Monday, June 09, 2008
i moved!
finally got a livejournal. (:
2:03 PM; You're the only One i need.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
RAR. i hate this holidays. i cant wait to get out of nj.
1:05 AM; You're the only One i need.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
i initially meant to forget that i ever went for the interview but i decided to have a proper closure to my unrealistic dreams and silly aspirations.
i reached MAS really early today, but was only let in 145pm. i rmb stepping into the building, thinking : hey this is where i dream to work at. and stepping out, knowing that i'll never wanna go back in, ever again.
i guess it was that i'm totally not meant to work in such a field. no i'm not saying that i'm giving up on economics, but perhaps, i've been much too full of myself. i've always pride myself for being better at economics as a subject than most others but today i realised, i should be ashamed of myself for even thinking that i'm worthy of anything good. i know peanuts compared to so many more others of my age. in front of my interviewers today, i felt so small, insignificant, and so unworthy.
my dreams of furthering my studies at LSE, getting a MAS scholarship, and having a career at MAS will cease to exist as of now. hahaha. so official.
no i dont regret going for the interview today, because there's always a first time and i'm glad that my first failed interview isn't when i'm interviewing for a job. i thank God for this experience, and i'm grateful to Him for showing me that i'm pursueing something that isn't meant to be mine. i shouldn't try to be someone i'm not.
is this a sign? haha i dunno. maybe i should be a teacher, somehow it seems like a more ybee job.
dear God,
i pray that for everything that i do Lord, You will guide me and show me the way. I pray, too, for the people around me who are seeking for their future, that You will shine the light upon them and bring them to places where they are meant to be.
Amen.
8:14 PM; You're the only One i need.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
i wanna go shopping quite badly but
1) i cant find a shopping companion
2) i dont have the resources to shop
3) its depressing that i look ugly in everything.
ok. number 1 and 2 can be solved easily. but! number 3 is unsolvable. but i'm gonna make that HISTORYYYY. WAHAHAHA. and it starts from this moment.
rarrrr. i need to start planning my study timetable. :(
7:24 PM; You're the only One i need.
u noe its quite funny how this place is really my so called "diary" but i'm often judged based on what i write here.
i just had so much i wanted to write somewhere so i came here but i realised, i cant write them here coz its too public. thats so silly, right? then there is little meaning for the existence for this blog. oh well. just to note down how my day has been.
i think one of the things that i really love about the club is the air pistol girls team. and if i ever do come back to visit in nj, its because of the apg team.
12:20 AM; You're the only One i need.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
YAYYYY!
COMMON TESTS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER! :) alright man, though i've started "playing" since... chem ended. HAH. ok anyway there is a chance i might pass H3 afterall, so i'm glad. seriously, i'm really lucky the questions were easy coz i really didn't study at all. i merely read thru all the seminar papers super briefly. i think today's paper has got to be one that i'm least prepared. its quite cool. i reached the venue really early so i started chatting with some H3 friends whom i hardly speak to at all. they're so nice, trying to help me stuff some crucial information into my head before the exam. :D and its so funny, coz we were just complaining about the fact that we have no notes or watsoever. and no formal lectures/teaching. ALSO, our h3 is the LONGEST and most difficult to score coz the pple taking H3 MOE are the raffles, HC pple. RAR. FURTHER, our paper is on the VERY LAST day of 'A' levels. hahahah. ok.
complain complain complain.
GUESS WAT. tmr's ELECTIONS. ALRIGHT BABEH.
i only have a few more things to do.
1) training camp
2) mr lee farewell
3) hand over.
then YAYYY.
i vehh tired. (:
10:30 PM; You're the only One i need.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
coz he's sick of seeing the post on my new gun, i've decided to blog! haha
no my exams haven't ended. i still have a h3 paper which i havent started studying for. HAH. ok die.
anyway, im so in the shopping mood coz its GSS! gosh everything's on sale, seriously. everybody should just shop like mad during june and not shop at all for the rest of the year. i mean, why shop at other times when u can shop at 50% off during june?!?!?! hahahaha.
so much happening in june,
exco hand over,
mr lee farewell,
training camp,
misc tuition sessions,
4 times training a week,
marathon,
etc etc etc.
ok take my mind off that first. H3. DIE LE LA. :(
no wish list. :( i still owe you $$$$
9:25 PM; You're the only One i need.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
I GOT NEW GUN!
LP2. WHOS COOL? ME RITE. (:
gen, weihong and i are the coolest people!
sick again, it must be the early mornings and huge amt of stress. RARRRR.
yes i wont allow myself to crash this saturday!!!!!
10:19 PM; You're the only One i need.
