lIfE's a LiE

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Embarking on another ride tomorrow. What to say, so uncertain. Thoughts of it since last year makes it seem oh so naustaugic. Don't know what to say. Hopes I remember the presentation ba. And I really wanna thank my team members for the help (: LOVE YOU GUYS TTM LOL. I know its impossible between us, but I loved the memories we share.

TO HER( the one who holds my heart, Since January 2010)
Remember the time? I do. And I've missed you everyday since. It ain't about going back together again. I for one will not want that. Cos I don't wanna hurt you anymore unintentionally. And I think Im contended with knowing its all my fault. But I just wanna say, I love you. No matter what. When. or Where.

~And as the sad music play,
I think of you , eh, eh, eh.~
And as the dawn breaks
I wonder if it was mixed
with the anguish of our past
and thye long-forgotten Lust.
Oh, I remember just how harsh
It was to thee.
But I'll live with the regret
and let you smile upon the mask I wear
Forget.
But all Love's Knights and
All of love's Angels
Could never
EVER
bring our hearts back.
To thye all who have read,
I may wish to spread
that
Even though thye sky seemed to cast around thee
and uncertainty
may soon as well be
I
FOR
I will never lose this LEADERSHIP in ME
regardless of the pain and doubt one may perceive
IT IS ALL A MASK
FOR THE TRUE ME!

- 7:07 AM -

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

最后的疼爱是手放开

I really feel apologetic for alot of stuffs. At least today, I finally realised, I havent been really serious in treating everything. But I know things will never return to the past. IF they could, I'll not do this anymore. Poignant. And seriously, dont treat me so well when I treat you so badly. It's not worth it. I dont feel pressurized or what. I just feel.. Regretful. Sorry. What you said make me learn alot more. Maybe, I just dont appreciate stuffs as much as I thought I do, and apparently, take everything for granted. You are what I should have learn to care more about. You are the one of the thousands of people who would walk against the current for me. But what. I didnt cherish it. I want to learn, but I will never learn the art of being nice. Was never nice, still was not nice, and, I guess, never would be nice. D': It's as if there's a wall. I dont expect you to treat me as wonderful as before anymore. You wont. And I really hope you dont. I dont worth that much of care.

P.S. 也许最后的疼爱真的是手放开。
Sorry.
And.
Thanks, I'll try hard.
Good luck.

IM SO SORRY!>< gah. stupid edwin.

- 5:41 AM -

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

'You were THIRD, so close to the position.'
'Looking at how you didn't take your rings even though I told you to get it, I think you may not be reliable as this year's chairperson.'

These sentences reverberate around one's cranium as I went home today. To think, a simple ring, and my whole LIFE collapsed. To think, how how fate itself thwarted me!
>.< It may be time to let life be life, to let it pass, but one clutches at reminisce as though it were the holy Grail, or even life itself.

Time flew, but events sprinted. Upon thinking back to that careless thought, that very action that was soon the turning point in my life, I could laugh with such mirth, the whole WORLD could tremble from it. Who are those that seek the aid of 'God'? Who are those... indescribable idiots that believe of an otherworldly source for guidance. To think, of How God, the man HIMSELF, made my life a LIVING HELL.

I realised that God, this made-belief thing, is USELESS and people of religions of every sort would be crazy to ever believe in them.

- 12:02 AM -

Friday, March 12, 2010

LOL this song is like so nice sia.(: and and and, JENGYU JIEJIE IS OFFICIALLY dao-ing me. BLEH! I am like oh-so-pissed...

Spotlight Lyrics

Are you a man who loves and cherishes and cares for me?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? yeah
Are you a guard in a prison, maximum security?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? yeah
Do we stay home all the time cuz you want me to yourself?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? yeah
Or am I locked away, out of fear that I’d find someone else
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? yeah
[Spotlight Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]

Chorus:
Well, I don’t like living under your spotlight
Just because you think I might find somebody worthy oh oh oh
Well, I don’t like living under your spotlight
Baby if you treat me right, you won’t have to worry

Is this a relationship, fulfilling your needs as well as mine
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? yeah
Or is this just my sentence, am I doing time?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? yeah
Oh If this is love, real, real love, then I’m staying no doubt
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? yeah
But if I’m just loves prisoner, then I’m busting out
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? yeah

(Chorus)

Oh, you oughta be ashamed of yourself
What the hell do you think you’re doing?
Loving me, loving me, so wrong
Baby, all I do is try
(Try)
To show you that you’re my (my) one and only guy (only guy)
No matter who may come along
Open your eyes cuz baby I don’t like

(Chorus x2)

- 8:10 PM -

Thursday, March 11, 2010

HEY PEEPS MY NEW BLOG IS SETTED UP!!! give me your emails if you wanna read (:

- 2:05 AM -

Thursday, March 4, 2010

I'll be having a new private blog for my work, like poems, drawings, so on so forth. tag or tell me if you wanna go in.

- 5:35 AM -

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

dunno what to say. No longer class chair. Boo hoo.

so... I don't care. From now on part of my life has flown away. People used to know me as "Edwin the chairperson", of '2 F chair'.Now, the world shall know me as 'Edwin Sin.' Thats all.

To people out there, EDWIN SIN is officially gonna go emo until idk when. I don't care. My life has no rules now. I can be as guai lan as I want, or use any other foul language. I Don't care.

My life Was ruined on this official day. Let the world fall to its knees.

Permanent lyrics
Songwriters: Cook, David; Kreviazuk, Chantal; Maida, Raine;

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely change
Even if I tell you I won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask, oh God is there some way for me to take his place?
And when they say it's all touch and go
I wish I could make it go away but still you say

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent, I'm permanent

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry

~Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry~

- 3:44 AM -