baby please..


it's not just saying 'I LOVE YOU'
it's not just asking 'HOW ARE YOU?'
how am i to know all this is true?
when all i'm feeling is sad & blue

i miss the times we used to share
there's never a minute that i can't spare
but i guess you're worn of seeing me
so i'll just leave things as it be

we used to walk together hand in hand
we used to talk like we're best friends
but now it seems we're worlds apart
let me tell you, it's breaking my heart..

why is it so hard for you?
to see what i am going through
nights & nights of restless sleep
are you really mine to keep?

where's the answer to my prayer?
just you... i want no other..

so confused


here i go again..! one moment i'm bloody pissed wit him & the next moment i'm not! how not to wen he suddenly becomes so sweet... :( i dunno how i'm supposed to be feelin & how to react.. wen i'm mad at him, he juz noes how to make me smile but wen i'm already happy, he makes me so angry..! i juz dunno wat he's up to..! God give me patience..!

mungkin bila nanti.. kitakan bertemu lagi..


HaPPy NatiOnaL DaY..!


last sunday i got 2 mit my aBg FiQue dat i've not met for quite some tym... missed him..! poor thing.. he had to run in & out fr his room, smile for pictures, pretend dat he's not tired wen he actually is.. wish i cud juz hug him & tell him dat everythin's alright & chill as how we always do wen i come over... this is the price of FAME.. not easy...

i've already put my words into action but sumhow i still haf the tendency of msgin FaiZaL abt the littlest things lyk askin him along to my Mak Long's b'day @ east coast juz now.. lyk "WhuT Da HeLL r U tHinkIn iDa??" but it's ok.. slowly i hope he'll c wat i'm gettin at..


mY beLoveD aBg FiQuE & mE

bad, bad habit..


it's really becomin a habit oh his.. i can't seem to bother anymore if i c him or not.. doesn't really make much difference.. things cud haf been as per normal if i wuz still at O'Briens.. damm.. dun take for granted dat i'm fine wit everythin juz becuz i dun say anythin.. it hurts a lot if the person u luv juz can't seem to understand u.. i can't kip tellin him dat i miss him, dat i wanna c him, dat i wanna spend quality tym wit him.. it'll juz suffocate him but at the same tym he shud use his thick bloody brains & think abt me as well..

werkin my ass off here, thinkin of him every single minute, findin ways to actually make tym for him but what does he do? nuthin..

if he wants to, i'll try make tym for him but if i'm not free then that's too bad..

i dun think i can take anymore of dis nonsense.. enuf is enuf..

crap..!

yiPpiE..!


i'm so happy..!

so very happy..!

got to mit my HuBBy yesterday & it made me the happiest gerl on the last day of July.. hehehe~ ~ HaPPy 7th mOnThsaRy To Mi & mY BaBy..! ~ call me fickle or watsoeva.. i'm goin thru dat tym of the month so dun blame me! werk today wuz smooth but no OT.. *iSk* me wanna OT! nid the dough.. lotssa things to settle.. it's ok.. stil haf 3 wks to aim for OT.. hehe~

went "shoppin" wit MuM, aYuL & my brother.. met my HuBBy @ tamp while my brother had his hair cut.. ended up, he tagged along while we shopped for PrinCeSS Q's b'day present.. after which, he sent them hm & we headed to East Coast to mit up wit his ex-colleague & fren LukMaN.. chilled a while & headed hm at ard 9+.. so nice to see my family members get along wit the man dat i love.. oh yeah.. must remember to get the gold bracelet for dat small PrinCeSS.. love her so much..!

at werk today, i had an unexpected "visit" fr my 1st boyfren.. hahahahaha! had the shock of my life wen i saw him come thru the office door..! fortunately for me, he didn't notice me there.. he wuz there sendin a printer or copier or somethin lyk dat.. stil luks lyk the same Noriwan Bin Salleh to me.. same hairstyle, same dressin, same sweet smile.. some ppl juz stay the same.. he happens to be ShaSha's ex-skulmate back in secondary sch.. such coincidence..

well, gotta go luk for a nice outfit for werk tmr.. catch y'all soon.. *WiNkZ*