sometimes you just feel that...you are all alone in this world...
and that's exactly what I'm feeling now...
guess it's just me.
it's just so tiring to go through shit...waiting for people forever, forever dealing with different people, or the same people every single day.
Life would be so much better if one stops caring too fucking much.
and this is only 22 months, serving in the army.
I wonder how people do it. standing their ground in showing fucked up behaviour to you, when you didn't do jack shit. I checked myself countless times, seeing what I did wrong. I just don't really get it. What did I do so wrong, that I am invisible, or you just ignore me, or you indirectly make my life a lot harder in the coming days.
Life in this coy is so damn fucking good (yes, the adjectives are there for a reason), still want better? so what is better than heaven or paradise? being godlike? still want to siam here siam there...sheesh.....
Yeah, people always say tolerate tolerate tolerate, ignoring is the only way or just bochap, it builds character and patience. Life has ups and downs. YES, I get it. but really sometimes, a person can just only take so much. it's just that I don't say anything, or I just don't blow up, cause peace is obviously better than having explosions every day.
next monday is gonna be real busy. give people stuff, set time for them, they come late, busy, or just vanish into thin air like what happened some time back. CALL or INFORM next time maybe? inspections, reports to settle, got my injuries to take care of, setting time for people, waiting, medical appointment for my bruised ball from paintball, etc. (i seriously expect more to come)
nuff said.
I gotta go enjoy my dinner with my parents. Mum's B'Day, so let's keep the peace. I can always de-stress myself over the weekends.
