suns all assembled around the earth. Their presence destroyed all vegetation, and hundreds of thousands were perishing. The emperor, who was desperate, offered his crown to anyone who could shoot down the suns. Houyi answered his call. He shot down nine of the suns, and as he pulled his bow to shoot the last one, the emperor stopped him. Saying the earth must have one sun. Houyi then became the emperor. He was pampered to the extent that he wanted to be emperor forever. He called his advisors to look for a way to make him immortal. His advisors found a way. They found a recipe for the Pill of Immortality. It required 100 adolescent boys to be ground into a biscuit like a pill. Every night he was supposed to grind one boy. On the hundredth night, his wife Chang'e could not bear to watch her husband become the tyrannical dictator for eternity. She prayed to Xi Wang Mu for help. She stole the pill, with Houyi shooting arrows at her, and flew to the moon grabbing a rabbit to keep her company.So the Chinese say that if you look up at the moon to this day you can sometimes see a rabbit making moon cakes.

Version 6:
A different version, is that Chang'e was a goddess. She fell in love with a farmer, Houyi, and he fell in love with her, not knowing she was from the heavens up above. Soon he had found out and the gods from heaven were furious of them because it was forbidden for a god or goddess to fall in love with a human. They had a child together but she still had to leave both her beloved husband and child behind during mid-autumn. She would represent the moon, he would represent as the sun and the child would represent as the stars. Taken pity over them, they are only allowed to see each other every mid-autumn.

Version 7:
Emperor Ning of Tang, who toured the palace on the moon. The Emperor not only visited the moon palace, he even memorized the music he heard in the palace, and later had his musicians compose a musical piece according to what he remembered. This work was known as The Merit of the Fairy Feathers,“霓裳羽衣曲”, which adds a romantic touch to the story about the moon. Actually, the Emperor's tour was just a dream, which he had when he missed his beloved wife, who was hanged on the insistence of the Emperor's troops.
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《水调歌头》

（宋）苏东坡

　　丙辰中秋，欢饮达旦。大醉，作此篇，兼怀子由。

　　明月几时有？把酒问青天。不知天上宫阙，今夕是何年？ 我欲乘风归去，又恐琼楼玉宇，高处不胜寒！起舞弄清影，何似在人间？ 转朱阁，低绮户，照无眠。不应有恨，何事长向别时圆？ 人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全。但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。

A level's

Hmm.. today our school principal spent roughly an hour talking to us abt our prelims results...


Frankly speaking.. i feel that it is atrocious! =x as in lik.. my O lvl prelims.. is not even this bad.. even my Promos is better! OMG* haix...

The thought abt 4 years float into my mind again~

Hmm... then She said ... actually if we were to repeat we oso wun hav enough time to brush up everything ( think she sounds quite logical...)...she oso mentioned sth abt "DUN FORGET YOUR DREAMS."


DREAMS...

Hmm.. ya i hav one... bt tt seems so far away..

perhaps is further than the distance from earth to Pluto ba? Lolx.. my tt dream..

Hmm.. only some ppl noe bahx.. tt dream at my current age.. is really cant la.. cuz too late le..


bt i hav other dreams too!

Behind every dream is journey full of obstacles... be it major or minor...



Hmm.. bt for mi n for most of my frenz now...

Perhaps.. is A levels! =) haha~... so frenz.. yao wei zhe ge BIG obstacle Jia You! =)

So that we can work hard n take a step nearer to our dreams! =)

Dun forget Your Dream... 不要忘记自己最初的梦。

and yi qi jia you to struggle thru this IRRITATING DE A lvls! =)

Miracles are God's way of being anonymous!

Hm.... so not only should we jia you! We oso must rely on God! =) He v zai de! =)))

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Hmm.. seriously.. how much u valued mi?

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

You Are a Good Girl!

You're into fun - but it has to be your own brand of fun Drinking? No thanks. You rather spend your time differently... Whether it's talking with friends, taking up a hobby, or reading You're not the type to socialize just for socializing's sake!

Are You a Party Girl?

Eh~ how true is tis? =x Hmm...

What Your Purple Umbrella Says About You

When faced with adversity, you remain together and graceful. You are very balanced, and it's hard for you to let yourself get too down. You are brainy and philosophical. It's hard for you to lose your broad perspective on life. You accept things as they are. You don't try to change anything that can't be changed. On a rainy day: you should spend the day reading

The Umbrella Test

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

QUIZ! =x

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul. Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe For you style is looking like a million bucks... And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

Is Your Date Fashion Style Classy, Sassy, or Trashy?

