2011年3月16日 星期三

History Taking at HUKM

Yesterday went for my very first history taking with the real patient in HUKM aka Hospital Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
Insane ryt ?? We're just first year students, wont it be too fast for us to do this interview stuff ?

Ok, talking back bout that day.

Actually this history taking is one of our part of learning, which is clinical skill learning (CSL)
Though we had numerous practices before this with the trained patients, we still havent approach a real case like this, so it made us kinda worry and nervous

I've been assigned to interview a warded patient of bed 20 (if im not wrong). After the doctor assigned each and every one of us a bed number, she left, she just gone like dat, leaving us to approach the patients by our own.

Okay, time's ticking, exam started.

Initially i introduced myself to the patient saying that im a medical student from ukm, currently having exam, need to gather info from u, bla bla bla. But he seemed like not interested in being interviewed. He's been rude to me, frankly speaking. He cut off the conversation by saying that he need to send her mother who visited her downstairs. Okay i waited for him patiently.
After sometime he went back, but he went to his bed directly without acknowledging me and closed his curtain clumsily in front of me.
Obviously, i've been rejected... But wait, i cant just let it stopped halfway, it's my exam, bro ! U've totally no idea how it's important to me.

I phoned my doctor telling her that i've been rejected by the guy who suffered from jaundice ( the stuck-up yellow man )
Then she told me to ask help from the medical officer in charge to see whether which patient was suitable for me to interview.

I followed what my doctor said and tried to ask help from a MO. What happened was that, i've been rejected for the second time !! ( omg, how horrible it was ! )
While i was talking to him nicely and politely, he was doing someting else and he didnt even look at me, how sad !

Alright fine, dont eva rely on the others, i'll do it myself.

I've found a chinese patient in the end, but she was not really willing to answer me. Luckily her caretaker, who was also her husband was kind enough to offer himself to answer my questions. He's rushing with time so i cant hold it for long, had to make it brief and short and got as much details as i could.

Finally, the session ended with case presentation from each of the group members.

Sigh, gone thru a lot by one day. I wonder why people nowadays are acting like this. I can certainly understand that maybe they are not in the mood because of work loads, pain and suffering or something else, but can u all at least talk to me nicely and even if u want to reject me, reject me in a good way, treat me as a human being



2011年1月25日 星期二

我真的很虚伪

我不知道自己最近怎么了
在商场逛着逛着竟然会想哭的感觉,心里揪着痛
听歌听到一半,突然感到窒息
立刻冲出房外透透气,看着夜景,呼吸才慢慢顺畅

就算是跟一大班朋友一起出去,也觉得很寂寞
因为他们不了解,又自以为很懂

别人以为我在为某件事烦恼,谁懂其实我有多难过
没有人会为我擦泪,泪水都往自己肚子里吞
全世界都在责怪我,怪我这个朋友很失败,不够关心他,怪我对他太尖酸
甚至他本人也觉得我这样对他是一种报复的行为
但其实我的努力,他们没有一个看得见

他们只看见他的悲伤,没有人会注意到我,包括我最亲的人

天天挂着一张伪装的笑脸,是很辛苦的事
在跟大家嬉嬉闹闹的同时,我心里其实在淌着泪水
我觉得自己实在太可悲了

除了笑,我也会哭泣
我并没有你们想象的那样活泼开朗~