time goes by so quickly.. people need time to do things, priceless things that need the time to show them the value. people are doing things so slow without knowing that time does not wait for them..it appears that people do not appreciate time and they end up regretful..time reflects mistake, mistake reflects sorry, sorry reflects failure and failure reflects emptiness..
this is for you.....
I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say
But I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say..T
hat it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
and I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
I loved you with a fire red,
now it’s turning blue
and you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid
It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Left hanGGing.. aGain!!!!
i dont know how to describe my feeling at the moment..
i would love to scream if i could..
i would love to cry 'again' coz i need to..
i would love to forget about u if i really could..
but i never wanted to erase u from my life..u were part of it and u will always be it..
we had few conversations and u left me hangging in the end.. how could you do that?? i was so sad and i am so sad right now.. to be honest, i am not happy, but i'm tryin so hard to be happy coz i really have to.. How could u do this to me again and again?? to be left hangging like this is not a delightful feeling.. shamefully, i have gone through with this feeling many many times, i knew the feeling exactly, but i couldnt learn from my previous experiences about this.. i let myself to feel it again and again..
i wish u could care more..
i wish u could try more..
i wish u appreciated me more..
i wish u knnew my feeling..
i wish u understood fully about me..
i wish i could forget bout u very easily..
i wish i could prevent myself from talkin to u..
i wish i could move on and be happy..
i wish i could love u less..
i wish i knew 'end', it means THE END!!
i am not happy
i am hurt
i would love to scream if i could..
i would love to cry 'again' coz i need to..
i would love to forget about u if i really could..
but i never wanted to erase u from my life..u were part of it and u will always be it..
we had few conversations and u left me hangging in the end.. how could you do that?? i was so sad and i am so sad right now.. to be honest, i am not happy, but i'm tryin so hard to be happy coz i really have to.. How could u do this to me again and again?? to be left hangging like this is not a delightful feeling.. shamefully, i have gone through with this feeling many many times, i knew the feeling exactly, but i couldnt learn from my previous experiences about this.. i let myself to feel it again and again..
i wish u could care more..
i wish u could try more..
i wish u appreciated me more..
i wish u knnew my feeling..
i wish u understood fully about me..
i wish i could forget bout u very easily..
i wish i could prevent myself from talkin to u..
i wish i could move on and be happy..
i wish i could love u less..
i wish i knew 'end', it means THE END!!
i am not happy
i am hurt
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
THINGS dat i want U to KNOW!!
hi how are u??
well, it appears u hv sum difficulties to cum online wenever i need u, so i jus send u this mail to tel u da things dat bother me..
many things happend in this very short period of time, things that i thought wudnt be happend..i regret it everytime i think bout it, i made a mistake which caused misunderstanding between us. a mistake which caused chaos. i realy shudnt hv gone wit da girls dat nite.
well, personally i call it misunderstanding coz it trully is. however, u live in da fact based on the seasoned stories which make me looked so cheap, slutty, bitchy or watever u love to call me. but honestly, now i can take it wit a smile on my face. it was something for me to fight for coz as the matter of fact, we all kno dat i was not any of those words. i was not, i am not and i wont be..(did i give u a sarcastic smile on ur face by writing dat??) i think i did, coz we both kno it very clearly dat i have changed ur opinion bout me wit "a lil" mistake.
sadly, u have ended everything between us witout clear explanation to me. once, u came to me n said da problem was u n u apologized n u jus wanted to be only frens. i cudnt take it at first but finally i cud. in another time, again u came to me and repeated all the shits and put the blame on me then asked for my explanation. i explained but u cudnt understand or even face the truth dat i gave to u. (it seemed to me that ur mind had been poisoned wit sth really bad)
and again u came tome wit the same old shits n demanded explanations. so again i explained wat i had to say and wat i had to explain n wished dat u had had antidote after being poisoned. sadly, u had other deadly poison instead of antidote. after many times of explainin efforts i did to rescue all the beautiful things between us, i felt tired. and seriously i felt so tired. sumhow it came to my mind dat i have wasted my time in giving explanation. last time i thought u wud choose me than ur frens.. well, not exactly choose me, but then u could have trusted on wat i have said n explained to u..
