Friday, January 31, 2003

where do i get these tests? well ... EMODE of course ...
just click on the EMODE ... ahha
What's Your True Color?

Yellow

You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it. The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too). Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!
What Kind of Sexy Are You?


Farhan Suhada, you're Shy 'n' Sexy

When it comes to sex appeal, you have it — and you know it. It's just that you hold it back until you're more secure with the person of your affections. Were you the kind of kid who was nervous about the first day of school even though you knew you were smart enough to compete? Read more about how you're sexy...

Let's face it, you probably know what you're great at, it's just getting over that initial bump of meeting someone new, getting used to them, and warming up to a situation that gives people the impression you might be a little more tame than others. But look out. Because when you reach your comfort level, you're in the zone.

Your lovers are the lucky ones because they're the only people who really know what lies beneath your timid exterior. Sure you might shy away from steamy looks in public. But get you behind closed doors and you're ready to unleash your true sexual powers. You may be shy, but you know how to hook and reel 'em in.
Farhan Suhada, you're a Critic!

Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types - your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type. You are a Critic which means you are a Thinker / Success. Your primary sub-type is defined by "Thinker" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Success" characteristics.

That means you're complex, thoughtful and never content to skate on the surface. Chances are you veer towards being so analytical and introspective that even positive qualities can seem like faults. The truth is that you have a very perceptive, gentle spirit.

How do we know all this? How do we know that you hate chaos at work and prefer a structured environment? Or that sometimes you feel undervalued by your boss? How could we have divined that there's a part deep inside you that's aching to make more money?

Because while you were taking the test, you answered four different types of questions — questions that measured confidence, apprehension, willingness to take risks, and your focus on experience versus appearance — the primary traits that determine your personality. Based on your responses, we determined your personality type, Critic.

And that's just scratching the surface.

Wednesday, January 29, 2003

yesterday, i went through my cupboard and found these letters that i've kept since secondary school. and one of them ... goes like this ..


Farhan,
i hope you like your little birthday present. This is somthing i've written for you. Read it word by word.

i'm thinking of you constantly
my feelings for you i cant explain
it came to me so suddenly
sometimes it's driving me insane

you're so nice to me
and you're so different from the rest
maybe we are meant to be
but my mind is still in a mess

i want to give it a chance
for both of us to give it a try
a try to save this hopeful romance
before it fades away and die

i cant make up my mind
to the question you asked me
i'm wasting all your time
i think you're gonna hate me

but when i do make the choice
i know what i'm going to say
just listen to my voice
"i like you more each and everyday."

thank you for everything
i feel truly blessed
thank you for waiting
and my answer is "YES"

i hope you are glad to hear
to what i have to say
farhan my dear
wishing you

A Very Happy Birthday

yours sincerely,
"nameoftheperson"


so there it is ....
ahhaha ...

Thursday, January 23, 2003

studying for maths. trying to handle my time. hopefully.....
functions ... power series ...
next week ... physics ...
die ....
Artist: Enrique Iglesias
Album: Escape
Title: Maybe

if i had one single wish
I go back to the moment I kissed
Do you goodbye no matter how hard I tried
I can't live without you in my life

*Maybe you say you still want me
Maybe you say that you don't
Maybe we say it was over
Baby I can't let you go

I walk around couldn't understand
Where we were wrong and I can't pretend
It wasn't me it wasn't you
But I'm convinced we gave up too soon

*Maybe you say you still want me
Maybe you say that you don't
Maybe we say it was over
Baby I can't let you go

**Nothing that you lose was up to losing you
There's nothing I can take
When I run to you, when I come for you
You tell me I'm too late**

*Maybe you say you still want me
Maybe you say that you don't
Maybe we say it was over
Baby I can't let you go

Wednesday, January 22, 2003

oOOooOooOooOoO ... thank you to all that remembered my birthday !! ahhahaha .. thanx thanx .. muahkz!!! yeah yeah yeah ...
k ... one of my birthday presents is a "painless" blood sucking moment .... the hepatitis B blood test ... sheesh ...
i asked the nurse what it will feel like .. she said like ant bite ... then i said .. so .. its like BCG? ... n she said .. BCG more painful ...
yah .. n den ... the moment came ...
she poked the needle into my vein ... it wasn't that bad ... den the sucking part ... can feel my blood gushing into the syringe ... n she took a full syringe of MY blood... so basically, when she transferred it to the "test-tube", it kindda overflooded.... ahhaha ... she threw the excess away ... damn ...
oh oh ... the painful part is when she wanted to take the needle out ....
i was squeezing the "ball" .. i didnt realise she asked me to let it go ... so i held on tight ... den she was like trying to push my fingers apart ... but i hold on .... den ... she just forced it open .. ahhaha ... n pulled the needle without warning ... i screamed i think .. cant recalll .. ahhaha ... den i was trying to fight the pain ... muz be my blood gushing out of its "original track" ....can really feel it ....

anyway ... was told to rest for 10 minutes ... in the end .. i took 20 minutes .. ahhahhaha .... my hand was numb ... couldnt move it ... sigh ....
2 hours later ... felt the dizziness ..... shitz man ....
now i'm damn tired ... lost lots of blood .. hey .. i got lesser red blood cells k ... yah ... sigh .. sleep sleep sleep ....

