Chowxuan

Self-denial is stupid.

Que Sara Sara, whatever will be, will be.

Hello little Earthlings, finally I'm getting slightly weely bit used to Mac, except I just don't understand how come it can disconnect every 15 mins. Chicken Macspicy.

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Ok, I'm going to squeeze and drain myself dry these few days for MST. I promise.

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I've bought "The Secrets" from MPH which costs around $30, and realised that I've bought myself a Bible.

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I guess, I think, I would close down my blog or rather move away from here pretty soon. I enjoy privacy and loathe advertising.

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"Don't care, don't bother"

It's a statement that I've been trying so hard to hallucinate myself into, for every despondent situations that I've met with. How long? Just how long could I escape? Or rather how far? With just a snap of the fingers, I'm awaken again.

To you: I don't hate you, but I'm starting to dislike you.

To you: I think you got to practice fairness, equality and justice. You shan't be a big bully just because you've the authority. I'm a total believer in Karma in case you don't know.

To you and more: We're all grown-ups for God's sake. Stop being childish and so despicable because I despise people with no guts.

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To Daddy: I forgot to wish you Happy Father's Day on Sunday and forgot to tell you that I love you. I'm happy that I've opened myself up again, to wanting to hug you and stick onto you each time I see you, to keep irritating you by asking, "You love me or not?". You're like my Baby No. 2 la! Hahaha. I love you Daddy! So let's just forget all about the present ok? Haha.

Thank you Daddy, for spoiling me so badly like I'm the only princess on Earth. Ok, since now we have Chloe, I've became the second. Damn.

To my one and only: I love you for real and more than the number of molecules on Earth.

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This probably might be the last post of this blog.

Do you think that 14 piercings are scary?

Wrong.

8 mini and 1 volkswagen, 3 storey bungalow, half glass roof, half penthouse, swimming pool, black white silver cement interior colours, a retro play room, a vintage play room, walk-in wardrobe, a tiny garden for Austina, open concept toilet, glass walls, visualiser instead of tv in living room, central area in kitchen, strictly no clothes at home. LOL.

Hello world.

I'm back after the 4 draining days of IT show, IT'S A TOTAL MAD RUSH.
Wake at 9, meet jo at 10, reach at 11, start work at 12. I would always try my best to slack, go down for shopping and Starbucks. Ok I'm not entirely bad, I pulled through for throughout the whole Sunday.

I've bought (Daddy paid) a Macbook, which my sisinlaw said she'd pay for the acrylic cover and mouse, and I'd let her use at night, and she'll let me use her VAIO, and on top of that, she'd give me her Iphone after Iphone 3G is launched, which is I don't know when, and I wouldn't need to buy her a Mont Blanc pen for her birthday. HAHAHAHA. I'm so kiem peng.

Mac Air is so bloody light and slim that is so nice and lovely but I can't afford to thrash another com.

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Life is so miserable for you, when you have nothing and try to create something, out of that nothing. And it's a joke.

I can't stand people whom speak to slap their own mouths, whom have no standards nor substances, whom are shallow and hollow, whom fit the 5 lettered word.

Happy monthsary!

Siewhwa seems to be enjoying me raping her hahahahahhaha. Please, I find it slightly gross too ok. What's the big commotion all about!

Junxian's and Jiaying's birthday with DBA 2A/10.

Oh that's me in the centre in 1 year's time. Lol.

The Line to celebrate bro's b'dae.

Horrible us.

Horrible father and daughter.

My bro has been acting like a sickening idiot, which somehow I found was very cute of him. Haha.

His high appeal for sex and cum face at below.

Finally 1 proper one which seems abnormal. And sisinlaw was damn pissed with him.

Happy 31st birthday! Still so childish omg.

Chloe's the cutest of all.

Pre-birthday celebration for lovely bro.

Don't make a mockery out of yourself because the whole world is all giggling behind your back.
Wake up!!!
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Give Jo some justice you people!
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Fiona X is extremely pretty, the only thing she has to do is to shut her mouth.
She's my idol.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Curse and swear and cry.

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Have all my dreams come ture.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Wearing formal wedding gown and suit, skydive and french kiss and maybe have sex simultaneously, on air.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Maybe.

#5. Do you like cheese ?
No.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
To be love by someone and to have someone to love. Both are equally blessing enough.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
As long as my patience doesn't dry out.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Pray for a breakup.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
My moody cow.

#10. What is the most heart breaking moment for you so far?
When my moody cow cries.

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Living in a foreign country with my love, having our own twins, one boy and one girl, having no monetary problems and no troubles at all.

#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Cow, friends and family.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Lovely.

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Single and rich and attached.

#16. What is the first thing you do every morning?
Open my eyes, thinking that, "Oh I've just survived through another night."

#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes of course I would if I could.

#18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one with more love, and if I'm hard up, the one with more love and money. Lol.

#19. What type of friends do you like?
The type that I can communicate with and joke with and have fun with and confide to.

#20. What do you think of this game and what are you going to do?
It's just a quiz and I need to pee and bathe now, and do project.

Lowest phase of life

If you think that you're going through the lowest phase of your life, having the worst luck ever in your whole living years, look at mine. Though mine can't be compared with those who suffered and died during the tradegy, I'm sorry.

Got cheated $77,

lose a mirror $30,

spoilt a phone,

lose a laptop $2000,

and a laptop case $80,

facing cashflow problems that never ends,

having problems communicating with my niece,

having a difficulty to control the outbreaks on my face,

having a problem with my eyes,

having a problem with my nails,

having a problem with my hair,

having a trouble with my body fats,

having a problem with my partner whom doesn't listen and always sealed up.

In the weeks to come,

I'd would most probably be faced with school work problems.

Dear God oh God, when can my problems end?

I swear I'm not going to keep my bangs anymore until my luck turns better.

I swear I would abstain myself from meat if my laptop gets returned to me, for a month, or two, or half a year.

I swear I swear I swear I hate my life now.

If God's giving me a lesson to learn to appreciate my life and family, thanks, you can stop now. I understood all.

This is the next new trend yo. Bung-gone-sissy.

I will win the race.

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Projects came bombarding in since procrastination lasted for 5 weeks.
Shit.

I love it when you look at me with so much care and warmth in your eyes,

then proceed to squeeze my pimples!

HAHAHAHA.

I love to see you smile, no more frowns, no more tears baby.

Sometimes you need to ask yourself, who really cares about you? Who really cares about what you do everyday, every hour, every minute, every second?

Oh I hate week 7 I hate week 7 I hate week 7.

I need a peace of mind.

Character matters the most, nothing else.

If the weather is foggy right now, there's nothing you can do but wait for the fog to subside.

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I hate my body and the way I look, period.
Stop the preach, Grandma!

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My phone has gone bonkers.

Time to stuck up to Daddy!

My Dajie always say "Hai?" instead of "Huh?".

My Erjie always laugh like a machine gun.

Ok I miss them.

Remember what you've promised me.

Stop spending money on me! Naughty naughty!

You're so fake, can.

School's giving me a fucking headache.

Skipped RWPS to have 5 hours of break, off to Tiong Bahru to catch "Nim's Island". Walao waste money one lor!

Ok, I'm soooo gonna learn yoga in the future when I have the time, but of course money. See la, if my mummy threw me into a ballet school and forced me to learn and don't let me quit so easily, I won't be so fat today.