11:15 PM, Wednesday, August 29, 2007
i tried to file :(
before!
the process...
after... not much diff :( have to continue tmr
some emo pics to cheer up your day :) ok fine, night
before!
the process...
after... not much diff :( have to continue tmr
some emo pics to cheer up your day :) ok fine, night
6:39 PM, Monday, August 27, 2007
You are God
You're the God of Miracles
You're the God that makes me whole
and I will worship
I will worship You
my God is amazing :) I woke up at 7:20 today :o I panicked like siao lah! wahlao, left home at 7:27. I freaked out. I prayed to God "Please blind his eyes so he sees overcast skies" :) and guess what. I reached school that time, I saw everyone walking off. OVERCAST SKIES :) although they looked normal to me. OMG GOD IS SO COOL. not only that. i reached school earlier than normal days :o somehow traffic was superbly smooth lah! Thank You Lord! I <3 You :)
You're the God of Miracles
You're the God that makes me whole
and I will worship
I will worship You
my God is amazing :) I woke up at 7:20 today :o I panicked like siao lah! wahlao, left home at 7:27. I freaked out. I prayed to God "Please blind his eyes so he sees overcast skies" :) and guess what. I reached school that time, I saw everyone walking off. OVERCAST SKIES :) although they looked normal to me. OMG GOD IS SO COOL. not only that. i reached school earlier than normal days :o somehow traffic was superbly smooth lah! Thank You Lord! I <3 You :)
7:56 PM, Sunday, August 26, 2007
i'll bring You more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what You have desired
You search much deeper within
through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart
i'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about You
its all about You, Jesus
i'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
and its all about You
its all about You, Jesus
indeed, by Your love, You draw all men to You. but You do not desire songs of praise for the angels in Heaven are doing so for eternity. You Lord search for a heart that is after You're own heart, You long for a true worshiper from the heart. so this day Lord, i pray, make me a true worshiper, one after You're own heart. for what do You lack God, but praises from the depths of Your child's heart.
for a song in itself
is not what You have desired
You search much deeper within
through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart
i'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about You
its all about You, Jesus
i'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
and its all about You
its all about You, Jesus
indeed, by Your love, You draw all men to You. but You do not desire songs of praise for the angels in Heaven are doing so for eternity. You Lord search for a heart that is after You're own heart, You long for a true worshiper from the heart. so this day Lord, i pray, make me a true worshiper, one after You're own heart. for what do You lack God, but praises from the depths of Your child's heart.
10:42 PM, Wednesday, August 22, 2007
WOOTS! RJC library has this huge feast of chemistry books :) my insatiable hunger for chem is growing by the day..
bowling at OCC tmr :)
bowling at OCC tmr :)
11:28 PM, Monday, August 20, 2007
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
nothing :)
nothing :)
10:04 PM, Friday, August 17, 2007
i mock my pitiful life
i actually counted the number of people who wished me happy birthday, not including my class cause they did as a whole class. 8 people. wonderful huh? and there's this mysterious person who's hp starts with 9090...
malcolm: Hey happy birthday!
me: only you would remember
malcolm: Dats not true. Im quite sure many will =)
5 seconds later...
jeremy: Hey, happy birthday
thanks malcolm, but next time dont be lazy and get someone from another class :)
i bet you didn't even know
i actually counted the number of people who wished me happy birthday, not including my class cause they did as a whole class. 8 people. wonderful huh? and there's this mysterious person who's hp starts with 9090...
malcolm: Hey happy birthday!
me: only you would remember
malcolm: Dats not true. Im quite sure many will =)
5 seconds later...
jeremy: Hey, happy birthday
thanks malcolm, but next time dont be lazy and get someone from another class :)
i bet you didn't even know
10:54 PM, Thursday, August 16, 2007
its just a normal day
7:22 PM, Tuesday, August 14, 2007
i dread my birthday to come, i dread knowing that you won't be there to celebrate it with me
12:15 AM,
so tired so weary so screwed
i don't feel any pressure about the upcoming promos. i don't feel any pressure about falling behind academics. i don't feel any pressure in lectures, in tutorials. nothing with regard to academics bothers me. i'm all set and ready for promos. i don't see why so many people worry so much about insignificant stuff. after months of observation, i've come to a conclusion - insecure people do tutorials. so do bored people.
i'm so sick of this worldly life i'm living. why am i still turning to the world, this world that rejects me? why am i feasting on worldly desires when these would cause my downfall? i'm so sick and tired of this place, this spiritual desert. i'm so tired, so weary. i've been fighting a losing battle. i've been fighting alone. my hands are weakening, my feet are burning. i long to take a rest. but where? the sun burns in the sky. it burns right into my heart. another faltered step. oh God, please stop hiding. i surrender.
