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I know this is very unfilial of me or amount of sc...
would people treat me differently if i dint look t...
i wanna start all over again. yes i'm admitting i ...
i want to leave this place. go to somewhere where ...
이런 친구가 난 필요 없어..나는 왜 이런 남자가 좋아해? to feel like shi...
why is it that society likes to throw is into situ...
i really dont understand you. "so you wanna help m...
Is it so hard for you to encourage me? Why is it t...
i'm so tired. tired of everything. i wanna go some...
"guys, or people in general, will always be nicer ...
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will i...? Wednesday, August 14, 2013 @ 10:35 AM
my manager in training asked me a question that i actually never gave any serious thought about at all today....
my manager in training asked me a question that i actually never gave any serious thought about at all today....
Manager: so shanice, are you seeing anyone currently?
(i got a little shocked at the questions and looked up)
me: haha no, not at the moment...
manager: ohhh why?
me: haha well.... i guess i've not caught anybody's attention hahaha cause no nobody likes me
(awkward me trying to cover the awkwardness with laughs)
manager: well, but do you like, like or fancy anybody?
( i got shock again, because this time, i thought to myself, hey i really havent thought about this at all...)
me: actually no leh haha i have nobody to like at the moment. like i dont meet much people also...
then i changed the subject to how i dont really like to socialise... lol
this whole thing just really got me thinking....
will i fall in love?
i've never been in a relationship with someone before.
what is love man?! haha
love is so complicated, so many things i have to think of and do and change
i've seen my friends around me in these many years (especially my bestie's) and learnt so much from their relationships and thought about myself being in their position and if i could actually do it, being someone's girlfriend. i've seen people fall in and out of love, get flustered by love, get angry, get sad...
then i thought to myself again, "will i ever fall in love?"
worst day ever... Thursday, August 1, 2013 @ 11:07 AM
yesterday was a very sad day for me.... my dog actually bit the nose my my bear off :( i was so sad i cried. i loved that bear alot because it was what my mum gave me when i was just a small kid and i have slept with it every since. i cant sleep without it being near me. it's my friend, i've knew it for longer than anyone else and it has listened to all my problems( sounds freaky... i know....) and i just cried when i saw it on the floor with it's nose gone and a jarring 'wound' in its place. ohhh did my heart hurt. and it was also somehow my fault cause i dint notice it dropped onto the floor :( and that makes me feel even more shitty. it looks like voldemort now, and i had to sleep without it the other night because it was in the wash and as i expected, i could sleep properly at all.... :( i'm still in a mourning period now and am ignoring my dog. i contacted a"bear hospital" with hopes that i can get it back to what it looked like before but the person is not replying me... but i wont stop until i can get it fixed :( and because i cried in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep properly, i woke up late, had problems putting on makeup on my swollen eyes and couldn't catch my bus AND train to work and i was late. which really just made my day so much worst. and i just wanted to go home... sighhhhh i'm really anxious to get my bear fixed now. people say i'm crazy cause its just a bear, a soft toy, but that bear has been with me for so long and it means a lot to me and my childhood. just imagine something dear to you ruined or destroyed. its the same thing. the feeling sucks when you know something will never be the same anymore, but even though i can never have that anymore, i want to try my best to imitate it so that can at least retain that memory.
yesterday was a very sad day for me.... my dog actually bit the nose my my bear off :( i was so sad i cried. i loved that bear alot because it was what my mum gave me when i was just a small kid and i have slept with it every since. i cant sleep without it being near me. it's my friend, i've knew it for longer than anyone else and it has listened to all my problems( sounds freaky... i know....) and i just cried when i saw it on the floor with it's nose gone and a jarring 'wound' in its place. ohhh did my heart hurt. and it was also somehow my fault cause i dint notice it dropped onto the floor :( and that makes me feel even more shitty. it looks like voldemort now, and i had to sleep without it the other night because it was in the wash and as i expected, i could sleep properly at all.... :( i'm still in a mourning period now and am ignoring my dog. i contacted a"bear hospital" with hopes that i can get it back to what it looked like before but the person is not replying me... but i wont stop until i can get it fixed :( and because i cried in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep properly, i woke up late, had problems putting on makeup on my swollen eyes and couldn't catch my bus AND train to work and i was late. which really just made my day so much worst. and i just wanted to go home... sighhhhh i'm really anxious to get my bear fixed now. people say i'm crazy cause its just a bear, a soft toy, but that bear has been with me for so long and it means a lot to me and my childhood. just imagine something dear to you ruined or destroyed. its the same thing. the feeling sucks when you know something will never be the same anymore, but even though i can never have that anymore, i want to try my best to imitate it so that can at least retain that memory.
