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Monday, December 13, 2010
3:41 AM so many thoughts. need to settle them down. make some decisions. stick to 'em. break FREE. valerie you can do it. Tuesday, November 16, 2010
10:00 PM And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. 9:47 PM "I say to you, though he will not rise and give to him because he is his friend, yet because of his persistence he will rise and give him as many as he needs." -Luke 11:8 persistent prayers. unmoving, unshaking, undaunted. God hears from heaven. now heaven, be opened.
Saturday, November 06, 2010
12:34 AM Prayer for A Friend Lord I lift my friend to You I’ve done all that I know to do I lift my friend to You Complicated circumstances Have clouded his view Lord I lift my friend up to You I fear that I won’t have the words that he needs to hear I pray for Your wisdom Oh God And a heart that’s sincere And Lord I lift my friend up to You Lord I lift my friend to You My best friend in the world I know he means much more to You I want so much to help him But this is something he has to do Lord I lift my friend up to You There’s a way that seems so right to him But You know where that leads He’s becoming a puppet of the world Too blind to see the strings And Lord I lift my friend up to You Lord I lift my friend to You I’ve done all that I know to do I lift my friend, to You Wednesday, October 27, 2010
1:02 AM excited!
God is more interested in our character than comfort. just reached home from a really awesome pastoral mtg!! i love meetings because it always brings my thoughts higher and makes me excited about life! love my leaders!!! they inspire me :) was in the admin office and had a few minutes of hearing Yassy speak. wow though it was just a short moment, her words impacted me. she said that it's really liberating to see men rising up.. because she feels freed. to do what she's really good at.. "when men are men, then women can be women." had a great talk with john afterwards. we were just really excited about what God's going to do in DL4 and in the men! i'm so so anticipating the future! seeing how john has led the guys... i'm amazed! he is incredible! furthermore, with jianming coming into DL4c.. GREATER THINGS ARE CERTAINLY COMING!!! super duper excited about it all! recently i am starting to see more and more of who God is. and i'm so happy at that! i really wanna know God better each and every day. last night's prayer was really powerful! going to rely on God's power instead of my own strength. :) books.... been reading. love it! everyone should read!! just reading really grows me a lot as a person.... i can't wait to read through all the books i've bought! really wanna grow :D work.. has been tiring. sian. hahaha. but then again, just thinking about God and church brings life into me! just hope my health is going to get better! having headaches so very often isn't nice at all :( feeling weak all over physically. terrible feeling. but then!!! think faith. i'm well, i'm healed. :) love to pray! i'm starting to see even greater how prayer is so limitless... especially when i start seeing things in FAITH. faith is the substance of things HOPED FOR, the EVIDENCE of things NOT SEEN. praying for dl40! going to build strong Christians. STRONG. praying for family. one day we will all be serving God together!! that's my dream. praying for my very very good friend. for love, for destiny and simplicity! God is wonderful. :) change me, mould me. Wednesday, August 25, 2010
1:26 AM had an awesome leaders meeting tonight! testimonies of many people's lives changed in HOGC this is truly the best place to be in man... i am honored. :) Pst How has given his best years to build the church. my pastor has done his best. i want to give my best too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY PASTOR HOW! (: excited for the many years to come building this house with you! loving life vvv much... :) Tuesday, June 29, 2010
1:49 AM simplify me. thoughts, emotions EVERYTHING. (: work's starting soon. you can do it. yes you can.. need to self motivate and be the best that i can! earn the money, but never allow it to become a thorn. always must remember to give. because YOU first gave me. "speaking existence into your future." -pst steve munsey recently been having this phrase in my head. yes, i'm gonna speak! future is going to be amazing. IT IS. toughen my heart O Lord. (: Wednesday, June 09, 2010
1:20 AM we have all come so farrrrr~ i need to love more. yes, more.... i need the joy of the Lord. i need to snuff out thoughts of fear i need to be able to relate to people better. more more more. i want more. put the past behind. move forward. grrrrr. -grinds teeth- i am better than that!! (women talk to themselves ;) Sunday, June 06, 2010
1:28 AM I have missed you my old friend You said everything's fine Please don't pretend I've been trying to breakthrough The clouds surrounding you There's no land i will not go through Though we talk in riddles I understand you well Sooner or later you'll come to your senses I know i can tell We all fall down We all know how it feels like to drown We all fall down There's no need to stay on the ground I've been watching And all I have seen Is you hiding Calling 'somebody help me' I've made my mistakes It's not easy But don't, don't give up We've already come so far I won't give up on you When you're angry and blue And often confused I won't give up Tuesday, May 18, 2010
