The Blessed One

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

**be sure to finish reading this whole entry oki? If not, go for that red button on top.

Oh my tian. Had an extremely long day in school. If Old Man dint bother to wake up earlier to morning call me, i will be so damn late. haha. Anw, Old Man, i think u sounds (very) funny when you just woke up. Blur blur de. heh. I know i can always count on my friends when i need help like giving me morning calls and reminding me these and that. heehee.

Met up with Lai Ting for breakfast. Thank God i agreed. If not, i would probably have fainted during the day. LOL. & i was so SUPER suay to see that mimi yan at macs in the early morning. urgh. Today is my school's open house lahx. Many sec. school students came to see see look look. Not sure if it is my blessing to lead only 1 school for the tour. LOL. The rest of the time were mainly slacking (dreaming) and reading (He still moves stones by Max Lucardo. Oh i felt as though God was speaking to me when i read the book). heehee. But i cant understand why i had no lunch or tea break(s) in between! Boy. My gastric pain is leaving me half dead. urgh. Anyway when Friend asked if i had lunch, i said no and asked if Friend is buying me lunch. Friend said yes de horx. In the end lehx..? Nothing lehx. heh. Nah, was pulling Friend's leg lahx. Still, my Friend, you owe me a meal for nodding your head and saying yes but nothing was done. haha. You will be so dead if you denies it. I promise to haunt you in your dreams. =P Gotta know quite a number of new peeps too. Now, i've problem rmb-ing their names. haha. & that Penny Lohan arx.. first thing when she saw me, was to asked if i missed her. [-_-"] HEY! Im straight oki! haha.
btw pple, if you simply cant pronounce my name (for whatever reasons), then forget it. Dont attempt to make fun of it. Becuz i will get really mad at you. Is PEISZE that hard to pronouce? Forget abt the SZE, SHI or SI or even TZE is good enough. Perhaps giving/calling me by a nickname will make your life lot more easier. Oki, i know this is my hanyu pinyin name. SO? If you cant even pronouce PEISZE correctly, then why try to read my name as in my IC? Funny huh? PUI, is a HK spelling for PEI, if you dint know. Dont try to be that smart ass oki? I dont fancy that. Anw, im NOT trying to pin-point anyone. Just anyone of you lahx. Im not even mentioning names lorx. -dUh-
Oh, anyone knows where is my MP3 cable? Didi is in a good mood now, and wanna help upload songs into my MP3 for me. heehee.

But, i wasnt in a very good mood the whole time. I cant seems to hold any of my thoughts captive. Not even a single one. I was feeling so bad abt it, that i got Gary to call me up. As we chatted over the phone, i silently cried though there were so many pple ard. He said i sounds better over the past few months and concluded that i might have recover from my illness. Hmmm.. i dun dare to think abt it. Wad made it worse was when i had to put up a front in front of others, like nothing ever happened. I think the next Jin Ma Jiang for the Best Actress award can go to me liaox. heh. Im a bad gurl. I just called to postpone my appt for check up at a later date. Yups, im that coward to face it. Throw your bad eggs and stones at me then.

Dinner? Chi bu xia le, ye mei xin qing chi.

Just felt like uploading one bigass picture of mine. It will come in handy in the future for you pple reading this entry. Shall tell you guys why later on. =)

I cheered with joy @ | Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Monday, August 28, 2006

Urgh. The attack of super suay mouth..is drving me real mad-ed. I really do have a (SUPER) suay mouth. Oh my tian. Thanks to my Friend, who was nice enough to give me surprises - which was sufficient to make me faint on the spot. [-_-"] Nvm wad it is.

Had a BLC meeting today. The room was freezlingly cold. And that Jexter, sitting besides me, is driving me up the wall. Guess wad? He actually pulled my arm and blouse (fiercely) lahx. Becuz i wasnt paying attention to him, talking. Goodness. And he die die wants to exchange his XL t-shirt with my L one, when the difference is so minimal. [[Kicks him silently..]] Thank goodness i wasnt in the same grp as him. Lai ting is. haha. But y m i in his grp? urgh. I hate it. To make it worse, my gastric pain was killing me. I practically crawled home frm the train station. LOL.

argh. -faints-

Oh boy.. still got another 50ml of water, b4 i totally finish all my water in my bottle.

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, August 28, 2006

Friday, August 25, 2006

Today during PIE lesson, we were supposed to think of someone famous, and give clues abt that person, to let our groupmates guess.
- This gurl, 19 (coming soon) years old, but always insists that she's 16 years old.
- Always carries her water bottle to school but can never seems to finish that 400ml of water in it.
- Always forgets where she placed her water bottle. (becuz she never put her bottle in her bag)
- Very blur.
blah x3.

