A childhood flashback

Fortunately, after few days of dreamless and nightmares, I came upon this dream which sent me back to the time when i was still in my first year of kindergarten. When i was no more than five years old... Do you remember the bubbly feeling and the secure feeling of when you went to your class and mingle around with your little classmates? You might, and you might not. But, within this vivid dream, i obviously do not feel all those feelings which a five years old child in a kindergarten would felt. Anyway, let's begin ~ ~

The dream started when i felt things inside my head swirling heavily... I'm seeing things, images, sceneries, memories and all sorts of things jumping here and there. At one moment, i'm seeing a sunset... The other moment, I'm looking at a river with waterfall on the far end of the river... As night goes on, so does my dream, more vivid and lively images sprung to life, one after another, replacing each other...

"They do have a familiar feel " i thought

The images went on and on until they suddenly stopped, and there i was... at one image from my early childhood memory. I felt the swirling and jumping slowed down and before me, I found myself excitedly exploring the playground i used to play around at.

I remember how i used to play on the sand in the middle of the grounds. How the see-saw and the spinning saucer was always occupied by other older and bigger kids. I'm always either with the pails trying to build a sand-castle like those cartoons i watched everyday, or hiding beneath the trees or inside the big pipes like those you can see in doraemon. As the dream goes on, i can hear a faint cute voice calling my name when i was still a todd...

"kiki! kiki!" as she'd usually called

I saw myself crawling out of the pipes and looked up at the little girl whom i supposed was my classmate in the kindergarten. The teachers have called the break it seems, as the playground is now empty and she came to bring me back to the class i "think". Realizing that this was a dream, i tried to exert my willpower onto the dream only to find that i can only follow what this dream has for me.




I woke up suddenly to find myself being told that i've been fidgeting on the bed quite alot. However, that last look i had on the little girl would possibly not one i can forget, at least for now. Her straight silky hair reaching her shoulder. her white and soft skin and not to forget, her sweet voice.

I wonder who that was... I've long lost contact with some of my old acquintances i was supposed to be classmates until junior high school... Which was dued to that accursed and torterous tuition that forcefully moved me to another class...


Well, that's it for today... I guess i'll get more of these flashbacks if i try not to brood so much about it tonight... and hopefully it's not some jumping here and there kinda dream... it felt tiring >.>

as the previous 2 dreams... i'd probably post it up after i can figure what it links to.... >.<

A strange place I

Few nights ago i mentioned having a dream. Well my apology that i unfortunately got absorbed into doing some chores and eventually forgot to update this "weird" dream I had.
oka!! without delay!!

I woke up in my dream in the midst of a barren land of which i have never seen before. The barren land streched from one horizon to the other end of the horizon, and i thought "Am i lost?". That was the last thing that pop into my head before in an instance, i saw something moving up there in the sky. Looking up, i saw nothing but the baby blue sky. Feeling myself leaning almost instinctively, i can hear the footsteps of two figures walking towards my direction. Bemused as if it was a familiar figure, i turned to look at them as they were talking in some foreign language. Realizing what i saw, i gasped so loud that the two female figures gave me a puzzled look.


The dream stopped here as i was awoken by something i have no idea of... but i for sure, know that i was sweating when i woke up... perhaps something's been triffling me at the corner of my mind.

Well, fortunately as i woke up i had a paper and pen right next to my bed, soooo i basically record them down... however, at the third dream i got awoken prematurely... causing me to forget recording them down at the spur of the moment. However, i am pretty sure that the dream would resurfaced when i brood enough on them before i sleep.

a stroll of boredom

Little had i known of the effect of my decission going back here for around 2 weeks would affect me psychologically this much... As boredom crept upon me, i attempted to brush them away by making myself busy and all. Yet, the unfathomable power of boredom overwhelm me. Home, literally does not feel like home anymore. I started feeling that my home, true home is back there in KL, where i am free to express myself as well as enjoying my freedom. Nevertheless, to keep the power of boredom at bay I have started to record my dreams in which somehow developed into an epiloque of a story. Without further ado, i'll start them then... but perhaps i'll do them after dinner as hunger, defies you of all ><...

When things goes out of merits

6.13pm when i finished typing this thing... ETA to exam 18 hours.

Merits, yes merits. Had quite a number of things passing through my cerebellum when i was studying "Planning Reports & Proposals". Well, as if my mind had another mind of its own things unfold magnificently!!! *poof*

and here goes, lists of things that i'd do that has lost its merits

1) dressing nicely to college. LOL... I recently found out that there is a rule saying no shorts, no khakis?!?!?! no SANDALS!?!?!?!? OI!!! apa ni?? tak boleh pakai sandals??? zzz but i still do it anyway...

2) Girls, yeah girls lost its merits too!! but that's temporary i suppose hahaha, after transferring over to bpsych which lacks eye candies, seems that the urge to do those stuffs have diminished due to lack of stimulation hahaha... okay, hopefully i don't turn into a hermit frog :P

3) WoWing. yes playing world of warcraft has lost its merits!!! GeeGee, investment gone... It's turning more and more mundane WoWing though it was my main activities in the holiday...

damn... enuf with 3, i can go on and make lists of things that has lost its merits ROFL!!

DOH! How i wished i am back to the time where it was my first 2 semesters in ADP... things are getting very very veeeerrryyy vvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy dull without you guys... Me miss you all!!! *feeling quite annoyed remembering a sentence "you're just in the gang" -.-

someone save me from this pit hole plzzz

Identifying icky in daily life

yes, icky... his name is icky. An embodiment of pissed off and grumpy mood of a soon to be 20 years old teenager. A display of reckless behavior, rash, mean, straightforward in telling if it doesn't satisfy him and hammering right at the nail that it made you feel low and squishy(the terminology has yet to be revealed).

