15/2Met up with ksh and nde for post V's celebration, kbox-ed, yes again.
Though it's not that fulfilling 5 hours, it's still great since I've managed to finish my own personal song list.
THANK YOU JOANNA NG DONG ER FOR YOU SUPER SWEET CD AND WATERMELON LOLLIPOP, ALSO THANK YOU KUA SIEW HWA FOR YOUR CHOCS. While I gave them both EXPENSIVE ISETAN JAPANESE MARKET SPICY NUTS for V's, none shown a tinge of appreciation. Lol just joking la. I know what to buy for you all one, just that always didn't have the chance to go there to buy! Owe you all first la.
See Jonana really spent a lot of efforts on the cd and it was really well done. A summary of our friendship of our 1st year. Sorry I didn't cry, I found it funny cos although it's a cd, Jonana wrote as though she's speaking. Hahahhaha.
Ok.
17/2Zoo(again) with ksh, jo, fion and michelle.
And kungfu dunk. Zzzzzzz. I think Jay Chou is very funny to a certain level, though I still don't like him.
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I know myself the best and I don't care what you say of that. I don't like it when you say that, "No you don't know yourself at all / you don't even know that you have changed subconsciously." Well obviously if you don't know what's going through me, you can't act as though you know me well and try to state a verdict on my characteristics. I hate it when you like to tell me who I am and how you are always right and how others are always wrong. Just because people can't outtalk you, it doesn't mean that you're right, it further proves that you're just as persistent.While all the principles that you used on me seemed rightful, do you practice what you actually preached? I don't think so. Somehow you're just like me and anyone else, looking for excuses to protect oneself.______________________________________________
I'd never been humans-oriented ever since I was "independent" (say since secondary?). Be it friends or family. Like you may realise. Taking initiatives for bonding with people, has really really never been my forte. Do I still keep in touch with my primary school bestfriends? No. When's the last time I saw my secondary school clique? Last year's teacher's day. And I went back because I NEEDED to, not that I want to. A loner you call me? Well I don't deny.
Sometimes I do feel sad for myself, but most of the time, I knew I was just born like that, like it's already in my genes, to see things as it is and accept it that way.
I may seem to be nonchalent at times, but it doesn't mean that I don't care/ don't bother.It's not like I need to open up myself more or what, I can jolly well crap with a stranger for 5 minutes, but you know, friends and strangers are 2 different genres of people. Like today on the cab I was listening to dong and ksh talking about some stuffs. They could extend a very for-me-nothing-to-talk-about-topic for quite some time and if I were anyone of them I could shorten the whole topic till 20-50% of the time they spent talking about.
Maybe it's because I'm such a person, that's why I always got noticed of anything the last, or even don't know about anything. Now, I'm not implementing that I want to be the first to be noticed or want to know anything, I'm just analysing myself here, in my own blog. Please do not have any feelings or thoughts of sympathy or whatsoever, cause I'm feeling otherwise.
In my own concept, once you've lost touch with your once-so-called-goodfriends, a masquerade mask would form on them. And the longer that you take to keep in touch with them, the thicker the mask would be. Only when you've seen through the hearts of your bestfriends', it's then no matter how long you guys haven't been keeping in touch with, once you guys meet up, the feeling that you get would still be like how you feel when you all used to spend happy times together.
Of course, I love Joanna and Kua Siew Hwa, as bestfriends la. Joanna is chicken. She don't dare to say "LOVE". BOOOO.
Maybe, just maybe, I'd only change when I've met the guy who would spend his rest of his life sleeping beside me.