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I know this is very unfilial of me or amount of sc...
would people treat me differently if i dint look t...
i wanna start all over again. yes i'm admitting i ...
i want to leave this place. go to somewhere where ...
이런 친구가 난 필요 없어..나는 왜 이런 남자가 좋아해? to feel like shi...
why is it that society likes to throw is into situ...
i really dont understand you. "so you wanna help m...
Is it so hard for you to encourage me? Why is it t...
i'm so tired. tired of everything. i wanna go some...
"guys, or people in general, will always be nicer ...
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Saturday, November 7, 2015 @ 10:55 PM
I know this is very unfilial of me or amount of scrutiny i would get if this were to ever get out, but, i am very disappointed and ashamed to have a family like this.
I know this is very unfilial of me or amount of scrutiny i would get if this were to ever get out, but, i am very disappointed and ashamed to have a family like this.
Monday, June 22, 2015 @ 8:58 PM
would people treat me differently if i dint look that way i do now?
would people treat me differently if i dint look that way i do now?
Wednesday, June 10, 2015 @ 9:53 AM
i wanna start all over again. yes i'm admitting i want to run away.
i wanna go back and redo everything, make so many changes so that i dont have to go through all that i feel right not.
It's hard not to be sad when i feel like i'm not the person i want to be, and that i am actually not happy
Its hard to not be frustrated when i'm on the losing end all the time.
it's hard not to be disappointed when you've been rejected and turned dow.
its hard not to be angry when i cant change some things
it's hard not to feel heartbreak when you've did all you can and tried so hard, only to be told "you're just not my type" and have to be fine with it then and after that. and only to still not be treated like a female.
why do things have to be a process? i know this sounds very immature and adolescent, but the feelings really suck. I want to change i really do. Everything hits me so hard.
Its all the accept all these feelings while i'm still in repair. I honestly cant get over it.
i wanna start all over again. yes i'm admitting i want to run away.
i wanna go back and redo everything, make so many changes so that i dont have to go through all that i feel right not.
It's hard not to be sad when i feel like i'm not the person i want to be, and that i am actually not happy
Its hard to not be frustrated when i'm on the losing end all the time.
it's hard not to be disappointed when you've been rejected and turned dow.
its hard not to be angry when i cant change some things
it's hard not to feel heartbreak when you've did all you can and tried so hard, only to be told "you're just not my type" and have to be fine with it then and after that. and only to still not be treated like a female.
why do things have to be a process? i know this sounds very immature and adolescent, but the feelings really suck. I want to change i really do. Everything hits me so hard.
Its all the accept all these feelings while i'm still in repair. I honestly cant get over it.
Sunday, May 10, 2015 @ 8:57 AM
i want to leave this place. go to somewhere where nobody knows me and start all over.
i can no longer stand the false fronts.
i dont want to have to put up with people who've changed.
dont want to have to be talked down by the people i love.
dont want to have to allow myself to be two faced because i still love you and because i cant bring myself to hurt any of you.
i dont know what i'm doing.
i'm lost.
and i even feel a little sick of myself.
i dont like this.
i want to leave this place. go to somewhere where nobody knows me and start all over.
i can no longer stand the false fronts.
i dont want to have to put up with people who've changed.
dont want to have to be talked down by the people i love.
dont want to have to allow myself to be two faced because i still love you and because i cant bring myself to hurt any of you.
i dont know what i'm doing.
i'm lost.
and i even feel a little sick of myself.
i dont like this.
Sunday, May 3, 2015 @ 8:24 AM
이런 친구가 난 필요 없어..나는 왜 이런 남자가 좋아해?
to feel like shit every time and in the end really start to have no confidence in myself.
why do you treat me like that? if you really find that im stupid or bothersome, please do not talk to me anymore. why do you still talk to me?
i'm trying my hardest to get over you. so please give me a chance to forget you.
이런 친구가 난 필요 없어..나는 왜 이런 남자가 좋아해?
to feel like shit every time and in the end really start to have no confidence in myself.
why do you treat me like that? if you really find that im stupid or bothersome, please do not talk to me anymore. why do you still talk to me?
i'm trying my hardest to get over you. so please give me a chance to forget you.