at first u did, but then u heard 'stuff' again and u started to doubt bout me again.. it happened repeteadly. it hurt me so much wen i got to kno dat u didnt trust me as what i expected. u hurt me repeatedly.. many times, did u actually mean it wen u said u didnt wanna c me cryin?? or actually u did it on purpose coz u think i deserved it?? i cried n felt so sad so many times bt unfortunately i didnt count it..
one day in da morning, i told yola dat i shud find sum1 and i wanted to do it coz it might be da best way to get rid of u from my mind. in da nite, out of nower u sent me a mesg sayin 'sayang' to me.. so wat i did after readin ur mesg?? sad?? cried?? hell yea!! wat else i cud do?? after being abandoned for quite sumtime, u suddenly sent me a mesg, for ur information, dats hurtin..again, yesterday mornin, i told yola dat i seriously hv to forget bout u n look for oth guy which is kinda difficult for me to do.. then u suddenly nudged me sayin those stuff.. dat hurts..so much.. how many times do u actually wanna do dat?? r u happy by seeing me tortured like dis??
i've been livin wit ur shadow since 23rd of july, i cant do dis anymore.. it hurts me.. i told nish not to lend u her phone to call or mesg me again in future, coz wenever u come to my mind, it jus disturbs me..i wish i cud be happy wit u as da history in my life, but seriously i find it very difficult, i feel so sad evrytime i think bout u..
remember wen i called u dat nite aft receivin ur mesg?? u asked me about my new boyfriend?? u seriously thought i cud have a new boyfriend that fast after breakin up wit u?? dat is the most absurd thing dat i hv ever heard..n btw, it hurts me so much again..i told u dat u hv the ability to hurt me unintentionally but naturally.. i mean it.. by doing so, u tell me how a lil thing has changed ur perception bout me like a finger snap..
y am i sendin u dis mail and sayin these things to u??
this is what i wanna tell u actually..
i am a nice girl..
i am trustable..
i am loyal..
i am pretty..
i hv slimmed down..(which i did i for u)
i realy want to make these things clear, dat i am still da girl who u had da relationship wit.
i want u to kno dat i'm nt those words of girl dat i hv stated earlier.
do u actually deserve all this explanations?? basicly u dont. y??
because u hv doubted bout me.. once i swore upon my mom, dad n grandma, still u dnt believe me and asked me those things again yesterday.. cn u imagine how sad i was yesterday?? no u cant :)we broke up nicely, so i realy need u to bare dis in ur mind dat i am a nice girl.. it never changed n it wont change. plz dnt change ur opinion bout me after all this.. as i hv told u last time, i realy care bout ur opinion bout me..
wel, i hv 5 reasons above as my assets, but still u turned ur head away, so i'm livin wit my assumption dat i'm realy not enough for u.. by hvin such assumption to live wit, i'm tellin myself to improve..
told u i love u and will always do..
this feeling remais the same, even now..
told u i miss u all the time,
this feeling wont fade away..
i miss u n i love u sachin..
forever (find this word's meanin in dictionary)
bye n take care
well, it appears u hv sum difficulties to cum online wenever i need u, so i jus send u this mail to tel u da things dat bother me..
many things happend in this very short period of time, things that i thought wudnt be happend..i regret it everytime i think bout it, i made a mistake which caused misunderstanding between us. a mistake which caused chaos. i realy shudnt hv gone wit da girls dat nite.
well, personally i call it misunderstanding coz it trully is. however, u live in da fact based on the seasoned stories which make me looked so cheap, slutty, bitchy or watever u love to call me. but honestly, now i can take it wit a smile on my face. it was something for me to fight for coz as the matter of fact, we all kno dat i was not any of those words. i was not, i am not and i wont be..(did i give u a sarcastic smile on ur face by writing dat??) i think i did, coz we both kno it very clearly dat i have changed ur opinion bout me wit "a lil" mistake.
