Still happy together.

Come June it will be 7 years together. I cannot explain the joy and happiness I feel everyday especially now that my parents know about his existence and have slowly come to accept our relationship. This has been a dream come true for me and I am so thankful and blessed to have so many friends and family who have supported us and given me the strength and encouragement through it all. 

I love my life. 

Come June, Ewan and I would be together for 4 years.
How time flies. :)

I love you still.
And I know things are going to work out for the both of us.

Thank you for loving me and being patient with me.

*Phooo fhhooo!
- blows dust and cobwebs away.

Bah, what's been going on in my life?
Feels the same. Life is not smooth-sailing and I'm still in love with someone.
We are still together despite objections from my parents. (well, mainly my dad)

I can't seem to understand his reasons for not allowing me to be with E. Is it because I'll be far away from my parents? Is it because they are afraid that I'll forget them? I'm not a psychic.

I don't get it when people assume that when an Asian female is with a Caucasian man, it's because of his big dick. Like SERIOUSLY? 0.o Especially when I hear it from Asian males. Insecure much? What has his dick got to do with it? I mean, mayybbeeeee, SOME Asian females are in it for the dicks. BUT WHY GENERALIZE THE WHOLE ASIAN FEMALE POPULATION?
ARE YOU SAYING THAT ALLLLLLL ASIAN MEN HAVE SMALL DICKS????

It's such a brainless comment to say.

It's not everyday that you find someone who appreciates you for who you are, who loves and cares for you as much as you do to them and who loves making you happy.
I've found that someone. :)

I realized that Ewan is the one I want to be with, the one I want to travel with and the one I can truly trust my heart with.

I love you with all my heart.

Thank you for constantly making me smile and encouraging me to eat my favorite foods even if it means that I grow fat because of it. It's the little things like taking the blanket and covering me with it when I fall asleep on the bean bag or asking me to wait for you while you run home to take the umbrella because you don't want me to get wet. :)

No one has ever given me such joy, no one has ever touched my heart like you do.
No one has ever given me what you have given me.

Ewan did the loudest and grossest burp ever.

Me: Aiyo.... so gross.

Ewan: Aiyo.. I know.

WHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

It's the year 2010 and it hasn't been a good start for me. I do not want to go into details about it but I'm sure for those who are close to me, you will know what I'm talking about.. or rather WHO I'm talking about. There were ups and downs in 2009, the fact that Ewan was in my life during that year was one of the most happiest moments of my life. I hope that Ewan and I will continue to be happy over the coming years. :) The downs in my life did not put me down simply because I had Ewan to cheer up me. But realizing that my Dad is a racist and my Mum is two-faced was the most upsetting thing that could ever happen to me. I make my own decisions and choices and I think that Ewan is a good person. He may not be the best, but seriously, NO ONE is. Not even my own DAD. No one is perfect. As long as I'm happy, as long as he doesn't abuse me and as long as he cares for me... I will count myself as being blessed. Do not tell me that I deserve better or that he's not for me. You are not living in my shoes and I will not do what you tell me to do in this certain circumstance because it concerns my happiness. You may say that I'm selfish and that I'm not thinking about your feelings but the reasons why you disapprove of him are absurd and unjustifiable. Things may not work out for Ewan and I in the long run but I am willing to give it a shot. If you see things that I cannot see now, then so be it. I will discover them myself sooner or later if that's the case. But I DO NOT WANT to let go of Ewan simply because of WHAT YOU SAY. I want to do it on my own accord with MY OWN reasons.

If you think that our family is teasing you or judging you simply because of us, then I have nothing to say. I have nothing to say not because I'm ashamed but because I will not allow other peoples' opinions to influence mine. I am much stronger than that. If you want to disassociate me from you because of this, then so be it. If you really think that the family's opinions matter more than standing up for your own daughter and seeing her happy.. then so be it.

I'm very very disappointed with my own family. My mum and my dad. And I'm sure they are disappointed in me as well. And trust me, I'm sad about that. But what can I do? Either way, I'll be unhappy. Unhappy alone or unhappy with someone?

I want to blog about this before I forget this and I never want to forget it because it's so sweet and special to me. :)

Today, I was being a psycho insecure girlfriend because E didn't reply my messages and my calls. I knew he was hanging out with his friend but I thought they would only be playing games at home. But he finally answered my call and told me he was at Eve and popped by for abit. I was alittle moody at that point of time because my head was going through all sorts of situations (sigh.. I shouldn't be like this) so I told him that I'll talk to him tomorrow. He called me back and insisted that I tell him what was wrong. Sigh... I should really trust E alot alot more instead of thinking otherwise because it's really quite insulting to him.

We continued talking and it was all back to normal again.
He said that if he had continued Uni, he wouldn't have joined the army.... he wouldn't have worked at Eve, and he wouldn't have known me. :) He said that I've made him a better and happier person.

Woah, I did not see that coming because I thought he was going to say something else. I couldn't believe he said that because even though he tells me he loves me, he's not the kind who would go into detail and be all mushy and romantic and churn out love poems and quotes shit. He's not the kind who would go... '' I love you forever and you make my life complete blah blah... ''

I'm so lucky to have you E. Really really really lucky and blessed.