life and the other half?

Before I start my words, HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL OF YOU!!

Yesterday is a fine valentine. Fine enough to piss me off! Some enjoying, some complaining. Some even asking the same question that I've heard for more than ten thousand times urgh!!! god dammit! Oh well, you know what? I'm tired of hearing something like:" I have to work on valentine!!" or maybe something like "I'm single how am i suppose to celebrate valentine? stupid valentine!". Hell yea I'm also single but why don't you guys get a life or get a party celebrating "single life rocks!" ? But I know, I know that it's just an excuse doesn't it? There's more than one billion human in this world almost 40 percent of them, are actually couples? I doubt. Even how many excuses that you said you want to stay single or don't want to start a relationship with who......aren't that obvious? That you actually jealous! That you haven't find a girlfriend! When you got a chance, you squeeze it! Like how a angry mama making lemonade for her naughty son! You won't let go! You lose your mind, you lose everything in your life that's important that you didn't even realize. Didn't you saw that picture above? nice right? that's why I'm posting here and you are able to see it, did you see there's a pair of wings beside the love? It tells you that one day the people you try to persuade will fly away like an angel but leaving you behind like nothing! ............................................................................................

Sorry for being so bad tempered at the previous paragraph. (smiling) Well well, it's been months ever since my last update here but I can't believe that I'm sitting right in front of the chair in my room, facing my laptop, start to type, type and type. Talking about useless craps and other nonsense. But bear with me, I just want to share with you, what I witnessed.

I'm typing I'm typing I'm typing

emotional break down can cause cases like exploding your baby lappy so stay away from your laptop when you emo....lolz..

Back to topic. Last time when I'm still doing my last project, the legendary FNBE portfolio, My friend called me. It's surprising that I heard him cry, you know when a person that... you know who never cried in front of you and always talk about porns (lols) suddenly cried, like had a tons of Wasabi's for is dinner. It's seriously eerie and horrifying. You know what? He told me:"ngo 被女fei....." I can't believe it!! Your GF dump you?!?! Aren't you told me how good your GF is? But the truth is, his girl friend really dump him. And find another guy immediately, posted on facebook BIG!!!! showing I'M IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH *********.......Well this when this girl starts a relationship with my friend, she stays very private, didn't post anything about my friend and act like usual. But this time with her new boyfriend she post everything up! Can't you imagine this kind of girl even exist? I mean I can't believe that I saw my friend been through this and being cheated. But the most funny part is, his GF's is so perfect, in the aspect of lying, she can lie to my friend without changing the impression that other people make towards her:" she's a good girl". And no one really knows that she's actually playing with him, fooling him?

So! I'm afraid. Is anyone out there beside me or close to me is this kind of person? You can lie until I never realize that you are such a coward. Putting a mask that perfectly placed on your wicked face. That no one really knows that what they seen is just an illusion, or a script. Or maybe it's an false idea towards that particular person that had incepted into your mind deeply, refused to change by other person. No doubt, it's perfect, your lie is a perfect that everybody will believe everything you said even though it's a lie. A perfect liar, salute you, shall I? Never!

You can play with minds,

but you're unable to crime.

Forfeiting the truth, and telling lie.

Steps away and leave people die.

But don't forget of what you done,

Madness shall come to claim your life.

There's always a way to pursuit you. Your crime shall not be done priceless. There's nothing perfect in this world unless your definition of perfect is imperfect. You can lie but evidence always exist. Remember that your so called "perfect" is different from us. Everything will be revealed but it just the matter of time. Wait and see how your guilt and crime drives you craze and force you to approach the end of your world.

Forgotten?

Things changed from time to time, what I used to have and what I'm having. Or even what I heard before and what I see now. Promises, thoughts, behavior towards a person or how people behave, all varies through the situation and environment that you are having.

I doubt, will a person that used to call you his or her friend is always your friend?

Will a person who said that she love you will love you for eternity?

Will a person who you used to trust never betray you in your life time?

I doubt.

I doubt, is loneliness faced by people with high position?

Like a warrior who could not share his feeling that he should not show any of his weakness to anybody?

