not bad...

this course is not bad....for once, I can book out from a camp that is near home! :)

gotta make full use of tmr then! Thank God there's an opportunity for me to walk home. haven't really explored that area of Yew Tee anyway, maybe make a short look-see perhaps.

just glad I won't be in camp for the week....sigh I keep thinking about all the shit and stress back there...

Lord, please guide me in this. Human relationships are one of the most challenging things to handle, and this is only the sneak preview of working life. :/
one thing at a time...nobody said that this was easy in the first place.

starting to miss a lot of my school days, especially JC...friends, schoolmates, when life wasn't so complicated back then...all the silly, stupid actions, decisions made, as well as the awkwardness, laughs, good times and moments of *oops*
heh, if only it were that simple...how will life be fun in that way?

like a quote from 9gag or Fb: Life is like a piano. The white keys represent good times, the black keys represent bad times. In order to play music (go through life), you need both to create something beautiful and meaningful.

Something new to try..

going for stay-out course for the next 5 days! 8-5pm

can say that it's shiok, I can finally get back my lost sleep, that's for sure! but...getting there is the only agonising part. Sembawang camp..ok, not as far, but travelling there for the next few days...oh well. something new to learn anyway...

getting out of camp for this one week is good enough..getting more things happening (calls may be expected) in there now...on occasions, it really sucks to be there. To each his own...i guess. < 8 months and counting...gotta remember that...keep my spirits up

the Hong Kong trip in mid-August....honestly, I'm not sure if the unit will really allow me to leave halfway...seems so abrupt with the change (course pushed forward by one week, great)
but I'm glad my PC's helping me, guess I will really owe him one if he comes through!


and at least my brother's back from Germany, the house is gonna be lively again! lucky guy..

still feel weird now for some reason.......it seems that the time away is getting longer once again...i feel so dead again. grr...when will this feeling ever go away???

ok, gotta go sleep for tmr already...new environment again, let's go! :)

< 8 months lo....

shouldn't have played bball with the guys last night...

now the whole nerve from the left butt to the knee hurts on occasions...standing or walking is now a real pain

now it feels really like a slipped disc and a muscle strain

no more, just gotta rest

can't do shit in camp...sometimes it's really demoralising to be unable to do any real physical activity...and looks like I can't go for the Survey course already with this bad back...no Thailand either :(

sucks to the max not being able to do something that's so grand and enriching, even though it's really troublesome to bring every single equipment over there...

maybe it's a signal, that God doesn't me to overdo myself and my body...I still got a long way to go...Uni, work, family, etc

it's just 2 years, or 22 months for me....not worth to be a cripple or handicap at 19+ years old and being stuck in a wheelchair forever after that. I still have people out there who need me. Family, friends, that special someone out there, future acquaintances....

gotta re-focus myself and live through the remaining 8 months or less...be happy be what I have. Every week, going through the mundane routine...goodness...

sleep alr....COS tmr!

I think I'm a socially awkward weirdo in camp...seriously. can't strike convo so easily, reading ppl's actions, expressions, comments too much, remain silent for most of the time. It's either just me and my mind, or the others, or both. (hmmm....mostly the former I bet)

Am I really the Underdog (as my father described)? seems quite somewhat legit....in terms of my family...I guess it's quite obvious. this is what I feel: :||||||||||

Life's like a routine

tired of staying at home, I'm practically in front of the computer screen for most of the time during the weekends!

argh, I need to get out more and enjoy this break before Uni! so many places to go!...but going alone seems stupid and lonely...and going out with the same party..well, let's just say I wanna go out with different ppl/  someone else this time.

but the question is: Who?

omg I feel lonely. starting to feel more and more empty here...I'm feeling like I'm going back to my past self, only not so emotionally unstable/stressed....just empty. something's missing in my life now