2:04 AM Daddy, -throwing hands up in the air- i pray nobody will take things for granted... it just isn't the way it should be. don't they remember? i'm certain the memory is still somewhere.. cover me within Your mighty hands. 1:51 AM strength- a word resonating in my mind for the past weeks. how many times we try to build an armor over ourselves have been a very strong headed girl since young no matter what i'd be strong. it's as though i've been moulded into it thinking? words? views? decisions.. but nevertheless until you know me truly for yourself you'd know that i'm never that strong as a person inside i can be totally breaking scared half to death uncertain of the things to do or to say confused, shaken, affected. human like everyone else. strength. where is it? where do i find it? coming to a point where it can't be found in me myself and i. i want (NEED) the power point. Saturday, May 01, 2010
3:20 AM l0v3
it's been a century since i last blogged! hahaha. don't really know where to begin. stuck stuck. but oh well, life is undergoing even more changes recently. it's like every season, it's a totally new and different ball game. made new friends, loved more people, learnt new principles. recently we're having 5 languages of love in cg meetings. time to elevate our love even higher! (: and gotta stop to think thru what are my beloved ones' love languages hmm... alright, summary of the status of my life: i need to love more. (:
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
12:47 AM BRING IT ON! Monday, March 01, 2010
11:36 AM gratitude.
this week has just been amazing. love the cg sermon :) really get everyone of us to appreciate and be grateful for one another! been slowing down and watching the people around me.. (sounds weird hahaha) and there's just this joy of being around them :) makes life more meaningful. Galatians 6:9 And let us not grow weary while doing good, because in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. this is the verse for me man. sometimes things do get a little mundane, tiring etc. the entire month has been kinda foreign for me. for a better word- kinda scary. its scary in the sense that i experience feelings/thoughts that i never went through before. times where you just stop where you are...and feel 'sian' sometimes it's like a ding dong of faith. and it gets at me. haha. but then again, one thing God has always proven and NEVER failed... is that He knows exactly when to encourage, when to bring in comfort.. and yet again, God has intervene and brought the refreshment and revival in the spirit that i so dearly need it. :) been talking to some of the newer people. looking into their eyes and seeing a cry for something greater really inspires me to keep running even more, even further. after all, who do these people belong to? :) Asia Conference's coming up! there's so much anticipation for Pst Cho Yonggi's service!!! you cannot miss the world for it!! i'm wondering if there'll be anyone actually queuing there overnight :O since registration starts at 8! i thank God for who He is. For HOGC, Pst How and Pst Lia, Dominic, Lynette, Jieru & DL4. :) who's ready for the next 10 years?! Wednesday, February 24, 2010
2:03 AM just gonna blog a short post before i sleep. overwhelmed by tdy's mtg. just wanna say that Pastor How and Pastor Lia are the BEST! we must always have a heart of gratitude... never forgetting the things pastors have sown into our lives, how much they believe in us youths.. i will stand with the truth. i love Pastors. i love Heart of God Church. Sunday, February 14, 2010
11:58 PM Happy Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day :) just got back from a movie with my family: Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief. it's a little like Chronicles of Narnia + Harry Potter. (or even Spiderwick Chronicles) fantasy, action, monsters.... i don't like such shows cos they always scare me -.- i think i'm a rather timid prsn with such stuff. i cannot stand gross, gruesome and shocking images. well, it still struck some thought within. (funny how much i think about stuff sometimes) the movie was basically alot about the gods and goddess (yknow greek mythology eg. Zeus, Poisedon) and then there was Hades too. the imagery put across was somewhat similar according to what we know, yet different given that it was a hades god or so-called. it sorta brought me back to what Pst preached a few weeks back in Revelations... anyway i'm not really good with words, (and my thoughts are all jumbled up haha) but the simplest i can put across is... the spiritual warfare we are fighting here, we gotta win. :) and we WILL win. now's the time. there isn't time to lose. in the everyday busy life we have, it is soooo easy to just lose focus and partyyy~ just like in the movie: las vegas,. wow haha. paradise on earth as it's seen. and there are times when you just feel like a fool. BUT when you really turn aside, and seek the Person, suddenly everything seems so simple afterall. and wow. how worth it.. how VERY worth it. i want to lay those crowns down at His feet one day:) do not slack. Tuesday, February 02, 2010
12:57 AM again and again.