Friday, April 24, 2015 @ 8:39 AM
why is it that society likes to throw is into situations or things and always expects us to immediately perform? not everybody is a prodigy, not everybody can excel immediately. what do you think the quote "practice makes perfect" mean?
where is the comfort in humanity? its all harsh words and mean personal attacks. what is with the non-stop emotional abuse? to boost your own ego? this cycle will just go round and round and it will never stop.
it will only eat into us making us emotionally stressed out, mentally worn out and just downright sad. what fun do you find in putting people down?
no doubt, you are more intellectual, but damn, you have no empathy. thinking that it gives you the right to talk down to someone else just because you are smarter? you makes me feel sad for you because of your lack of principles, your judgemental mentally and your ego. never will i have a good impression of somebody who sincerely compliments themselves. and to be honest, there are only a handful of these people in my memory, and it is sad to say that you are one of them, also a memory.
why is it that society likes to throw is into situations or things and always expects us to immediately perform? not everybody is a prodigy, not everybody can excel immediately. what do you think the quote "practice makes perfect" mean?
where is the comfort in humanity? its all harsh words and mean personal attacks. what is with the non-stop emotional abuse? to boost your own ego? this cycle will just go round and round and it will never stop.
it will only eat into us making us emotionally stressed out, mentally worn out and just downright sad. what fun do you find in putting people down?
no doubt, you are more intellectual, but damn, you have no empathy. thinking that it gives you the right to talk down to someone else just because you are smarter? you makes me feel sad for you because of your lack of principles, your judgemental mentally and your ego. never will i have a good impression of somebody who sincerely compliments themselves. and to be honest, there are only a handful of these people in my memory, and it is sad to say that you are one of them, also a memory.
Monday, March 30, 2015 @ 7:35 AM
i really dont understand you. "so you wanna help me collect not?hahaha"
so where has all your skin gone? have you really become so thick skinned that you ask these all the time? how have you become so selfish? thinking only about yourself at the expense of others. not caring if you will impose on them or not.
yes, you have always been pampered all your life, whether if its your family or the people around you because you've always been pretty. and now you've learnt to embrace it. which sounds so disgusting.
its the same thing that has happened with the tax issue. how could you have the cheek to even ask of such a thing. i'm really disappointed in you. where has all of your principles gone? and you dare condemn me for my lifestyle changes, saying that i have bad judgement and make bad decisions.
i would do everything for you but you wouldn't do what i'd do for you.
i said that this year i would change to become a stronger, more independent and better person. and not allowing myself to be taken for granted is one of them. i wont be so stupid to be allowed to get pushed around anymore. it doesnt matter if i sound unfriendly or even offensive anymore, cause i was always afraid and bothered alot if it did. i want to be able to stand rooted for what i believe in. and you are my biggest obstacle right now; which should not be the case.
i really dont understand you. "so you wanna help me collect not?hahaha"
so where has all your skin gone? have you really become so thick skinned that you ask these all the time? how have you become so selfish? thinking only about yourself at the expense of others. not caring if you will impose on them or not.
yes, you have always been pampered all your life, whether if its your family or the people around you because you've always been pretty. and now you've learnt to embrace it. which sounds so disgusting.
its the same thing that has happened with the tax issue. how could you have the cheek to even ask of such a thing. i'm really disappointed in you. where has all of your principles gone? and you dare condemn me for my lifestyle changes, saying that i have bad judgement and make bad decisions.
i would do everything for you but you wouldn't do what i'd do for you.
i said that this year i would change to become a stronger, more independent and better person. and not allowing myself to be taken for granted is one of them. i wont be so stupid to be allowed to get pushed around anymore. it doesnt matter if i sound unfriendly or even offensive anymore, cause i was always afraid and bothered alot if it did. i want to be able to stand rooted for what i believe in. and you are my biggest obstacle right now; which should not be the case.
