Pleased

The biggest gift to me this yr came from NTU. It was hours ago when I logged into studentlink and saw the grades then stood right before me. It's the kind of grades I yearned for, and worked hard for,but never expected it would be true. Its unbelievable. I logged out. Cleared my internet history.Logged in again to check. I wanted to make sure it was not a dream. I'm really glad that my hardwork paid off. A part of me is aching because I screwed up my fluids, a paper which I believe from the start that I can score, only to feel so lost. The grade I got for that paper is still good and I think I cant complain much actually. Its a gd way to end the yr and I will start the yr with bigger dreams.

Thought of the day

"It matters very little to have a thousand allies, if when you look in the mirror you see an enemy......"

Time

I slack so much that I lost track of time. I thought today was Fri. How could I have thought that its a Fri when its only Wed? I always thought I live in the past, now it seems I'm living in the future.

How did it get so late so soon?

It's night before it's afternoon.

December is here before it's June.

My goodness how the time has flewn.

How did it get so late so soon?

~Dr. Seuss

Time.

DOWN

My holiday mood is gone. Received a bad news today, by none other than the armed forces. 2 wks of ICT in June. Damn it. The thought of it just piss me off. Hair cut inspection, going outfield, having to have no heater, eating cookhouse food, eating combat rations...

NOT AGAIN.

10/12

As I sit watching the rain, I remembered something...

Whether the weather be fine,

Or whether the weather be not,

Whether the weather be cold

Or whether the weather be hot,

We'll weather the weather

Whatever the weather,

Whether we like it or not.

The night traveller

St James do has its allure. In fact, too much for my liking. How long would you expect a bus ride to take from Chinatown to Commonwealth? My ride took 1hr 50 mins. An hour and a half spent in a jam from Brani Gate to Harbour Front. It was such a bad jam that every passenger was asleep on the bus, with me as the watchdog. My eyes look to the left, to the right, up, and then down. 5 mins. 10 mins. 20 mins. God, I see the same sight.

Hols wk 1

One thing about holidays is that if you do not work, it can be hard to think of what to do. Before the hols, I decided that there are 3 things that I should do.

1) Train
2) Read
3) Enjoy

Its been 1 wk since exams ended. 1 wk of slackness. These few days had been spent either going out, (which gets more and more boring as it seems that everything looks the same and there isnt anything that I feel catch my eye. ) or at home playing Warbook and movies from crunchyroll. There is a lag in my connection from 12-1245...which really pissed the hell out of me.
I only ran once since last week, and did not really train. I did not even bother to plan my timetable and also look at what electives are available. The books which I borrowed from library is still at the same page as 3 days ago. This week had been slack but I dont find it enjoyable. It feels as if it had been a long time since i last studied. BUT unfortunately, WX complained just now that his timetable is crap since it contains 3 4aus modules, and almost immediately, the feeling of disappointment, of being drowned came back to me. I did drowned, in Fluids. Maybe even a B+ is far away from me...(touchwood!!!)

Messaged some pple yesterday to ask if they want a gathering. I must have gave them a big surprise, as most replied " HAHA..Since when did u become the organiser?". I knew then, that I had gotten myself into some deep s***. But it does seem that I'm the only one on Earth that has got plenty of time to spend. So well, I'll take the job. If you think that I haven planned anything, sorry to tell u, u're right.

《 楚汉骄雄 》

是时势造英雄， 还是英雄造时势？

是非在时势，公道不再人心？

或许天下真的只能容下一个柱子。。

Confused

Sometimes one word can mean so much. Yet, it can mean so little. It isn't sweet, it isn't curt either.

TIME:1008PM

I've got to complete 2 papers tonight.

"Lately I've been running on faith.. what else can a poor boy do?

23/11

Great hopes make great men.

-- Thomas Fuller (1608-1661) English Historian

终于有喘气的空间

My net is unbelievably laggy today. Loading a page take years...

Finally done with elective. 2 more papers to go.. haven got the motivation to study since I came home hrs ago. Been busy trying to lvl up for warbook. Whacked 8 pple and gained 1 level. Pathetic. My attack doesnt seem to be strong enough. Visionary indeed.

Its back to studies tmr, well hopefully things will turn out fine for me, as in well maintaining my gpa at least. Just received an email with info for registration of sem 2 modules. Thats freaking early. Things are still far from done.

Rantings

I failed to spot an error even though I have 1hr to check. I checked 3 times. Flipping through adding some words, pressing my calculator to double check, triple check. But STILL, I did not spot the stupid error I made! Damn..

我的美梦又再次被打翠。。。

Let optimism lead the way!

Its good to subscribe to websites which send you quotes daily. A day before fluids exam I got one that says 'slight not what is near'. I remember agreeing with it, but only realise the meaning at the end of the exam. I could just focused on notes and not practice papers at all and got a better grade. All because the paper tested on theory and eg from the notes. I got another quote today.

Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence. -- Helen Keller (1880-1968) American Writer

A 4 au paper on Monday morning. Sat 10.15PM now. 4 lecture notes unread, tutorials all not revised. 1/5 papers done. I must be optimistic. If you happen to be reading this and find yourself in similar pile of shit, its good to be optimistic too huh?

Speechless

For once, I think i sufficient reason to rant. How the hell I could screw up on my fluids paper is really something I will ask myself for a long time. Even a simple calculation question that is exactly like a lecture notes eg, I got it wrong. Shit. How I could misintepret another diagram is something I dont understand too. How I could rearrange equations and put plus and minus wrongly. I think its isnt too much for me to curse right now. Damn...

I wonder how badly my GPA will be affected this sem. I really dread to see my results. Haix..Like I told eugene ' can no need to expect a treat from me liao..Im not going to get into deans list'.

Keeping my fingers crossed

The feeling of paranoia always come after a test or exams. The moment I know that I made a mistake, I have a feeling that I made mistakes in other parts too..MOM feels ok yesterday but when I found out a made a stupid error, the fear sets in. An easy paper like this when screwed up, can be really serious.

Ah whatever, whats done is done. Just wanted a place to rant..Fluids paper tmr, Manu tech on Mon and elective on tue.. its gonna be a sleepless wkend.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Haha.. I shall start afresh today.

考试的预言

Recently, I've been thinking of JC days. Perhaps it's because I've been mugging like hell these few days. Maybe Im drained. I can study 14hrs with little breaks on Mon, but today my speed is really slow...those carefree days in JC are gone. I guess the biggest challenge this semester is to defeat myself and going for more than 4.20. I think I worked harder than any sem and well, hopefully I can do it. I know things are tough, but my expectations remain high. Maybe I would need to depend on divine intervention. Anyway, I think it might be sometime after that I will blog. How will things be like say..14 days later?

