tonight's very cold... i'm sitting down on my bed, typing this. :D

*looks at sayang's reply*

*smiles* i'll sleep in a while. i just thought that i'd like to put up this song for all you lovebirds out there. *beams* to me, there's no harm in loving the other with all your heart, even if it means there's a lot more to lose if things doesnt work out.

It still FEELS like the first night together,
Feels like the first kiss,
and it's getting BETTER baby.
No one can better this,
still holding on, you're still the ONE.
First time our eyes met,
same feeling I get,
only feels much STRONGER,
and I will love you longer,
you still turn the fire on.

So if you're feeling lonely don't,
you're the ONLY ONE I ever want.
I only want to make it good,
so if I love you a little more than I should.
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving u
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me for what I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you

Still feels like the best time together,
feels like the first touch,
still getting closer baby,
can't get close enough.
Still holding on you're still number ONE.
I REMEMBER the smell of your skin.
I REMEMBER everything.
I REMEMBER all your moves.
I REMEMBER YOU, yeah...
I REMEMBER the nights, you know I still do.

So if you're feeling lonely don't,
you're the only one I ever want.
I only want to make it good,
so if I love you a little more than I should.
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving u
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me for what I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you....

*beams* i hope you read it instead of thinking it's part of a song. It means more when it's read. :D though it sounds better with the music.. hehehehe... anyways.. if you have loved ones, be sure to treasure them 'cos you'll never know when you will get to see them again... *smiles*

going to sleep now... *turns over to sayang and gives her a hug* *whispers* good night my dear... i love you... *winks* sweet dreams as always... i can't stop loving you...

today, i went back to brunei. i had my most wonderful time again the past 12 days. in 12 days, i did the usual things that i do before. and in that same 12 days, i learnt new things. ahhaha. in my life, i've NEVER roller bladed before, and i managed to ICE SKATE in 1 day. *beams* i learnt how to play puzzle pirates and intimidate the captain! wahhahaha.. but i'm sad that within 12 days, many things happen to keep us occupied, and i had wished time moved slower.

earlier today, mum, farah, and hana darling sent me to the airport. hehe. i woke up at 0830 exactly. hmmm *taps chin* and darling was up earlier. haha. then, i told mum that my darling is coming over for breakfast and she got farah to clean the house. :D then i picked sayang from the bus stop cos it was raining, we got to the house, and then we went for breakfast at McDonalds'. Mum bought mee siam in the morning but i didn't think my stomach will make it to brunei.. ahaahha.. but i didn't tell mum that.. *winks* by the way, i haven't eaten mee siam for almost 7 months... and that sucks! heh.

so after breakfast, we took the taxi towards the airport. the driver was very very very quiet on the way.. ahaha.. that's cos everyone in the taxi was talking most of the journey.. :D then farah had an upsized meal at burger king while me and sayang entertained mum and farah with magic... hahaha... it's just 6 cards with numbers and we can read their mind the numbers that they chose. hehe.. oh, i almost forgot. i met staff azalani and his "wife",which he claimed, at the airport too. hahaha. apparently he was sending her off back to brunei on the same flight as yours truly. after burger king, we went window shopping there and farah bought some handphone chains... ahahha.. *shrugs* don't ask me why.. haha.. so we headed over to the departure gate, took some pictures and said my goodbyes... and sayang had to comment on the guy who's riding on the airport's mopping machine. haha.. she said, "imagine if a malay mat is riding on it, and then he wink wink at girls while on the machine... *laughs*" ooookie darling... hahaha...

