Phlog!
Check out my new phlog! Click the phlog button at the bottom right of this blog. Whee! I started phlogging (blogging via sms, for the uninitiated) first, before blogging. Had a good run, too. I think I might not have switched to blogging if it weren't for the stupid old Phlogger crashing on me. Ah well.
My original Phlog:
http://www.whisktech.com/phlogger/hyperxi/archive
EDIT @11.22pm: Aargh. It's not working apparently. My new phlog I mean. The messages are jumbled up into one vertical line. wth. What's wrong...
hyperxi's life @
3/27/2007 07:30:00 pm
I should have expected a Merit.
I should have. I made too many mistakes in my pieces. Stopping at least once in all three pieces. The rest of the sections were okay, but it was just my pieces. Maybe I peaked a little to early. Or maybe the nerves finally got to me that day. ( I was a lot more confident in there than I was in all my previous exams though) I know I could've played better.
My teacher called me today with the results. I knew it wasn't gonna be very good. I could sense her disappointment over the phone. 25,24,23/30 for my pieces. Sad. Even worse than grade 6. Even though I know I can play my grade 7 pieces much better. I was still fumbling to get my notes right in the grade 6 exam. but I knew my notes in grade 7. I knew much more than that. I could truly play with feeling. But I still stopped in every piece, when and where I never had before. Never. I continued of course, but the damage was done. Dammit.
I really banked my hopes on this grade 7. I've never gotten distinction before (except maybe for grades 1 2 or 3, can't remember). I worked really hard. Maybe not so much when school opened this year, but I practiced like mad during the hols. I KNOW I can play my pieces well. Or rather, I know I have played my pieces well before. Well enough that I dare to even play in front of other people. But just not the examiner I guess.
I should have expected that Merit. 25. 24. 23. downhill with each piece. Should have expected that. I remember hearing the examiner sighing at some points when I was playing my pieces. At that time I was thinking he was probably sighing cos my mistakes ruined the piece. I probably thought correctly.
So. I didn't get distinction for grade 7. I told myself this was my last shot at distinction, cos grade 8 is apparently harder. So I gave it my all. And still.. merit. So now..
I WILL get distinction for Grade 8 Piano.
I will. I think I have to play more in front of other people. Build more confidence.
Grade 8. Have to wait till dunno when. Maybe after army.
Bring it on.
(click 3 up there ^ to load this song!)
I have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you
I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well yes I'm still running
You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for...
The higher your hopes the greater the disappointment...
hyperxi's life @
3/16/2007 10:23:00 pm
It's frightening, how everyone else is so focused and hardworking. Compared to me. I gotta find my drive.
Two weeks to blocks. I'd better not waste it.
hyperxi's life @
3/04/2007 03:38:00 pm