The march forward

It seems that everyday is a tiring day for me. Lots of work to revise and improve. In fact my first paper is just 1 week away. Most of my papers are crammed together. I've got 4 papers in like well 6 days. I would be able to judge if my target for this semester can be reached on 20th I guess. I dont know how will things be like...Somehow I feel I can be quite prone to silly mistakes. And well, hopefully none of that happens during exams. Time again, doesnt seem to be on my side. Indeed, time never take sides. Another semester is coming to a close. Let it be a beautiful one.

1 more month dudes

An interesting quote i got from viewing webcast

" If your foundation is weak, I kick you break."

After the prof said this, the whole lecture burst out laughing, so did I.

I hope there wont be any mobilisation tmr... I got sooo much to do. I have been very relaxing since tests ended yst. Now, its time to be back again.

Quote

“When all else is lost and gone forever, there is yearning. One of the few welcome lessons age teaches is that only desire trumps time." -- Frazier

在忐忑里期待

I had a hard time with op amps today. The feeling in me now is needless to say, pure nervous. Gd thing the quiz is on thurs, that leaves me with some time. My 01 quiz is on tues, but I haven started even at now (Sat 1830PM). Damn...I must have thought I'm godly in mechanics.
Bullshit. My morale dropped tremendously today, thats obvious if you can solve no shit.I have to rush lots of my 01 by tonight...

The night would be young, wouldnt it?

How will things be?

I've been rather busy the last few days, busy preparing for my 2004 quiz. Everything went well and I was really happy when I saw the A+ after i submitted. The feeling last until someone said " I heard many people scored A+ ". Okie, its time to concentrate on my 01 and 08 quiz next wk. Both are especially important.

Many thoughts filled my mind the last few days, especially these 2 days. Somehow, fate made a fool out of me.

Chicken soup for the 'chickened' student

" Exams can change the fate of your quizzes"

在忐忑里期待

Dread.

I just cant seem to meet my target. Planned to study 10 lectures for 2004 today, and start revising 2001 or finish up the rest of the questions in tut 9. Solid planning, BUT I only managed to revise 04 till lecture 7. How bad things are.

能睡是福

重新开始

Today had been a rather unusual day. Somehow the feeling is different. Suddenly I look forward to school. Suddenly the motivation to hit is back. Suddenly I feel..

突然觉得我已找回自己

败

My test today is disappointing. Extremely disappointed at everything. By the 3rd mcq, I was already stucked. The fourth i guessed. I really need a miracle. I really want to know how I can end all these shit that I'm in. None of my tests are good at all. Though the results are not given, I know myself how badly I've done. Some, I screwed up due to carelessness. Think of the bright side, I might have lost marks, but at least I know the concepts. But there are those which I totally have no idea how to do and this makes me extremely worried. I believe I have put in sufficient effort. In fact, I had thought its alot. The results doesnt seem helpful at all. Hard work gone down the drain. It just doesnt work...

So what must I do to get back what I've lost?? Yeah... probably turn myself into a greater mugger. I think that I haven been a 100% mugger, maybe not even 70%. Period.

I'm not trying to whine, but I desperately need to find the WQ in yr 1. For one, I cant imagine getting less than what I got last year. Yeah..my pride.

What will it be like?

I have no idea. But the feel is coming back.

我到底败给了谁？

Hoping for the very best

I'm praying that everything will be fine tomorrow. I know.. I can't afford to screw things up.

清宫风云

伟大的多尔衮。

Caution, Lust, Caution

Went watch Lust, Caution today. The movie, in my opinion isn't really that fantastic.Its draggy and worst of all the ending kind of sucks. Rather stupid actually. Its more like an art flick, and as all of you should know, its totally censored. Firstly, the theater wasn't packed at all. I think not many people is interested. As I was walking out of the theater, I heard some people commenting on the film. They have the same view as me. Ha.. its just not good at all. The trip however, did relieve some stress for me. I wont really recommend it to others. If you want a good show, Channel U's QING GONG FENG YUN will be ending tommorrow i think. Thats a great show, with the main actor Duo Er Gun performing very well in his role as Prince Regent. A wise one too. Sadly, his love for the Empress stopped him from seizing the throne. Wasted. Is she really worth it? I wonder..

Fallen

I find I can no longer find satisfaction in sch work. Is it because I'm aiming too high or is it because I've weaken. I do not like the idea of weakening. That sounds like hell. The lecturer for my elective finally replied my result fot the quiz...31/35. Dammit. I had stayed for her to go through the quiz and I thought that I would get 33. When I saw 31, I was completely flabbergasted and demoralised. How could I be so chui??? Its not that I think I'm damn good, but why, just why can't I be better? I desperately need to score.

???

How will I be feeling at the end of this yr?

Recess Wk

This recess week gave me some much needed time to catch up. I knew I got alot of things to do, and so I was rather productive at the start of the week. Sadly, I was extremely unproductive yesterday as all I did is to do 1 tutorial which took me around 1hour, after which I 'twang' all the way. I just couldnt find the motivation to carry on. Maybe I was just plain tired. I decided yesterday night that I should wake up early today to study but when the alarm rang today, I told myself that its going to be the last day of waking late, furthermore, it seems I have completed most of the tasks that I set out to accomplish. Well, today just dont seem to be productive so far....

Im now in relax mode, ready to chiong tomorrow when school starts again. Man.. I hate this kind of thinking..

Thoughts

I haven been very productive this week so far, but I did spend alot of time on work. Theres lots to catch up, and I dont know if spending hours reading a chapter is considered productive. MOM tut remains undone. I wonder how I can spend hours reading and still cant do it.

Life's so sian.. and I think the only thing that makes me laugh is when we use the words " strong, kilat, steady pom pi pi " to joke around. One phrase which I think is interesting " Strong man saying strong words". It seems senseless..but i think its funny...haha

Hurdles after hurdles

Finally cleared a doubt which I should have cleared long ago. Emailed my prof and ask him about it..Well if I had asked earlier then things wouldnt be the way it is. It guaranteed that my quiz is gone case though the results wasnt given. Anyway, there's still light at the end of the tunnel. Its just a matter of fighting.. Its well, a great lesson for me.

The pressure still did not drop. There are still tutorials which I cant do decently. I just got stucked a while ago on a tut. Yst I got stucked on another. I know I have been blogging about studies and studies and the stress, but I guess that only shows thats the only thing on my mind. Can I still get the grade that I want? I'm desperate to regain my momentum. I need the push, the motivation, the FIRE.

The 1 wk break is my only chance to get myself back. I will relax and enjoy abit though, but I know whats on my mind.

Persevere

Sometimes you just cannot afford to fail.. Tuesday will be a very important day for me.