Or anyone else that he don't trust anybody and spend his time for his own just because he's afraid of betrayal?

Or, maybe loneliness is a life that a person should have for having some consequences.

But loneliness is not his fault for some reason.

He wish to have many friends but he couldn't get along with them.

He wish to have people who cares him a lot but nobody does.

He wish to have people that remember him always but there's no such people.

He even wish anybody that he like or dislike just to realize that he is there, but it's looks like he is having an invisible cloak, covering him and make him binds to the surrounding.

Or maybe he used to have everything that I mention just now, but all gone for certain reason.

A reason he might know or not. But if there is, there's also have another reason that he do so.

A reason that he couldn't tell anyone. And leads him to the doom of loneliness, until the other ray of hope comes to claim him.

But when is it? Or the ray doesn't existed? I doubt.

Reason? what kind of reason that changed everything? Future? Or just things that happening now? I doubt.

Things that you think it's just happen for a while might stand a chance to happen forever?

Or even things that you wish to happen forever, but is just an illusion for a while?

Lies covered our vision, and all of us have an opportunity to believe it and change it to reality, or never believe it, giving in for changing anything.

Whenever what decision you make, is it wise or it looks wise? I doubt.

Preoccupied? Or forgotten?

All those things are tragedy that something that can't be lack without him, changed to be another property of others.

Something that they used to share, but now looks like a secret for him.

Someone that he think he won't be isolated but obviously, he's been isolated.

It used to be a big happy family but now lies form a mask and become a new face for each one of them.

He should have know earlier but he put his bet on his life. And of course, he dies in vain.

Sacrificial that made by him forgotten. Time, Effort, everything he spend, lost.

A successful coast for them but for him?

Did he get anything at last? I doubt.

Or maybe he does something, but it's useless for them.

He sacrifice something, but there's other person had done more.

He spend his time and effort but it doesn't help at all.

Or maybe he is nothing from the beginning? I doubt.

Loneliness is not his choice, but it's his only choice to take.

It looks like he remains unchanged but it's actually changed a lot.

Through out his life, he wondered that is it possible for him to fight alone?

Or can't even stand a chance to fight and died in vain in a cruel, brutal battle.

Flesh scattered everywhere and blood paints the ground to red.

This is how his life should end, live for a impossible mission and die for trying to accomplish it.

Fate of a forgotten warrior...

can i see how's my college liFE?

college......at first i thought it is another study medium like what i did in my secondary school-BookS.....early in the morning till late in night when the sun goes sleep like a piggy, packed schedule makes me half dead.

But..... i found out that i was wrong....it is enjoyable, fun, an yet i can learn a lot of things. BookS are just reference and the main idea are actually comes out from our mind, our creativity. This is how they thought us in this semester....

Before that.....i havnt introduce my crazy dudes....haha
I met this bunch of "Barbarian" in this school....haha.....it's just describing how crazy they are....no offence....X).....These "Barbarian"...they are kind, friendly, and super talkative. I can even spend my boring hours by just chatting with them...

After a few projects and assignments, I realize that they actually spend a lot of effort on doing it, giving ideas......i really enjoy doing works with them. All of them is not really normal...crazy? Insane? i hope there's another better word to describe them....=.=

Victor- big dude...super crazy guy who enjoy talking crap....
Vince- small dude...talking crap and checking flight ticket are his ultimate hobby...
Kim- she's sweet in appearance.... but...she's a MonSTER!! O.o
Liwei- sounds normal... but i still can see that she's still crazy...=.=
Xuan- cute? but crazily type of cute...not normal cute...=.=
Law- Gay dude...guy who likes to sing emo song so badly.....-_____-
Andrew- another gay who believes the great king of china still alive.......=.=

SO! we formed a group in our final project named "vitio-geotrolla"...-___-
...weird name huh? i was like "O.O?" when i heard this name.....they actually use the car name of our member to form this.
Vi- myvi
tio- Latio
geot- peugeot
rolla- corolla
-____- awesome? and i never thought of giving a name of a group by using this method.....they are really really awesomely.....awesome....