sadly, u have ended everything between us witout clear explanation to me. once, u came to me n said da problem was u n u apologized n u jus wanted to be only frens. i cudnt take it at first but finally i cud. in another time, again u came to me and repeated all the shits and put the blame on me then asked for my explanation. i explained but u cudnt understand or even face the truth dat i gave to u. (it seemed to me that ur mind had been poisoned wit sth really bad)
and again u came tome wit the same old shits n demanded explanations. so again i explained wat i had to say and wat i had to explain n wished dat u had had antidote after being poisoned. sadly, u had other deadly poison instead of antidote. after many times of explainin efforts i did to rescue all the beautiful things between us, i felt tired. and seriously i felt so tired. sumhow it came to my mind dat i have wasted my time in giving explanation. last time i thought u wud choose me than ur frens.. well, not exactly choose me, but then u could have trusted on wat i have said n explained to u..
at first u did, but then u heard 'stuff' again and u started to doubt bout me again.. it happened repeteadly. it hurt me so much wen i got to kno dat u didnt trust me as what i expected. u hurt me repeatedly.. many times, did u actually mean it wen u said u didnt wanna c me cryin?? or actually u did it on purpose coz u think i deserved it?? i cried n felt so sad so many times bt unfortunately i didnt count it..
one day in da morning, i told yola dat i shud find sum1 and i wanted to do it coz it might be da best way to get rid of u from my mind. in da nite, out of nower u sent me a mesg sayin 'sayang' to me.. so wat i did after readin ur mesg?? sad?? cried?? hell yea!! wat else i cud do?? after being abandoned for quite sumtime, u suddenly sent me a mesg, for ur information, dats hurtin..again, yesterday mornin, i told yola dat i seriously hv to forget bout u n look for oth guy which is kinda difficult for me to do.. then u suddenly nudged me sayin those stuff.. dat hurts..so much.. how many times do u actually wanna do dat?? r u happy by seeing me tortured like dis??
i've been livin wit ur shadow since 23rd of july, i cant do dis anymore.. it hurts me.. i told nish not to lend u her phone to call or mesg me again in future, coz wenever u come to my mind, it jus disturbs me..i wish i cud be happy wit u as da history in my life, but seriously i find it very difficult, i feel so sad evrytime i think bout u..
remember wen i called u dat nite aft receivin ur mesg?? u asked me about my new boyfriend?? u seriously thought i cud have a new boyfriend that fast after breakin up wit u?? dat is the most absurd thing dat i hv ever heard..n btw, it hurts me so much again..i told u dat u hv the ability to hurt me unintentionally but naturally.. i mean it.. by doing so, u tell me how a lil thing has changed ur perception bout me like a finger snap..
y am i sendin u dis mail and sayin these things to u??
this is what i wanna tell u actually..
i am a nice girl..
i am trustable..
i am loyal..
i am pretty..
i hv slimmed down..(which i did i for u)
i realy want to make these things clear, dat i am still da girl who u had da relationship wit.
i want u to kno dat i'm nt those words of girl dat i hv stated earlier.
do u actually deserve all this explanations?? basicly u dont. y??
because u hv doubted bout me.. once i swore upon my mom, dad n grandma, still u dnt believe me and asked me those things again yesterday.. cn u imagine how sad i was yesterday?? no u cant :)we broke up nicely, so i realy need u to bare dis in ur mind dat i am a nice girl.. it never changed n it wont change. plz dnt change ur opinion bout me after all this.. as i hv told u last time, i realy care bout ur opinion bout me..
wel, i hv 5 reasons above as my assets, but still u turned ur head away, so i'm livin wit my assumption dat i'm realy not enough for u.. by hvin such assumption to live wit, i'm tellin myself to improve..
told u i love u and will always do..
this feeling remais the same, even now..
told u i miss u all the time,
this feeling wont fade away..
i miss u n i love u sachin..
forever (find this word's meanin in dictionary)
bye n take care
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
conFuseD!!
i miss him..
i wanna talk to him..
i wanna see him..
we're apart..
lonely is how i feel..
he loves me, i kno..
i jus hope dat i can keep him forever as mine, coz he is my precious..
appreciating him is my whole life assignment..
missing him is my daily task..
thinking of him is my duty..
loving him is my obligation..
one day u mite ask me wat i love more..
u or my life??
wen i say my life, u will walk away from me without knowing that..