Reventon

You know you will attract attention when you drive this..

The Lamborghini Reventon
(Pictures taken fr autoblog)

Look at the tyre!

A nice boot!

I'm in love.

Maybe its wrong to expect success. I practiced hard for my circuits quiz and thought all will be fine. I imagined myself getting an A+. However, it was with sadness that I walked out of the tutorial room. The set I got was I think more difficult than the one my friend got, who had sit beside me. Mine just totally made me pause and think about every concept, the diagram is totally unlike those tutorial ones. The answer I got is wrong, now I'm hoping that my concept is right. The people whom I heard discussing have answers 2.26, 2.5, 3+. Well lets hope that the ans is 2.5, I did not get 2.5, but if the answer is 2.5 then that means I only made a mistake at the last part. If its 2.26, then I'm almost ready bang my head on the wall.

Oh could this happen.. damn.

As my friends who was siting beside me gave high five to celebrate their answers, I can only put on a false appearance, pretending that I wasnt affected at all. Was my concept screwed from the start and I formed the wrong equations? or did I only made the careless mistake at the back? This question remains, but I think I formed the right eqn and only multiplied wrongly at the back..its a difference of maybe 9/10 or 6/10.

I cant help but feel disappointed about myself. My hard work had not paid off again..

I realised that my other modules are lagging. After fluids quiz next wk, I know what I should be doing.

At this point in time, I can only believe. I've fallen, but I will rise again.

Flame on 圣火燃烧

Time flies when its weekend. Before I know it, its sunday and tomorrow will be the start of week 6. 3 tests altogether. I know I must score, sometimes its not just my expectation of myself. C commented last week that 'those people who score well last sem dont seem to be very zai in yr 2.' .... I must be the one then, because my tutorials haven been 5/5. Most of the time I can only do at most 4. Cant really blame him for saying that..

The 3 tests would be extremely important and I must score well. Otherwise, I'll just gotta hide my face. My experience in yr 1 tells me that if you get lousy grades for tests, you can still get an A. This is what happened for my phy and comp. And even if you get 9/10 you may not get an A.

Ok, enough of school work. Its a long time since I went out already since I visit my grandfather on sat now and most people are busier. No one got time to go out anyway. Year 2 and 1.. yr 1 is just so relaxing.

My grandfather is recovering very well. Thats gd and I really thank god for that. He's a blessed man. I hope I am too.

=p haha

站稳

I admit I was a little shocked when I see almost 80% of the class with arms folded, while I was copying the solutions for Circuits. And I copied every one, since my concepts are screwed and I solve no shit. Its week 5, next week would be test week, and pressure is just so immense. So much for a 4.something yr 1 cap, this time I'm in a slump again..

I have to get out of this.

胜

It has been confirmed. I will have test on every day of week 6. How nice. (yea rite..)

I had wanted to be garang and do mechanics tut 5 today, but find myself stucked totally. I just cant understand what was wrong, really fed up. Worst of all, I went my sister's house today before visiting my grandfather, and well half a day gone, I just reached home.

There are alot of things to do this weekend. Otherwise next week I will be in deep shit. Actually Im already in deep shit. REAL deep. Haven started memorising my elective and MP2004, thats hell enough. At least thank goodness, I do have some confidence in fluids and circuits. Not that I'm real 神, but I think I can do more or less..

I find the pressure increasing, with the people around me all so gung ho, tutorials done like lightning. I admit I think it is a little shag for me to visit my grandfather, it takes a long time to travel since he lives in the East. If only I have more time, or can take less sleep..

I know I wont be able to accept failure. Whoever is out there watching over me, show the way..

“The Road goes ever on and on down from the door where it began. Now far ahead the Road has gone, and I must follow, if I can, pursuing it with eager feet, until it joins some larger way where many paths and errands meet. And whither then? I cannot say.” ---Tolkien

My thoughts of the day

I was doing Fluids tut 3 till i got so frustrated when suddenly Class 95 played Timmy T 's Dying inside. Damn nice! Grandfather's condition has gotten better, wanted to go down today but decided that since he has got better, maybe I will go tmr instead. There's just alot of things for me to do. Did fluids tut 2 also, since I could only did 1/5 qns. After looking at the solution, I just felt my concepts are screwed.. They are not really difficult at all..

Went jogging just now, ran at 2.4 pace for 4 rds before I started feeling like vomiting. I ate dinner 10 mins before I went for the run..

Wk 3 is ending.

Faith

Found out that my watch has stopped running. The time shows 11.38.55s on 18th. This means it stopped running on Sat, but I found out only today. Grandpa's condition is not getting better, this and the time..I can only say the watch stopped at the bad time. I know that things are not fine, but I'm keeping hope.

Hoping for the best

Today is a bad day. Firstly, I tried to do 3 Tutorials,Maths,Mechanics and Fluids. Maths was done with alot of things unsure,Mechanics I can only do 2/4 questions and Fluids,I can only do 1. I was already badly demoralised by afternoon, when I received a call from my father that grandpa has been hospitalised. From his tone, I knew it gotta be serious.

When I saw grandpa lying on the bed, still unconcious, with all those equipments, it suddenly dawned on me that I haven been visiting him too frequently when he was well. A sense of regret and shame filled me. When my dad and I entered the room to visit him, we whispered to him to wake up. At that moment, a tear flowed down his right eye. I looked away as I struggled to fight back the tears. Outside, everyone is crying too. I think everyone must be wondering what will eventually happen. He just collapsed suddenly..

I just hope that everything would be fine.

If only

Radar detected a familiar red bag and the engine was rammed. Target was successfully intercepted within 10s. Thump! Thump! The tension was high. The target was logged on, but eventually it managed to sneak away again...

Today morning was great, but I spent the afternoon doing only 2 qns of circuit tut 2. I knew the theory and all, but was careless and so spent a long time thinking what could be wrong. In the end, its just 1 sign that caused all that, and this happened for both qns. KNS. I could have done the 2 qns in 15 mins, but I took 2hrs instead. I had thought this happens only in Computing...

Time flies. Wk 2 is almost gone.

.....

Sometimes its weird. After 6 days of camping in STARS, I got EM104 on sunday. At that instant, I felt like the luckiest guy on Earth, but I also thought carefully if I should drop my HP804. In the end, 6hrs later, I decided that I should drop. And this is after 6 days of camping. I have been slacking, went jogging yesterday evening and did not study much. Just went Lido to watch Bourne. Another day of slacking. Things are not going well, I cant really understand the lectures. Its time I wake up my idea or my 4.1 will be gone forever..

