Thursday, July 28, 2011

Goodbye

Not coming back here anymore.

Posted by trey at 4:51 PM

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Just An Undiscovered Soul

It's been exactly a month since school started. This week of school was horrible. I slept for about 10 hours tops, from Monday to Friday. By the time it was Thursday, I can barely stand straight up, and walk in a straight line.

Had a couple of awesome moments this week though, so I shall not complain. The only bummer is that this is only fucking week 4 of school. I can't even bear to imagine how the rest of the sem would be like. Oh, and this ought to be the easier sem out of the 2.1 and 2.2, so I can't even imagine how 2.1 would be like next sem.

Things have been pretty confusing with someone in my life now. I don't really know how to read that person. I can safely say even reading someone's poker hand is way easier than this. Way, way easier. Things just don't add up. They don't make sense to me.

Apart this little rant, everything else in my life is going great. I don't even know where this post is going anymore.

Posted by trey at 4:09 PM

Friday, April 29, 2011

War Machine

"You've been such a good friend to me. I'm pretty fond of you. I love being with you, talking with you, spending time with you. In all this, you're so dear to me, and I'm starting to realize that somewhere along the way, I think I fell in love with you"

Second week of school is over. It's been pretty stale and uneventful, apart from Web D, where ahsan offered me a pretty damn fucking awesome chance. I don't know if it's the fact that I got offered the chance, or the fact that it's a bigger opportunity than what I've ever gotten. Ok there's the small of chance of me designing the 988online website, but that's another story.

Other than the Web D news, nothing else is actually that interesting. Oh, 4 hour breaks on Thursdays are still legendary to me. Who has 4 hour breaks honestly. The most that I've heard of was something like 3 hours tops? 4 hours. Fucking killer.

Anyways looking forward to poker tmr night and the long weekend ahead! It's gonna be awesome I hope! =)

Ciao pao.

Posted by trey at 8:31 PM

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Every Rose Has Its Thorns

So the last time I wrote anything here, I was in a Web Design Applications lecture (where I did not pay any attention btw), and now I'm in the Web Design Applications tutorial.

We are doing html coding, writing html codes from scratch. I have to say that this is my first time writing a html code right from scratch, and it's actually fun. It's amazing actually. Whoever who came up with the language of HTML and compile them into this form today; they're amazing.

A little bit of geek talk here, but writing in HTML is way, way cleaner than using a WYSIWYG editor. You do not create unwanted tags and codes, and you can clean it up much quicker.

I hate Thursdays though. I have to wake up early in the morning for an 8am class, only to have a 4 hours break before my last class at 3pm. It's kind of like, wtf? I'm gonna work on my assignments later, and settle some radio shit before Comiss.

Wednesdays are fast becoming my favourite days of the school week.

!@#$%^&*()

Posted by trey at 10:41 AM

Monday, April 25, 2011

Maroon 5.

I'm sitting in Web D lecture now. First week of school ended with a long weekend for Good Friday last week. Basically spent the weekend like the holiday, just bumping around and shit like that. Watched 2 good movies over the weekend; Memento and Se7en.

The ending of both film really blew my mind away. Literally. I wonder why such movies are not made anymore. Such beautiful screenplay and delivery.

I don't like Web D. That's a true statement. Just because I'm decent at something doesn't mean I like. It's just that I have an easier time with it. There are a lot of tweets on twitter about the Web D lecture at the moment. I also I want to write a couple of things, but I can't

I want to write:

I don't really give a fuck about Web D.
I don't like this.
I think I'm gonna have a hard time this sem.
I'm fucked.

But I can't. Unlike some of my friends, although Im fine if there are shit said against me, but I don't want to cause anymore shit. If I tweet something like that, I'm just gonna be misunderstood easily. I guess. it's a scary scary place here where I am now.

I'm not exactly listening to ahsan now. He's just going on about HTML and stuff like that. Oh the screen just flashed 'It's not scary at all'.

OO he just flashed Hello World! A geek term. Anyways, gonna go catch Maroon 5 live later. Hope it's great!

Update: Alrights I just got back from the show. It was decent to me at best. Just not that huge of a fan. Though it's awesome that they played The Sun, one of my favourite songs from them, which to me is extremely underrated.

Posted by trey at 3:43 PM

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Here I Go Again On My Own #thatawkwardmoment

Yup kiddos. School started yesterday. I don't know if I'm happy about that. It's kind of a mix feeling actually. I'm finally back in the field, getting to work and leading a more normal life, instead of watching sitcoms in my room everyday. To be honest it's not that bad, but it kind of suck the life out of you until you're a vegetable. (Don't worry. It's not as bad as it sounds. Seriously.)

Been having lectures for the past 2 days. I don't dread the sem that much anymore, as most of the lectures are pretty bearable. That would mean that the Monday and Tuesday of every week wouldn't suck that much. Tutorials for another 2 more days and it's the 1st weekend.