But the name itself is not important of course. I realize that we are playing most of the time more than doing works....O.O.....for example.....after tiring of doing works....we go out for a tea and lunch....but we can chat and eat for 3 hours.......-_____-.....
Anyway, i don't understand that out timing and efficiency is STILL BETTER than what i can imagine. Works done 95% same with proposal. Things done according to schedule. Well, it is really a Miracle! should i say they are all genius? X) but they are really awesomely great! i'm damn happy to work with them.

Overall, i enjoy this semester very much! with my crazy "barbarian"...XP

Chapter 2 of college life...

college? awesome?

well yeap!
COLLEGE? Is it awesome?
Depends on you dude.
Some might say it's really awesomely perfect!
But................. some might say:" college? bah! i tell you what...It SUCKS!" O.O

Anyway my college life is like.....normal? i suppose...for me, craziness is the key for being happy so being insane with my friends is very very VERY normal.... So how to start? O.O

Well lets start with how i break the ice of my college (chapter1).
I'm a loner at the very first day in PJ campus, no friends, no relatives, no siblings. But only ants and birds are my friends when i'm alone, sitting on the chair right opposite the Annexe, the multipurpose hall at PJ campus. I'm still a loner inside the hall, attending the boring orientation but.... when the orientation is about to end, the lecturer want us to split into groups with 3 (and i forgot the reason for doing that...-______-)....then...i was like..."WHAT THE FUCK!!?!??" and i was extremely tired at the moment...so...i look around...hmmm there's a girl and a boy in front of me. We stared each other and say:"do you guys have a group?" AHA! they become the very first friend in my campus. That's it! end of story..... well i still have to thanks them for bringing me along with me at the first day so.......THANKS zi xin & MJ~

the end of chapter 1.....-______-

I'm Super Duper Boring These Days...==

While I'm waiting for my stupid foundation and L license, i got nothing to do these days...play games, online, reading, drawing, watch movie with friend...but still all those can't preoccupy my empty schedule...==...my neighbor Karluis are having the same boring life as i do...we have been day dreaming from days to days...and some more i try to plan to back to my old school to have a lil visit but i don't know why i can't find a particular date to go back! ><...last few days Chyuan and Rowena back to school to apply their trial result and leaving school permission-form but why my mother so unfortunate for failing to fetch me school? well well....is it the way that God treat a person who miss his school so much? T.T

Haih~whatever...I'm a lil regret for not choosing January intake...but anyway i still got a lil boring thing to do these days... karl and me go to watch a movie last few days...he said he has given his first time(watching horror and 18 movie on cinema) to me........==.......he's quite scare after watching it... well well it's JU ON episode 3....really scary....==lll



















after watching that movie we both are a lil afraid of having eerie nightmares...so we decided to watch another movie that night before sleeping like piggy X)....
since he hasn't watched IP MAN before so we decide to watch it...it's a nice action movie which i'll never get bored even i watch it over and over again X)

Watching movie ain't preoccupied my life these days....i start to reading some storybooks and draw some painting these days....

the Titan's Curse...it's book 3 of Percy Jackson & the Olympian....heard that the book 1 is going to be launch as a movie in cinema...O.o?
The Complete Sherlock Holmes...quite old...but it still clear and the words haven't fade...X)

but the words are small enough until i hve to use a magnifying glass to help me...haha...thanks to karl for lending me this book but i'll try to buy a new one as you havnt finish it yet...==

And! i've painted some artworks which i want to paint for many months ago if SPM wasn't there...==
this one i had painted before SPM for trying new water colour usage...and the conclusion is the water colour is sucks! i 'll never buy NIKKI product anymore ><... The Terminator Salvation
Hey! my "shu fa" still okay ma...X) Ip Man

these is what i do during these boring days...==

I've been bbq-ing from 2009 till 2010

haha...it's a wonderful, unforgetable party...==

O.olll...ok let us start with the morning on 31st of december...after sending my freind back to his house(there's a dude stay in my house on 30/12...==) i rush to the LRT station...waiting the train and calling my friends..."du~du~"
"Hello, lengzai speaking..." ==...
LOL this is the first time that i know there's a people who answering phone like this...==

"where are you now?"
"VILLA THERE... michelle beside me..." ==...
my god...it's about 10.45 now...and i said...11AM... meet at KLCC 11AM...i thought i'm the one who's not on time but they.......still at villa!?