Top on my playlist

张惠妹-如果你也听说

突然发现站了好久

不知道要往哪走

还不想回家的我

再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我

就连我也有听过

我的快乐要被认

可委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落

拿掉防卫剩下什么

为什么脆弱时候想你更多

如果你也听说

有没有想过我

想普通交朋友

还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落

要怎么附和舍不得

又无可奈何

如果你也听说

会不会相信我

对流言会附和

还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多

懂我的人就你一个

想到你想起我

胸口依然温柔

Hell..the difference of yr 2

After 3 days, I still have no luck in STARS. I still cant get EM104, which wx say is damn easy. HP804 is too intellectual for me i think..most likely I will have to mug like hell and SU it. The good thing is I managed to get KC to change all his cores tutorials to mine. I think I did a great job camping, and then call him to change when I see slots.

I dont know if I will get EM104, and if I get it, will it be good? Will I really like it?

My cores are difficult. 1st wk of school is like hell. Tutorials are not easy...

Its 1am Sat. No more Fri. 2 more days and its back to school. 1am and I'm still awake. I have to rush my tutorials...and its only wk 1.

I think I need "Mind Over Stress" more.

LOST

School so far, had been hell. Went school on Monday thinking its a relax day, but found out that there is lab on wk 1. Lab on wk 1..what the hell? Worst..its a proj and it will last 6 weeks. My group have to do something on kinetics of linkages. I think I was blur the whole lesson, just..LOST.

Today was alright..slack day, ended at 1.30pm. Just saw the notes on HP804,coping with cultural transition. No textbks. BUT.. there are many reference bks. Damn..

I'm thinking of changing elective. Sadly, lots of electives has zero slots. In fact, its all that I searched. If I take HP804..I think I will have to SU, and I must get a S. Otherwise, find me a wall.

I just feel so hopeless now. Troubled. By an elective. Sad.

Thou shall not whine.

=)

Went for pool and came back late. Only managed to watch the last 5 mins of Zheng Fen Duo Miao. Sam died after being shot by Feng ZhiWei. I think the last part which shows Sam confessing his love to the noodle stall girl is really touching. He did so while using a blazer to hide his wound, then went to buy flowers for her, but unfortunately never came back. In the end, he died holding the flowers, while the petals spread all over the ground. Kind of bullshit, but its bullshit that is touching what. Haha..

Another nua day

I got 2 job offers today, working from tomorrow to this Friday. I rejected both. Just dont feel like working anymore since school starts next week, and I have nua for the last 2 wks. Suddenly ask me wake up at 6.30 is hell. Wanted to jog just now but it rained, think if the rain stops before 9pm, I'll go jog.

Ubin trip

Went Ubin today, had wanted to go Chek Jawa since there is so much marine life. The last time I went to a mangrove is during J1 and although it is dirty, it is actually quite interesting to see those marine life.

When we reached Changi Jetty, I was really surprised that the whole place is so nice. It used to be some bumboats and we have to walk on the muddy path to board the boat. There are even policemen at the place now. The weather seems very good in the morning when I left house but unfortunately, when we reached Ubin, the rain began coming down. We just rented our bikes. How sway.. In the end we have to cycle in the rain. When we reach Chek Jawa it is still high tide, so there isn't a lot of things to see. Most of the time, its just mudskipper and small crabs. No starfish or whatever, but we saw a jellyfish. Haha.. and the view from the viewing tower is not that nice also. Jason even say this kind of view HDB also can see... After Chek Jawa, we went cycling around the island.

The slopes in Ubin are really steep, most of the time we have to get down and push our bikes. Coming down a slope is really fun and thrilling! There is this super steep and long slope, I decided to get down and push the bike down. I dont want to be another Zhou Chong Ching. On the way back, met Zhen Guo on MRT. Chatted with him, he is really damn zai, take 3 electives last sem and GPA still can 4.something. Lucky he's in EEE. HAHA.. Yeah.. sch is starting next week. After 3 months of break, its schooling again..

I think this trip is so so, not really fantastic, mostly because its high tide and we see nothing much. The cycling part is also boring, like chiong suah in a bike and its damn tiring. When I reach home I was already half dead.

CTSS Gathering

Went Orchard in the afternoon and hell it was raining cats and dogs, really spoil the mood. Met Quan, Wang, Yvonne, Wanting and Phyllis in the evening for dinner at Crystal Jade, then spent the rest of the time talking cock in Mac cafe. WARNING: Mac cafe really sucks. I ordered Latte and guess what? The foam is so thick that I no matter how I stir I can't see any coffee. I ended up using a straw to suck the foam. There isnt any small straw so I have to use the big one which is nicely wrapped. I thought it would be some special looking straw but when I open it, damn it..it's just normal Mac straw. How cheapskate. After sucking the foam I really feel like puking. It just sucks. The foam is 2cm high and the radius of the cup is roughly 3cm, which I think..is really alot of foam. The coffee is just about 1cm in height and it taste like milk, no coffee taste at all... really felt cheated. $3.30 u know.. ended up drinking foam. The gathering was still alright i think, nothing much to say and most of the time just talking cock, but at least it doesnt feel sian at all.

Worst thing of all..my mouse is giving me problems again. The scrollbar just move by itself. UP DOWN UP DOWN..even blogging this is xiong. Have to type fast or the thing will move up and down again. The moment I stop, tts it. Maybe its time to buy a new mouse. Wanted to buy the other time, but just when I decided to buy it suddenly go back to normal, and now its problematic again..Damn it.

I'm glad I managed to reach home at 10.45pm so at least I can watch the last 15 mins of Channel U 10pm show Zheng Fen Duo Miao. Hou WenHua never die, Sam also never die. So why did the Dragon King say one will die? Hou is the bad guy but I think he is the one I like most. Yeah.. I wish that for this show, at least the bad guys will win. What 邪不胜正，so cheesy sia..

I cant stand the scroll bar moving up and down by itself already... shall carry on some other time.

A beautiful and soothing song..

Moon River

Frank Sinatra

Moon River, wider than a mile,

I'm crossing you in style some day.

Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,

wherever you're going I'm going your way.

Two drifters off to see the world.

There's such a lot of world to see.

We're after the same rainbow's end-- waiting 'round the bend,

my huckleberry friend, Moon River and me.

Thoughts..

Fed up with the dirty floor and dust, I decided to do area cleaning today. Suddenly, the feeling of being in the army came back and I did crunches,pushups and lift dumbells when I rest. The end result? I haven seen the house so clean before! haha.. The exercise also reminded me that I haven ran for the last 5 days and so I went for a 4k jog at the track. The first 6 round I tried to run as if I'm taking 2.4k but too bad I did not see the timing. My last lap is the best I think, 2 fellows overtook me at 100m mark, but i sprint the last 200m and overtook them. I was rather surprised that I can still sprint quite well though. My 7th-9th round is slow.. and I think its because of that that my timing for 10 laps is around 26mins...which is SUPER SLOW. Hopefully I can get a Silver before school starts. Damn, I haven booked the date for IPPT yet, and I dont know when I want to take it.