Everyone in the group guessed who she was. Even the teacher knows the answer.

And now, she's known as the Blur Sotong Gurl in the group. COOLness. Why is sotong always blur? Hmmm...

Now, guess.. who is she.

*edited entry on 26.8.06

I cheered with joy @ | Friday, August 25, 2006

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Doubt its my day.. Nearly got knocked down twice today. Once by a bicycle, another time by this huge truck. The lady on the bicycle must be too blind to see me, and literally knocked onto me, tearing bits off my hot pink bag. (Sobs) I wasnt injured lahx, my bag was. Just had a ugly shock. Goodness. My heart nearly popped up. I guess the phobia of bicycle will still be there for the time being. Oki, i hate getting too near to one. urgh.
-flops ard, drop dead-

And i wasted like quite afew sms-es today lahx. I keep sending sms-es to the wrong pple. -dUh- My FREN even keep track of how many times i sent the wrong sms to him. LOL. Anw, he's not the only one, oki? =D

Met up with Jen and Est for lunch and shopping after school. Saw Zan with her fren too. Oh, im in love with disturbing Zan. haha. We were all self-entertaining each other the whole time. LOL. Was playing with the leftover food and fruits. Weird combo huh? heh. Oh, b4 Jen reached J8, Est and i went to look for Lihao at some nearby mac. Becuz i wanted to see shuai ge(?) mahx. haha. He look damn sexy in his PE shorts lahx. LOL. Cant believe it when he says he's a very shy person. Like HUH?, shy mehx? haha.

Shhhh.. dont tell him i upload his pic here oki? heehee.

I cheered with joy @ | Thursday, August 24, 2006

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

How could i managed to left that piece of paper in my locker and just go off like that? Oh my tian. Anw, its CV mummy's birthday today! Whee~
HAPPY BIR-TH-DAY, my dear. CV is a guy, just that i call him my "mummy". LOL. Not that he's naggy horx. He's a very sweet & caring guy. haha. My mummy is a SNAG oki? =P " of cuz you are my one and only daughter" - isnt it sweet? heehee. If you happens to wonder where i got to know this guy, he's used to be my cousin's clssmate lahx. So.. yadah yadah.. Hmmm too bad gurls, he's alr taken by some lucky gurl! haha. Stole his pic frm his frenster.

Um, this pic dont really look nice.. Mabye the nx one will b better. LOL.

The handsome dude with his frens. =D

I think im very blessed, knowing that i've so many frens who care for me. =D 10q pple.
*takes everyone by surprise, and kiss everyone on the cheek* heehee.

And now i wonder where is my brains.

I cheered with joy @ | Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Nervous. But was on cloud 9 when i received this mail from Mei Yun. =D

Whee~ My 2 beloved darlings. They are MINE. LOL.

hugs.

I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Monday, August 21, 2006

=) 10q pple for all the sms-es n tags left on my cbox. *a flying kiss for all* Hmmm.. I guess im mentally sick? LOL. Been having really scary nightmares for the past 1 week. & its super-freakingly-horrible nightmares that allows shivers to run down my spine. urgh. By then when my alarm rings, i will be (mentally) too tired for anything. Im practically like a walking zombie for the past week. I dunno wad when wrong either. Now, im too scare to fall aslp at night. The thought of slping with nightmares is.. horrible. In addition, some heartbreaking? incidents are taking place at the same time too. -sigh- Pardon me pple. I promise to do something to it. =) Meanwhile, do rmb to keep ur fingers crossed for me, yah? heehee.

Im tired - physically, mentally, spritually.

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, August 21, 2006

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Stomach cramp. Nightmares. Tears. All mine. Its coming back.. haunting me. Or did it ever left me in the first place? -sigh- Why why why?

I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, August 19, 2006

p/s: Grey, becuz im feeling so gloomy. DEpressed.

gray1 also grey adj. gray·er, also grey·er gray·est, grey·est

Of or relating to an achromatic color of any lightness between the extremes of black and white.

a. Dull or dark: a gray, rainy afternoon.
b. Lacking in cheer; gloomy: a gray mood.

a. Having gray hair; hoary.
b. Old or venerable.

Intermediate in character or position, as with regard to a subjective matter: the gray area between theirdiffering opinions on the film's morality.

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-sigh- Got crap loads of stuffs to say. Papa is sick. He needs to go to some specialist clinic to check wad went wrong. So worried, yet i have to pretend that everythings gg to b fine. And i suck at it. Its always the money that is holding him back to go for the check up. I so wanna shoot that particular ugly person down, NOW. F off, idiot. Again, papa brought up that issue, again. I guess he's really serious with that decision. Hmmm..