Beware in the following behaviors of the subject in order to avoid ickyness:
- Throwing short glances
- Talking to you without looking at you, your face or your eyes
- A significant amount of silence is present
- A significant behavior of very not tardy is sighted
- Taking off glasses while talking to you
- Significantly lower voice while talking to you

Further identification of symptoms leading to the dangerous mood has yet to be done.

Bad? it's already in my gene

It seems that by playing WoW, i happened to become more straightforward and more expressive towards presenting my views. okay, im showing my skeletons i stored up in my closets 1 by 1 right now. It seems to be a better idea to keep less skellies underneath.

Truth is, I aM bAd... I aM vErY iLl-TeMpErEd... I explodes easily... I am ambitious... I Strive to meet my needs... and what my needs is? i can't tell... but i know what i have to do to get it...

take it like this
it's swim or drown...

i don't swim for it, hasta la vista uni

GGness

One is suffering... but one is still awake, and should prompt one's self towards daily activities... The suffering is happening inside out... Ulcer + Headache + Aching body....

pfffttt... *off to bed

New Term is starting!!

Huzzah!! term's starting tomorrow though it was only for electives >.> but i'm glad enough that i'm back to my never-ending-full-of-assignment life. the term started officially in a week's time though <.<, but hey!! at least i get to get back to life XD

hahaha this is what they also conclude

when you're a noob you have life
so you train to be a pro >> leading you to be lifeless
hence pro = no life
when u realize you have no life and you try to get back to life you degenerate into a noob
but hey!! it's not so bad!! at least you get to be a pro once XD

I'm happy to get back to life lol

Farewell

Words can't seem to be enough to express how i am feeling now. Weather doesn't seem to cheer me up but instead flows along with how i felt. Almost two full years will pass soon. Everyone will left in pretty much half a year's time. I have only things to regret, and sentences to say...



Will miss you both very much pretty soon.



Hopes both of you, Melvin and Michele will enjoy your new life in SA,
May you both always be blessed and lady luck will resides in both of you,
Farewell! I hope that this gloomy holiday, and one year will pass away like a breeze.

Holidays -.-... aren't always good -___-

Depressing holiday... That's two words to describe the holiday im having atm... I stopped playing dota... I stopped playing WoW... I stopped playing games because im so bored of them... and now i hate doing what i liked... -___-... what's wrong with this long holiday -.-

Depressing holiday includes things not going smoothly, insomnia, and anxiety.

ok enuf randoming...

I'm practically worried about my friends' transfer which have not been confirmed until now... Visa problems.... konon bureacracy is meant to help... it's actually meant to give you more trouble... two have gone last month... now another three is goin off soon... gee, im goin to miss alot of people soon...

I missed my high school life at some point... but when i thought of how some people treated me... i'd prefer this depressing holiday... well... lady luck will not always be on your side...

*rant rant rant...

*fiuh... i better get ready for tonight...

*dum-dee-dum

Being what?

Ironic as it can be, i would agree with him that WoW... is so much of an illustration of the real world... Losers, lifeless assholes, unkempted kids and undergrowned adults without manners. . . Jeeez what's wrong with games nowadays... When it's DoTA at Blueserver, i could still understand that there'll be alot of kids with their so called typical "ah beng ah lian" attitudes... but hey!! World of Warcraft... It's 60 bucks a month!!! I'm not expecting kids.... oh well there are still some kids but undergrowed adults with kiddish attitudes? s-w-t -.-... i think i need to find a better game which has less of these species... As today i've reached my limits of going in groups with pugs (Public Groupmates a.k.a 'cincai' picked people).... LoL.... next time i'll be goin with my regulars :p

OOT:
Hence... i would now agree that "Being single is good but being together is maybe better"...cuz i dont think i could bear with my freedom restricted... nor do i have the commitement and ability for that... har har har... bottom-line... stay single LOL... and maybe regret about it later XD...

Belated Bday Shoutouts:
Happy Birthday Jeremy thang!!
Happy Birthday Kakak (Airene)
Happy Birthday Anas!!! havent seen u for a long long time =/ miss ya sis

hmm who else have i missed.... gaahh! can recall all of them.... sorry if i missed out any :p...

ok back to study

Mood: Relatively Annoyed
Last thing did: Holding notes
What i want now? the damn 2k points -.-.... im so close T.T

Gaaaahhh!! Insomnia i hate you!!!

Study... not... study... not... I'm holding this few pieces of notes to study and instead im procrastinating. Im really getting my sleeping time really screwed up.. bleh... I guess it's the euphoria during the week. Been feeling very very very very very excited about few new things... Teamworks International rejected my application... oh well too bad life moves on... i'll get the internship from uni ones instead then... and definitely a "part-time" job!!!

2 months holiday coming... jeez i cant wait to chill out...


N: eh? baru first post starts complaining alrd?? jeeeez you should've bee nicer icky... .
I: doh? like i care? lOl, nicky, u go back to study and i think about what to play around with next...

doink.... so much of an argument...

Was attempting to watch transformers twice since friday.... everyone woke up so late so we decided to go for it on saturday... as we reach there... swt. . . . the queues are soooooo freaking long... T_T... postpone to sunday then... swt... the mood to movies floats away alrd... hence... continue dozing~


summing up...
Mood: Excited, Happy, Good
Last thing i did? Made a swich for myself
what i want now? holiday LOL oh wait.... Kick mr.insomnia away first so i can sleep well