Sometimes we don't want things to be this way but they just happened this way, that's life.
I can totally understand his feelings of going through so many rounds of interviews for this multi-million job and yet being defeated at the last round.

This weekend went by extremely fast and I didnt have alot of rest (sleeping time), neither did I have alot of time watching my dramas nor preparing for xxxxxxxxxx.

Sunday is not even over and I am already looking forward to my next rest day.

Clothes not ironed nor folded, floor not swept. Lots of household chores undone.

Gotta fold and iron clothes after my bath!!!

Following by sleeping to welcome my next war.

Comparison makes me sad.
Not used to the fact that I am currently not the better one.
It's driving the hunger and desire for success even stronger.
I am just not the kind who can be contended at all.
Somehow I feel that everyone is doing better than me.
Counting the days, I think I just squashed my opportunity away.

I always thought that if I want something badly enough and makes the effort to get it, I will be able to have it. Now, I think there are many other factors involved, some of which are beyond my control.

This afternoon, I was deciding between trying to make Portuguese egg tarts or Japanese Chiffon Cake and I chose the latter.

When everything else fails, I do hope my oven doesn't fail on me. =)

sometimes people feel unhappy about themselves because they penalised themselves too heavily...
being mad at oneself for not performing to the best of the ability...
feeling overly responsible for everything...
when these negative feelings dont go away so easily, they are bad for the person and even worse for the ones beside...
which in turn, feels even worse for casting a negative influence on others...
this cycle of negativity can only go away when the root of the problem is solved, and concentration to solve this issue is the utmost priority now!

7 months since I decided to put a halt to flying...
I do miss my pay, the luxury hotel stays, europe, USA, colleagues that are easy to get along & treated each other like friends, my off days... Now, I do smile to myself and feel grateful that my 4 years were valuable great years...

But given a choice again, I will still choose to embark on the new journey...
To me, curiosity kills...
I am just the kind of person that will want to do new things and take on new challenges even though I may end up less happy than before... I am precisely the kind of person that wont stop trying until I get what I want...

I gotta face the music tomorrow... Embracing for a war... WAR WAR WAR

A light appeared in darkness.
It cheered me up.
Really really hoped that this can be a good turning point.
I promise to not take things for granted.
And it is so true that sufferings can make a person grow stronger!

I used to be able to share about lots of happy stuffs...

at this moment, the hubby is my greatest joy...
I got my surprise birthday present 1 month early... loving it... because he is getting good at guessing my taste and preference... and how he tried to make it a surprise for me...
And it's not all about the present, it's about being there for me esp when I need him (though not physically all the time), the little things he will do and most of all, the love that he showed.

He keeps me going whenever I feel like giving up... my pillar of strength!