*in my place, in my place .....well i couldnt change ....*

Sunday, January 19, 2003

Artist: Kelly Clarkson
Album: A Moment Like This
Title: A Moment Like This

CHORUS
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
for a moment like this
some people search forever
for that one special kiss

Oh, I can't believe it's hapenning to me
some people wait a lifetime
for a moment like this


stepping down ceremony .... *hint hint*

mmm... oh oh oh yeeeaaah, u can't hardly wait to tell all ur friends
how his kisses taste sweet like wine
and how he always makes ur heart skip a beat every time he walks by
and if ur feeling down he'll pick u up,
he'll hold u close when ur making love
he's everything you've been dreaming of, oh baby

I wish you'd look at me that way
ur beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
telling me more than any words could say
but u don't even know I'm alive
baby to u, all I am, is the invisible man

ooh, u don't see me baby
u probably spend hours on the phone
talking about nothing at all
it doesn't matter what the conversation
just as long as he calls

lost in a love so real and so sincere
and u wipe away, all those tears
ur face lights up whenever he appears
ohhhh...

I wish u look at me that way
ur beautiful eyes looking deep into mine (deep into mine)
telling me more than any words could say
but u don't even know that I am alive
baby to u, all I am, is the invisible man
(repeat)

oh oh oh, oh baby, the invisible man
u don't see me girl
but I love u
yes I love u
the invisible man
oh oh oh oh yeah eeee yeah the invisible man
baby baby baby yeah... the invisible man

Saturday, January 18, 2003

relatives ....
what's the use of having relatives who don't trust you? i mean, your father or mother is their brother or sister and they don't have trust in him or her? think about it... you've been with your family for at least 20 years before you get married. in other words, you know your brothers and sisters more than anyone else. n then, you got to meet someone and got married with the person. n u only noe the person less than 20 years before getting married and u trust HIM whole-heartedly... what the helllllll...... thus, how much do you knoe abt the person?? NOT THAT MUCH !!!!

i'll be damned pissed if my brother n sisters don't haf trust in me... but now, its a bigger problem.. sigh .. got no one to talk to .. even if there is .. i wont even tell .... so .. don't bother to ...

maybe i shud start writing letters to THAT BLARDEE person, n keep it instead of sending... ahhahhaha ... *wink wink* ...
may that person die horribly... "amin" ...

Thursday, January 16, 2003

One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder I'll use my hands
Your body Is a wonderland

Something 'bout the way your hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it

Thursday, January 09, 2003

you make me feel special
you like my jokes
you care about me
you have a special smile
you do fun things with me
you try my ideas
you let me go first sometimes
you let me have bites of your sandwich
you're nice to be with
you're nice to my friends
you're very smart
you're funny and cute
you're more than i can express
(to be continued .... in ur heart)
rite ... so now, my workload has started. got lots to do, and i muz do it. but i can't. everytime i start to study, i feel sleepy. so, i guess i'll just haf to do it in school... studying i mean ... go find some study corner, or even the council room. yeah .. and lay poncho or mat on the floor and do it there...

had assembly. very informative for people like me. argh !!! muz studyyy !!! ... how to make me study ... how to study if you don't understand ... not really not understand ... but can't proceed with the questions... need more examples ...

planned to go for consultations... but then .. wad shud i ask them?? sigh ...

stress?? dun think so .. cos i dun believe in stress ... maybe that's because i find some outlet for my stress instead of containing it inside of me ....

its ok ... a few more months ... then can enjoy life in the university ... hopefully ... insyaallah ....

Tuesday, January 07, 2003

From the moment I met you
I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand
And I knew that
This was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna
Lose this feeling
I don't wanna spend
A moment apart
'Cause you bring out
The best in me
Like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you

Every day that
I'm here with you
I know that it feels right
And I've just
Got to be near you
Every day and every night
And you know that
We belong together
It just had to be
You and me

'Cause you bring out
The best in me
Like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you

And you know that
We belong together
It just had to be
You and me

'Cause you bring out
The best in me
Like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
'Cause you bring out
The best in me
Like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you
'Cause you bring out
The best in me
Like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you

Monday, January 06, 2003

maybe ... i shud get a girlfriend to guide me through A levels .. ahha .. well .. that shouldn't be the reason to be in any relationship .... but i really need to finish A levels with distinctions ... maybe just get someone hu can really be there to help me out in my studies ... maybe dat's wad i really want now ....