I have found out what went wrong in your source of motivation to slim down.
Lets recall..
A year ago, those days when u were able to shrink like no body's business (57kg).
Your aim was to make me happy and satisfied with ur sexy body, for the sake of future.
back then, we din hv any deadline. so u were happy most of the time, don being so stressed up.
that makes u shrink easily. u LOVE what ur doing in the gym. u were always EAGER to go gym after work.
Now is different,
your commitment level changed, in a way that u will spend 90% of ur energy into work. 10% for others.
U set urself a deadline by 1st may to shrink, ur anxiety increases, making ur body difficult to react.
ur stress lvl increases, making this hormone name Cortisol to force u to store fats.
At this junction, ur aim is different.
Making me happy isnt ur aim.
Making mummy hapi is ur aim.
U need to keep ur aim to making me happy. I hope ur not overconfident that im already satisfied with your body.
Forever, this will go on, training, watching diet.. its our commitment, so ensure that physical intimacy is the key to spice up our marriage eternity.
Posted by wOoT....!! never u MiNd.. at 12:17 AM
Baby..
i miss u sooo much...
and i love u sooo much..
pls pls get well soon..
muaiz!
Posted by wOoT....!! never u MiNd.. at 6:52 AM
I hate it whevener my hints are ignored.. or not caught by you.
~oovoo
Posted by wOoT....!! never u MiNd.. at 11:25 PM
Why must she spoil my sahur again..?
In fact, she hurt my emotions for the first time when arguing bout you. my heart was gonna cry out a few times. i jz felt cheated and confused. i din noe my mum is like tt.
jz now, she said tt she has given up on u and she doesnt want to see u anymore. she doesnt wanna argue bout it.
2 min later, she started talking about it again and shooting me.
she said that,
1) u don respect my family.
2) u alwys put ur family as priority,in terms of respect.
3) u don talk about in conversations w her.
after all this, she felt like she was hurt instead.
LOL
then i said, its bcz she is afraid of u.
1) my mum doesnt look at the person when she speaks.
2) my mum would give the cold feeling.
3) i duno how much my mum loves u.
BUT she said,
1) "I hv given her 2 gifts! Al-Quran and telekong. Doesnt it means tt i like her? if parents give presents to the partner, means they like her alot! "
2) "this is my type, she has to accept it. i don look at a person when i talk. my mum-in-law doesnt look a person when she talks too. why is she complaining? jz accept it and carry on doing normal things la.. "
3) " after i hv done so much fr her, she does this to me. dunno how to approach me, duno how to talk to me, duno table manners, everyth duno. then y u wana marry her? "
i felt cheated coz i thought that she don like u, coz she said it herself before. Then now she said she has been liking u. i hv made totally wrong gameplan!! and led u into phobia of her.
so since we know how is she like, it means that she wants u to treat her like mum-in-law, not jz some random mother. do everyth like she is ur current mum-in-law, and not future.
but she said tt she cant give u the 'motherly love' coz u already hv a mother.
she noe tt i put in so much effort to make her like u. she herself admit that she was trying her best to like u, and she did.
what she is complaining is, why isnt there any improvements in u whenever meeting?
and the solution is,
START TREATING HER LIKE UR CURRENT MUM-IN-LAW.
Posted by wOoT....!! never u MiNd.. at 5:35 AM
I asked her,
"whats the difference, doing it with ur ex and me?"
She replied,
"actually got no difference. only face different. "
Suddenly, i felt so down. the ans i hoped to hear din reach to my ears.
She said no difference. Im so disappointed.
She might mean that mine and her ex are the same.
Haix.. i din create a new impact on her.
so embarrassing.
whenever i do it w her, it will jz remind me that its as good as her ex doing it w her. same feeling, same thing.
Posted by wOoT....!! never u MiNd.. at 2:24 PM
Bodybuilding has been a fun process in my life.
I get to experiment with my own body with chemicals..food.. and training.
I have gained so much knowledge on it.
but one big thing is that, my hormones are too high for you to handle.
tho i have this passion for my fav sport, i guess i jz have to quit it.
quit taking other juices..
quit training hard..
quit eating alot..
so in this way, my hormones will remain normal.
it will be high depending on my heart endurance.
so i will be doing more
running (10-15min) twice a wk.
i will jz train normal one muscle grp per week.
i will look full, not so big but ripped.
i don wanna scare u to the extent that u wont play w me or even reduce the frequency of hving fun w me.
I QUIT.
Posted by wOoT....!! never u MiNd.. at 9:04 PM
i looked at the USS photos, the ones with ur family and also me.
i realise that u r different w and w/o me.
with me, u don hold that charlie. u acted like ur afraid of him.
but w ur family, u held his arm.
apa ini??
i will b waiting for some explanation from u.
Posted by wOoT....!! never u MiNd.. at 1:04 AM
ur no longer cheeky.. no longer naughty like u used to..
no longer playful..
u somehow moved on..
wat i see is u being so into ur working life.
someth which u like to do.
army din change me abit. wen i book out, im myelf again..
i really feel tt its not fair.
so sld i be like tt wen i work?
less playful.. tired all the time n telling u not to disturb me.
this sux u noe..
wat im asking for is juz for u, not to neglect me wenever ur at work on the same day as meeting me. i juz want u to be like ur normal self. i don wan u to change anyth which i like.
and i din change anyth which u like in me.
im like this, a touchy type. if u don like, means u don wan me.
feeling of total insecurity.
Posted by wOoT....!! never u MiNd.. at 8:46 AM