I have never walked on water Felt the waves beneath my feet but At Your Word Lord, I'll receive Your Faith to walk on oceans deep And I remember how You found me In that very same place All my failings surely would've drowned me Still You made a way You are my freedom Jesus you're the reason I'm kneeling again at Your throne Where would I be without You Here in my life You have said that all the heavens Sing for joy at one who finds the Way to freedom, truth of Jesus Bought from death into His life And I remember how You saw me Through the eyes of Your grace And through the cost was Your beloved for me Still You made a way You are my freedom Jesus You're the reason Thursday, January 21, 2010
12:23 AM genesis.
tonight is one of those times you just sit down and reflect upon your life as a whole. yknow, every single area. :) i dont know if you feel this way, but the transition from 17 to 18 to 19 years old.... it brings alot (and i mean ALOT) of changes in your life. whether it be your thinking, the people around you or how you react to certain things etc. sometimes change comes so quickly you can't catch it fast enough, and sometimes it sneaks up on you like a thief in the night...and when you finally realized it, it's probably in the 2nd/3rd stage of it's existence. scary and exhilarating all the same yeah? anyway oscar's been staying over just a week back! he's really smart, eloquent and cute little boy. (but not so little anymore, just 10cm shorter than me :( but he's certainly added more joy to my household and the cg over the past week! especially mingqiang who loves him to bits. i watched this little boy grow up... and i can't imagine him 10 years later... he'll be a handsome young man. HAHA! been thinking quite alot about my cg... really am so thankful to God for the revival He has placed in ITE. :) praying for even more.... these are broken lives who definitely will have a song. slow down... take a deep breath... appreciate life... nonchalance is the worst. don't ever fall into that! i want nobody nobody but You!!! Sunday, January 17, 2010
1:33 AM Music & Lyrics
I've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need them again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that its out there There's got to be something for my soul somewhere I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody to get me through the night I could use some direction And I'm open to your suggestions All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love and If I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do and if you help me to start again you know that I'll be there for you in the end Friday, January 15, 2010
1:45 AM supernaturally natural.
i just want to be me! haha days have passed really quickly. 2010, i know it's going to be a whole new start. many dreams to come true, many things i want to do.. one of it is to bring Candace into church week after week. :) she's somebody i will never get tired believing in... just because she's worth every single bit of it. met up with Peifen today. it was a really enjoyable time. love such times where it's just nonsense talks and yet deep conversations at the same time. excited for her future, of how God's gonna raise her up stronger, bolder. you go girl! teaching tuition can get pretty tiring after some time... especially after half a year of teaching. with the private tuitions i'm taking, tgt with the teacher assistant job i'm gonna take up soon... and in addition, OSCAR (missed him!) is coming over tmr onwards to stay... oh wow, maybe..just maybe, i can take this as a training to interact and learn more about children. :) love 'em! knowing the ite guys better week after week, people like joey..maurice..mingqiang..thenaish etc. i see a strength, a potential inside of them. God, He uses unexpected people to bring glory to Him. these guys.... they are going to make an impact in their world, wait and see. :) simplicity of heart....i like that. it's the season of being led by the HS.... i want to know You better. everything's gonna turn out amazinggg with You. speaking of which, i really like the movie Bodyguards and Assassins. you should go watch it. :) although i dont really like the blood shed and stuff. but i love movies like that. true heroes in life. will you be My hero? the kingdom of heaven's at stake. Tuesday, January 05, 2010
1:34 AM I See You
Walking through a dream I see you My light in darkness breathing hope of new life Now I live through you and you through me Enchanting I pray in my heart that this dream never ends I see me through your eyes Living through life flying high Your life shines the way into paradise So I offer my life as a sacrifice I live through your love You teach me how to see All that’s beautiful My senses touch your word I never pictured Now I give my hope to you I surrender I pray in my heart that this world never ends I see me through your eyes Living through life flying high Your love shines the way into paradise So I offer my life I offer my love, for you When my heart was never open (and my spirit never free) To the world that you have shown me But my eyes could not division All the colours of love and of life ever more Evermore Saturday, January 02, 2010
3:12 AM seen it heard it felt it been pretty amazing how things have been, and are right now. argh feels weird right now hahaha one word for it: disgusting. and not apologetic at that :) i guess God really knew the best dint He? soaring out, little by little gaining freedom sniffing fresher air right here right now :) hahahaha 2010!!! Friday, January 01, 2010
10:13 AM 2010
a whole new year!!! byebye 2009 :D i'm gonna smile at that hahaha. anticipating of what's to come in 2010! (shipei's gonna hit the big 2 ohmy) okayy i haven't bathed all year! wahahaha. always like to make this joke every new year. alright :) off to take my first bath! thanks for being part of my 2009 man! Tuesday, December 29, 2009
3:02 AM haven't blogged in ages! hahaha anyway chanced this upon yiwen's blog. MYGOODNESS. i love this little boy to bits! hahahaha. talented! and more so it just makes you laugh and smile hahaha especially his cute singing, although you can't tell what he's actually saying :) Sunday, December 20, 2009
1:57 AM sanctuary.
