Actually I am still trying to find out the meaning in life, although I tried a lot of things in this world. I still don't really find it complete and I don't know what is missing exactly.
Could someone help me please?
still trying to master my emotions
Quite a fruitful day i suppose!
i woke up and rushed to get my hair treatment done. after that i went straight to find azmi, when i reached his ward, his bed is covered with curtains i took a peak and discovered 2 young nurses inside.. TO MY HORROR....
they were dressing up his wound for him, HAHA! i sat down and have some chatters with him.. he seems to be doing well, soon after his mom came.. and then i went off so that the others can come visit him due to the maximum limit visitors rule.
so i went to back to... BEDOK bought a mud crab and went home to cook crab noodle. it's my first time chopping up a live crab. everything seemed normal to me, perhaps because i'had watched too much of cooking videos on youtube.
AHH... now den again, it's night.. i am getting emotional. i tried to drama things again although that's not what i really felt. it just feels like i am back to this again - http://unforgetable-love.blogspot.com .. how foolish i realised.
Hello again! finally i decided to continue blogging, if i have the time. Oh ya, update about myself. after ite i went ngeeann poly for business studies but i found out that its so boring to study so i quit school after a year. i joined army after that, and now i am a regular in the guards formation. 1 and a half year has passed i am a 3sg now and going 2sg in few months later.
hmm.. recently still doing my hair treatment and eh.. money is spending fast in order to provide for family and to pay for my expenses especially the hair treatment!
picked up some new hobbies like playing street fighter 4 and fishing (but no fish at all :( ) ..
will try to update regularly if i have the time, u know.. i am a busy man now. haha! cya!!
Recently been slacking, going play pool with my friend, walking around amk hub. really no life, school withdrawal haven't settle yet, i am required to bring my parent/guardian for an appointment with the director of ngee ann poly for a talk.. my mom's off day is only on weekends and my sister is to no avail.. what a troublesome procedure, i don't wanna get debarred because of this.
i am looking for a job now, hope to go back to symantec and lead my office life.. another alternative is to check around amk hub for walk-in interviews.
my class 2b bike license is coming soon, i had stopped going practice for awhile due to cash flow problem, my sis is going to lend me some munny so i can start going back for lessons.
cassie is a 'almost perfect' girl.
Today is the day my decision is finally made, after meeting my class adviser to withdraw myself out from the course i went to find my dear ite friends.. they persuaded me to stay on and continue study but the decision was already made.. i've let all my project mates and dear friend down. here's a sorry for that, i've decided to walk the path i wanted to.. before leaving, we have handshakes of good wishes.. thank you for the support i feel touched to have u all as friends, meet for sure soon!
Back at home, i showed my mom the withdrawal form. she asked me why do i want to quit and i answered her that i have no interest any more. she didn't blame me but instead she supported my decision.. i am glad i have a understanding mother, i felt that i've let her down.
Alright! what's my plan? i want to go find a job while waiting for my ns. and after ns i will decide what i want to continue to do, either continue studying starting from year 2 or start working..
Best of luck my dear friends! don't be like me :D
saw this quiz on shuping's blog and find it relatively interesting.. since i am in the state of boredom i'd give it a try. you can do the quiz here if you wish to: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. good listener :)
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. i go with feelings, but the looks play a small part though.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. ...that makes me very vulnerable to falling in love.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. because i thought that girls don't like soft and shy guy.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. yes, i agree knowledge is power in this century but WRONG, i am not interested in study. recently have a thought of dropping out.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. just find something that you want be, and stick with it :)
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. a lot commented that i am a over-confident guy.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. true.. true..
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. i guess that makes me!
