Out of control.

On 2013 either mid or end March of month, I on my off day during working as part time beauty therapist. One my colleague ask me go out. Go prawning. This is my first time I going to something fun. End up, her friend came to fetch me under my block. I really thought he drive with his lorry (company vehicle), but I don't mind. Lucky he did not. He drive a car. LOL. Racing car somemore. Not toy racer car. 

Went to some block to change his vehicle. His actually own a bike instead of car -.- I have never sit anyone bike before other than when I was young, sit on my grandpa motor. HAHAH. After that went to meet his friend and more. Finally meet my friend at last. I didn't really enjoy prawning, before I don't know how to fish it or hook it. I didn't like it. But I only enjoy the racing. Bike racing. 

Going home time, he say he got work tomorrow morning. Which we on our way home at 3am plus if I'm not wrong. He going to wake up at 5-6am to work. I say is okay if you need rush home. I can go home by myself. He ask me if I don't mind staying over his house to rest, he afternoon send me home. I actually don't mind. So agree. Because we did NOTHING. Yes, we are nothing.

Next day, his whatsapp me say his friend would like to know me. To me, I actually don't remember who is who at that prawning day. He ended up reply to his friend say I interested to him (not his friend). I was like wtf, when did I say I interested on you -.- gosh. I didn't he is trying to woo me for sure or just a game. I didn't accept him until few days later. He send me to bbdc, my house, his house and other place. Meet his friend watch movie, eat, and other more. And we got together ._. 

Accepting him. Now we been together for more than 6 month. I slowly understand him and knowing his stuff and background. Sometime I feel worried. Why would I be with this guy. His past is not good. Currently now there's up and down. I wonder in future how. Will I live blissfully? Am I happy? Taxes, Fines, Bills, Loan and many more. He ask me not to worry about money. But I am really worrying about it. I need saving. I want a saving account too. We getting married soon. 2014 February. How? Now to me everything is a cost. I save and save. But I feel like there is no money is my pocket. Is like my pocket having a hole. I feel heart pain. I been working so hard. Work from morning to night. I am really tired. Really really so tired. I almost burst out my tears and hide myself at one corner. Sigh

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I keep all this problem in my heart. For entire month from the starts I met you, dear. I try to hide as much as possible. Let people know I'm still living well. Very blissful. Happy about my working. Enjoy going out with you. And many many happy moments being with you. 

Typing this, I about to cry. But I hold. I know one fine day, everything this stuff will be end. Will end real soon. I just hope I can live healthy. 

I deleted all my past, what about you? 

Ohohoh la la land :D Bababa banana ~

Good morning !
I think is my first time being so early after many many many years or months. LOL !

Past few days when to watch despicable me 2. Is so funny but not so exciting than the first show. This second show are more on minions. Which so cute !!! Damn cute ! How adorable. Before show, went to seoul garden eat. Which is actually thai express, mention by me. After that to eighteen chef, sadly looooog queue.

Such a wasted.

Boo ya! LOL.

What a wasteful day again. I think I've wasting 3 months of time doing nothing. In this 3 month I actually can do all my stuff. Like my driving and other stuff. Yesterday is super bad luck day. Terribly. On Friday evening. My phone got dropped down to MRT track. That was so fucked up. Fucking asshole. I'm about to going home. This jerk bang to me. Didn't even apologize which I stared at him who bang to me and never say sorry. He just say, 'oh, you can go over there to find that women (this women whom adjusting those crowd at MRT platform), to help me take my phone. Oh god, I need to get this jerk number. If there's anything wrong with my phone and I'm going to ask him pay for it. I think I should ask this stranger get me a new phone instead. I don't want your money!!!! Fucker. Anyway my phone got it back the next morning. My phone now in this sucks condition !!! So angry D:<

Forget it. Sighs.
Next bad thing on the next day I get back my phone. Have a call from bills and bills and bills. Darn ! Is like so many of it. All this bill and bill and bill are included family and myself. Ridiculous! I really have enough. I can't go on anymore. Is damn painful. I explained so much to closer ones, I think is unless. Not I never say out. Is speak out already, yet can don't bother. Everything is I, myself, handling all this rubbish and I don't have enough time for my stuff. Although if have it. I rather stay home for the whole day and rest. Don't even feel like going out. Friends know I want to go drinking. But I am so damn fucking lazy to dress myself and get myself up to go down accompany them.

I think that all. Nothing. Hmmm... My new hair cut. I just trim my fringe shorter. So it feel comfortable. Heehee :P

I'm struggling with my life. Family and finance. I just hope this will end it asap. Bless me.
I just want to faster complete my stuff. The only thing I grant for it. YOLO. ^^

 

Signing off. 

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Trip to hongkong. Not fun -.-

Back to blog after a very time.

Time really files. It files as fast as you thought. Okay, I'm still the same. Sigh. So sad, didn't achieve anything that I wanted it for so long. Forget it, never mind. I can do it. Still far away. LOL.

Previously went to Hong Kong with boyfriend and his friend. Hong Kong stuff is cheap. Only for some. I like their food, is nice and delicious. I didn't went for any shopping. And went there, it been raining. So didn't enjoy much fun or other stuff. Only day1, having quite fun. But is tiring. Because when to take flight is at 6am morning and before the day didn't sleep at all. I'm working. From morning to night. Until I knock off, straight go home pack. Went to boyfriend's friend's house awhile. Around 4am take cab down to airport. Taking Jet star plane. Is my first time taking Jet star. I didn't know budget plane got really damn sucks. Seat is way to squeeze, small really damn small. Never have a good rest on plane. When reached Hong Kong, I'm so excited. Until... I see everything is write Chinese. My Chinese is not very good. Some more thy speak Cantonese, not much people speak Chinese. Sigh. And I know how to speak in Hokkien instead Cantonese.  I think next I'm going Taiwan. At least at there they speak Hokkien too. Ha Ha Ha :p

Let picture shows.