10 more days before 2009 comes to a close. really want to draw closer and deeper within these days. i need the presence of God alot. i want it. i miss it. i yearn for it. loving undeservedly. when i hear such stuff, i get a familiar feeling inside. yet it never seems to be enough. have you ever felt like you could possibly do everything, and yet probably it's not what you're supposed to do. but then isn't it what makes it different? in out up down yes no. i dont know. fighting heads on.. is there such a thing as stopping.. just because, it's not worth it? everything's a decision. and that's when i really can't rely on myself. there are certainly things which people around you can't really help you with, and in fact sometimes you yourself do not have the definite answer. that's when... i need to listen. taking heed the right and best solution from God. one thing i stand firm upon... God will give the best because He loves. anyway, today's service : which toilet do you go to? really enjoyed every part of it... am so excited for the future and what's gonna take place right here in hoGc! the boys and guys now.. they're gonna be awesome men/husbands. we women... we'll gladly let them take the lead :) in fact we'll be so so happyyyy. hahaha. sometimes i do wish i could take out my heart and let you see. Tuesday, December 15, 2009
12:38 AM it was a crazy day of singing K for almost 9 hours! wow. and its the most worth it karaoke i've been to ever. we only paid $8 each for that amount of time yknow... and the place's super big and clean too. :) we should go back again soon! what's gonna be on this week? STUDYING FOR FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING! okayy so i'd better head to bed, in order for me to attack my day well tomorrow. :) i surrender all Monday, December 14, 2009
4:17 AM just needing to tune in to the right frequency. :) clear the mind, settle the thoughts. love the moments. lets get it started in here! Friday, December 11, 2009
11:49 PM mind's always running a marathon. hahaha. i'm so glad i'm in such an amazing church.. that the DNA we have is so precious. looking through many photographs in facebook, and i've got to say i'm kinda biased. haha or maybe not :) i really think we are the best looking people in Singapore :P because it's not about the dressing nor the makeup. our people... just glow from within. a joy that can't be made up by the exterior. bcos after you've rinse away all the foundation, eyeliner, gel etc or take away those blinks and clinks... what's left is just...you.. bare, unconcealed. . i'm astounded really. so.. bring it into captivity! Thursday, December 10, 2009
1:24 AM excitement! love! passion convictions. strength. tenacity. emotions, will, mind. surrender. faith. happiness. knowledge. unseen. beauty. chastening. comfort. refuge. security. 1:04 AM what's left.
a few weeks before the start of a new year, God's preparing for something greater. time to grow beyond my ceilings. read You The Leader. and it's really sucha great book:) wished i could go for ldrs mtg ytd :( nevertheless i'm gona catch whatever i've read from the bk itself. ' let's not find ourselves fighting battles God is not involved in ' who are you chasing after? i know my answer. clear and distinct. how much more is there left to be revealed, we're running against time, dont you see the urgency to chase after what's unchangeable. mulan's a great movie. i mean it's not as good as other war shows. but stil it's about the battlefield. love such shows. in reality, we are fighting a spiritual warfare here. fight. life's filled with surprises. show me how to live. prayer meeting later! off to bed. :) but the answer lies in you. |