Just came back frm Gan-ma's place. Looking and hearing her situation, i lost the words to describe my thoughts. Everlasting love and marriage? Seems like it will only happens in fairytales. 2 persons will get tgt, married, have kids, when they have common faith n goals in life. When 1 begs to differ, its hard (impossible) for them to live tgt anymore. U mean like after so many years of marriage, divorce will be your ending? That's how you wanna end your fairytale? Now i know why Alice keep telling me NOT to trust anyone (guys) with promises that comes with a forever. heh. Coolness.

& i really got no idea why would some pple choose to think that im in the mood for BGRs. Like HUH?. I think im being very fair to ALL of my frens (but if u're like super horrible.. yadah yadah), in terms of care and concern. Pls dont read too much into my sms-es or MSN nicks - unless i mention ur name. FRENS, FRENS and FRENS. Becuz we never know wad's gg to happen next. Im scared. Im scared i will miss the chance to show my care n concern to my frens. Who knows if i might drop dead the next moment? Yeah? =)

Guess manytimes when i grumble abt wad's wrong with the world n pple ard me, it was actually ME, who's causing myself so miserable. --My mama told me i used to cry when im feeling sad. So i cried out loud.

I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, August 19, 2006

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Pasam Malam at Woodlands, anyone? =D

I cheered with joy @ | Thursday, August 17, 2006

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Boy. Been laughing like mad-ed for the past 2 days. Penny Lohan lahx. LOL. As we laughed tgt, it really cheer my mood up. heehee. Anw, its was only until Ning Qian mentioned then i realise that Penny Lohan has been talking abt guys, guys and guys the whole day. Oh my tian. Rare time lahx. LOL. Penny asked me how to tell if a guy likes u. My ans? I dunno. =D I really dunno mahx. haha. Hmmm.. perhaps some nice souls wanna help to ans her qns? Mind u, it was PENNY LOHAN who asked that qns, NOT ME! LOL. & Shu Yi is in love? with me! She got really sweet msges in her hp. haha. The moment she send them to me, i go mad-ed lahx. LOL. Its concentrated. heehee.

Received an email frm someONE ysd, asking me to go for a "check up". Hmmm...

Today's my papa birthday (Jun Yan too!). Although,
he is always shouting no good reasons..
he always asked me "wad r u cooking for dinner tonight"..
he always snatch my com away..
he always switch the TV channels as n when he likes..
blah x3

But.. he's still my papa lahx. -dUh- Too much to be left unsaid. Afterall his my papa, cannot count his bad here, though its MY blog. heehee. (btw, he's ((very)) petty oki? haha.) God knows and that's sufficient. =) lalala~

I cheered with joy @ | Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Monday, August 14, 2006

Lalala~ Im not going to allow THAT to affect my mood anymore. Im a positive thinker, arent i? LOL. It will be such a waste to use my excessive brain cells by allow myself be bothered by it. heehee.

Any idea what's my favourite movie/book? Hmmm...

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, August 14, 2006

Saturday, August 12, 2006

I dunno wad's wrong. I cant seems to find the right words to describe my thoughts and feelings. I guess my dictionary is too limited for words huh? Feeling so restless yet anxious towards certain things. Make sense? Things are getting out of hand.. Like nothing is in my control. All haywire. And its not going to make me feel any better when pple tell me things like "dont think too much lor.. etc". It only adds on to my load. Of cuz, im glad to know that pple still cares for me.. =) but sometimes things are easier said than done. Pple pays alot of lip service becuz words are cheap. Actions speaks louder than words oki?

I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, August 12, 2006

Friday, August 11, 2006

No. Im not feeling OK now.

I cheered with joy @ | Friday, August 11, 2006

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Oh my tian. I know im super dumb. LOL. U know MSN chat? When the person u're chatting with, goes offline, that person can still receive all the following msg u typed. Like im chatting with A, then A goes offline. But im still continue typing away. The next time when A sign into her account, A will be able to receive the msg that i typed. Make sense? NVM. (Not sure if everyone have this thingy..) Oki, i dint know that MSN got this stupid function lahx. Until just now.. i saw the msg that Andy left for me ysd.. urgh. Becuz i've this weird habit of keeping the conversations after chatting, and will read the whole thing again. Yeah, im THAT dumb. Then i will laugh at myself for all the silly things me and my fren chatted. Worse is, i WILL type down random thoughts on the conversations! Goodness. I will probably go crazy if i dont type down my random thoughts. LOL. So, IF u ever receive such stupid random thoughts of mine, pls dont freak out. They arent meant for you to read into it. Oki, feel free to throw all ur bad eggs and flour on me - in ur dreams.

