orh orh

its been a long time ever since i came back to this blog.or maybe this blog is meant for myself to see :)

should i say im really happy in heart or really sad ?? im never happy before. or actually i have been too strong that i hide my expression and thoughts well.how ppl treated me.i kept quiet . even im sad or somethin, i feel

as if i dun have the right to bleh it out. my teacher said that im quiet in class.i felt like sayin , it is not a choice to be quiet . if nobody talk to you , how u expect me to be talkative in class?

it is not wad i wanted.. do i have a choice?

do i point at ppl's head and tell them you must be my best friend? i nv did.nor ever expect from anyone

i just hope to stay neutral with everyone.of cos i dun wish ppl come hurting me with their

actions or words, just treat me like a HUMAN. like i say once more. HUMAN!

should i say that im too cheng shu? of cos~ i dun play around.

gossiping is not

showing that ur cheng shu. this just show that ur damn childish.

whatever happens to other ppl around the world doesnt concern them

it is also not up to them to give their comments!

who they are with 'special authority ' to speak ill of ppl?

so wad if is someone you noe?

in short .mind your own business

being serious

one of my principle. cos i believe if your not. this shows only one thing. ur just childish. anyway. is not any emo thing i just that im really upset of some things.but in front of ppl i pretend that im not.and im

very happy.end

2010! tiger year :)

omg omg.is 2010 already.older by a year! yeepi!
though i still have a lot of homework.but im feeling abit excited for the new things ahead.
crapz.i nv do my online homework :((( no more le.no more marks.okay
talking about 2009. just now.this damn bitch said im a dog shit in my ear.
wth? i dun even noe who are u. -.- just becos
u think giving in the route is a big sacrifice.. fuck face ah lian -.-.
if im dog shit.ur cat shit :@
nvm.next.went to watch the old dogs at iluma. how i wish i can have my chance to count down at
marina bay or clarke quay or sentosa.they sound fun :) and 2 days ago.
the lady said this :" kuai dian chao mei nu de" woots
the aunty call me mei nu.quite happy lawls. :))
anyway. i hope to get my wishes going and a new year ahead with lots of shopping :)

Christmaz 25/09

today is the christmaz.and its few days before count down.hahas.
hmm.seen my wishlist? i wan to many things. =(
oh no! im a shopaholic. just that i dun have much money with me.if not i will crazy shopping like
mad.hahas.shopping was the thing tat healed my wound and
thought me about dolling up satisfy my emptiness.
and i match this outfit i hope ur would like it :)

necklace-forever 21
sequin top - cotton onjeans like tights - cotton on5 inches high heels - forever 21

christmaz eve

today i had fun. i went to somerset 313 and den headed to cinelesiure to check out if theres tickets for a movie.
but it was too pack.hahas.so we tried
illuma.and got the 2nd row .piew!* and i saw wee xiang at illuma.
SHIT! gosh.he saw my make up face -_-!
nvm.forget it.next my younger sis came to join us at bugis.den later
we ate at QQ mian! hahas. den after that
to went to the movie.ALVIN and the CHIPMUKS
they were awwsome.hahahahahahha
anyway. thats my eve of the year :)
im so gona buy new clothes and bag pack for next year.i shall have my new years resolution
hmmm..
for next year.

• i do my best for each and everything
  
• enjoy more shopping
• turn up for JJLINS PARTY
• save more money
  

• get 14 and below for o levels

thats all hahas.happy new year everyone :)

why my love?

i m in a relationship .with jonathan.tan our love story begins.
but fate brings us.nono.is me.me.me.
i dun feel loved.nor feel like im dating.how much tears have i dropped for the 3 days of our relationship
believe that no girls can accept their lives to be lonely.accept for being the one who
is giving in and nv give up.is tedious to wait for a sms reply. as a reply.may takes hours.or even a day.
i do not have a choice.but to give in. everytime i think of any romantic things.
it will only become wishes.wishes that are buried in my heart and nv be spoken again
actually.all i wan is just he putting me 1st . thoughtful and loving.
is it really that hard? i dun nid money to be with him.all i just niid is him being my side.
i feel lost when i cant contact him..i feel worried.
how i wish.he would find me always.and not im the one being to tedious
but. wad i say now.seems to be 'air tok'
who cares about me anyway? nobody.i feel so sad.that i feel like crying everynite at my pillow.
i kept thinking about him.but it was no use.would he think about me? i wan love
i wan sumone to love me.love me deeply.think of me.willing to do anything for me
to be exact of wad i say.means that i feel that im the boyfriend and he is the girlfriend
sounds wrong rite? i wan to switch roles!
.kae.i think i better end it here.nites

ahh .gosh

gosh.on monday al they invited me to go with them to kap.(king alberts park..so i went
and i realised that they actually wanted to pretend to friend me. wtf? i dun nid them to pretend..isnt it stupid
to act smart when the secret have already been exposed? -_-! xiu wei still say :" i think she noes,cos she have been cramming all the way..till now...the class is full of politics..they plan how to harm u
and hurt u.for wad? just out of the fun and becos they dun like the person whom nv even
'harm' u b4? gosh..how their parents teach them?
next..samuel lye's problem.wth? lovelle claims to noe him better den i do..
i noe wad kind of person after i told my sister wad he did to me upon our 1st meeting MONTHS AGO.
he actually ran away.. but den he dun even noe who is lovelle cos shes isnt our mutual friend
till one day he added her..he is a SUPERFICIAL GUY i ever since.
further more he is not handsome.he got sum weird character.which i cant stand it
i was just telling lovelle tat he is not a good person.tats all..i dun nid her sarcasm
bitch.so i shall delete my facebook :) end:)

not bad :)

today is like a not bad day :) altough my term 3 and 4 results added up i got 2 F9s and 1D7..i will not give up
today got the commendation service..was like damn jing zhang..i wanted to see JANICE SHEN's
reaction and expression..so i stared at her for like long time..
and den make her feel "diu"
and den ms sheena took photos of me ,al,han nian as we brought glory to her..:)
i hope next yr i can progress and succeed ..
i just realised one secret..i was like omg..it was super unexpected..sarah and that qin wei and in stead?
but i tot qin wei and them like very long nv contact each other le wad..
so weird..he hasnt changed much though..i was wondering when will he wake up and think for his future that
droppin out of school would just cause him to suffer?
even u cant study..u still put in ur best and not drop out..next..i feel that
ppl now are becoming more and more pretentious..
AL was like den obviously fake towards me..
honestly..the way she toks to eleanor or anyone..is more sincere den me..
like sot of the 'bluff bluff ' friend kind..eeeeeeee
i honestly dun like these kind of ppl..eleanor is oso like tat but better den al.
today i was in super bad mood..i wanted to sleep in the afternoon..i slept until 4pm..my mom come
and wake me up and complain -_-! den mediacorp was downstairs shooting..2nd time ..omg
den i went to send my phone for repair..at causeway point ..and oso have dinner..den shop for awhile
den headed home..at last..this week has ended..im feeling damn shag :(
hope tml would be a better day :)