breather

breather



jambu-jambu naik lori,
matair pulak dengan matrep.
boring-boring gigit jari,
kalau tak gigit, makan grape!


*thanks sis for the 1st two-liners.. this is the end product when 2 sisters get bored from a dreaded long cab ride..

bimbotic-ness

bimbotic-ness

you know, i just don't literally get it sometimes.. maybe this is what they call life; full of ups & downs, clear skies & obstacles, expect the unexpected etc.. personally, when times are cool, they are really cool but when things heat up, they just tend to blown out of proportion which leaves a big, gooey, ugly mess in my already-muddled-&-very-messed-up head..

you guys out there.. YES YOU! what i don't get is, why are you guys so freakin fickle?? you say we girls can't make up our minds but HEY listen up, i've got my fair share of knowledge from being around you creatures too long & i jolly well dare to say that you guys are no better than us.. in fact a bunch of you clowns are much, much more pro at this fickle game.. & some of you.. why can't you just let go of the past?? what happened before is now called HISTORY..! don't be such idiots, alright? get over it, MOVE ON.. geez..

sorry for blastin.. just needed to clear my mind..

"it's funny only when it happens to someone else.."

"it's funny only when it happens to someone else.."

the familiar phrase.. the trademark that never failed to irritate me but at the same time makes me smile..

he resurfaced.. he BLOODY well resurfaced after all these months.. but all's good between us now.. i think.. i hope.. i've learnt to let go & tried to pick myself up when he disappeared [again].. the only place i could seek solace & words of advice was from HaiZiR.. thanks bro, for the sound advice.. appreciate that..

anyway, a year ago, on this very day, i remembered how my day was spent.. although it wasn't a day for celebration for us, i enjoyed myself very much & i'm sure he did too.. i recalled how it was such a coincidence that our off day happened to be on the 14th & that we had wanted to go do somethin "artsy" by ourselves.. in the end, we went to the Singapore Philatelic Museum & The Substation to watch short films together..

whatever..

justification..?

justification..?

sometimes it's hard to please everyone especially when EVERYONE is under pressure & they expect SOMETHIN from you all at the same time..

as much as i don't want to appear ungrateful, i might already have.. not that i want to but as i have mentioned above, it's so hard to please everyone.. i don't even know if i have made the right decisions so far.. knowin myself, i'm bound to regret a lot of things..

i don't know how to apologise to a very good friend who, i know, i've hurt so much..
i don't know if i've met the right person or the path that i choose is the one that i REALLY want to follow..
i don't know what's goin on actually..

1st issue - maybe i just didn't like the fact that everybody was assumin that we are a couple but that was like ages ago.. maybe i'm just haunted by it.. up till now, i can't stand it when anyone makes a joke out of this matter.. it just makes me so mad..! somehow, i'm so scarred by it but i don't understand why.. he's helped me so much, he was always there during the FALL period & he hasn't done anythin wrong but i JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I CAN'T LET THINGS BE AS THEY WERE..?

2nd issue - i'm gettin the cold feet suddenly.. i have no doubts about him because i know what he is really into & it's definitely not GIRLS.. just that sometimes i feel pressurized with the current situation to the extent that i can't even think.. i just wish that he can really, really understand..

gimme a break..

breakin my back..

breakin my back..

i don't wish to whine but it's the truth.. my back hurts..! all the shiftin, pushin & pullin of furnitures yesterday has made me broken..

HaNN got into an accident this mornin.. don't know what to do.. cross my fingers & pray hard that YvoNNe approves of my half-day leave today..