Sometimes the decisions we felt that was right seems so massively destructive and wrong as time goes by and there is absolutely nothing you can do to fill the void nor change it. Sometimes, when you put yourself in situations like this, you will seem like you're living in a drama show gone wrong. I cannot be happy without taking a life. What can I do? Absolutely nothing. And I don't even have the rights to tell.

I need space but I can't have it. I need balance but there is none. I need serenity but well..no. I can never lead a normal life, be happy and calm and live life to the fullest. I'll just be the little bird that you locked in your cage and swallowed the key. The only way to get the key is.. Never.

Frustrated, yet being unable to vent. Fuck this.
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posted by Millie at 6:00 PM 0 Comments

I don't even know what to say anymore. Either one of us will have our happiness so there you go. Here's yours. On a silver platter. Bam. That's It.

I do love you, I truly do. But I can't. I can't take the mental and verbal torture. Not anymore. I'm sorry.

I'm no longer who you think I am.
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posted by Millie at 5:43 PM 0 Comments

It has not even been a day. It hasn't even begun. To know and realize how deep a manhole I dug myself into, to finally tell myself this Is it. Is this it? Is my suffering and mental torture going to end? Is this the final step to happiness? Is it..? Guess not. The drama is just about to start, and its starting really soon. You will never stop being the drug with the ever-lingering aftermath effects.

When will you stop all this drama?

Be strong. The night has just begun.
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posted by Millie at 11:54 PM 0 Comments