will you wake up from this dream, this dream you were never meant to dream
sometimes i wonder, if you'd ever celebrate my birthday
i don't feel any pressure about the upcoming promos. i don't feel any pressure about falling behind academics. i don't feel any pressure in lectures, in tutorials. nothing with regard to academics bothers me. i'm all set and ready for promos. i don't see why so many people worry so much about insignificant stuff. after months of observation, i've come to a conclusion - insecure people do tutorials. so do bored people.
i'm so sick of this worldly life i'm living. why am i still turning to the world, this world that rejects me? why am i feasting on worldly desires when these would cause my downfall? i'm so sick and tired of this place, this spiritual desert. i'm so tired, so weary. i've been fighting a losing battle. i've been fighting alone. my hands are weakening, my feet are burning. i long to take a rest. but where? the sun burns in the sky. it burns right into my heart. another faltered step. oh God, please stop hiding. i surrender.
will you wake up from this dream, this dream you were never meant to dream
sometimes i wonder, if you'd ever celebrate my birthday
10:15 PM, Sunday, August 12, 2007
OMG I LOVE MY BRAIN :)
i'm a genius. i took 5 seconds to understand the entire of Chemical and Ionic Equilibrium. of course the previous 5 - 6 hours of reading during lectures not counted coz i was still bloody blur.. but hey today i took 1 look at the question and poof it came all into my mind. everything was so bloody clear :) ahaha. now where are chapt 9 notes :(
i'm a genius. i took 5 seconds to understand the entire of Chemical and Ionic Equilibrium. of course the previous 5 - 6 hours of reading during lectures not counted coz i was still bloody blur.. but hey today i took 1 look at the question and poof it came all into my mind. everything was so bloody clear :) ahaha. now where are chapt 9 notes :(
11:32 PM, Saturday, August 11, 2007
minqi <3 RAFFLESROW phy thanks for the listening ear i love you! <3 says:
i've never downloaded songs before... dont know how
HAHAHA. STATEMENT OF THE DAY :)
i've never downloaded songs before... dont know how
HAHAHA. STATEMENT OF THE DAY :)
12:35 AM,
ok i'm addicted to avril lavigne's songs :(
The Best Damn Thing
Let me hear you say hey hey hey
Alright
Now let me hear you say hey hey ho
I hate it when a guy doesn't get the door
even though I told him yesterday and the day before
I hate it when a guy doesn't get the tab
And I have to pull my money out and that looks bad
Where are the hopes, where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see
That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not, even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same
And yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble, I'm a hell of a scandal
Me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
Alright, alright
Yeah
I hate it when a guy doesn't understand
Why a certain time of month I don't wanna hold his hand
I hate it when they go out, and we stay in
And they come home smelling like their ex girlfriends
I found my hopes, I found my dreams
My Cinderella story scene
Now everybody's gonna see
Give me an A (always give me what I want)
Give me a V (be very very good to me)
R (are you gonna treat me right)
I (I can put up a fight)
Give me an L (let me hear you scream loud)
One, two, three, four
Where are the hopes, where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see
Let me hear you say hey hey hey
Alright
Now let me hear you say hey hey ho
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
Girlfriend (Remix)
(feat. Lil Mama)
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne REMIX
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne REMIX
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne REMIX
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne
Hey hey you you I don't like your girlfriend
No way no way I think you need a new one
Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Hey hey you you I know that you like me
No way no way you know it's no a secret
Hey hey you you I want to be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Don't get it twisted Lil Mama got my paper on
That means I'm a paper chaser I chase my paper on
And I know we chasing paper that you be chasing on
I just deliver the lyrics that people focus on
Hands and a boob and a chopped up song
Put it in a store and they go cops on
Everybody know that it's no combo
You Betta lay low like popo
Case you ain't know better already know
I go in like project so
So get it biggie mama b-r-double o-k-lyn drama
Hey hey you you I don't like your girlfriend
No way no way I think you need a new one
Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Hey hey you you I know that you like me
No way no way you know it's no a secret
Hey hey you you I want to be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Please ain't party stop
All I knows sixteen to pop
Told you you all better act on top
Been doing this since hop more pop
Ah tell the brother can't stop
For all the mans I'm cracked on rocks
For all the mans they love my mass
Style so I gotta go hard
der than I did before
her style is crossover
pee wee curling Lil Mama
miss stuff is going in
so when you see me in the drop top shades
in the summer time blazing you wanna be my boyfriend.
Hey hey you you I don't like your girlfriend
No way no way I think you need a new one
Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Hey hey you you I know that you like me
No way no way you know it's no a secret
Hey hey you you I want to be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Oh in a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There's no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid what the hell were you thinking?
Oh in a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There's no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid what the hell were you thinking?
You wave goodbye
Your girls a bird
You're by my side
Make it work
You and her that sounds absurd
Me and you go better you heard?