inside the lounge, i met MR JARED OH!!!! ahahahha.. he was my physics teacher back in temasek secondary and he RECOGNISED ME!! ahaha.. cept that he forgot my name, which is normal.. haha.. cos i forget people's names too.. yeah.. so we talked for a while, and found out he's going over to brunei with temasekians for the foreign exchange programme! how cool is that la.. hahaha.. during my time, it was with the australians.. ahha.. and the chicks were huge.. so, no motivation... wahahhaha.. wah lau, brunei girls... aahhhh.. *looks at darling* *quickly changes topic* anyway, haha.. we boarded the plane. it was an airbus. there's three seats on each side and only one aisle. hehe.. narrow giler2 nyer... there's no personal tv for everyone and it's replaced with an overhead screen. ahahhaa.. it's this small screen where every 3 rows, there's one overhead. *laughs* another special feature of this airline is that they will pray first for a safe flight before every take off. it will be featured on the screen and the words for us to say the prayer. for muslims only of cos. as for me, i got the aisle seat. and i think the air stewardess was looking at me for quite some time before she decides that i'm probably not interested.. hahaha.. padan muka... and u all might be wondering why i say that right? haha.. cos she rubbed her butt on my shoulder for quite a while even after i pulled my arm away. and then, while serving customers their lunch, we was glancing over for quite some time.. ahhahaha... i knew that cos i was watching the overhead tv, and one heads to the right of the tv was her face. ah... it's not that she's not pretty or not attractive la.. haha.. but i'm just not interested. end of story. haha.. so on the plane, there's an old man sitting on my left. he's singaporean but he worked in brunei for 25 years already. he has 2 kids who are married, maybe he has more cos he just talked abt the 2.. ahahha.. he owned a business over here in brunei. selling computer appliances over at centrepoint, gadong. haha. i'll probably drop by someday to see him.. and get my computer stuffs!! i assumed he's very rich cos he travelled home every month. so that's 3 weeks working, 1 week back in singapore. i asked why he didnt bring his wife along and he said he dun have to cos he's always back every month.. hahaha.. oookie... guess he doesnt want the priviledges of marriage.. WAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAA... or maybe waiting longer would mean more tension for him.. WAHHAHAHAHAHHA... *whistles*

but i can't forget the way the airplane landed at Brunei International Airport. we were swaying left and right as the plane was descending. then it tilts left and right continuously as though the pilot cant control the rudder. then the wheels screeched as it touched the ground, the front of the plane "crashed" hard and bounced as the wheels starts its motion...at that moment, i tot we were gonna crash already seh... wah lau.. and after that, i'm in brunei soil all over again.. just waiting for time to pass by.. which would be less than 2 months now.. wahhahahaha...

oh, and my replacement's name is PTE HAFIZ!!!!! wth.. is there NO OTHER name in the world? ahhhahaha... so, till next time wonderful readers of mine... hahaha.. *winks*
oh, and all this is typed in MY NEW LAPTOP! wahhahaha.. :P

and sayang: nightmares are normal. and it do feel real. i've been researching on the possibility of being alive without moving ourselves. ie, matrix.. it's just the brain in action. and the possibility of dying in this matrix is very very possible... especially when u believe that the matrix is real... that's when u'll die in it... sounds familiar huh?

ahhaah.. okie bye!

hallluuuuu....

i woke up late today.. ahaha. supposed to meet sayang at 1230 but i woke up at 1216. wah lau eh.. ahhaha.. den i was like, shit shit shit... and called her, saying that i'm late.. heah... that's cos we played yahoo! pool late at night.. ahhaha.. till 4 am u~ :P

so now, i'm waiting for my friend to pass me my games... laughs.. that i bought from brunei. hehehe.. and i'm passing him his umbrella and shoes.. khekhekhe...

okie, think i have to go now...

to sayang: Muacks... i love u.. sorry for today... very very short ... yeah.. :D

updates:

1)holiday-ing in singapore!
2)spent wonderful times with darling
3)bought a new laptop! ahhaha
4)went for 2 hari raya visitings

ahhahaa... yupz! finally glad that i'm home. brunei's taken a lot out of me. and the thought of going back there for another 2 months is just torture. aiya. what to do. if i'm not there, i'm here in singapore, and that means 0430 waking up, 0515 walking to interchange. ahhahaha.. and lesser pay.. but at least there's freedom.

going back next week on monday. have yet to confirm the flight details and i'm thinking of going today. then at the same time, can go and convert my driving license.. hehe. have been delaying it for quite some time now... :D

wahahaha.. alright, till then...