honestly, I really am lucky to score quite well for my H1s...thank god for that
and I want to thank god for being given a number of choices here and there for uni!
wish others were as lucky....
if not, devastation will seep into my mind....and things will go awry in my mind...
now everyone seems focused on scholarships, uni admissions and applications...I am too of course...but I'm still, yet again, finalising....NTU Biological Sciences, not too bad an option....
applied for that CAAS scholarship my bro advised, but seriously, I have minimal interest in aviation and air traffic control, unlike him...so I was a little cheesed off when he kept asking me to apply....but what the heck, just applied...u never know what might happen
also applied for that MOHH Health Science & Nursing scholarship too, guess the registration I made last year paid off!
as well as that PSC one..I know that PSC is way too hard to get in with my score, but that SAFOS is also what my bro recommended, and yes, that interest is there..I might want it...so just apply! but I need to write that essay asap....
NTU, NUS....yeah, gotta turn my attention to that...NUS can wait, for another 3 more working days......damn long, and they haven't updated some of their website info! it's still dated 2009 for some parts!
need to make my choices right, and 'try' my luck at those hard-to-get scholarships....
it's also a good thing that I pia-ed for that napfa test last year, if I didn't clinch that gold, I wouldn't be here writing this out, or practising my driving on weekdays, thinking abt my courses in uni, flipping thru brochure after brochure
seems that what u do at one moment may or may not affect something in your future. big or small, this still gets to me....probably playing Mass Effect I guess (if u can get it here ;) )
driving is starting to become a routine alr...every weekday and I also have to tahan that muscle joint whenever i drive....shit, hope this 'suan-ness' won't affect me during NS...cause even sitting for too long makes those muscles ache a lot....but recovers after walking for a short while....thankfully
reversing is woohoo tough for now....was damn blur when reversing to the designated parking lots created by the 3 poles the instructor put up....and damn it, it irks me when ppl laugh at u when u make a mistake..cause I banged down the poles once :P
and that ppl are those that are learning!! Don't ever laugh at ppl damn it! You definitely will not like it if ppl do that back to u (snickering or whatsoever, just don't let me see it rrr...) , that feeling is irksome ttm...so that's why don't laugh at ppl, especially those that are learning smth and make a mistake zzz...
but well, in life, tolerance is one key thing to build up, and I'm still in that phase...
hope AhhPer is doing fine, it's been a few days since he enlisted; same goes for Hong and HJ
I guess I'm lucky for now...
not gonna say anything....nothing to say.....too late to regret.....too long already.....believe that this is futile.....mind & heart intially at war.......heart starting to agree.....mind needs to remind itself....blinded...........know this.......look back.....think back.....see it.........think about it......
Our lives are controlled by us, controlling that steering wheel. We are given many things by him. He is there to support us, spiritually, giving us advice, comfort and wisdom. Things that we can settle and do, we do it. Things that are beyond our control, we pray and hope for the best. It's my life, I determine it, it is our choice to steer wherever we want to go, but do be sure that it is for a good cause, not the other way around. I believe that we are born into this world, for him to see how we live our life, how we control our life, interact with others, etc.
this may seem abrupt, but well, this is what I feel about him. This has also taught me on how to appreciate what we are now, even though this feeling may be concealed when we are busy settling problems, feeling uptight. Living life is a purpose...
ok, feeling tired now...been a while since I blogged.....gotta sleep for tmr! finish those essays, exercise, practise driving, swim....who says that you have to work to stay busy..fine, it doesn't earn you money, but come on! practically everyone, including my driving instructor, is asking me about my job! (I'm sure that word "slacker" or the words "so free" and "why never get a weekday job" would probably be in some of your minds right now, don't try to hide it, I can sense it) Call me lazy, but this is the period before I land my butt on that island with that ceremony which has that phrase "Working Life begins now" drilled into every wall. I'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts!