U are my life..
i wanna talk to him..
i wanna see him..
we're apart..
lonely is how i feel..
he loves me, i kno..
i jus hope dat i can keep him forever as mine, coz he is my precious..
appreciating him is my whole life assignment..
missing him is my daily task..
thinking of him is my duty..
loving him is my obligation..
one day u mite ask me wat i love more..
u or my life??
wen i say my life, u will walk away from me without knowing that..
U are my life..
Sunday, April 13, 2008
HarD to GeT ;)
i was lookin for him , da monkey..
he was supposed to cum, but then he didnt turn up, jus saw his fren, elvis presley, n he's like so not, felt like pukin on his face wen i saw him dancing hahaha ^_^
i kept my eyes all over da place, but i cudnt find him, ok cool, coz i shudnt be like dat, i shunt look for him T_T
today, i came to uni, wished dat i cud see him, only for once, dat wud be fine for me..
oh God, i saw him but i ignored him..
he turned, looked n smiled at me.. i am so happy, my heart beat was freakin fast..
titin felt it.. :(
hmm guess dat i'm playin hard to get here..
i did da 1st move smilin at him..
wen he wanted to smile back, i jus ignored n didnt even look at his face..
well, he mite think dat i'm a wierdo now, bt i'm enjoyin it..
Wat da hell!!!
i shudnt be like dis..
i shudnt be like dis..
i shudnt be like dis..
SACHIN FOREVER!!!!
he was supposed to cum, but then he didnt turn up, jus saw his fren, elvis presley, n he's like so not, felt like pukin on his face wen i saw him dancing hahaha ^_^
i kept my eyes all over da place, but i cudnt find him, ok cool, coz i shudnt be like dat, i shunt look for him T_T
today, i came to uni, wished dat i cud see him, only for once, dat wud be fine for me..
oh God, i saw him but i ignored him..
he turned, looked n smiled at me.. i am so happy, my heart beat was freakin fast..
titin felt it.. :(
hmm guess dat i'm playin hard to get here..
i did da 1st move smilin at him..
wen he wanted to smile back, i jus ignored n didnt even look at his face..
well, he mite think dat i'm a wierdo now, bt i'm enjoyin it..
Wat da hell!!!
i shudnt be like dis..
i shudnt be like dis..
i shudnt be like dis..
SACHIN FOREVER!!!!
Friday, April 11, 2008
i waS ScareD!!! T_T
i think i'm havin tummy upset now, feel like masuk angin, wanted to fart..
i went out to fart bt then suddenly i felt like peeing, so i went to da washroom n cum back to da lab witout peeing..
i got Machan Niro wit me now for my second attack to da washroom, i went in n peed..
Machan Niro didnt leave, he talked to me from outside..
seriously i was scared!!
T_T
i went out to fart bt then suddenly i felt like peeing, so i went to da washroom n cum back to da lab witout peeing..
i got Machan Niro wit me now for my second attack to da washroom, i went in n peed..
Machan Niro didnt leave, he talked to me from outside..
seriously i was scared!!
T_T
Dis iS baD!!!!!!!!!!
dis is bad..
dis is so bad..
i like him..
da monkey..
i jus like him..
he is nt him, but i take his as him..
dis is freakin bad..
so bad!!!!
dis is so bad..
i like him..
da monkey..
i jus like him..
he is nt him, but i take his as him..
dis is freakin bad..
so bad!!!!
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