.................................................................ok....lets call the other guy.....
"hey! i'm driving now...heading mutiara....later call u....." ==.....
heading mutiara only aa? haha...==

...................another one.....
"hello ying hao aa...i'm at mutiara now....michelle and hunting is still eating..."
O.olll....OH MY GOSH!!! they both still eating?
"we'll be arrive in about half an hour time....."
==.....gosh! impossible la....this time sure traffic jam...and crowded everywhere....

..................okay....last one.......
"hello ying hao aa i'm now still at home.....later mother fetch me there...see u ya..."..........@@...why everybody still at house lol?

haih...lets start our journey to klcc...from sri petaling....to masjid jamek...then interchange station to putra LRT....
O.olll...OH MY GODDDDD!!!!!!! SOOOO CROWDED!!!!!...@@........i've been squeeze through the train in order to make my WAY TO KLCC....==

in the journey....."zzzzzzz"....what the...my phone?....
"hey! ian i already reach KLCC....at LV there...wat bout u?"
T.T i'm touched.....yan...u always the most punctual people.......but...i'm late don't i? LOL....
"haha...still on LRT...you go take a look at the cinema there...later i meet you there...."

haha...and finally i reach KLCC....meet up with yong yan and start discuss which movie we have to watch.....

yan:"I want watch AVATAR! XD"
me:"==....impossible...me, bobo, rowena watched it before...."
yan:"lol...bodyguard and assassin?"
me:"ok! XD"

but.......
me:"eh....they said dun wan o...."
yan:"ok lo...sherlock holmes....the best choice for now...=="

after booking ticket....we both are damn HUNGRY...T.T...lets find something eat....erm....madam kuan? NO BIRD LA! I'M FUCKING HUNGRY!!! ><...

while we're still eating...
"hey! where are you guys now? we reach KLCC now"
okay lets take a look at our watch....12noon...==lll...they are super duper late.....

OKAY...it's playing time!!!....we all meet up and go Starbucks there to have a cup of coffee....wow...something special showed up!....Yong Yan bring some unique jelly bean from Australia...called "BEAN BOOZLED"...which contain weird& wild flavours....

HAHA...we all have great time with Starbucks coffee and this unique jelly...XD... This jelly bean got 8 different colours and each colour consist of 2 different flavour...1 is normal flavour and another 1 is weird flavour....XD


Michelle and Rowena start this game first..........

Well lets take a closer look at Rowena...she seems normal....O.olll.....what bout the other girl?






















































YUCKS! sees that she get something wild and weird.........haha a cuteeeeeeeee reaction...XD











while Hunting and me starts with another flavour.....














O.olll...>.<...YUCKS! ROTTEN EGG!?....what the hell? can u imagine the smell of rotten egg are manufactured into the flavour of a jelly beans?....YUCKs!


haha we have a lot of happy hour with the jelly bean...although it's wild and weird...==


Cute jelly beans but they have weird flavour...==lll










ops...and of course we have our happy hour with starbucks coffee la....haha...nearly forget where we are at the moment..==

I really LOVEEE this picture XD...thanks to michelle..............and yan's camera...XD



photographer: michelle XD


Then! we go kinokuniya to take a look at those stationary and books while waiting pius there....then suddenly, a tall man pops up in front of us...O.oll who the hell is that?....ops...PIUS is here!!! XD haha....finally!.....then we go watch our movie...sherlock holmes...haha...it's interesting! i really want to buy the story book of it to read at the moment...XD...we all shopping here and there and then we all buy something eat and start our journey to my house...XD

We walk through putra lrt station, klcc.....we've been squeeze through the way to the train...it does feels good for being squeeze like sandwiches...==...we barely made our way to star lrt and take the train to sri petaling which is near my house...once we reach there...my mom had already waiting at the station there...THANKS MAMA!! T.T.....and....FINALLY! we reach home....XD

ops...lets start bbq-ing~ XD

haha...lazy to talk much here..but juz take a look at these pic la~



we're eating....on the grass...XD










take a look at our funny looks when we're eating...XD
and playing card game...==


































LOL...pius and yan, what are you both doing? is there any special thing on that spot of grass?