Note: If you didn't know, the first weekend of any school term is always the most sacred. It's always the last weekend where you can actually feel holiday-ee.

Enjoy yourself as much as you can, because the coming weeks would be well, hell.

In life, we always have those awkward moments, situations that you rather not be in it. There are those where a girl walks in on you while you're shitting, or you tell a joke and nobody laughs except for yourself, or you laughed so hard while telling a joke that nobody knew what you were talking about.

Yes, that's right. I'm talking about #thatawkwardmoment.

Not many of these scenarios actually happen all that often. Except for one. I'm pretty sure that this particular kind of moments happened to everyone before.

Imagine, you're out with some of your friends. You are walking to this nice cafe in just a t-shirt and some jeans. You're not exactly looking the best, but who cares, you're out with your close buddies. No one really minds. It's not like you're on a date.

Suddenly, this handsome man appears in the distance. Oh there he goes, looking pretty good. Wow. The closer he comes, the more you find him familiar. Suddenly, something in your mind snaps. 'THAT'S JOHNNY FROM YOUR PRIMARY SCHOOL CLASS!'

All of a sudden, you panic. You don't know how good or bad you look. (Not that you're gay, but looking so sloppy after so many years. It just doesn't flow at all.) Your old friend Johnny looks really good himself. Then a couple of questions pops into your mind.

"Does he recognise me?" "Should I say hi?" "What if he doesn't recognise me and I'll look like an idiot." "Did he see me?" "Should I just pretend I didn't?"

And all the while you avoid eye contact with him. By the time you really make up your mind, he's walked past you, and you can only pray he did not see you, so that at the next class gathering, there wouldn't be that awkward question of "Hey I saw you the other day. I waved to you but you didn't wave back!" You're gonna lie through your teeth and say, "Oh sorry must have missed you", when you clearly didn't (Liar liar pants on fire)

Let's tweak this scenario a little. Well tweak it a lot. You are in the school canteen and you see your (use-to-be-really-close-but-now-you're-just-acquaintances) friend. At that very moment, you know the two of you made eye contact. In your own mind, you're not sure if your relationship actually permits you to say hi anymore, and you choose to simply look away, not even bothering to acknowledge his or her existence.

#thatawkwardmoment when you're not sure if you should say hi to someone you know.

Life is sad.

Posted by trey at 9:10 PM

Friday, April 15, 2011

Baby Can't Drive

My most vivid memories of this song are the Monday mornings of the first semester when I would be heading for my IS class at block 72. I remember vividly, that I would be blasting this song on my iPod while walking into the school to kickstart my day, or rather the entire week.

I used to look forward to my monday classes. As kiddy as it sounds, I looked forward to meeting one of my best friends, who was in the same class as me. His sleepy and unkempt look seemed really appealing compared to the start of another boring week in school. School felt so different back then. It was actually enjoyable.

Today is Marcus's birthday. He's pretty much one of my buddies in school right now. Amazing how things can turn out sometimes. We used to not talk to each other in school as both of us gave a pretty unfriendly vibe to each other. I shall save you the details, but we went to visit Kelvin who was sick, met up with Jia Han Alex and Mark for dinner, and went prawning!

Pretty fun, but I doubt I'll want to prawn again unless anyone wants to.

There's a side of me that I don't want to acknowledge, but yet I know of it's existence. I know I'm a narcissist, or at least a part of me is one. Over the year, I've also grown to be extremely crude, negative and extremely quick to put people down,. It's so bad to the point where I do it subconsciously and telling myself its ok to do it. It's fucking not. I feel fucking fake at times. So fake that I fucking hate it.

I know I'm not a perfect person, but I scare myself.

I scare me.

Posted by trey at 1:16 AM

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Here we go again

School's around the corner, in a couple of days. I used to dread school really badly. I guess I still do, but not as much as before.

I cannot figure out if it's because school's kind of fun, or because I'm doing fine in terms of results.

It's definitely better than before though, considering the fact that used to score 44 points for my L1R5? Yeah definitely better.

Many things changed over the course of a few months. Had a really good talk with Nat earlier, and we all miss the simplicity of our days back in VS. Nothing to even worry about. As he said, and I quote "Even when we quarrel, it doesn't even last. We are all still friends."

When I think about it, I'm thankful for all the people that entered my life thus far. I feel like I don't spend enough time hanging around, helping, or even speaking to some friends that were always there for me, but I love my friends.

As fucking corny or cliche as it may sound, I'm looking forward to the new challenges this upcoming semester may bring me. It's not gonna be a walk in the part for me, or for anyone for that matter, though those of us who are in Year 2 are already used to the lifestyle of poly.

A couple more days to my 16 weeks of hell.

Amen to that.