Anw, today de school celebration is quite entertaining lahx. haha. Took junkloads of pictures with our phones and camera. All the funny pose. Damn funny lahx. haha. Oh yah, i "accidentally" da shan with this guy call Hui Huang. Super LAME, can? LOL.

Just reached home after watching fireworks with my sister. NICE NICE. =D Shldn't dress up nicely if i know everyone is gg to wear until so so sloopy, even when they know they are gg to One Fullerton Hotel. urgh.

Forget and move on? Dream on, darling.

I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Monday, August 07, 2006

Later tonight i will be having nightmares on:

balloons, and more balloons
Penny Lohan trying to kiss me
Shu Yi trying to drive me crazy
the maddness frm both of them
the cam-whoring session
and (WHAT?!) ah-sia-kia?

**Wad on earth does that means? & how do u pronounce it? LOL.

Im dumb

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, August 07, 2006

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Yuppies. I finally got my new, permanent and official num. Yeah, most imptly, its OFFICIAL. Goodness. Yeah, kinda sorry for all the trouble for you to save and change ur phonebook. blah x3. But if you find it VERY troublesome, u can always not save my name and num in ur hp. I dont mind. =) Im not gg ard to tell pple my num le. Too many pple to tell, anw. Plus i dont have everyones' current num. blah x3. Hmmm..

Finally, i wont receive funny calls from some uh.. horrible? pple.

At last.

I cheered with joy @ | Sunday, August 06, 2006

Goodness. Its Sunday afternoon and im at home. WHY man? urgh. I dint overslept for service this morning. Just that my old old fren, Mr Fever, came to "visit" me. COOL eh? But then, im still a happy gurl. My elder brother did something super nice for me. heehee. Ask me if you wanna know. =P

Anw, one auntie comment that both of us must have share a very close relationship. heh. But she dint know the times when we quarrelled and fought over some tiny winy things. She dint know the times when i shouted mean things at my brother. She dint know the times when i slap him on his back for no good reason. blah x3. Yeah, i sounds really bad huh? But how much do you know of the countless time when i cried for him.. the countless time i said those things just becuz i thought i could wake him up frm his dreams.. the countless time i prayed and ask God to forgive him and bring him back to church.. so much more. -sigh-

(I cant help to cry while typing.. becuz no one understands. Only Him.)

I cheered with joy @ | Sunday, August 06, 2006

Friday, August 04, 2006

Yeahness! Its friday! =D Having my OFC lesson now, so might as well blog a lil. heehee

Hmmm.. it will be a lil dumb for you to read my blog if you've no idea wad's gg on. Perhaps those innocent ones would like to click on my frens blog to read instead or better still, go for that red button on the top right hand corner, with a X on it. =D

Uh.. to that particular passer-by: Rmb, it always takes two hands to clap. So i cant be having the secret affair alone. There must be another two persons involved. So if you thinks im having it with you, and not you to me, then maybe you wanna re-phrase ur sentence. LOL. So that makes me a mistress? Oh no. Anw, im only comparing ourseleves with that issue lahx. Dont u freak out when u read this entry. haha.

P/s : Wanna leave me a comment instead of a tag msg? Click onto the entry u wanna comment, on the left hand side that states: Previous posts. Then i presume u'll see that comment box below my entry. =) In my opinion, leaving me a comment is much more sincere. LOL.

I cheered with joy @ | Friday, August 04, 2006

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Random thoughts.

Depression.

I wonder if that word means anything to u. I wonder if u ever "played" with that word on ur frens. Depression, that scary nightmare? Wad does that whole word means to u lahx. *ponders* It doesnt mean when a person is down with depression are wad pple call "siao" or "sheng jing bing". Pple who suffers from depression are merely mentally ill. Just like anyone of us down with a cold. They just need a lil more care and attention frm pple ard them. And its curable, btw. I believe that those who are having problems with these, doesnt want it too. Im sure of that. I know becuz i know wad it feels like. U think its fun to pop in pills daily that gives u shitloads of side effects, just to cure that one depression? Not at all, i say. Depression isnt something to be ashamed of, nor is it a character flaw or a sign of a weak personality. No one with depression can just "snap out of it." You wouldn't ask someone to "snap out of" diabetes or some other illness, and you cannot expect it of a person with depression.
**Learn everything you can about depression. Knowledge is power and contributes to a greater understanding of your loved one.

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I think i failed my part as a fren. Dont ask me why. I dunno how to explain that either. Can someone tell me im simply thinking too much? Tell me if im not making good use of my excessive brain cells.
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Oki, im trying to bring THAT matter into light. LOL. Soon.. time will prove that my fear and worries r rubbish. =D

p/s: the above post is not meant to criticise anyone. Just a Random Thought, randomly with my random brain cells. =)

I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, August 01, 2006