Checked Edventure and found out there is CS802- social issues in science and tech. Its a big surprise because I placed that as my 3rd choice. The print/check sub registered moved it up but it is still under waitlist. So.. did I really get that?? I'm getting confused. Both modules which got moved up are hardcore and need alot of reading, so no matter which one I got, its going to be damn xiong. Anyway, none of what I registered is good, except may be ARE U OKAY which I registered as 4th choice. I just put for fun anyway, since I know even if I put it as 1st choice, there isnt a chance for me. All of cores have appeared on edventure. Hmm..

It gonna be back to sch..

no more sleeping at 2am, waking at 9.30am.

=(

Solved at last

I finally got the time to call Sony regarding the camera utility problem that has pissed me off since weeks ago and I'm so glad that they do have an update for it, which I think indeed solves the problem. The update is at sony asia website while I searched vaio update and sony.com.sg for it. Damn.. a waste of my time. This is just so similar to NTU system. The things are there but you just dont know where to find it.

Called Singapore Mint too and found out that my application for 2 sets of Singapore-Brunei note was approved but somehow I was not informed. Maybe today is indeed my day. Haha.. I shall go tour my village again later,aiming for 20 mins.

Go For Gold

Went to my SACO conductor's wake this afternoon with Ed, Chris and some girls. Its really sad how life can be unpredictable sometimes. When we reached there, the orchestra from RI was playing some tunes. Some of them were crying as they were playing. The conductor is quite a nice guy, I've never seen him scolding anyone even though there are people who turn up once in a blue moon. Rest in peace Mr Yeo, we will always remember you...

And I went running today, initially wanted to run just 6 laps at the track but found no one at the track at all. Maybe its because its a Saturday evening and everyone has gone out or have something to do. There's only a few uncles walking round the track and worst of all there are a group of soccer players on the field. I decided that I should not disgrace myself and ran on the footpaths instead, jogging around Holland V. By the time I reach home, I was all shagged and sweating all over. Its not a very long route and I took around 25 mins. I could run faster definitely, with more practice, I hope I can finish it in 20 mins. I'm not sure if its possible to do it in 15 mins, but well, we'll see..

The tag for IPPT has the words " Go For Gold". One day I hope I will be able to get 400 bucks from Mindef. Its also Ms Ling B day today. Happy B day Ms Ling. =p

Last day at NIE

6 weeks of work at NIE ended today. As a gift, Ms Ling gave me a box of biscuits and a wallet. I'm really glad to receive it, not that i think its a nice gift ( I think that wallet is way too old-fashioned) but its the thought that counts. The Asst Head, Mrs Tok gave the whole team a treat at Swensen's JP. I was really quite shocked that she is so generous. After she told us this good news, Ms Ling came over and asked " Dont know take taxi or bus..I think its bus..she so niao one"... I just smiled, because I know it can't be taxi at all. Few taxis come to NIE and since we have 7 people, we will need 2 cabs. The waiting time and the cost is against everything.

After the meal, Mrs tok even went old chang kee to buy 20 curry puffs for the rest of the people. When we reach back to office, its already 2.15pm--My longest break ever and the best lunch I had. I seldom talk to anyone else in the office, and today is the first time i really talk to them, shaking hands, receiving thanks, asking me to drop by when I have the time etc etc..
I dont think I will drop by anyway, it just seems so weird to do so.

At this moment, I just so glad that days of having to file and file and file and file is over. 3 more weeks to school. I must buck up my running. I'm gunning for a Silver this year, and a Gold next year. haha..

The Queen Of My Heart

Finally I got to shop yesterday, went Bugis and manage to get a Playboy tee. As it was still early after shopping there, we decided to go Queensway since I wanted to see if there are new designs of shoes for Adidas and Asics. It makes this whole thing easier since Guanheng drove his car along. He is not familiar with town and we had a "great" time touring in ochard/bugis area, turning into streets and lanes which cannot get us to where we want. Eventually we did manage to get our ass at Queensway SC. As usual there wasn't many people.

I did find myself liking one shoe though I dont really like the fact that it resembles my old shoe. The old shoe is getting a little like a "skater-shoe", I can make fantastic slides sometimes. Haha..

The Adidas Samba.Similar in design but with better soles. Forest Hills looks nicer, almost irreplacable..

My Queen..The Adidas Forest Hills, Since July 2005

It remains to be seen if I will buy that...but as of now, I'm not really keen..

*Hoping for a new Queen

My laptop's webcam is still problematic, sometimes it just cant initialise and telling me to check if other programmes are running it..

*sianz..

I just cant believe it

I decided to go run today. On the way to the track, I met Shun Qiang and invited him to join me. I knew he would definitely suggest going for some hardcore jog and I was right. My plan of 6 rounds ended up in me running from commonwealth to sunset way and then back to Holland Village. Nevertheless it was a good attempt, I never thought I would run that far. I just cant believe it. Maybe if I'm thinking of avoiding RT, then my best choice is to start running weekly with Shun Qiang. His Commando style running will definitely bring me back to NS days where I can close one eye and yet get Silver. Its pathetic that I have to struggle like hell now and still cant even pass. Really got the "uncle sei".

The feeling after the run is great. I haven feel so refreshed before. In fact, I was yawning like crazy before the run and yet here I am, blogging at 12:13. One day has passed!

Its not exactly a good thing. Gonna do filing. Again...

Life so far..

Life has been monotonous, waking at 645 and rushing to join the 179 queue at around 8 so that I can reach NIE exactly at 830. Do the same old paper work, which is not xiong, but boring since a simple job like filing can mean 300 files.. After work, its back home again.

I haven been training too. I MUST really start running next week or I'll be in deep shit. By July, I must clear my IPPT or should Mindef decides that even students have to go for RT, I will find myself reporting for RT twice per week.

I think the GSS sucks this year, there isn't as hot as the previous years and I dont see any major discounts. On the other hand, Malaysia seems to have hotter sales. I did not go Malaysia but I saw some promotional packages from tour agencies which bring us over to shop...Seems quite good. Okie, definitely better than SG.

A rainy Sat afternoon spoils my mood.. Stucked at home, I think perhaps I should go work out later.

Results

It was a scary moment when I clicked the link, and was really surprised to see that I did not get any C or D. The first thought is.."wah heng sia!". Next I looked carefully at the results and found out I got A- for Computing. Best of all, I got A for Physics 2, which is something I never imagined. There are modules that I really screwed up, like Chemistry and Effective Communication. It seems that many people I know got A for both. Somehow, it seems that I score in modules that people think are hardcore, and get average for modules which I thought I can score.