Your Beauty Element is Air

You're quirky, fresh, and fashionable in a surprising way. You have a beauty that's all your own, and it changes as quickly as the wind!

What's Your Beauty Element?

You Are a Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new. However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like. You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation. You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please

What Kind of Coffee Girl Are You?

What Your Name Says About You

Your name says that you are mostly: Dynamic but aggressive Your name also says you are: Ambitious but stubborn Unconventional but unstable Charismatic but impulsive

What Does Your Name Say About You?

( LIM HWEE SIAN ASK MI DO DE! ) =x

Jasmine!!!

Hello!!
It has been quite a while since i last blog le.. Hmm... i promised my "MummY" to blog abt our eating trip n Jasmine abt her hse!!! Lol... So.. here it goes...

Hmm.. Simon acc mi to go suntec to collect some race shirt...and we went to Raffles City ..de Jap village.. haha~~ forget what it is called... =x haha.. bt I KNOW how to go there... is lik a Jap-styled Marche... Lol~ super COOL!!! wahaha~~~ the food there on display are all real!!! haha~ dun ask us how we found out.. i tink is nt good tt u noe how we found out! lol~ =x I ordered Bamboo steamed rice.. with steamed egg! Haha~ dun see the portion like so small... I CANT FINISH IT !!

Hmm.. not bad worx!

Simon ordered Teriyaki Chicken Cheese Burger!
See it is so big in portion!! haha~~ can b compared to Botak Jones de worx..
See it is bigger than my fist!and it is much hao chi! =x haha~~ gt cheese wor!!! Yummy!..
Hee.. i pinched a bit from Simon de! =x Dun see simon lik dun eat a lot lik tt n seldom eat! n u can assume tt he little...YOU ARE wronG! you see the portionis so big! He is still eating la.. while im already so FULL!!!

Wah! he can finish EVERYTHING!

He super Qiang sia! Hmm... finished eating n still gt "spaec" to drink SPRITE! OMG* n he seemed lik nothing happened lik tt~ -.-!!! Chao Qiang! Bu qui is my MUMMY! =)
Hmm... aft tt ... we went to Tortoise hse "study" !=x H

Hee... in the midist of studying i kind of got bore.. n start touching stuff in her room! =x
Haha~ n see wat i found!!!
Lik magic mirror rite?! Lol~ dun see it is being tied by a white hair band lik v normal n lousy de wor...
It actually has a Dragon n Phoenix on the back of teh mirror! OMG* LOL.. looks more n more lik a magic mirror rite? u see whats shown below.. u will be more shocked!!!
Tada it is written in chinese... at the handle there... Guang Xu San Nian! (光绪三年)
Super shock that Tortoise Hse GOT antique! Lol~ im for real.. nxt time any of you gg to her hse can ask from her! =x Haha~Oh.. ya~~ Thursday is TortoisE Birthday n we celebrated it aft friday de morning test at City Hall there! Lol~~~ Went around shoppng n eat ... haha aft tt we went to cake her cake outside MS there! super romantic rite?! Lol~ I seriously love them ! =)

Hmm... Time flies! ( very cliche rite? ) haha~... Hmm.. A levels is seriously drawing near....

Hmm.. has been complaining tt LYK din study.. hee.. i oso! Yao jia you le!!

DA JIA YI QI!!! JC1s all the best for PROMOS!!!! JC2s add oil for A lvls!!!

Thank You

幸福不仅只能从爱情中得到。

因为上帝制造了“朋友”。

孙燕姿-我怀念的

recently .... i had been listenign to Yes 933 while mugging... is a chinese radio stat... realise this particular song.. is v popular... one day gt around 5-10 ppl wan it b played.. tink is cuz the meaning of the song... kind of sad... n the words... kind of juz .. hmm.. seems so apt to some ppl's life?
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歌曲：我怀念的
歌手：我怀念的 专辑：逆光
作词:姚若龙 作曲:李偲菘

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

think.

Hmm.. a lot times i dun express my real feelings out...

perhaps cause i fear or rejection? perhaps i fear of persecutions?

perhaps im really nt tt brave enough...

or.. perhaps.. i dun see the point?

wats the point? wats the use?

who really bothers about wat i feel n say?

Perhaps... some of my close ones do... but i honestly feel tt u dun.