It was Saturday=student committee meeting+aikido practice. it was about 6 pm. already dark-its autumn. i went to nagoya train station to have dinner and some window shopping. yes, just window shopping. after i had my dinner, i went out of the station and just walk around (alone) and cross the roads and walked with no purpose.
one thing that i realized while walking around this big city. i realized that i was asking myself why, why and why. i saw girls with thick make-up, short skirts (although its cold) and high heels. i saw guys with all kind of hair style and colours- and some were weird..
and then, i asked myself why do people do all this? or maybe im just some weird and boring girl who doesnt really care about fashion or what others think of me.
beauty to me is just comes out from the heart. it is nothing when a girl is with a thick make-up but her attitude is not proper (there is another word to describe it but i dont wanna type it. fill it yourself). to me it is just empty. just like a beautiful but seashell. it is just good for decorations. but its dead. (get it?)
and then, i looked around again. i saw people hanging out, having fun but... are they really happy inside? maybe i am a nobody or have no right to say this, but this is what i think. but i saw emptiness in them. everything, everyone around me are empty inside.
having a thought like that made me be thankful tu Allah. i am still learning the purpose of life. and i am glad that i have friends (kakak-kakak in Gifu and Nagoya) who are willing to share with me about the purpose of life.
i just scared that i would be lost, no directions and whatever.
and because of that, i gained my fighting spirit back to excell in anything i do. -especially the exams................ T^T
hehehehe. :)
