Gary lose his sense of direction in life...

The inferiority in me is growing as each day passes. I feel so dejected in everything I do.
I hate it. I can't focus in whatever I do though I pretened. I really need my bunch of friends to be there for me and give me their fullest support and this point of time but apparently things are not turning out what I expected to be. I was so utterly disappointed.

Perhaps like what Eileen said, it time to re asses my friends. I need to escape from this society, can't help but thinking of how others would think of me. I begin to lose faith in friendship. After all these years, it that how a friend judge me? I have no idea at all..


Thank god. Cindy, Alice, My Sister in law and beloved brother is giving me their support.





It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

xiaogary is dead. He does not exist anymore.

I have never thought it would happen. And it happened. Life is really unpredictable. Guess is what we called karma. I know there is a true friend who is always silently there for me. But the problem is, can I overcome it? Or it just sheer escapism. I have no idea.

I really need a break from all these unhappiness. And I have always been a optimist. But till today, I would ponder and ask myself. Am I really one? or just the happy go lucky xiaogary who put up a false smile in front of everyone.

I am so loss. I seriously need a direction in life.

Can anyone guide me through my plight and walk out of it. To at least show me there is a need for me to exist in this world, this society and this lossful soul of my own.


I could reverse time, how I wish......

Frankie 22nd B'day @ Kukup 08

It was a hilarious weekend spent at the M'sia Kukup Resort. though I was depressed over some personal issues. Nonetheless, the next B'day celebration would be our God 0f the Wind (Ah Jie) CINDY POON!.. uahah..

Happy Family Outing

These pictures were accumulated over weeks of Sundays outing with my nieces, nephew, brother, sister in law and of course Cindy and Jefferson. I had great time with them especially nieces and nephew. Lots of unhappy episode happened recently, and even now life still goes on. Hope they are clear about their decision, else the kids will suffer.

Thanks Jefferson, you had been a great help to my family members! Anyway everyone was overly exhausted after Zoo outing, it felt like we went hiking for a 4 hours consecutively. I preferred Sentosa under waterworld, though I had hung over on that day itself. But it was a afternoon well spent.

Busy July - Sentosa outing and Yew Jin B'day @ Labrador Park

Thanks to Jefferson, else we would have a hard time accessing sentosa.

A little suggestive ya! haha!

I love his oakley spect but it abit too tigh.

The TRIO rox sentosa!




Mysteriously looking...




I simply love coconut juice! Argh!...

Hey dude, what are you looking at?

Last sunday when we reached sentosa, it took us 45mins to find the carpark. Quite frustrating thought, then we went to SILOSO beach (CAFE DEL MA). Should have gone to TANJONG BEACH (KM8), heard it more happening. Oops! The sun tanning seesion ended at 4pm, yawn.... A pity my nieces and nephew was not there else it would have been fun.

It was a nice well spent at the Labrador Park, the food was good so was the wine that was brought by the Birthday Boy euegene. And of course, MALIBU CLIQUE was there too. hee!

\ Tired of typing.... Yawnz... Back to work....

Updates @ June

Kay blushing....



Cute isn't she? Piggy Kerlin..


Thats Derek and Gary (hee!)






Nieces and Nephew