You ain't hear any dumb girls laugh in the back
that's 'cause I speak crack on the track
I'm gonna keep it real boy
I'm trying to mack
Let me know if you down with that
Me and yo girlfriend we ain't no tie
You better s-c-i
I'm telling you like Jennifer Hudson
I got plastic elastic in the back
Of the Jaguar sure 'cause that's what's popping
Tiger purses bank is filled
I'm mad 'cause this is nothing
Hey hey you you I don't like your girlfriend
No way no way I think you need a new one
Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Hey hey you you I know that you like me
No way no way you know it's no a secret
Hey hey you you I want to be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne
No way no way hey hey!
The Best Damn Thing
Let me hear you say hey hey hey
Alright
Now let me hear you say hey hey ho
I hate it when a guy doesn't get the door
even though I told him yesterday and the day before
I hate it when a guy doesn't get the tab
And I have to pull my money out and that looks bad
Where are the hopes, where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see
That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not, even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same
And yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble, I'm a hell of a scandal
Me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
Alright, alright
Yeah
I hate it when a guy doesn't understand
Why a certain time of month I don't wanna hold his hand
I hate it when they go out, and we stay in
And they come home smelling like their ex girlfriends
I found my hopes, I found my dreams
My Cinderella story scene
Now everybody's gonna see
Give me an A (always give me what I want)
Give me a V (be very very good to me)
R (are you gonna treat me right)
I (I can put up a fight)
Give me an L (let me hear you scream loud)
One, two, three, four
Where are the hopes, where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see
Let me hear you say hey hey hey
Alright
Now let me hear you say hey hey ho
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
Girlfriend (Remix)
(feat. Lil Mama)
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne REMIX
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne REMIX
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne REMIX
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne
Hey hey you you I don't like your girlfriend
No way no way I think you need a new one
Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Hey hey you you I know that you like me
No way no way you know it's no a secret
Hey hey you you I want to be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Don't get it twisted Lil Mama got my paper on
That means I'm a paper chaser I chase my paper on
And I know we chasing paper that you be chasing on
I just deliver the lyrics that people focus on
Hands and a boob and a chopped up song
Put it in a store and they go cops on
Everybody know that it's no combo
You Betta lay low like popo
Case you ain't know better already know
I go in like project so
So get it biggie mama b-r-double o-k-lyn drama
Hey hey you you I don't like your girlfriend
No way no way I think you need a new one
Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Hey hey you you I know that you like me
No way no way you know it's no a secret
Hey hey you you I want to be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Please ain't party stop
All I knows sixteen to pop
Told you you all better act on top
Been doing this since hop more pop
Ah tell the brother can't stop
For all the mans I'm cracked on rocks
For all the mans they love my mass
Style so I gotta go hard
der than I did before
her style is crossover
pee wee curling Lil Mama
miss stuff is going in
so when you see me in the drop top shades
in the summer time blazing you wanna be my boyfriend.
Hey hey you you I don't like your girlfriend
No way no way I think you need a new one
Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Hey hey you you I know that you like me
No way no way you know it's no a secret
Hey hey you you I want to be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Oh in a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There's no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid what the hell were you thinking?
Oh in a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There's no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid what the hell were you thinking?
You wave goodbye
Your girls a bird
You're by my side
Make it work
You and her that sounds absurd
Me and you go better you heard?
You ain't hear any dumb girls laugh in the back
that's 'cause I speak crack on the track
I'm gonna keep it real boy
I'm trying to mack
Let me know if you down with that
Me and yo girlfriend we ain't no tie
You better s-c-i
I'm telling you like Jennifer Hudson
I got plastic elastic in the back
Of the Jaguar sure 'cause that's what's popping
Tiger purses bank is filled
I'm mad 'cause this is nothing
Hey hey you you I don't like your girlfriend
No way no way I think you need a new one
Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Hey hey you you I know that you like me
No way no way you know it's no a secret
Hey hey you you I want to be your girlfriend
I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend
Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne
No way no way hey hey!
10:49 PM, Wednesday, August 08, 2007
minqi <3 RAFFLESROW jes is scary. she grins to herself says:
why are you asking me about my brain
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
cause i'm interested in myths
minqi <3 RAFFLESROW jes is scary. she grins to herself says:
what myth
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
your brain
minqi <3 RAFFLESROW jes is scary. she grins to herself says:
...
minqi <3 RAFFLESROW jes is scary. she grins to herself says:
that it's slower than the speed i drink or something like that?
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
no
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
that it exists
why are you asking me about my brain
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
cause i'm interested in myths
minqi <3 RAFFLESROW jes is scary. she grins to herself says:
what myth
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
your brain
minqi <3 RAFFLESROW jes is scary. she grins to herself says:
...
minqi <3 RAFFLESROW jes is scary. she grins to herself says:
that it's slower than the speed i drink or something like that?
