treadmill...

i'm runnin...

...& still runnin...

...& runnin somemore...

list of events that kept me [& still is keepin me] on my toes...


shoppin for that last few items in KL.. - 221108


Servcorp Christmas Party 2008 - 041208


the day i "sneaked" out to buy Love's birthday gift..


Andai's birthday...


photoshoot @ mt. faber..


Love's birthday...

...& the list goes on & on & on...

ANYWAYS...

CONGRATULATIONS TO MY DEAREST AUDREY ON HER UPCOMING WEDDING..!

**sigh

i am not allowed authorized to get angry...

Tick Tock

i haven't had the time for anythin.. had like hundred-ish unread emails & workload just piles up each & every day.. i don't even have time to do housekeepin to my work email.. [so much for 20 mails only in the inbox..] i think i have about close to 300 emails that i haven't sorted out yet..

even after the whole:
1) marketin thingy,
2) Mr. Galavazi's China trip,
3) Christophe's expenses, hotels & flights to Hong Kong, Beijing, Shanghai, Manila, Seoul & Bangkok for the month of October [& i have not included the amendments he made me go through!],
4) Gerard's appointments with the publishin companies,
5) Bart's hotel reservations & arrangements for the upcomin OSEA december convention in Suntec &
6) the remainin itsy-bitsy minor blunders that i made at work,

i still don't have time to even dye my hair black, let alone to cut my hair..!

i missed out my Hari Raya entries, my A7X entry & i can't remember what comes next after those..

i shall go rest my brain for now.. there's so many things in it that i even dream of work..! HELP ME..!

**gosh..

Madness..

yesterday reminded me why i don't go to the Geylang bazaar anymore for the past few years.. because of my need to get wood flowers & that i am choosy & won't allow my sister to get them, i had to try my hardest to be oblivious to the maddening crowd but apparently it just got the better of me...

there i was, a frown on my face, pushin through the crowd, thinkin & swearin mentally..what the hell was i thinkin..?? but since i was already there, what the heck.. let's just get this over & done with..

finally got my flowers & Burger Ramly.. when i got home i realized i stank of food & sweat but i guess i was just too tired for anythin.. passed out the moment i got out of the shower & changed into my PJs..

one more thing.. i thought i saw Si-Namanyer-Hairin aka DaDDy at Geylang but i don't know if it is really him because i am short-sighted & can be as blind as a bat sometimes..

guess what..! we ARE goin to Avenged Sevenfold concert..! YIPPIE..! so lookin forward to this..

**no more..

s|nGLeS_OuT Iftar 2008

yet another splendid out-ing... without me realising it, i have been late on a couple of occasions already eh..? sorry babes.. they were not intended & were unavoidable.. will remember to be punctual next time ok..?

iftar @ Desa Kartika & it was probably one of the scariest experiences i've encountered.. when a'Ne called the lady for some rice, she served me rice like as if i've not eaten for a month.. so there was this mountain of rice & i was virtually scratchin my head, wonderin how was i supposed to finish it..

**s|z: i think she need to go for course on how to POUR rice..

..so, i looked at the dishes on the table & most of what i saw had vegtables in them so i settled with the chicken & 2 pieces of cuttlefish with the plain rice BUT not without 1st attackin the Tahu Telor!!



this was not done by me.. it was already like that [done by a'Ne] when i arrived.. & there was also the loose tiles beside me.. each time one of the servers walk by me, i could hear the tiles cracklin.. the "Brain-Twins" were already full by the time i was halfway done with my food..



it was great.. it always feels great when i'm out with them..

so don't forget november ok..? there's the kain to find, the rental of baju & [hopefully..] the photoshoot.. now i'm feelin the excitement.. haha..!

mark it on your calender, ladies; 18 october shall be our next out-ing ok..? e-BoO's drivin..!

back.. to black..

remember the unsettlin feelin that i had about a month ago..? well it came back.. just as i thought i've put everythin aside & moved on, the feelin came back again.. i'm gettin bouts of restlessness & it's killin me.. it really is..

been thinkin of a million ways to get rid of this mad sentiment but nothin seems to work.. just got to live with it i guess..

on the bright side, we're gettin bits & pieces for the crib.. slow progress but gettin somewhere.. eventually.. anyone wants to volunteer to assist..? there's paintin, re-wirin, fixin.. you know, things of those sorts..