To end, I'm really thankful that I got above 4 this semester, which is my goal, though I expected effective comm and Chemistry to be my A.

This is great motivation. =p

In Camp Training

After 14 months not booking in into Gedong, tomorrow I will be marching in again. Just finished packing my stuffs and polished my boots, which had turned grey. I had a hard time squeezing my stuffs in, and i realised my field pack has a small hole at the bottom. (Please dont turn into a bigger hole..or my wallet will have a hole too..)

I dont know if we will be able to book out since thurs is vesek day. Hope so, it will be a good break.

Pictures

The village

Outfield?

View from ShiShan Volcanic Cluster

The Buddha statue at Gu Tong Jiao

View from Gu Tong Peak

China Trip

The China trip is one which is quite memorable, but its also one which is "shag". I reached Haikou at around 4.30pm on 17th and from there relatives took us to the village. The journey took about 2 hours and by the time we reached the village(in Kung Po) it is already pitch dark. There was no lighting at all. The road to the village is a muddy one with trees on the sides and that reminds me of NS days. From what my mum described before the trip, I thought its one which is quite accessible, with coffee shops around. She even told me I can go jog in the morning if I want.

What I saw on the first day is really demoralising. Pitch dark outside, and when I entered the room, I saw that there was no bed, no nothing. There is a bed waiting to be fixed, with no mattress. AND there is only ONE. Since my parents will need that, I have no choice but to volunteer sleeping on a bench. Giant spiders are all over the place and I have to kill them with a broom. While doing so, one even drop on me. There's also beetles flying around; I did not sleep at night..I was afraid of spiders dropping onto me. We spent the second night without electricity because of the rain. On this day, I received a message from my sis saying that my tuition teacher in pri sch has passed away. Unable to sleep at night, I thought about those days..

On Sat, we went off to Wen Chang and stayed at a hotel till Mon morning. The relatives who took us around were really nice. They took us to eat at hotels and even drove us around. We did not really shop, and only went to 1 shopping centre in Haikou. The branded stuffs are not cheaper than Singapore and so there is no point buying too. I'm surprised however that there are so many "branded" China brands.

I think we spent quite alot of time travelling. From the village to Wenchang is about 1.5hrs. Wenchang to Haikou another 1.5 hours. During these few days we visit mountains after mountains and the view from the top is really beautiful. This is a totally different feeling than when I was on the road.

The best part of the trip has got to be the warmth shown by our relatives. As most of them speak only Hainanese, I did not talk much to them and only try to understand what they are saying. Life there isn't good at all. Most of them earns 600 yuan per month while the older ones work in farms. I can feel how rough their hands were when I shook hands with them. Most of them seem interested in coming to Singapore and even asked us to introduce people for their daughters.

On Mon afternoon we moved back to the village. There was a scare when it suddenly rained and the electricity was cut off. Fortunally, everything was fine by 7pm. On tuesday we went to a villager's house for lunch. Their house is even more scary than the one we had lived in. No toilets, no light, the rooms are small, the area is full of trees.. Luckily ours is better..haha..

After lunch the villagers chatted among themselves and suddenly they started to quarrel about money. Some bastard had taken the money gained from selling wood and refused to use it to upgrade the house. He even said he had used all the money. 20 000 yuan. Thats quite alot..

Wednesday, the time to return! I woke up at 5am even though I slept at 3am. I couldnt sleep at all that night. When I was about to check in, one relative told me not to bring any gifts when I return the next time. Thing is..I think I wont see them for a long time. My parents and grandparents told me they will only go see the village but not stay there the next time, and who knows when we will go back again? Even our relatives say it will be 几十年 before we go back. Their sincerity really touched me, always trying to ensure we eat well and sleep well even in the village. They also gave us bags of peanuts and honey as gifts. Those peanuts may not mean anything but they painstakingly opened the peanuts one by one until there was 3 bags of nuts.

I dont know when I will see them again, and I can only wish them all the best.

A wonderful song by Julian

At home, nothing to do..

So i went youtube and look at mtv, and I suddenly thought of this song. Its an old song, but its still wonderful.

Zhang Zhiling sang really well..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TdKpjoynYos

祝君好——张智霖

听 你不断呼叫我
划破宁静 我的心下堕
在难过
讲不出 爱没结果口
和唇紧紧闭锁

看
也一话都不说
害怕
连累你一生 日月憾无缺
只差跟你曾遇过
给过你太多波折
宁愿没拥抱
共你可到老
任由你来去自如在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到
他比我好
只望停在远处祝君安好
虽不可亲口细诉

说
太多话我想说
但我还是要哑口道别
任由我
天空海阔流翔去
只要你白似冰雪
宁愿没拥抱
共你可到老
任由你
来去自如在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到他比我好
只望停在远处祝君安好
虽不可亲口细诉
music
宁愿没拥抱共你能够终老
任由你来去自如
在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到他比我好
只望停在远处祝君安好
多么想亲口细诉

~Veni Vidi Vici~

I came, I saw, I conquered.

AC Milan won Manchester United 3-0! It was fantastic play and they have not let their fans down. I'm sure Totti would be glad to hear this.

Avenge Roma!

This man is Ricardo Kaka, AC Milan's only hope of defeating Man United tonight. I'm confident he can.

Charging more for less

My newly bought Sony Vaio FE45 is giving me headache. Damn it, it just cant charge to full, and that I think really sucks. Firstly its stated that the battery can last 2.5 hrs, but guess what amount of time I use to charge the batt? Almost 3hrs. Worst of all, it can only reach about 86%. So, I'm spending more time charging and getting less usage time. This just stinks...

I was thinking of getting a new digital camera and I had decided not to buy one from Sony because I had already spent so much money on that laptop. Now, this battery problem only make me believe that I should not get one from Sony.

I still like the laptop, but it would be good if the battery can behave better. Isn't it?

29/4

I finally got a try of Dragon SS! It was an accurate shot, but the damage is so little and I nearly lost too. I think A Sate is still my best.

Liberated

Exams are finally over! Although I don't think I can score well this semester, its useless to think about it. So.. its time to train up!

Yea..and it shall start tomorrow. Gym and jogging. (Provided I have the strength) =p

Argh...Computing

In another 10 hours time, I will be taking my most feared paper ever--Computing. The one that requires lots of thinking skills and also lots of memory work.

I hope my brain will do me well.

Tots

The examinations are still far from being over, but this hasn't stopped me from thinking about the holidays. As usual, I made certain resolutions. First of all will be my fitness, which is dismal by all standards. I have lots to work on, and I think sit ups and crunches will be top on my list.