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
no
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
that it exists
11:50 PM, Tuesday, August 07, 2007
it hurts, it really does
I turned to Him, I gave up my pride. I gave up the anger, at the same time went the ability to defend myself. What am I left with? Nothing. I lost all ability to get angry with someone. I could no longer defend my pride. Whenever I was wronged all I was filled with was love for that person. I couldn't even bear to seek revenge. Sometimes I just wonder if its worth it. I just get hurt more and more each day, each day I sink more and more into self pity. I feel so useless, so stupid. Why am I letting people control my life? Why am I affected by what they say, what they do? Is it worth it?
2 Samuel 22:19
They confronted me in the day of my calamity, but the LORD was my support.
Why why why? Why do I still place my support on the things of the world? Even when the world fails you, God will always be there. Please God, help me.
God, it hurts. It hurts real bad. I'm breaking
My God is big
So strong so mighty
My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams
My God is good
He's so good to me
He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in his hand
There's nothing my God cannot do
2 Samuel 22:19
They confronted me in the day of my calamity, but the LORD was my support.
Why why why? Why do I still place my support on the things of the world? Even when the world fails you, God will always be there. Please God, help me.
God, it hurts. It hurts real bad. I'm breaking
My God is big
So strong so mighty
My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams
My God is good
He's so good to me
He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in his hand
There's nothing my God cannot do
10:19 PM,
Healer - Planetshakers
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You
I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
My Healer, You're my Healer
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You
I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
My Healer, You're my Healer
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands
10:24 PM, Sunday, August 05, 2007
AHAHA I'M AMUSED AGAIN! THANKS TO SARAH TAN :)
[quote]
sarah - refiner's fire says:
why planetshakers got female voice???
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
uhh
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
why not
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
:S
sarah - refiner's fire says:
they got female singer meh?
sarah - refiner's fire says:
i dont rmb
[/quote]
[quote]
sarah - refiner's fire says:
walao
sarah - refiner's fire says:
why i always so noob
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
good question
sarah - refiner's fire says:
eh i model student la
sarah - refiner's fire says:
ask so many good questions
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
not funny?
sarah - refiner's fire says:
then say 'nice try'
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
ok nice try
sarah - refiner's fire says:
dont say ok
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
ok
[/quote]
OMG OMG OMG beaiambeoh :)
[quote]
sarah - refiner's fire says:
why planetshakers got female voice???
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
uhh
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
why not
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
:S
sarah - refiner's fire says:
they got female singer meh?
sarah - refiner's fire says:
i dont rmb
[/quote]
[quote]
sarah - refiner's fire says:
walao
sarah - refiner's fire says:
why i always so noob
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
good question
sarah - refiner's fire says:
eh i model student la
sarah - refiner's fire says:
ask so many good questions
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
not funny?
sarah - refiner's fire says:
then say 'nice try'
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
ok nice try
sarah - refiner's fire says:
dont say ok
[ joshua ] needs someone to watch simpsons with him says:
ok
[/quote]
OMG OMG OMG beaiambeoh :)
11:42 PM, Thursday, August 02, 2007
maybe it was a mistake right from the start
12:04 AM,
i'm going to die watching tv. shit man. they should stop playing good shows so late in the night! ARGH
6:45 PM, Wednesday, August 01, 2007
"big girls dun cry" neither do big boys (:
i can't express the how pissed i was with a certain group of people today. its like they already have 3 ***** already but they still want more? wtf man. ok fine. i'm living in the most kiasu country in the entire world. but seriously, they already have one yet they want another? and because of that they deprive others of theirs. LIKE WTF MAN. I'M DAMN PISSED. i have less than one and a half more years left. u think i can spend another $200 more after spending $800 in less than half a year for another ****? obviously not. WTF WTF WTF. maybe i chose the wrong CCA. maybe i was wrong right from the start. so i spent the rest of the day feeling pissed with myself. seems like no one really knows me. either that or my acting is superb. you know something's wrong when i'm not irritating.
no one will ever see my emo side. coz no one cares. FUCK CHEM SPA
i can't express the how pissed i was with a certain group of people today. its like they already have 3 ***** already but they still want more? wtf man. ok fine. i'm living in the most kiasu country in the entire world. but seriously, they already have one yet they want another? and because of that they deprive others of theirs. LIKE WTF MAN. I'M DAMN PISSED. i have less than one and a half more years left. u think i can spend another $200 more after spending $800 in less than half a year for another ****? obviously not. WTF WTF WTF. maybe i chose the wrong CCA. maybe i was wrong right from the start. so i spent the rest of the day feeling pissed with myself. seems like no one really knows me. either that or my acting is superb. you know something's wrong when i'm not irritating.
no one will ever see my emo side. coz no one cares. FUCK CHEM SPA