**i miss MY BESTIE.. very, very, very much...

mis-understood..?

finally today was the last trainin.. was a bit quiet though, probably because Cyn & Cher wasn't around..

i just hope what i was tryin to say durin the trainin didn't come across as rude or blunt because i really mean no disrespect.. what i really meant to say was that i love my original team members & i am sad that they had to be transferred else where BUT that doesn't mean that i dislike the current team i'm workin with.. i have a fabulous senior receptionist & [i quote from Sam] fantastic personal assistant on board Prudential so there shouldn't be any problem..

all i need is probably a little more time to adjust to this new team.. i mean i'm not a great office assistant myself, let alone being in this new personal assistant role & there is so much i have to learn from them.. my emotions were triggered the moment Anna mentioned about how Auds & Aida left for 6 Batt.. sorry, i couldn't help it..

**chin up

anyway, i met up with my Lady Bee & Herman last friday.. gosh i missed her SO MUCH..! really had lots of catchin up to do & apparently 4 hours was just not enough.. thank goodness she's only across the road from Prudential so now i have a potential lunch-mate..! can't believe how small this country is.. not only is Herman in a relationship with Bee, he's also Alexis' cousin..



can't wait to see her again.. Sayang, shall we do A7X concert with Bee & Herman..?

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
- Lucky, Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat

Ramadan

it has begun..

Selamat Berpuasa to all of you..

i'm losin weight & i'm gettin worried.. doesn't feel healthy, just doesn't feel right..

Kill Them With Kindness

Kill Them With Kindness

that's the advice my Snr Manager always gives to us when we're faced with difficult clients.. apparently, kindness is killin me..

sometimes it doesn't pay to be kind.. you give them love, they throw crap in your face.. what the hell am i toleratin that for..? at the end of the day, i'm cleanin up all those crap & for what..? nothin..! PRECISELY..! there's only so much i can take & i guess Lilian was right.. i have to control myself or it'll show.. that i did but i don't know for how long i'm able to hold on..

of late, i have death on my mind.. you know, how does it feel to die..? what happens after you die..? do they have books on how to die..? sometimes i wish i'm dead.. i find my presence to be of a nuisance & quite redundant i can say.. what am i here for..? it's not like my presence will or can make any difference to anyone, right..?

right..?

friends.. forever..?

friends.. forever..?

there is an unsettlin feelin that has been botherin me of late.. it just makes me feel so restless & unsure about things.. maybe it's just the guilts of the past that's out to haunt me, well at least i hope that's what they are..

i guess havin friends are not as simple as it seems.. it does take a lot of effort to build one & maintain it.. some just come & go into our lives but some remain throughout.. i have a feelin that one of it is breakin away from me.. gosh.. that's goin to be a tough one.. friends for the longest time & things change, just like that..

i'm yearnin to meet my ladies.. i wonder how they are right now.. i miss them so much..

**can't take it.. just wishin school's totally over, drivin's done, promotion's confirmed & big day's passed.. the anxiety of it all..! i think about all these everyday, 24/7 & it's gettin to me.. everythin's neither here nor there.. nothin is fixed.. bummer..

get-away

get-away

spent the weekend in Genting with my sis & the 2 'bodyguards'... got the bus on friday night & reached at about 5.30am.. groggy & sleepy, i stepped out of the bus only to find myself freezin to death..!



the theme park opens only at 8am so we spent the next 2½ hours checkin in our bags, walkin around to find somewhere warm to eat our already-cold "breakfast", wash up & queue for our entry wristbands for the theme park rides..! haha..!

we tried all the thriller rides 1st so as to avoid disappointment & thankfully we did because by noon people started streamin into the theme park & everyone was everywhere & i don't do well with crowds..

glad i had that short break.. really needed to clear my head & more importantly i had fun!

i am a disappointment

i am a disappointment

i let my best friend down.. i think she really hates me now.. i wish that i could make things right between us again..

she has been my bestest friend for the longest time, even longer than my fiance.. i never realized that i have been takin her for granted until the day she said, "Don't make me hate you." i knew she meant it but i was i coward.. i couldn't get myself to tell her the truth about that saturday.. she must be really disappointed & i know i don't deserve to be forgiven..

all the years we've been friends, i have always had the fullest respect for her.. she was more than a friend, she is like a sister to me; my family..

i haven't been able to do anythin right, thinkin of how much i must have hurt her.. things have never been the same eversince..

she's my maid-of-honour & i will not get that replaced by anyone else.. it's her or no one..

so if you have a best friend, never take him or her for granted because you'll never know when things will get out of hand & you may lose that friendship..

1 down, 2 more to go!

