and so its true.

if its meant to be, it'll happen.
if its not then no matter how hard you try, its all written.
because lately, all we ever talk about was how much you wish i hadn't made that stupid decision.
i get it, i get it.

so what do i tell them?
what do i say?
i managed to lie to myself.
lying to you about how i feel
and its not exactly the best feeling in the world, trust me.

All i wanted was for us to see the world together.
if only you could see whats on my mind, in my heart.
but then again, the truth is seldom pure and never simple.

just take my hand, fall in love with me again.
lets runaway to the place, where love first found us.

im so afraid i'd lose you that it makes me so damn afraid of talking to you about the future.

to be honest, when i look at you, i see a future together.

loved it everytime we discussed about it, those tiny details;

makes me feel more than happy, makes me feel loved.

it also feels weird sometimes; like its too soon to even begin talking about it.

i don't really know what im feeling right now.

i love you.

Happy 6th (:

& its not about counting the days, its making the days count.

can't wait for tmr!

i'm a happy goober :D

It's close to 5 am. I can't sleep. I'm blogging through my blackberry. I called zee but to no avail. Well I don't blame him. The boy must be dead tired, I was just trying my luck coz sometimes he'd answer. I wish we could sneak out everyday. Especially at times when I don't get to see you in the day. Last night was sweet and simple. I loved it! The things I'd do to see you. I'm sorry if I haven't been the best. I miss you so much tonight. I really do :(

Guess who's back to being a blogger?

and you know you're my inspiration ..

For some strange reason, I wanna see it up and running again. Let's see.. where shall I even begin to blog about? look at the last entry i had before this.a good 2 years I've stopped blogging and the reasons are :

1)no time

2)no time

3)no time

4)not motivated to

I wonder if i'm able or still able to maintain this.
Let's give it a go shall we?

Welcome home!

last night was hilarious.
i caught new moon during its sneak preview coz i couldnt wait for it to open on the 3rd.
besides, i'll be leaving for jakarta tomorrow and i couldnt wait that long.
i NEED to watch the movie!
and so i did.

i caught the midnight show without mi parents knowing.
they thought i was slping over at my grams.
so ya i rushed to catch the last movie before it opens on the 3rd and then rushed back home.
thats how crazy i am for that movie.
haha! speaking of which, the movie was GREAT.
especially the eye candy. i kinda prefer Alice to Bella though.
and Jacob to Edward.

so life's doing okay.
im doing good.
the last time i checked, im still me - alive & kicking.
maybe i might be missing in action to some people, but im still here, same old me.
living life, the way i want it, how i want it (:

CHAO!

omg.
it's been ages since i last cried terribly while watching a movie.
this plot really got me.
if my mum watches this, she's gonna need a box of tissue.

Does anyone have the book or knows someone who has it?
can i borrow? please?

i seriously can't wait for this!
2 down, 2 more to go...
you can do it Miss Phang!

i want this.
PLEASE.

im suppose to be studying.
but i cant bring myself to.

Division 2 League is starting this sunday.
Our first game.
and im damn nervous.
5 days of floorball this week. so tiring but fun!

class tomorrow at 8 30 am.
damn! on a saturday.
and then training at night.
i really need to change the grip coz the white thingys gets to my face!

night pretty people!

hello world!
im excited now coz i bought the USB to PS/2 adaptor and it worked!
thank goodness i didnt buy a new keyboard coz i really think its gonna turn out like the one i bought previously. Thank you Mr. Ry ((: you're the best!

so now im using this huge keyboard from my old desktop and its connected to my laptop. HAHA. whatever. im soo not into this IT shit.

ok gtg.
OMG im so nervous for the first training session tomorrow!
farhana the bitch told me to bring a broomstick.
i told her im gonna bring my nimbus 2000!
haha...

CHAO!

Alright, its super last minute but...
I GOT MY TICKETS TO PERTH! WEEEE!
Australia here i come baybeh!
My sister told me its freezing, 6 deg.
im gonna visit her.
will be going with my 2 aunts and my brother.
Leaving on Qantas next monday, 8th june, 7 30 pm.
and will be arriving in Perth 5 hours later.. wee hours in the morning.

ok i cant wait.
miss me..
time to pack, pack, pack!

was doing some organising of files today in my laptop and i found this document.
it was in my folder i named SPECIAL/FAVOURITES where all the important stuffs, pics, sweet memories etc. are kept.


♥ To that special someone,

You know when I said I knew little about love?

That wasn't true.

I know a lot about love.

I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it

and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable.

All those wars, pain, lies, hate...

It made me want to turn away and never look down again.

But when I see the way that mankind loves...

You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe

and never find anything more beautiful.

So yes, I know that love is unconditional.

But I also know that it can be

unpredictable,

unexpected,

uncontrollable,

unbearable

and strangely easy to mistake for loathing,

and... What I'm trying to say, is... I think I love you.

Is this love?

I never imagined I'd know it for myself.

My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it.

Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more.

It belongs to you.

And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits.

No goods.

No demonstrations of devotion.

Nothing.

But knowing you loved me too.

Just your heart, in exchange for mine...

Everybody, go AWWWW..

i can be sooo romantic!

& i miss you too Utt (:

i've caught this.
and so should you.
Really.
you gotta be an X-Men fan though
OR
in this case, you gotta be a fan of hugh jackman.
thats enough.. haha!
he's one sexy old man like george clooney (:

i dont even know where to begin ranting.
& FYI, its ineedtorant , not ineedtorun!
HAHA! jokes..

first and foremost, the exams for sem 2 are over!
ok next, 6 more days to us!
to our one year of food sharing..
and i get to taste you baby, lick you 24/7! muacks!
yes, its our 1 year Mr. B, and hopefully just another 1 more year to go (:
before we end our relationship!
you're ever so colourful every month. Thanks to your gf, muah!

news update!
the challenge cup is over.
the team had a good win yesterday despite the bad performance in the first half.
nonetheless, we nailed it! kudos to us!
& its time to recruit some new, fresh blood..
which means to the super oldies, which i think its just me,
time to back off! haha...

speaking of which, backing off..
hrmm, i wonder if im gonna continue playing.
i wonder if im joining any leagues, i wonder if i need to move on to sth else.
aiyah keep wondering la..
but one thing's for sure, i never wanna leave the football scene!
never ever, TTYN! PERIOD!
so maybe i should go for the referee course, (yea right, with this shitty stamina)..
earn some income.
and be the hottest most sweetest referee (: how bimbotic is that!
anyway, age is just a number. why should i let it determine how i live?
NOW thats definitely not a bimbotic quote.

ok to sum this up,
i am currently a bummer.
jobless after exam, spending the holidays..
i wanna go to perth to visit my sister, and mum gave me the green light.
BUT mum said, using my own money. HAHA!
so its a definite NO NO again.
im waiting for anyone to date me. okay?
unless, you can give me some income-earning thing to do.
even if its catching/chasing rats.

Bye mofos!