And yan....you're pole dancer? ==
























haha....we start playing something crazy...XD

THE CHUBBY BUNNY

Rowena brings a lots of marshmellow and we start play a crazy game....CHUBBY BUNNY....XD

rule: you have to put a marshmellow into your mouth and say "chubby bunny" after you put 1...the more marshmellow you can put into your mouth while pronouncing "chubby bunny" clearly...you are the CHAMP!!!! XD

Yan is the champ of that night...he can put more than 20 marsh mellows into his mouth and pronouncing "chubby bunny" clearly! O.olll

haha...after thet bbq...we play card games and chatting....and some of them start bathing...

Lastly....it's time for Michelle to say goodbye to us...T.T
As she need to go Penang the other day so she can't stay overnight...so we all send her back to villa there and back to our home....thanks Michelle...you always a cheerful girl and make people laugh..XD...and the way you laugh really cute and funny...XD





We all back to my house and bathing...cleaning...and many of us are tired....yan, pius and me go play PS2 while the others had already slept like piggy...XD...but we didn't play so much as we're tired as well....so all of us sleep at about 3 am...==

NEX MORNIN......

wow...everybody still sleep lik piggy...== there's some picture down here...==

































photographer: Rowena....XD

nice picture...i love tat green soft toy
beside all of us...XD















When we've waken up...XD








































Happy hours are always limited. We can play, be crazy insane at the moment, but farewell is always exist. We can't escape it but what we can do to these unforgetable memories is to remember them...and think about it in future...think about how we used to play and how we used to be. As time flies, everything changes, everybody start to search for their own destiny...some study senior 3 in chong hwa and some go to college...

In the busy days...we might think about our secondary school life and start smilling and wondering...but...teardrops appear at the same time...because...we miss each other...we miss those funny conversation to each other...we used to play together each other but it's not eternity...this make me even upset...cause i have the choice to choose...study senior 3 and can spend more time with friend...but, i chose my own destiny...to start my college life...

although we're unable to study together like what we used to be but we can still contact each other from msn, facebook and sms...XD...and thanks guys! i really appreciate you all and i love you all...let us start our brand new 2010 and have interesting life...XD

UMARANI incident...==

well well...that's the last day of our camp......then my friend and i going out to put his old clothes to wash and go find something eat.....HAHA! he got car and we can go anywhere freely...XD...so after we've put those old clothes, we go find something to eat! erm....
MY FRIEND: what you want to eat?
ME: whatever la....better find some place that's near to our school so that we can get back to our school in time....
(just pass by umarani, a restaurant.....)
ME: woot! UMARANI! XD
MY FRIEND: hey i havn't eat at there before! why don't we go there and have a try?
ME: sure! XD
(turning into that street and finding parking lots)
MY FRIEND: sooooo many cars...==
ME: ==.....O.O'....hey there's a space there! XD
MY FRIEND: XD WAKAKA...fast fast park and go eat! i'm god damn hungry XD

then...something tragic happen...

KRACK!

O.olll watta hell is that sound!?
i look at the side mirror...wow...the proton wira beside us had a scratch and indentation...ops...we've already done parking but.....
MY FRIEND: hey...==...i think we better don't eat at here la...coz when that fellor saw that scratch he'll sure argue with us....
ME: o..okie...==

then we hope to leave here as soon as possible BUT... BANG!!!
what's that noise!?
the side mirror of my friend car knock the side mirror of that car...our car got no problem but the side mirror of the car bend...==

immediately! we drive off that area and simply go other place to have our dinner...==... my friend is now psychological injured...and have a lil bit afraid of parking...==

dear friend! i hope that you can heal your psychological injuries and don't blame yourself...that parking lot are really narrow...it's hard to park...==