Day 1, Step 1

     All in all, it has been a little over 2 years since I last wrote anything about myself at all because there has been no need for me to actually do so. However, in two years things have changed, I have had numerous setbacks and growths to achieve my goals. I am currently experiencing a potentially devastating setback and as such, I have found a need to use this blog yet again.

Day 1, Step 1 
~Counting 10 blessings in my life 
1. I am truly grateful for the opportunity to be able to study abroad in KL
because thanks to this opportunity I come to know some truly great friends, and rediscover equally great friends from the past, I grew and become more learned in life and I love the liveliness that is Kuala Lumpur.

2. I am so happy and grateful that games exist
because if I had not know or like games at all, I would have never know and become close to my close friends, nor would I have found a channel to direct my destructive impulses

3. I am truly blessed to be able to choose and plan my own course of education
because over the course of choosing and planning I discover knowledge, training and opportunities I can come to love, understand and apply in my daily life, for myself or for others whom I came to love and cherish.

4. I am truly blessed for having a resilient and adaptable body
because over the course of 5 years living alone, never once have I fallen into any major, devastating sickness despite the overly abundant snacking on unhealthy food and the lack of exercise.

5. I am so happy and grateful for the gadgets, computers I own
because if I don't have them, I would not have any idea where to spend my time when I'm bored, all the convenience they offered as well as the opportunity to gain more data and knowledge I'm interested in.

6. I am truly grateful that I actually have a job now
because ... I HAVE A JOB! even if the job is not what I wanted, I'm still grateful for it that I am not loitering around doing nothing, the responsibility of having a job is what have been keeping me sane for the past 8 months.

7. With all my heart, thank you for awkward, odd, incomprehensible twist of fate with Miang
because in my 25 years of life, never have I known someone for such a short 2 years, yet it feels as if we have known, understand and support each other as if we've known each other all our life. A friend, a sister, a critic, a support, a co-conspirator all in one package.

8. I am truly blessed for being able to analyze, understand and being so damn good at playing games
because if there's anything I am proud of, is my ability to make in-game currency lots and lots of it on the tips  of my fingers.

9. I am thankful that I am attached and feel attached to a stray cat whom our family feed, bath and care for 
because whenever I feel that I am lonely, or brooding or at the bottom of my confidence, he has always without fail cheer me up or simply come about and sleep nearby or on me as if saying "I'm here with you"

10. I am truly happy and grateful for the short 3 hours I spent alone without anybody today within 50m
because I needed and wanted to reassert, analyze, correct, and reflect upon myself without the thought that the next 15 minutes I am going to get pestered.

Arigatou, Arigatou, Arigatou, Arigatou, Arigatou, Arigatou, Arigatou, Arigatou, Arigatou, Arigatou

Sincerely,
Nicky