Today I had almost the worst tutorial ever in my uni days..maybe coz i finally start to wanna feel responsible or maybe coz i finally start to wanna be on track..anyway..i was not aware of the readings needed for the class..and so i went to class without reading what i was supposed to..bad choice..because everyone in the class seems to know about the reading and have a copy..and what's worse..the tutorial was conducted in a way that is discussion based..and the tutor actually ask for people's opinions by pointing to them..he asked for my opinion but i had none because i have no background knowledge at all..so i was feeling so embarrassed and ashamed..quite a torturous one hour i must say..in the end i didn't even mark my attendance for the tutorial because i was too ashamed to..talking about guilt..

it's interesting..how people all seem to notice when people change..
it's not the first time i hear this sentence "woah you actually come for lecture! how long have i not seen you at lecture liao?"
today i heard something new from my sister.."just now you were studying ah?"..coz she was too shocked to see me reading and writing on the computer table..she said it was such a long time since she last saw me doing something "that needs to use brain"..

saw something interesting today..an indian auntie was talking to a chinese uncle..and their communication medium is malay..interesting huh?

i really miss the old angel..the angel that was here between jc1 to start of university..now this angel is the angel before jc..and an angel that i don't exactly like..

i have never done this to anyone before..to completely ignore their presence and their emails/ sms and block them from my msn..you are the only one and hopefully the last..
until now i still do not know why i did that..or rather..what i am doing that..guess i had my reasons? i really do not know..
now that i have been ignoring you for so long..it makes me feel pain no more..
goodbye my friend..
oh by the way..i know you wouldn't be reading this post..but by any chance if you do..please remove my name from your nick..thank you..

i feel like i am wasting my time..
all too often..i hear people tell me they are very very busy..and i just cannot help but ask why are they so busy..because i am just so super free! i don't understand what takes up so much of people's time..really..

was watching another japanese drama called dragon zakura..it was about this lawyer who somehow became a teacher at a very very lousy high school (average marks of the students was 36) was so supposed to send 5 of the students to todai (tokyo university)..the show just keep on showing how hard it is to study..and i cannot help but wonder non stop..is it really so hard to study and pass exams?
i know there are really a lot of people out there who have problems studying..and sometimes i just cannot help but wonder..what makes the people so "stupid"? (sorry for the choice of word but i really couldn't think of a more appropriate word!) well..sometimes..it's just super simple ideas and people do not understand..and i can never understand why..
well..

was thinking about proposal daisakusen..cannot stop wondering about why the lead actor and actress cannot stop running..i mean..they can well take a cab to where they wanna go right? wouldn't it be more efficient anyway???
by the way..since ken in the show kept time slipping back to the past..he should have either gained 11 days in his life or he just kept on running and running for the entire day right?

just had an interview today..career guide..i cannot understand why some people just cannot smile and be friendly..interviewing a person is not equals to interogating the person you know???
it's true that employers have the right to be arrogant..but then again..this is not exactly a job interview you know? i am being interviewed so as to assess my abilities and suitability to help you..and not work as a servant or anything of that sort you know? it's called volunteering to help..not volunteering to be a slave..so no need to show me a badly black face..
oh well..my strategy to interview is sometimes to treat the interviewer as my friends and just talk to them..obviously..some people are just not friends material..

just got my appeal approved yesterday..got an extra module not..which makes me a normal student with 5 modules..though it's certainly something to be happy about..something's wrong..because it makes me need to change 2 other tutorials for it..which means i did a manual tutorial registration for 3 modules..if they couldn't give me my desired tutorial sessions..i really have no idea what i can do..
oh..another irritating thing is..i think i would need to come to school every single day among which..for tue and fri..what makes me need to come to school is just one pathetic tutorial class..which last either 1 or 2 hours..which means..coming to school for 1 or 2 hours only..while needing to take 1 hour to and fro which clocks 2 hours of travelling time..this is irritating!

now my feet are hurting like hell!!! because of a pair of idiotic heels..oh my god..it looks like my feet has completely rotten..because a huge..and i mean huge/gigantic/humonguos/big/etc piece of skin was worn off..yucks!

i am totally at loss about what to read for my language and cognition module..because the lecturer seem not to be able to write clearly what we are supposed to read..the whole intro seems blur and confusing..
oh well..some lecturers just cannot seem to talk in an understandable manner..either they talk like a bullet train and skipped points while assuming we know a lot of things..or they just talk in a confusing manner that only people from mars are able to understand..
some lecturers just cannot cut their speech short and sweet..

up till now..which is just the ending of the 2nd week of school..and i am already complaining so much..oh my..this sounds bad..
well..it's only the 2nd week of school and i have already ponned more than 4 lectures..this is real bad..sigh..
bad habbits die hard huh???

sometimes i just wanna hide in a place where nobody can find me..or maybe somewhere where there is no such thing as tiredness..or maybe some place like the garden of eden..
this sounds like s stupid dream huh?