Posted by trey at 8:33 PM

Monday, April 11, 2011

#thatawkwardmoment

Posted by trey at 1:12 AM

Friday, April 08, 2011

The Usual Suspects

"The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist."

Awesome, awesome show. It's not so much of a unexpected twist and turn that made the whole film great. It's the way the film was delivered with the editing, the mood, and everything. It just felt right, great.

Been slacking around, lazing around, getting abit of work done here and there. Watched Season 1 to 6 of Two and a Half Men. On Season 7 now, but it feels really dry now.

Just a couple of days before school starts. Honestly I'm not looking forward to Year 2 at all. My classmates looks pretty alright for now, so no complaints there. Hope it goes well.

Oh Alex, Marcus and Mark came over to my place yesterday for a good game of poker, movies, chips and do-any-nonsense session. It's good to hang out with the guys from school before school starts. Really really missed Kelvin over the holidays. Thankfully it's only a month plus worth of holidays, if not I'll miss him until I cry.

Good days bro, if you're reading this.

"And he's gone."

Posted by trey at 11:43 PM

Monday, April 04, 2011

Don't Love You No More

The first song I put on my first blog. So amateurish and so young at the time. My first blogger URL was http://lookin-for-myself.blogspot.com/

In fact, there was a joke on my blog URLs

from lookin-for-myself
to iambeno (after I found myself)

Funny eh? (adds canned laughter)

Circuit driving today, wasn't so good. I don't know if it's me being tired, or simply because I'm nervous about my driving test tomorrow. I kind of hate driving in the circuit to be honest. Fucking narrow roads at pathetically slow speed.

Today, I couldn't focus when my instructor was telling me to move/brake/turn here there. I was very caught up with my own mind. Sometimes I can drive without thinking on the main road, but not the circuit. I have to be extra fucking careful in the circuit, which is a kind of a bummer, as I have to take note of my feet too, unlike the main road.

That being said, it could be due to the lack of sleep. As I might have mentioned on twitter before (if you don't follow me and you want to, scroll down, and the link's on the right), I'm nocturnal now, especially after that poker game on Saturday night. I pretty much slept at 4pm on Sun and woke up at 1am on Monday morning. I've been awake ever since. My lesson was at 3pm earlier, so I was pretty damn tired and sleepy. By the way, it's Monday right now (at the point of writing this), so I hope that explains.

I aim to sleep at 11pm later to get plenty of rest for my big day tomorrow.

Urgh. Life's a drag.

Posted by trey at 7:27 PM

Sunday, April 03, 2011

Unsound.

Everyone's on edge, including me. Long holiday kills.

Posted by trey at 9:08 AM

Friday, April 01, 2011

Win some and lose some

I kinda sorta saw dalxy's blog, and that made me feel like writing something here again. I used to use twitter to really just splash what I wanna say, but apparently that's not the way to go.

It's really been about 6 months since I even wrote anything substantial here. Life's been treating me decent. A whole shitload of stuff happened. It's a little hard to comprehend, but fuck it life goes on.

I've lost friends along the course of the sem, someway somehow. I made a lot of new friends though. Kelvin, jiahan, dalxy, marcus and a shitload of other people. I'm thankful for all of my friends, honestly.

My results are decent, not excellent I guess. There's only about 2 weeks plus of holidays left, so I should do my best to enjoy the rest of the hols, before hell starts in Year 2 again. Speaking of which, I sort of remember the time when school first started. I was fresh out of VS, not exactly sure what to expect for poly, and after a year of poly, I hardened up as a person. I believe all of us in poly did.

Meeting the lads for poker tomorrow night. Looking forward!

Posted by trey at 11:37 PM

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Changes

Honestly, my english sucks for someone in Mass Comm. I'm always flattered when anyone actually says I write well. Perhaps I can write well with simple english, but I'm never, and I emphasize, I'm never a user of big, chim words.

I'm just a regular guy who enjoys rock n' roll music, who studies in a course where people are stereotyped to be strong in english. Perhaps I'm the good among the bad, and the bad among the good, if you get what I mean.

I was having moment of nostalgia, as I sat in Macs with some of my close friends early in the morning on Friday. We were sharing about our life, then it came to all of us that we've been through a lot together. It never did seem to matter what we did. We just spent time hanging out together a lot. We have a large group of friends whom still met up after a long time. It's not usually for anything special. We just call each other out to hang out. It's a great feeling to know you have friends as such.

We are all afraid of changes, but yet we are accustomed to changes. Though I must, I hate changing after setting myself in tone for a certain lifestyle. It's a plain weird feeling, to leave a place, knowing that you would never come back in the same manner again.

Perhaps, that's why we hate changes

Posted by trey at 5:14 PM

Monday, November 29, 2010

Quiet

Beno's quiet only because there's nothing noteworthy to talk about at all.

Ok. I thankful for the new friend's I've found in life. That's all.

Bye.

Posted by trey at 5:06 PM