I'm not hankering after a hot bod, but meals after meals of 猪脚 has made me more and more pig like in certain ways. Scientists have been inventing durians without smell, perhaps they would do the world a great favour by coming up with pigs without fats. Great idea isn't it?

I think I might even read some stuffs during the break. Studying has made reading a habit, and I kinda miss those days in army when I can just sit around during free time to do some self reading. Maybe I will read some next sem work too.. this sem has been rather..well.. we'll see.

I find it maddening sometimes that I can never meet my own targets. Often I don't even meet 50% of it, and I can only blame it on my weak willpower. I get distracted easily, and though I have great goals, I dont seem to have the motivation to work towards it. So, I guess I will start with running. Running in a way, trains willpower, especially when you haven't ran for a long time, all the more you need discipline. I guess this is something I really need to work on if I would to hope for better grades next semester.

How could I not know the importance of willpower? Anyone who has ran SOC. Its something I think requires not only fitness but mental strength too. I remember those days when I keep failing SOC because I couldn't clear the god damn monkey bar. Sometimes I think it was due to weak willpower that I couldnt do it...anyway thats all in the past.

As for now, my 3 major papers will be next week. So far, I've flunked Maths. Its a really sad case, considering I done so many past year papers. And I think it really feel like shit when you realise that you could have gotta as much marks as even if you did not do any papers at all...
Well...ladies and gentlemens...thats the irony of life. Perhaps, even the misery of life.

No paths are smooth sailing all the time, and perhaps only when we've been on the dark side, do we really realise the importance and virtue of the brighter side.

Omen

In one of the strangest case I've ever seen, 3 pens from my pencil case suddenly spoil just like that. For no apparent reason, and all 3 have got half of the ink left. Perhaps it is trying to tell me something..

For now, the only thing that I think is logical at all is to replace them. I dont have to search far at all since I have lots of pens stockpiled since J2. LoL.. my mum likes to buy there whenever she go to Popular until I have to tell her to stop. I prefer pens with 'feel' nowadays..

Those type that just seems to give you all the inspiration in the world. Or so it seems..

Trojans!!!

It seems that many people's blogs have been hit by trojans. The moment u enter the site, the antivirus pops up warning you of it. So be careful people..

Cultural exchanges

Shali, my tutorial mate from Effective Com asked me a question today.

" Why do Singaporeans study so hard, dont party, and cant even pass with average grades?"

This makes me so ashamed.

Shali: " How's Physics quiz?"
Me: I think its quite difficult..
Shali: Why? I think I get full marks.

Anyway I replied that studying hard doesnt mean getting good grades. This is something I think everyone knows about and has been part of our knowledge since we were young. That question is perhaps something that we ask ourselves sometimes. Why cant we do something right when we practiced hard? The footballer will ask himself why he couldnt play like Beckham though he trains everyday. The musician will ask himself why he couldnt be like Mosart.

But everyone knows, there is something called talent. Brains. Sometimes, you really got to admire those who got talent. The path is there for them to take. Often, commoners like us can only do what society dictates, and hopefully find the right path. Often, we are encouraged to excel and do something special, but then again, its not easy to be that special when you are just a 'commoner'. Luck perhaps do plays a part.

I myself must say that till this point, when I'm turning 22 soon, do not really know what will be ahead of me. Its hard to predict at all. With my shaky results, I might not go into engineering. So what do I do? I dont know.

Its kinda sad.

Down

My prayers have gone unanswered. My hardwork too. I screwed my Physics quiz today. Things are bad.

Tots

After weeks of procrastinating, I finally went to the temple at Bugis to pray. On the way there, I met Derren, he went to pray for luck too.

As much as I do not like to depend on luck, I think I really need it. Somehow I think I need a miracle to get results that are as good as last semester's. Well, I guess I have been blogging too much about all these recently, to the point I think I should stop whining. Disappointing, my revision had been very slow, and it doesnt help that I don't seem to be 'On Fire'. I slept a good deal of the time away this afternoon...

Just finished watching Channel's 5 'A Walk to Remember'. Its an adaptation of Nicholas Sparks' book. I read the book when I was in army and I must say its a nice book. Its the type that really touches you, and that makes him a really good author. His other books were nice too, though some are too mushy for me..

The pace of the show was rather slow, and in a way boring. Well, maybe its because I already know the ending. The last time I have this feeling is when I watch Da Vinci's Code last year. Isnt too fanastic I think. I watch the show while reading Maths notes 1, partial derivatives, and I realise how much I have forgotten. Fancy a 22 year old with brains like that. Pity.

Because of my turtle like revision, I think I will have to go 'on fire' tonight. Dont have much time left..seems that the older I grow, the lesser the time I think I have. Getting busier huh? If only we have 48 hours a day and it'll be good if humans can dont sleep at all. Ha.. I think I wrote something like this before...

Stupid thoughts I have again.

The exam nerves

Its the time of the year again. The feeling has returned. The feeling of being guilty when you slack for even a minute.

A screwed up week

I screwed up by Maths test today, as for Chemistry, I think I did ok, though I guessed some of them. Some how, everyone got almost the same answers. There will be no doubt everyone will score well for Chemistry.

I think its fated that I have to screw up my maths test. While doing questions in the Maths textbook yesterday, I came across a question which I did not know how to do. I asked Eugene but he do not know how to do too. Luck must be on the other side as the question for the test is almost similar to the one which I do not know. I knew straight away I'm in deep trouble. I spent the next few minutes of the quiz doing exactly what I did yesterday, interating round and round. This is really a bad ending.

I remember my last Maths quiz something similar happened, like telling me my Maths is doomed for sure. 'Sway' enough, last year while taking bus to school for Maths Exam, the bus broke down. Worst of all, I did not practice much and the exam turned out to be a flop.

I will be having Computing test tomorrow. One of my worst modules. I screwed 2 tests, and I know its possible I will screw the one tomorrow. Still...I keep my fingers crossed.

2 WKS

And its going to be just 2 weeks soon...

The exam nerves are going again.. hopefully I will be able to knock everything into my head.. So far, I think everything is still okie, except for Computing, in which I flunked every tests. The tutor did not give back the results, but I guess it should be a C. I saw Ashley on the bus yesterday, and he told me that he failed his Computing CA but nonetheless got an A-. So, I do have some hope ah...? Ha..

Strangely, the ankle feel absolutly alright nowadays, and Often I have the desire to go out and run. Too bad this feeling came at a time when my IPPT is over. Haha...thanks for asking Sock Fang! Hmm..this sem flew faster than I thought. Soon, everything will be over! The results though, would be important.

