2016

I don't plan too much for next year, but hope to fulfill some of my new year's resolutions...

1. To be more green.
2. To travel more with Grumpy.
3. To spend less on my expensive hobby.

and I think the 3rd one will be the hardest but I will try my best to get it done!

30

Am officially 30.

And yet I don't feel much different from my 20s.

and am so lucky to have someone sexy for myself.

to Grumpy, thanks for being sexy and still make me love you even more after 5 years. 

Here's to growing old together.

:)

Respect

Currently I have a huge respect for a small food bushiness owners. The ones that sell something simple and local favorites like nasi lemak, pisang goreng, keropok, burger etc.

They might look poor, but their pockets aren't.

Maybe I should be more like them. Be my own boss and kuli.

Amin ~

Sila Campaknya Ke Dalam Tong Sampah

Selain menelefon sms call fb berlaman sosial dan lain3, henfon juga mempunyai fungsi  untuk memberitahu pasangan anda yang anda sudah selamat tiba di destinasi yang dituju supaya beliau tak risau anda hidup atau tidak.

- kata James kepada temannya yang sudah mula sibuk dengan kariernya.

How To Deal With Stressful Life

What else but vacations?

For us, a short vacation makes life less stressful.

Doesn't have to be long, expensive, out of Malaysia vacations.

Me and my significant other prefer short vacation on budget, nearby Penang.

Currently, we tried to go on vacation nearby, every month.

and starting this year, we will try for budget vacation outside Malaysia. Once per year, starting with Singapore.

There's nothing I LOVE more than spending some time with my love one, and not think about works for a while.

TMI

Lately, I rather talked about my problems with my partner of 5 years than sharing them with friends or family.

Cause sometime friends and family can be my worst's enemies. And most of the time, they will not keep the problems as secrets.

and as for facebook, instagram and other social networking, I would rather keep it personal and not going to upload any of my face pics. Not because I don't have any self confident about my look, it simply because I would rather talk about what I like than sharing every seconds about what I do in life.

Nothing against selfie or other sharing types, but sometime TMI aren't cut it for me.

Sweet Home

When everything falls apart, I always compare this place called 'home', with that big city.
What the fuck am still doing here?

Kids

Some people are just too lazy, grumpy and cold to have kids...
and sometime we are not deserve to call those fluffy innocent eyes.... ours.

It's time to say goodbye and may you found a better, loving, parent soon.
and from the bottom of the darkest heart, I am sorry for failing you.

You

It has been 5 years and I still think you are the sexiest person inside out.

And I love you.

Lost

Starting to lost interest in some place... and someone...

And now I understand why some of us are so damage.

Workplace

Workplace Husband.

It means a husband, (or a wife in case you are a dude or a lesbian) at your working place that you talk (or flirt depending on how bored you are) when your real husband (or wife) is busy with works, kids or other important things that make you check your phone every 10 minutes to see if he (or she) replied to your text (or conversation).

And workplace husband (or wife) is also usefull when your significant other being a jerk.

Susah

Kalau buat bodoh dan tak melayan cakap kurang kasih sayang.
Kalau melayan dan banyak bertanya dikatakan mencari perhatian.

Seyes, tak faham!

P/S : Tengah melayan drama Melayu yang mengalami konflik di atas. Mungkin klise tapi hakikatnya benda bodoh ni terjadi dalam kehidupan sebenar.

Unlove

The best way to survive in relationship is to expect as little as possible, from your significant other.

and sometime if we love someone too much, we lost everything.

Because love is so 'strange'.

Loser

Makan seorang-seorang tak semestinya loser dan anti sosial.

and I have friends TYVM*

*Apabila orang tanya kenapa saya suka makan seorang-seorang dan tak suka mengumpat ketika di tempat kerja.

Cray Cray

Sometime I think it easier just to let people know I have Bipolar.
So that they won't ask too many question on why I suddenly have a bad mood.
It's not because of something they did, but rather than I was zombiefied by my own brain.

To answer your question why I have a mood swing...
It's not because of you.
It's because sometime I'm dead inside
Thank you very much ~

P/S : I'm ok, the med help tho ~

Retirement Plan

Work my ass off

and then...

AiS Pet Store (the real retail store of course)

and most likely will end with..

Animal farms with lots of cats, couple of horses, maybe a large guard dog, some cows, chickens, ducks, small lake with some fishes and plenty of organic vegetables.

~ amin ~

Goodbye

Dearest,

I feel certain I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can’t fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can’t even write this properly. I can’t read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that — everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer.

I don’t think two people could have been happier than we have been.

Think With Your Brain, not Penis

We are living in the world where even the ugly, fat ones are jerks and prefer to date someone who's fashionably skinny.

and the worst kinds bitch about the pretty ones don't want to date them.

Oh, DUNIA ~

31

Someone's one year older today.
The kids and I wanna wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
We hope all of your dream and hopes will come true.
A little less temper and a little more fun.
and there's a cheese cake in the freezer.

Being 30 Part 1

2014 was a wild, twisted year.

Some are great, some are not.

Moved to new place and got bigger room for the kids.

Lost two of my best friends and I managed to be on non texting part with one of them due to shitty things.

And for the first time in my life I was stuck in the most horrible flood of Kelantan's history. It was pretty rough living without clean water and electricity for almost two weeks.

But the WORST part of 2014 was seeing some of my kids died. It was the worst feeling in the world.

Despite all of it, and secretly I hope to turn back time to fix some of the problems, I could say 2014 was treating me well. 

and oh, I'm going to be 30 this year ~

fabulous!