talking about dream..i had a very scary dream the other day which i guess i didn't type on my blog..well..it was just a horror dream..just for entertaining purpose..if anyone reads my blog that is..i shall type it here..even though i've already told the story 3 times to different people..
in my dream..i was at a very ulu place with a group of my friends..we wanted to go home..so we decided to take a bus..by the time we reached the bus stop..a van stopped in front of us and asked whether we would like a lift..the driver said he could take us anywhere..so our first instinct was to go to clementi as it would be nearer for everyone to get home there..the van driver was a very very reckless driver..he actually drives pass big big drains..it was scary though we didn't drop inside..somehow there was a police car chasing this van driver..guess it should be because of his reckless driving..anyway..the police never caught up with us though it really gave us a scare..first time being chased by a police car you know? (even though it was just a dream haha).. and we landed in clementi..at the shop where the van driver works at..as a pancake seller..suddenly i heard a woman whispering to me..this van driver is a very bad and evil man..and the first instict that i had was to defend him because he had been very nice so far..and suddenly i was teleported back to the past..i was in this very very dark and shabby hut..in front of me was rows of torn pictures that were pieced together..the pictures were all of this very very scary woman face and a man over her..
suddenly..a woman told me the woman in the photo was raped and killed by the man in the photo..the woman took photo of the whole process and to prevent the man from finding the pictures..she tore and swollowed all the pieces..the autopsy was carried out after the corpse of this woman was discovered..and the person in charge of the autopsy was another woman..she discovered the secret in the dead woman's body and she was determined to piece the pictures together so she could report this man..the whole setting was in a very very backward village and law in the village was not very well..fair..so she decided to piece the pictures together in this dark and shabby hut..somehow..the woman did not get to report the man..and in front of me now was the row of pieced together photos..it was very very scary because it was filled with the dead woman's very very scary face..that is..if you look at the photos from near..if i stand far far away from the photos and look..a message was on the photos.."this man killed me, i want revenge!"..can you imagine how scary that is??? in my dream????
so i decided to report this man in the future..i took the camera near the photos and started taking photos of the pieced photos..it was a polaroid camera..so the pictures come out instantly after i have taken them..but after a few photos..the camera ran out of photo printing papers..i was suddenly lost..somehow..i found a digital camera nearby..but this digital camera was a very wierd one..somehow..whenever i try to take a photo with the digital camera..my own image is projected on the photo..this is so super scary..because i absolutely do not want to be in the photo!!! and just when i panicked..i was teleported back to the future..and i was woken up by my alarm..
wasn't it a very very very scay dream??? i mean..imagine yourself going through a dream like that..scary isn't it? i woke up feeling quite scared..because all that filled my mind was the row of disturbing photos and the scary woman face..it was really super scary!
well..now come to think about it..i really wonder how this scary dream came about..why is my imagination so super wild???
well..i think when we are dreaming..it means that our brains are working OT right? i wonder why my brain just refuses to work in the morning but works perfectly well at night???

well..i had a dream about having a snake in my house the night before..i spent my whole night feeling so scared of the snake..but in the end gotta catch it on my own with my two bare hands..caught it and chopped the snake into pieces and cooked it..
sometimes i just make the wierdest dreams and sometimes..the most violent dreams..and i wonder why..
well..nevertheless..dreams are considerably the nicest part of the days..i absolutely love dreaming..if one would ask me whether i would prefer having a good night's sleep with no dreams or having dreams but not fully rested..i would rather choose to have dreams even though that would mean i am not fully rested..
i am so tempted to fill in forms.. my hobby: sleeping and dreaming..

well..enough of complaining and nevertherless..enough of dreaming..the post shall end here..
good night world! =)

Just watched a movie online..called All About Love (zhai shuo yi ci wo ai ni) starring andy Lau, Charlene Choi and Charlie Yong..a very touching movie..and i couldn't stop crying throughout the movie.....

woah..i just fought with my sister yesterday..i mean really really fight..punches and slaps and kicks..
anyway..now my thumbs are so super painful..i think i sprained them..i think my right thumb is slightly swollen..
it's after you lose something that you realize the importance of it..
now my thumb is so super painful..it can't be used at all..can even be used to do simple things like combing hair or tying hair or brushing teeth..oh my god..i never knew my thumb is really that important!!!

it's been quite a long time since i last blogged..

had been watching a japanese drama called proposal daisakusen for the past few days..it's a nice drama..about this guy called ken..he was very unskilled in love and was too shy to tell the girl he loves what he really feels..and what's worse? the girl was already getting married to a guy called tada san..luckily for him..he was given a second chance by a fairy in the church..to go back to the time when the pictures on the slide show was taken..to change all the girl's sad faces into happy ones and for him to redo things that he regret..most importantly..for him to be able to tell the girl that he loves her..

the show was quite nice actually..even though there are no sub for the 5th and 6th episodes..and i skipped the two episodes..the show generally did flow..and it was nice..though it can be quite frustrating sometimes..waiting for the guy to confess his loves but fail every single time..haha..

somehow..the idea of the show got me thinking..if i could travel back in time..when would i choose..of course..talking about romance as it was in the show..
think i would most probably choose to go back to 2 years 5 months and 14 days ago..if i could relive the moment..i would definitely make sure the night didn't turn out as it had been..and so both our lives may be so significantly different by now..maybe the me now would not have been so guilt driven..maybe the you now would be as successful as you wanted yourself to be..maybe..
really..it got me a bit sad while watching the show..thinking about this..maybe it would all be different..

i used to think..and still think so..that regret is the worst feeling in the world..well..because there's nothing we can do about that anymore..

well..if i could choose a superpower for the day..i'd rather be able to completely understand other people's thoughts..and know exactly what's in their mind..i mean EXACTLY..so no more "don't know" anymore!

I only all these are possible!

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Name: Angel
Passion: Dreaming
Characteristic: Treasure love
Brithday: 9 July 1987

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