I was speaking to Sam the other day about the effective com project, about how we can work better as a team so that we can hopefully score an A. He told me,' Actually getting B is also okie wad..ok la..maybe to you getting A is important because of your results last sem..but actually I think B i very happy already.' I just feel like giving him a kick in his ass.

To end off..

As usual, so much things to do, so little time.

Time to charge

My group presented effective com today, well, one thing down. Exams will be in 3 weeks. Thats so fast.

Im worried for many modules, even Chemisty. Worst of all, computing. I think I need to find the miracle that was with me last sem. I dont know if I did well in presentation today, but I think I did okie. It was a long long 5 mins.

Yea, I hope everyone else is doing well. Hopefully, I will find the miracle.

TMNT

TMNT opens next friday. I'm really excited about it since I think The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles is really the cartoon that is of my generation. Its not like Batman or Spiderman which is still showing now.

I remember some years ago, I gave my toys to my cousin. I'm not surprised he dont like them. Who still watch Ninja Turtles? I dont think he even know whats Ninja Turtles. People may think that they are just some corny fellows who think they are some kind of Zorro. Now that the movie is coming out, I feel myself missing my Turtles figurines. It may be a cartoon but I think it will still be nice. I like the part when Leonardo shouted to the rest " Attack As One!". I think this is so cool. Haha..

Michelangelo is my favourite character. Too bad he is one relac jack who is just interested in eating pizzas. There is even a part when the rest of the Turtles made some pose, and when its his turn, he fell into the bin. The movie made him so silly.But anyway, he is supposed to be silly.

I've only watched the trailer. Hopefully he will show some fantastic nanchaku skills at the other parts.

Hope i made the right choice

I SU my science or fiction module today. I think many people will think I'm crazy since its a mcq paper. I think maybe I am, but I hope I made the right choice.

The reason why i SU is because there are no tests for this paper, but exam is 100%. I dont know what kind of questions will be set. There are also alot of biosci people in the course. Chances of being killed by them is very high.

I think right now, I can only work hard for my cores, so that I will not regret SUing.

Gangster bird

While surfing national geographic, I came across this bird. This is the 'Gangster bird'. They make others raise their young.

I admire their gangsterism.

My troublesome ankle

It has been 3 weeks since I took the ippt but the pain in my ankle haven gone away. Even when I walk, I can feel the pain. Its worst when I climb stairs. Damn..the old injury is back.

I might go see the doctor, but its gonna be expensive. Right now, i'm in a dilema. I want to downgrade, but I dont want to be injured. I think if I can downgrade, that means my leg is really gone case. KO at 22 is a shit thing. Even if I downgrade, I might end up being a storeman which really sucks.

I hope everything will be fine.

The pit

I failed my first IPPT, and its all because of SBJ. I guessed I will fail before I take the test because I knew my running just can't make it at all. Sadly, I passed my running and failed my SBJ instead. I think I was just lucky that I manage to pass running anyway. The passing time was 12.20 and I got 12.19. Although its a lucky pass, I'm still glad I did make it. At least I carried on running even when I was panting like shit. Its also good that I thought my SBJ could get me a pass, otherwise I wouldnt have ran so hard at all.

I think I will take my IPPT again 2 or 3 weeks later. Hopefully I can get a Silver this time. I think its not that difficult. 1219 and 1139 is quite close, and if i train my SBJ everyday, I should be able to get 225cm.

Yesterday is a shit day. 25/2 has come.

Better be good.

Bidding gdbye

3 days passed just like that.

Its time to wake up from LaLa Land.

You took my heart away

She broke my heart today--that woman, Meena.

I need luck

Next week would be hell week. There is Physics quiz tmr, and Computing quiz on Wed. Both are important tests which I cannot flunk. I will be getting back my Effective Com assignment tmr, hopefully its a good grade.

Before I know it, its CNY next week. I haven gotten any clothes yet. Looks like I dont seem very excited about the CNY at all. Maybe it is.

Hopefully I can do well for my tests and then, thurs and fri would be shopping spree for me!

I think the only thing I look forward to about CNY is that I get to see my relatives. Its sad to say that I only get to see them once a year. Because of this, I often dont know what we can talk about when we see each other. Keeping quiet would be too unfriendly. I tried to join in by playing poker with my cousins last year, and they felt that I look as if I'm thinking very hard when I playing, like some 赌神。Each game is 2 bucks, a noob like me of cause must think! Overall, I think I 2 bucks. Initally I won quite frequently, but still lost in the end. So 十赌九输 is true huh?

Some profound language

明，英，安，正，快，本，和，计，想，力，信，工

PERFUME

How do you capture scent?

My idol

My father told me he met my Art teacher and my teacher had asked if I was studying in Uni now. So, he do remember. Maybe its wasn't me that he remembered, it has to be. He could not recognise me when I saw him the last time. Sinfully, I did not greet him. I watch as he pass me by, walking with the same level of confidence that I had been in awe with.

And so my father reminded me of the past. I couldn't remember at what age I started to go Art classes. I think its when I'm in K2. I used to like going for Art, because not only can I go there to play with the other kids, especially the sweet girl, but also have fun with drawing. The drawings would be submitted and then graded. Most of the time, I get about 70. Sometimes, I would get 80. Maybe thats when I'm on form. But, I would be extremely happy whenever this happen and I would show that to the malay guy who always like to compare with me. " Oei, you balek kampong la u..draw so lousy. nv listen to teacher rite..". Those were the days.

The town council used to organised drawing competitions too. I think I get the trophy everytime I participated. Its not because I'm pro, but because the judge is my teacher. Although those tropies I got are only consolations, sometimes I think I shouldn't have got it at all. There were others who drew better yet did not get anything.

I hope to see the teacher again, then it will be good if we can have a chat. Haha..

A seemingly bad sign

Everything seems so cranky.

Perhaps faith will make one fine pillow.

IPPT

And finally I booked my ippt. 24/2/07 at 4pm.

Its time to train hard.

rifle cleaning kit

This looks like rifle cleaning kits, isn't it?

A new record!

I completed the expert game in 164s!

That familiar Sight

Renewed.

The birth of eternity? I dont know.

The statue of the shagged

The Shagged

The very last day

Time flies. The school holidays are finally over and tomorrow everything will start again. The feeling is like having to book in to camp after a long weekend. I remember everytime I book in I will walk very slowly, from the bus stop to gate and then to the company line. As I always book in very early, its not surprising that there are no one on the street. This feeling can be quite comforting.

I think I didnt do much during this holiday. I did go gym and jog. The only book I read is John Banville's Eclipse. This book is so chim that I have to read..and read..and read.. and still dont really know what he is saying. Maybe I wasted the holiday.

Soo Xlose

So Close.

Holland RiPper

ThE Holland RiPper