1 down, 2 more to go!

yeah..! completed my 1st module..! now on to the next round, the "road trip".. gotta work on my left & right bends & turnin... need help desperately...

received upsettin news of late.. my manager & my colleague is leavin the company... in fact, aNNiE's last day was today... didn't get the chance to say a proper goodbye to her... i'm goin to miss her so much...

so very much...

went to watch a movie few days back with SaV, AuD, CyN, cHeR, iNDa, FanGQi..



i SO LOVE the movie..! it's one of those movies that you'll always remember.. i might need to start looking for the series.. hahaha..! i don't believe it but i actually ACTUALLY cried like 4 or 5 times throughout the movie! it was THAT FANTASTIC..!

watchin the movie reminds me so much of my s|nGLeS_OuT ladies.. i don't know how to explain it but it really does.. gosh.. i really don't mind watchin it again though.. *hint hint* anyone up for SATC..?

breather

breather

so i'm now almost completin my module one BUT i've got to wait for at least another month before i can continue my lessons.. gosh.. i should have booked my lessons earlier.. i'm sproutin more grey hair because of this.. grrr.. well, at least i'm reachin somewhere rather than stay stagnant & procrastinate on continuin it.. 6 long years.. *sigh* what the heck was i thinkin..?

i've already gotten most of my stuffs so i'm left to call up a couple of places to confirm my bookings & such.. got to take note of a few dates like 9th July, 13th August & most importantly 10th January..

none compared...

none compared...

a first for me.. never really saw that comin.. unbelievable!

as promised, my 2nd prezzie from my Sayang



hahahaha..! he sent us away to Bintan..! just what i needed.. it was a pretty short trip & we didn't do much but we thoroughly enjoyed ourselves [& burnt a hole in our travellin pocket.. tsk.. tsk..]

you should have been there to witness Di's confusion with the rupiah currency.. 10 000Rp or 100 000Rp..? guess the number of zeros on the bill.. haha..! it's just so hilarious.. sorry Di.. i can't help it.. there's also the one where we saw a huge statue of a RHINOCEROS while in the bus to the resort.. she called it HIPPOPOTAMUS hehehe.. how about the petai crackers that we ate..? we didn't know it was petai until the front desk guy told us.. *YUCK..!* hahaha..! all in all, it has been a fabulous trip.. thank you besties..!

pictures comin up soon..!

once upon a time..

once upon a time..

i know this must be the longest time that i went M.I.A... right..? it's been SUPER exhaustin... a very tirin period for me... locatin venue, callin up here & there... it's never endin.. well, let's not go there...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME..!

hahaha... so thick skinned eh..? anyway, i had the best birthday ever..! 2 bashes at work, 2 prezzies from my Sayang.. what more can i ask for?

Up the Singapore Flyer for me BIRTHDAY..!


another prezzie's goin to be on the 3rd of May.. it's goin to be so fun..! haven't got the time to put up the prezzie pictures yet.. soon ok..?

dillusional impressions..

dillusional impressions..

Happy Chinese New Year to all my Chinese friends out there.. hope you had a great long holiday/weekend.. *smiles*

i am very disturbed with everythin that is going on around me.. infidelity? unconventional relationships?

who am i to question right? i'm just voicin out my concerns..

anyway, 7th was Aidil's weddin.. nothin much to comment on about it.. took a few pointers from the whole event though.. i roughly know what to work on & what to deal with when the time comes.. up to date, most of the stuffs have been semi-confirmed.. we just need to get the most important part of the whole "project" together or else nothin's goin to work..

went back to JB on friday & came back on saturday.. went with aZMaN & his 2 sisters.. i zonked out the moment we reached.. can't help it..! i woke up at 7am, met up with aZMaN, travelled down to Woodlands to pick up the girls & headed down to JB & finally reached there close to noon! so how..?

**good luck to us again, my dear..

Fish & Co.

Fish & Co.

as the name says..

i'm sure everyone had a fun time that night..one thing's for sure, i came home stoned & very, very full.. haha..!

**love you all..

because I we got high..

because I we got high..

i know i can survive on the floor if AuDReY is around.. read the followin conversation trail at your own risk..

Me: Babe, Ah Tong's voicemail is in Chinese..!
AuDReY: Really? What does it say?
Me (laughin): ...

yup, tell me about it..

i got high on my glass of water with a zest of lemon.. it's perky i tell you..! works wonders on me...

another new year..

another new year..

a warm welcome to 2008 & Happy New Year to all of you..!

i had a quiet celebration.. just the 2 of us & our coffee, away from everyone.. our very 1st New Year together after so many years.. what nicer way to usher in the new year if not in the arms of that someone you love?

this is goin to be the start of new challenges & opportunities for us.. nobody said that it's goin to be easy but we'll get it together.. i'm very sure of that.. one way or another..

**i'll be around..