Life Really is Like Coffee

These past 7 months have been hard for me, but I'm lucky that I have my friends here with me. They have been very supportive and helped me a lot in this journey.

I did the biggest mistake of my life: giving away my trust. I don't trust people that much. Although I'm quite friendly with people, I don't really open up to people that easily. yep. biggest mistake in my life. 

I just can't understand how a person could say, "I've never lied to you" yet he was lying to you at that time? don't tell me that I'm the person you trust the most if you still lie to me. This is just something that I couldn't grasp. 

As much as I hate to admit this, but thanks to that liar, I've found a greater purpose in my life. 

I don't know why I relied too much on him to gain knowledge of Islamic Sciences. The truth is, I gained wayyyyy more than I did when I relied on him. My time now is just full with learning things. 

Alhamdulillah, I'm still following the classes that I joined before the incident. In fact, dah bertambah join kelas lain-lain juga. Somehow the 2017 tragedy turns out to be my spiritual turning point. I've met so many amazing people throughout this journey. I befriended a retired lecturer from Indonesia (she used to teach at a university in Boston) who is always chasing after knowledge as if there is no tomorrow. She's amazing. It was refreshing to meet people who are always positive and don't cloud you with their dramas. 

Since I don't have to allocate my time for meaningless outings anymore,  I now spend my Sunday nights at Buku Jalanan Chow Kit. I'm a regular volunteer there now. I teach kids aged 7-12 there. Being surrounded by these positive, selfless, incredible and inspiring people there is just the best thing ever. 

When Allah took away something from you, He will replace it with something that is much better. MashaAllah. I am grateful for this. At first, I thought that the incident was the worst thing that ever happened to me. but you know what, now I think it is the best thing that had ever happened to me because it leads me to this wonderful journey. I'm glad that Allah answered my prayers. Alhamdulillah.

Life is like coffee. It might be bitter at first, but the aftertaste is just wonderful. 

p/s: I've lost 12kgs since then. So much win!*flips hair*  *flips hijab*